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“You can’t wake up, this is not a dream”

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My lover, my liar.

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last night i got asked out by not one, not two, but zero people

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I wonder whose arms would I run and fall into if I were drunk in a room with everyone I have ever loved.

this becomes almost deeper when you think of non-romantic loves too  (via bl-ossomed)

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#me #girls #girls with tattoos #traditional tattoo #tattooed women #tattooed girl #tattooed girls #makeup #eye makeup #septum #septum piercing #eyebrows #blue eues #blue eyed girl

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Modern Dating

You know, I honestly can't say I've ever had a relationship that didn't make me feel insecure or anxious in some way. There was the triggering relationship I was in for 4 years that lead me to an eating disorder and obsessive working out, the guy who gaslighted me making me feel I was crazy and that every single problem we had was my fault. Making me feel like I had to earn the right to spent time with him. There was the guy who had no self confidence in anything at all, and I felt like I had to take control of the relationship because he just didn't seem to care, and he drank constantly(this coming from a drinker). And then there was the guy who I dated on and off for ten years who was my first love, also making me feel like I needed to earn his time, who ultimately ended our relationship by telling me he didn't actually care about me. There's been guys I've casually dated, met on tinder and hung out with a few times. Some were cool, some I've made friends with, some were more longer term friends with benefits. Some were the worst social encounters I have ever had in my life. What has happened? Why are we like this now? Why is it so hard to find a partner? To me, the goal is ultimately to find my best friend to grow old with. Someone to share experiences through life with. And to be at my bedside when I'm old and unwell. See me through the good times and bad. I want to have someone to share vacations with, wake up with, work together towards common goals. Why is it our generation has such issues with these things? I can't say everyone, obviously. I have friends who have been fortunate enough to find their other halves, and I am very jealous, I can't lie about that. Seeing them take vacations, buy houses, get engaged, get married, and have children. We no longer see the value of working out a relationship when times get rough. We have tinder that makes getting laid as easy as possible. I don't think love, true love, is in the cards for most of us anymore. And it truly breaks my heart.

#opinion #text post #date #dating #tinder #modern #millennial #love #anxiety