sadkid101

[sadkid101]

9 Generation Occult Legacy Challenge by Asphodel Moon! Graphics by me. I tweaked a few of the rules' text to make it fit, so check out the link for the full rules/details.

[sadkid101]

it's been a while, and here I am. I'm so tired of not being able to take care of myself. I'm so tired of hurting the ones I love and not being able to pull my weight. Nothing Is ever clear and nothing makes sense. I just want to curl into a ball and fucking die. I'm so utterly fuckung useless. I can't even look at myself in the mirror anymore. I love my fiance with everything I have in me, and I'm pretty sure he's about to unprepose. Im so totally useless and unloveable and here I am proving the universe right. I just wanna be okay. I don't want to cry silently to myself every night while my fiance lays there and pretends not to hear. I'm so drained and just wanna be okay again. Why can't I be okay.

#bpd #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #bpd meme #bpd stuff #im going to kms #kms #trauma #depersonalization #depersonalisation and derealisation

[sadkid101]

why am I so insecure lol

[sadkid101]

I wish I had someone that loved like I do. I wish someone would love me the way I love them. I show my love and affection as much as I can and I'm ALWAYS fucking there when they need me. But when I need them??? They're off smoking with friends having a great time while I'm sitting here trying not to kill myself. You're supposed to love me. We are getting fucking MARRIED and that's supposed to mean something. Why can't someone overwhelm me with love? Why can't someone go out of their way for me the way I always do for others? I know I work the way I do because I'm sick but like fuck I just want to feel fucking loved and cared for.

[sadkid101]

I'm so fucking sick of ruining everything all the time, I'm trying my best but it's just not enough. I'm not enough. I just wanna be happy, I wanna be healthy, I wanna be home for them. But all I do is stress them out, I can't please them, I can't take care of them like they need and it's eating me alive. I feel like I've destroyed everything. I'm sorry for being so pushy, I know I need to ve patient with you while you're going through all this, it's just hard when you're hurting and you won't tell me why. But I understand that it's hard for you to handle that kind of stuff, I just feel like I'm CONSTANTLY fucking up. I just feel like I can do anything right. I want to be there for you and love you and take care of you and help you, but I know it's hard for you to let people in. It just hurts a bit knowing you don't feel like you can come to me I guess. I just want us to be okay.

[sadkid101]

I'm the most pathetic person I know

#bpd sucks #quiet bpd #bpd meme #bpd stuff #bpd #bpd vent #bpd mood #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #bpd problems

[sadkid101]

I want someone to hit me with a fucking car. I'm so tired. I want to feel like I matter to someone. I want to be a priority for someone. I know it's selfish but fuck I just want to be everything to someone the way they are to me. I'm so tired of trying so hard and getting hardly anything in return. I know I'm just being needy and selfish. But I'm so tired. So drained. I just want them to hold me

#borderline personality problems #borderline thoughts #borderline personality #bpd meme #bpd stuff #bpd #bpd sucks #quiet bpd #bpd fp #bpd favorite person #bpd blog

[sadkid101]

I wanna die

[sadkid101]

I just love knowing the one person I thought cared about me the most, doesn't care about me at all. I've never felt so empty. I've never felt so alone. I think tonight is the night.

[sadkid101]

they are the love of my life. but it's so hard to be the person they want me to be. they want me to be healthy. They want me to be stable. And I'm trying so, so fucking hard. I don't know what they want from me.

#quiet bpd #bpd meme #bpd stuff #bpd #bpd sucks #bpd feels #bpd splitting #bpd things #bpd mood #borderline personality problems #borderline personality #borderline thoughts #i need help

[sadkid101]

I can't figure out what I'm doing wrong.

[sadkid101]

It's so fucking frustrating being absolutely completely in love with someone who doesn't emote at all.

[sadkid101]

I hate absolutely fucking everything. I'm quitting smoking today. Day one. And I'm fucking dying. And my fiance left me on read knowing I'm having a really hard time. Thank you for letting me know how important I am to you. Thank you for showing me how little you care. You can SAY you care all day long, but you have to fucking show me you care. Otherwise it's just fucking words. Words mean absolutely fucking nothing to me anymore. What the fuck. You told me you'd be here for me. You told me you'd help me through this. And here you are, gone, again. Show me you care. Please. I need you to care. Please.

#bpd sucks #quiet bpd #bpd meme #bpd stuff #bpd #bpd feels #bpd splitting #bpd thoughts #borderline personality problems #borderline personality

[sadkid101]

it's our fucking anniversary. one year now and you're off being happy somewhere else. Today was supposed to be our day. Our day to be together uninterrupted and be happy and here I am alone in my bedroom crying because you're not here. What the fuck.

#bpd sucks #quiet bpd #bpd meme #bpd stuff #bpd #bpd mood #bpd splitting #bpd fp #bpd favorite person

[sadkid101]

Someone convince me not to take all my pills. Someone care. Someone give a fuck about me even when it's inconvenient for them. Someone love me unconditionally. Someone care.

#bpd #bpd vent #actually bpd #bpd sucks #quiet bpd #bpd meme #bpd stuff #bpd blog

[sadkid101]

loneliness and anxiety are what rule my life currently

#bpd meme #bpd stuff #bpd #bpd sucks #quiet bpd #living with bpd #actually bpd #bpd favorite person #bpd life #borderline personality #bpd feels #borderline personality problems #borderline personality disorder

[sadkid101]

I'm so fucking lonely. I have nobody. I'm so fucking sad