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Or maybe its a panic attack? Or a meltdown? I dont even know but its been on and off over a few days and in the last half hour its come on so fast, increased breathing rate, my head feels heavy, i have a stomach ache, i actually feel like i could cry.

Really struggling with my anxiety these last few days. I dont even know what the trigger is. I wish it would go away.

#autism #neurodivergent #undiagnosed autistic #mental health #actually autistic #anxiety #panic attack #autistic meltdown #what is wrong with me

[simplysurviving89]

Really struggling with my anxiety these last few days. I dont even know what the trigger is. I wish it would go away.

#autism #neurodivergent #undiagnosed autistic #mental health #actually autistic #anxiety

[simplysurviving89]

This week i told myself i was going to do better.

After being diagnosed with depression and anxiety just before christmas i put on a stone in weight. Now that the meds seem to have stabilised me somewhat i need to get my butt in gear and get myself back to a happy weight. The meds havnt been a cure all and i do still feel anxious at times but i also know that i have to do my share if im going to make myself feel better, i have to be proactive. Getting to this frame of mind hasnt been easy and most days i still cant be bothered to do anything but im trying.

So this morning i took my daughter to school, came home and did a 15 minute step aerobic workout, i need to start off steady and build my stamina back up, so doing exercise in short bursts is better than nothing.

Wish me luck 😅

#autism #undiagnosed autistic #mental health #actually autistic #depression #anxiety #weight loss #i wanna lose weight #i need to lose this weight #exercise

[simplysurviving89]

I GOT THEM 😭😭 didnt think i was gonna make it. I got super lucky.

#love and deepspace rafayel #love and deepspace #l&ds #l&ds rafayel

[simplysurviving89]

I wanna go back to bed 😴

I didnt fall asleep until almost 1am and i was up again at 7am. I couldnt find a comfortable position, i could feel every crease in the bed sheets, i was too warm and everything felt wrong.

#autism #neurodivergent #actually autistic #overstimulated #so tired

[simplysurviving89]

Help ive been playing nonstop for 2 days.

Grinding for materials to level up my memories, earning gems to get those wishes, i got right down to 9 wishes and caved and bought the rest 😂

Im also stuck on one of the chapter 6 battles, hence my trying to level up and strengthen my memories.

Also... I shared a pocky stick with xavier 🫠

#love and deepspace #l&ds #l&ds xavier #l&ds rafayel

[simplysurviving89]

EXCUSE ME SIR

#zayne love and deepspace #love and deepspace zayne #love and deepspace

[simplysurviving89]

You telling me i get to just sit and watch them work out for however long i want? HAVE YOU SEEN HIS VEINS!

#love and deepspace #love and deepspace rafayel #rafayel

[simplysurviving89]

Today i got myself one of those tangle fidget toys, im finding when i watch tv im constantly picking up my phone and putting it down, and so im toying with the idea that i may just need something in my hands. Lets see if it makes a difference, would be nice to be able to concentrate fully on a drama im watching 😅

PS: i undid it and now i cant get it back to look like the original picture 😂 but it does feel nice to twist and turn and play around with.

#fidget toys #sensory toys #autism #actually autistic #mental health #neurodiversity #stim toys

[simplysurviving89]

Bingewatching The weakest tamer begins a journey to pick up trash. I wasnt expecting it to be so good 😭

#anime series #anime #the weakest tamer began a journey to pick up trash

[simplysurviving89]

Another bracelet i made, havnt yet learnt how to intertwine three strings together 😅 i like it though, its very me 😂

#taylor swift #eras tour london #eras tour taylor swift #eras tour #friendship bracelets #autism #neurodivergent #actually autistic #dont like crowds #social anxiety #anxiety

[simplysurviving89]

Im told i speak quiet or i mumble, my daughter often tells me i need to talk louder. Then i get annoyed at having to talk louder because it feels like more effort than i have the energy for.

To other autistic people, do you struggle controlling the volume of your voice?

[simplysurviving89]

Just finished my first bingewatch while im off work for a week ... loved it, it was adorable.

#anime series #buddy daddies #anime #bingewatching

[simplysurviving89]

Today i had dental surgery, they had to put me to sleep and drill out my wisdom tooth. When i was coming around from the anaesthetic in the recovery room i was laid down on the bed and everytime i opened my eyes the cieling lights were too damn bright. I couldnt keep my eyes open. I accomodated myself for the first time and asked them to sit me up so i wasnt looking directly at the lights, and i told them they were too bright and annoying. It feels like such a small thing but i was so proud of myself. Before this i would have kept quiet and dealt with it internally.

#autism #neurodivergent #undiagnosed autistic #mental health #actually autistic #sensory issues #bright lights #dental surgery #wisdom tooth extraction

[simplysurviving89]

More bracelet making for the eras tour, i just need to learn how to tie the double strings without the knot showing, its too big to fit through a bead 😅

#taylor swift #eras tour london #eras tour taylor swift #swifties #friendship bracelets #taylornation

[simplysurviving89]

Another muddy walk this morning. Was nice to get out of the house.

#nature #trees #walking in nature #mental health #mental health walk

[simplysurviving89]

Made my first bracelet for the Taylor Swift Eras Tour! I love the simplicity. Im also waiting on more beads being delivered.

#taylor swift #eras tour #eras tour taylor swift #eras tour london #friendship bracelets #taylor swift 1989