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renjunvinates · 1 year

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who knows?

memorandum entry 2:

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renjunvinates · 1 year

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i’ve transitioned over to this account, if anyone wants to read these kinds of writings now

loved to my first, but not as my last

memorandum entry 1:

Back in highschool, I had fallen in love with him without knowing. Obviously, at that time we were still young, and dumb teenagers who had dreamt we would be together forever. He believed I was the one, and I had believed he was the one for me. When time had passed while we were together, we had our differences. He was unsure of his future and I wasn’t ready to commit just yet, but that was a lie. I was just afraid of being hurt and heartbroken, and so I let go first, and it was the moment I realized we were bound to hurt each other one way or another.

Truthfully, looking back, I was the one who inflicted most of the pain for the both of us. I hurt him and myself. It was the look in his eyes that gave everything away, the anger in his words, the desperation in his voice, begging and asking why it had to end this way. Despite leaving him and walking away from us, I still loved him even if there was a thought of having no right to love him. A person can’t help but feel what they feel, and for me it was loving him, despite breaking him.

09.2019 - 11:34 AM

“We’ll speak as if it’s our last, and we’ll hug each other as if it’s the end of us, and it’s because it was. Our hands will slowly pull away with the yearning of holding on, and we’ll look at each other understanding it was time to let go,”

People ask how we’re able to determine who our first love is, because your first love is not always your first relationship. This was something people often mistake who their first love was. The first guy I had ever been with, I had assumed he was my first love because he was my first relationship, but it wasn’t until I dated him. I had realized he was my true first love. The amount of love I had felt for him was unbearable, with him or without him, I still loved him.

Everyone has different stories of how they discovered their first love, and for me it was continuously clinging on to the concept of us even when we were broken up, it was the deep affection I had for him with no hatred forming, the thoughts of wishing for his happiness with or without me, and to continue loving him even if the form of love was changing.

11.2020 - 13:00 PM

“Day and night, past and present, together or not, I will never stop loving you in my world,”

They say when you break someone, or they break you, it’s to never go back and continue to move forward, but feelings are hard. It’s the feeling of being comfortable with that person and unwillingly to move on from that, it’s the time you’ve shared with that person that you can’t take back, it’s the memories you’ve formed both good and bad. The love we both believe we deserved. It’s all the above, everything you both have ever experienced together. Regardless of knowing right from wrong, and understanding what was better for me, I still chose the route of continuing to love him and think of him.

08.2021 - 15:20 PM

“With teary eyes and endearment, understanding you were just a person that left a memory full of love and smiles, you were too good to be true,”

No one ever understands a person’s process of how they deal with their break up, if anything, the process of one’s break up is always a blur because we are too scared to look back and relive that moment. Instead we lock it away and feel glad that we’ve moved on from them. The only conclusion that I’ve always found was that time was everything, but time was suffocating. The constant wonders of how long it would take to get over the break up, the thoughts of when I could stop crying over him, the frustration of wanting to stop thinking of him. The questions of how much more time do I have to sacrifice to stop feeling this way, how much longer until this heartache goes away. The truth is, there is no exact answer of how much time could take away from you. Everyone heals and goes at different paces is what I learned, but the ending factor was healing takes time, and time was everything for the road of recovery.

09.2022 - 19:40 PM

“Sometimes I’ll miss you, and sometimes I won’t, but I’ll forever look back and remember that you were my first love and the one that got away,”

There was one saying people believed that was true and it was,

“You can’t be friends with your ex significant other,”

Although there were some truths to this saying, this statement could still be proven wrong if both parties agreed to be friends and ended on good terms. For me, I believed it was possible to be friends with your ex, it just depends on your relationship with them. But he was different, at one point in time, I could not bring myself to be friends with him, because I was still not over us, but he was. I was still in love with him, but he wasn’t. How could I be friends with someone I was still madly in love with? I couldn’t.

It’s hypocritical of me to continue to be in love with him, because I was the one who let go first, I was the one who was waiting for him to leave first, and in the end he did. These were consequences of my actions that I had to bear and face.

People tend to hurt themselves because they’re scared of being hurt by others, but what they never realize is that your worst enemy is yourself. We believe that inflicting pain onto ourselves is easier because we’re able to determine how much pain we can be in, but what we never really think about is how much of a monster our minds can become after the pain.

I never realized how much I loved him until he left and moved on, the constant regret, the non-stop tears falling out of my eyes because he was gone, the consistent anger towards myself because of my cowardly actions, but there was nothing I could do but to move on.

Repressing our emotions, and invalidating our feelings because we belittle ourselves and follow the norm of believing mourning over a breakup is weak and pathetic. We try so hard to pretend and act like we’re fine and follow the saying,

“Fake it, till you make it,”

Sometimes it works, and sometimes it doesn’t but we forget that although there is a norm, we’re not obligated to follow the norm, it’s society that forces us, but it is we, ourselves, who have the power to resist and deny the norm. No one ever said it was easy to resist, and no one ever said it was simple. Breakups were hard, and mourning was painful, but without a doubt people made it seem like breakups and mourning over a relationship was negative and bad.

Truth is, I’ve always thought it was okay to be sad over breakups, it was valid to mourn over a relationship, because after all, you gave a piece of yourself to this person. Whether it be feelings, thoughts, or even something physical, it was something you personally gave to them, and something you could not take back, and something they could not give back. Regardless, if someone were to ever tell you that you’re not allowed to be sad and mourn over a breakup, they are wrong.

Even if we are our own worst enemy, no one knows us better than ourselves. Which is, we have every right to be sad if we feel sad, we have every right to cry if we want to cry, and we have every right to mourn over a loss of a relationship, a significant other, and a person if we feel like it, or want to. It can be tiring to cry, to exert energy into mourning and being upset, but it will always be better than repressing and invalidating your own feelings.

I write this out, as if it’s easy and simple, I talk as if I knew this from the very start, but I am just trial and error. All the things I talk about, and write were things I learned the hard way. Falling in love with him, loving him, leaving him, and moving on was never perfect. The concept of having a first love is unforgettable, from realizing he was my first, to accepting he was my first, to lastly having my form of love change for him; from romantically to platonically.

There was a difference between loving him, and the past tense of I loved him. To my present self, I had loved him despite everything that happened between us, but to my past self, loving him was never, not once regrettable.

11.2022 - 1:31 AM

“He was my first love, but that never meant he was my last love. I’ll love him till the very end of time, but it doesn’t mean we were meant to be together,”

#renridipity #lost memorandum

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renjunvinates · 1 year

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closed acc;

In all honesty, I’ve never thought I’d see the day I close this account. I thought this would be a safe place for me to post my works, but overtime it became draining, and overtime I fell out of kpop... As much as I wanted to continue writing fics for kpop, I could not bring myself to write them anymore.

I have so many idea’s and drabbles written, but to me i’ve always felt like they were not good, or not worthy to be posted. I’ve been on writer’s block for the longest time because every time I sit at my computer and want to write, nothing comes out and I stare at the screen at lost not knowing what to write and where to start. Even if I have so many idea’s stacked and have so much scenarios in my head, writing and executing how I want to express myself is something I’ve always been unhappy about and struggle with.

This account use to bring me a lot of joy, as I came here and interacted with people with the same interest with me, and I was able to read other people’s work that were really amazing, overall, I was so thankful to have this place to express myself and meet new people, but as time passed some creators I knew started going hiatus, and I was falling out of kpop and lost the motivation to write and interact.

So yes, I’ve decided to close this account, I will not delete this account because I think there are some works on this account that i’m proud of and want to look back on. In conclusion, I will not be posting anymore works on this account. I plan on to keep writing and work on my stuff, but I won’t be posting it anymore because it’s no longer kpop related.

With all my heart, I’m so so thankful too meet the people on here, and be able to read their amazing works, and I wouldn’t trade this feeling or experiences for the world because through dark times this website was my savior and helped me through my rough times.

Thank you for following me, and thank you for supporting my writings throughout the years I’ve been on here <4

Goodbye!~

#hjrs.txt #goodbye #closed acc!~

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renjunvinates · 1 year

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after years, it’s finally completed lmao so sorry for the delay, but the series end here

the story of unrequited love masterlist

summary: short series of the brinks of realization of their first love and the strained relationship y/n had caused for it to become unrequited

pairing: han jisung x y/n

genre: only angst, unrequited love au!

status: completed!

1. unrequited love y/n pov

2. unrequited love jisung pov

3. brinks of realization

4. the moment where I realized I was in love with you

5. falling in love with you

6. confrontational talk

7. what’s wrong

8. i promise

9. goodbye han jisung

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renjunvinates · 2 years

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i promise

summary: promises she can’t keep

pairing: han jisung x y/n

genre; angst, unrequited love

01 – 02 – 03 – 04 – 05 – 06 – 07 – 09

masterlist

It was the middle of the night, I was awakened by my phone buzzing. Only to realize it was a phone call from Jisung’s little sister. I picked up the phone and all I could hear was panic from her voice and tears.

“Hello?” I answered.

“(y/n),” She cried.

“What’s wrong? Are you okay? Where are you?”

“I’m in the hospital,”

“Why? What’s wrong, why are you in the hospital,”

“Jisung… he’s in the hospital,”

Keep reading

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renjunvinates · 2 years

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new chapter

the story of unrequited love masterlist

summary: short series of the brinks of realization of their first love and the strained relationship y/n had caused for it to become unrequited

pairing: han jisung x y/n

genre: only angst, unrequited love au!

1. unrequited love y/n pov

2. unrequited love jisung pov

3. brinks of realization

4. the moment where I realized I was in love with you

5. falling in love with you

6. confrontational talk

7. what’s wrong

8. i promise

9. goodbye han jisung

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renjunvinates · 2 years

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goodbye han jisung

summary: a goodbye letter in hopes of finding closure

pairing: han jisung x y/n

genre; angst, unrequited love

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Ever since that day he was declared dead, everything became a blur. All I remember from that day is promising you, promising to myself, promising to the world, to all the gods out there that I would do better, and that I would talk to you, and fix my relationship with you, and be able to talk to you, and be honest with you but in the end you never woke up. There’s so much anger, sadness, and regret, inside me because I was never fully able to express my feelings, I was never able to fix the distance between us, I was never able to have the courage to talk you, and I hate myself for this, because I wish I could tell you, I wish I could’ve fixed my relationship with you.

I wanted to find closure, but It’s hard finding closure in something like this, because there’s so much regret, and even with me expressing my feelings out like this, it’s not the same because you won’t ever reciprocate it back and talk to me.

I can’t stop crying, and I miss you, and I just wished you were still here. I think what hurts the most is hearing from your sister how much you cared about me and how much you were concerned about my life. I can’t stop crying at the fact that in the end you really did care about me, I can’t stop crying at the fact that I could’ve heard this from you or so if I just talked to you and had the courage, I can’t stop crying knowing that I just can’t fix my relationship with you. To be honest with myself and to you even though you’re gone. I’m mad at myself, I’m mad and I hate myself for never fixing our relationship, for never reconciling with you, and for always being stubborn and straining our relationship.

I can’t help but miss you and think about you a lot, but I have to write this letter to you as a closure because that’s maybe the only thing I can do for you and me.

Dear, Han Jisung

There’s so many memories out there for us, certainly ones that we shared together as kids, but none as teens and as adults and I’m sad that I can’t share them with you now that you’re gone. There’s so much more memories I want to share with you, but how can I when you’re gone. All I ever wanted for you was to be happy, and If anything you deserve all the love in the world, and so when you found someone who made you happy, I was so happy for you, I had tears of joy because I could see how happy you were, and how good she was treating you. You really deserve the world, and the love no matter what anyone says you were a good boyfriend till the very end, and you deserved all the love and happiness in the world. Every time, I hear your moments with her, and memories you’ve had from your sister, I remember being happy, and having small tears because seeing you happy meant the world to me.

It was always so crazy to me that you knew so much about my life, it was so crazy that you knew what I was going through, and that you would ask your sister to take care of me, to make sure I was okay, and would always ask her if I was okay, and it hurts me a lot, and brings me to tears because I just want you here so I could tell you how much I care about you and how much you are important to me, but alas I can’t. As I write this letter there’s so much more I could say and express there’s so much more, but I just can’t express how much I regret not fixing this, and how much I miss you, and how I love you, and how much hate I have at me for straining this. I’m writing this in hopes I can find closure. Maybe writing this will give me a little bit of closure, but it takes time to recover and have closure in something that’s not reciprocated back.

I just hope you’re getting all the rest you need, and that you’re happy up there, and that I will visit you a lot and tell you about me more. You’re always going to hold a special place in my heart, and I will always love you and miss you no matter what. Goodbye Han Jisung

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renjunvinates · 2 years

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new chapter

the story of unrequited love masterlist

summary: short series of the brinks of realization of their first love and the strained relationship y/n had caused for it to become unrequited

pairing: han jisung x y/n

genre: only angst, unrequited love au!

1. unrequited love y/n pov

2. unrequited love jisung pov

3. brinks of realization

4. the moment where I realized I was in love with you

5. falling in love with you

6. confrontational talk

7. what’s wrong

8. i promise

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renjunvinates · 2 years

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i promise

summary: promises she can’t keep

pairing: han jisung x y/n

genre; angst, unrequited love

01 -- 02 -- 03 -- 04 -- 05 -- 06 -- 07 -- 09

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It was the middle of the night, I was awakened by my phone buzzing. Only to realize it was a phone call from Jisung’s little sister. I picked up the phone and all I could hear was panic from her voice and tears.

“Hello?” I answered.

“(y/n),” She cried.

“What’s wrong? Are you okay? Where are you?”

“I’m in the hospital,”

“Why? What’s wrong, why are you in the hospital,”

“Jisung… he’s in the hospital,”

“What do you mean? Why is he in the hospital?”

“A truck crashed into him, and he won’t wake up,”

“Stay there, I’ll be there soon”

I jumped out of bed and grabbed whatever clothes I could. I rushed out the door, and rushed to the hospital. As I arrived at the hospital I rushed over to the receptionist asking where Jisung's room was. I rushed over towards the room and opened the door, my eyes widened and tears started to fall out of my eyes. I covered my mouth and my legs felt weak, in the end my legs gave out and I dropped to the floor. Jisung’s sister saw me and ran over to me and hugged me tightly as we both cried in each other's arms.

“(y/n) he won’t wake up, and I don’t know what to do,” She cried.

“What do you mean he won’t wake up,” I panicked

“The doctor said the crash was really bad, he has a low chance of living,”

“No, you’re lying to me, don’t say that to me, you can’t say that to me. He can’t leave, you can’t take him away from me,”

I released myself from Jisung’s little sister hug and ran desperately to Jisung, holding tightly onto his hand.

“That’s not fair. Don’t leave me, don’t leave us, please,” I sobbed and begged.

I held his hand tightly crying, I felt an arm around my back as it gave little reassurances knowing this was the only thing she could do for me as I kept crying and begging to him as if he could hear me and my desperate promises.

“I promise I’ll do better, I promise I’ll talk to you, I promise I’ll fix everything between us, so please, please wake up,” I begged. “You can’t leave yet, not yet, that’s not fair, I didn’t get to tell you I love you, I didn’t get to fix anything. I promise, I promise, I promise, I’ll do better, so please wake up and don’t leave me,”

No matter how many times I promised, and how many times I begged for him to wake up, there was no response. No matter how many desperate promises I made, and holding onto his hand for dear life, there was no movement. I cried and cried and before I knew it the heart monitor beeped and the line went straight.

My hands were shaking and my eyes widened, I desperately grabbed onto his arm and started shaking him.

“Han Jisung, please wake up, don’t leave yet, please wake up. Didn’t I make promises to you, wake up so I can’t fulfill those promises. Jisung please,” I cried and yelled.

As I was screaming and crying for him to wake up, Jisung's sister grabbed a hold of me and pulled me into a hug. I tried to push her off, but she kept hugging me tighter as I cried harder and harder for him, realizing he was never going to come back and that he was gone. She hugged me tight and didn’t let go, as we both mourned over someone we both loved.

The doctor stood there and realized what had happened, he looked at Jisung’s sister and bowed his head.

“Han Jisung declared dead,” The doctor said.

It wasn’t until then his girlfriend walked in and realized she was too late, she came running to him crying her eyes out, desperately grabbing onto him, begging him to not leave her. In so many ways I was able to relate to her, but did I ever have a right to beg for him to stay and love him?

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renjunvinates · 2 years

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the story of unrequited love masterlist

summary: short series of the brinks of realization of their first love and the strained relationship y/n had caused for it to become unrequited

pairing: han jisung x y/n

genre: only angst, unrequited love au!

1. unrequited love y/n pov

2. unrequited love jisung pov

3. brinks of realization

4. the moment where I realized I was in love with you

5. falling in love with you

6. confrontational talk

7. what’s wrong

#updated masterlist #two new chapters

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renjunvinates · 2 years

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what’s wrong

summary: asking what's wrong, and being asked what's wrong was complicated with han jisung

pairing: han jisung x y/n

genre; angst, unrequited love

01 -- 02 -- 03 -- 04 -- 05 -- 06 -- 08 -- 09

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When (y/n) walked out and left, I tried talking to her and asking her what was wrong, but she ignored me and left. I walked inside the house and saw my sister, her eyes looked defeated and she looked like she was about to tear up out of frustration.

“What’s going on, why was (y/n) crying?” I asked.

“Nothing, we just had a small argument, don’t worry about it,” She replied.

“What do you mean don’t worry about it? Everytime I’ve seen her cry, you leave me in the dark and never tell me anything. I have a right to know too!” I shouted.

“Why? Why do you think you have the right Jisung? What is she to you?” She shouted back.

“She’s someone who’s important to me,”

“No Jisung, you know exactly what I mean when I ask you what is she to you,”

“That’s none of your business, she’s just someone I care about alot, and she’s important to me, isn’t that enough?”

“No, it’s not enough, because to her, you are her world, because to her she loves you more than anything, because to her… she would do anything to make you happy,”

“What’s that suppose to mean?”

“Figure it out yourself,” She yelled as she walked towards her room and slammed the door.

I flinched and stood there while silence took over the room after the door slam. What did my sister mean by that? Was she saying (y/n) was in love with me? But that’s impossible, she would never be in love with me, it was obvious with all the avoiding, and ignoring, there was no way she would be in love with me. I walked over to my sister’s door and knocked, asking her if I could come in.

“May I come in?” I asked.

“Yeah you can,” She replied.

I opened the door and saw my sister on her bed, having her knees up to her face with tears. I walked over and sat on the side of the bed.

“I’m sorry for yelling at you,” She apologized.

“It’s okay, you were just upset and angry. Sometimes emotions get the better of us.” I replied.

“I just, I wish (y/n) would be honest with herself and her feelings,”

“Feelings are hard, they’re complicated, and sometimes they’re hard to overcome, just give her time,”

“But she already came to terms with her feelings, so why won’t she just speak of them”

“Everyone is different, we all have different ways to approach our feelings, some people can speak, and some people can’t,”

“I guess you’re right, but I’m just tired of seeing her sad and hurt,”

“Is she… is she in love with me?”

“I can’t answer that”

“Why not?”

“Because those are not my feelings, I may have said things earlier and that was my fault and I’m being hypocritical right now, but I can’t speak anymore about her feelings,”

I sighed and got up from the bed and patted my sister on the head, she looked at me and watched me head towards the door.

“Where are you going?” She asked.

“I’m going for a drive, I’ll be back later,” I replied. “Don’t worry I’ll be back,”

She nodded and I waved goodbye and closed her door. I grabbed my keys and left the house and went towards my car. To be honest I didn’t know where I was going, I just needed a place to think and help calm me down. As I was driving my phone was buzzing and picked up my phone to see who called, it was my girlfriend.

“Hey babe, did you still want to hangout tonight?” She asked.

“Yeah, I’ll be there later. I’m doing something right now, I’ll be there in a few hours,” I replied.

“Sounds great! How was your day?”

“It’s been good, things have been weird and hectic”

“What do you mean?”

“My sister and I got into a mini argument, (y/n) left my house crying, and then my sister said some really weird things to me, and I don’t know”

“What did she say about (y/n)?”

“She said that (y/n) would do anything for me, and that (y/n) loves me, I don’t know if it’s true though,”

“Well… how do you feel about it, do you want her to love you?”

“No, because that would hurt her. I don’t want to hurt her. You know that I was in love with her back then, but I'm in love with you now. Wanting (y/n) to love me would be hurting her since I can’t reciprocate back,”

“I see, thank you for loving me Jisung,”

“You are my girlfriend after all. Listen, I care about (y/n) with my whole heart, and I will always have a lot of love for her, but my love for her, and my love for you is different. The person I want to be with is you,”

After finishing that sentence, everything went black and it crashed.

“Hello? Jisung? Is everything okay? What was that crashing noise?” She asked with a panic tone.

“HAN JISUNG? ANSWER ME! WHAT’S WRONG?” She screamed.

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a/n: I’m going to finish series either today or tomorrow.. in theory...

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the story of unrequited love masterlist

summary: short series of the brinks of realization of their first love and the strained relationship y/n had caused for it to become unrequited

pairing: han jisung x y/n

genre: only angst, unrequited love au!

1. unrequited love y/n pov

2. unrequited love jisung pov

3. brinks of realization

4. the moment where I realized I was in love with you

5. falling in love with you

6. confrontational talk

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confrontational talk

summary: y/n receives a confrontational talk with Jisung’s sister and nothing get’s resolved

pairing: han jisung x y/n

genre; angst, unrequited love

01 -- 02 -- 03 -- 04 -- 05 -- 07 -- 08 -- 09

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Sometimes I wondered, I wondered if it was right to never interact with you, or to never let you go and go after you, but everytime I wondered about those things, I was heartbroken and filled with regret. You really had my heart, and I was in love with you, but in ways I was in denial, I was scared. I was scared of rejection, scared of the thought of loving you, scared of not being good enough.

“y/n, please just listen to me, he does care about you!” His sister said.

“No, it doesn't matter if he cares about me! I can’t fall in love with your brother, I can’t,” I sobbed.

“Why not? Why won’t you let yourself feel loved, why do you go out of your way to sacrifice your feelings, why… why can’t you just give up on the fear of falling in love,” His sister begged.

“You don’t get it. You don’t get that if I could, I would. If I.. If I could open my arms and hug him with no hesitation, I would. If I could openly confess that I’m in love with him, and to him. I WOULD. I REALLY WOULD, but I just can’t,” I yelled as I wiped away the tears from my eyes.

“y/n, if you don’t do something about these feelings, then you’re going to regret it, and you’re going to always feel disappointed and sad. Either you tell him now, or I will,” She said.

“That’s not fair and you know it. My words, my feelings are not for you to speak!” I said.

“Then you speak, you speak your heart out and you tell him how you feel, or else it’s too late,” She said.

“I can’t”

“No, it’s not that you can’t, it’s because you don’t want too,”

“I just, I just don’t know how I could even tell him. He has a girlfriend, and besides he seems happy, why would I want to go and do that to him,”

“I’m not asking you to date Jisung, I’m asking you to please let yourself free and tell him how you really feel. All these feelings, all these thoughts that you’ve held on to, all of these actions you wanted to justify and explain. Tell him, or else you’re never going to feel any better,”

As the argument between Jisung’s sister and I continued, my mind wasn’t budging. I was understanding where his sister was coming from but I was stubborn, scared, nervous, all these feelings kept eating at me and I was too weak to stop it.

“I can’t do this, I can’t tell Jisung I’m in love with him. There’s no point in confessing to him, when he’s with someone else. What if it ruins his relationship with his girlfriend, I can’t do that to her. It’s not fair, and you know it,” I replied.

“You can’t leave it like this forever, you’re going to regret it, and before you know it, it’ll be too late,” She said.

“Then those are the consequences I must suffer from, these are my actions and my thoughts I will have to accept if I regret. I know it won’t be easy to accept, but it’s actions I must own up to,”

“But wouldn’t it be better to not have to face those consequences and tell him, (y/n) please, you know yourself better than anyone else does,”

“I’m sorry, I can’t”

A big sigh released from me and I excused myself from the conversation and left. I greeted his sister goodbye and walked out the door, as I walked out the door tears were bursting. His sister wasn’t wrong, if anything she was right and I was just being a coward with no confidence. I wiped away my tears and before I knew it I accidentally bumped into him and he saw me with my teary eyes and heard my sniffs.

“(y/n)?” Jisung asked. “Are you okay? What’s wrong?”

“Nothing, I gotta go,” I said quickly and left.

Before he could say anything, I left and didn’t bother hearing him out.

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a/n: I know it’s been months, maybe years, but I just I want to finish this story

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hey!

i know you're into anime and I'm trying to get into it as well so whats your favorite animes and your favorite characters from those shows ?? ty hope all is well ❤

I love recommending recs!!

My ult anime is haikyuu!

If you’re into volleyball and sport this is a great anime to watch! It focuses a lot on character development and what it means to be a team which I really love. I love character development it makes me feel some type of way! Almost all character gets their own story and spotlight for the main team focus and it’s just so good! I really recommend it! My favorite character is tetsurou kuroo he is the captain for a team called nekoma! Some other character is kageyama tobio he get insanely amount of character development as well as tsukishima kei! I encourage you to like idk pay attention to some character bc these are my favorites. I think what’s also nice about this series is that majority characters are likable and cute!!!

My second is fruits basket!

If you’re really into broken characters and sad stuff and angst I really recommend you this series. Again with character development is so strong here, this talks about trauma and youth and honestly like life problems and strong stigmas. The remake to this absolutely did a good job portraying many aspects of trauma and how to cope and the characters are so so broken and it’s just so good really recommend!! My favorite character is yuki sohma and momiji sohma!

Third is full metal alchemist brotherhood!

You can watch original! If you want I would say watch it if your interested with the sins lmao they do a good job with character in depth for sins but that’s about it the it original does not followed the story for the manga. So I recommend brotherhood! If you’re into angst and growth and politics and government this one is good. This is a classics of the classics for anime highly recommended! My favorite character is Alphonse Elric and Roy mustang and Riza Hawkeye!!!

#anon #replies #hjrs.txt

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renjunvinates · 3 years

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renjunvinates · 3 years

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Hi how was your day

I wanted to know if unrequited love au is still ongoing or no

it’s going okay, yes it’s still ongoing LOL I just haven’t had time to write and it seems like many people aren’t interested so idk but I’ll keep posting

#anons #replies #unrequited love au

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renjunvinates · 3 years

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