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nourishnrecover · 6 days

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It's so hard moving through recovery in this stage.. where everyone thinks I'm better or never struggled, but everyday is full of mental battles. Not throwing up or making myself eat are still the hardest things I do most days.

#ed recovery #<3 #recovery

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nourishnrecover · 8 days

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Therapy session lesson

You don't have to have to constantly be achieving something to be worth anything. You have worth and love.. because you exist. It's okay to just live sometimes

#ed recovery #recovery #<3 #positive reminders #self love #mental health

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nourishnrecover · 23 days

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I had to take one of my as-needed meds last night for the first time in awhile. Trying to stop an anxiety attack over dessert 🥲 I'm proud that I kept it down and didn't completely leave the social event though. Getting better, one breakdown at a time haha

#ed recovery #recovery #ana recovery #<3 #mia recovery

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nourishnrecover · 25 days

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Recovering from an ED has got to be one of the most challenging experiences ever, but one of the most rewarding and powerful choices you can make. The fact you’re putting YOU first for once says a lot. Remember if your eating disorder is angry, you’re winning.

#ed recovery #recovery #ana recovery #your mental health matters #yes #<3

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nourishnrecover · 25 days

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#ed recovery #recovery #<3 #positive affirmations #tumblr polls #poll #tumblr poll #positive reminders #edrecovery #mental health positivity #mental health #self love #affirmations #hopecore

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nourishnrecover · 26 days

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Moving towards recovery from an eating disorder isn't admitting defeat. Signs of recovery are not signs of failure.

You know how school can feel like a choice between shit mental health or shit grades? You try to balance the two, but one always comes out on top. I always prioritized my grades and to be fair that's what we're taught to do, many of us. By our society, parents, the way the system works for those that do/don't, and so on. It feels like the correct decision, the least shameful decision from a window glance.. Recovery feels like that sometimes. As if my eating disorder is a class I'm failing in the name of health.

I'm starting to notice I feel less guilty about my body & all than I did at the start of this but I feel so so ashamed of being "better" or healthier in any way. Like recovering screams "failure!"

This ties to the very things my ED was fueled by to begin with and I know it's the ED trying to hold on to that, to me. The destructive overachieving control seeking overwhelmed with intense emotions person in me. Jeez that's a mouthful 💀

⭐ alright I'll get back to the point of this little journal entry. The part where I talk to myself rather than to the page? You can't fail an eating disorder, an eating disorder makes you fail at living. Our eating disorder had its purpose, sure, but recovery is finding better ways to meet that purpose. Things that are positive to be good at. It won't hurt you to "fail" your eating disorder, that's just it being loud and obnoxious. Screaming, dying, clinging onto you, yeah you get the point. You might feel safer when you listen to that voice, in a multitude of ways even ... but that's the extent of it really. It's not truly safe, and it doesn't add value to the rest of our lives. It DRAINS our life. Our future, energy, health, time, and relationships. These are all examples of things we sacrifice to obey our eating disorder. That sounds like a class you want to drop out of to me.

Being "successful" at an ED is the least profitable thing you could do and getting that "A+" turns out to be dying. So again: Moving towards recovery from an eating disorder isn't admitting defeat. Signs of recovery are not signs of failure. You are restoring yourself and your life. These scary changes are for the better, and worth celebrating 💜

#ed recovery #recovery #ana recovery #<3 #eating disoder recovery #positive reminders #edrecovery #mia recovery #self compassion #self love #nourish your body #body acceptance #mental health #mental health positivity #running out of tags but I love you all you deserve to get better and to allow yourself to celebrate that

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nourishnrecover · 27 days

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I'm allowed to exercise more again !! 🥲

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nourishnrecover · 28 days

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Gaining recovery weight truly feels terrible but it also truly does start to feel less terrifying the further into recovery I go. It does start to feel better more often as you gain your brain and energy back. As you gain your self back..

It doesn't feel okay but it feels that maybe it will be okay

#ed recovery #recovery #ana recovery #mia recovery #<3 #positive thoughts #recovery is not linear but it is worthwhile #almost typed put the situation that led to these thoughts but #I am not feeding the comparison monster 😭

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nourishnrecover · 28 days

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A question to ask time to time

Am I consuming this content, or is my ED consuming this content? Am I seeking content that's not meant for *me*?

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nourishnrecover · 1 month

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all of this 💕

#ed recovery #recovery #pro recovery #ana recovery #<3 #happy easter #easter #positive reminders #Instagram #highly encouraged read

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nourishnrecover · 1 month

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Happy Easter 🐇💜

I don't know how overwhelming it is for you all, but I find it overwhelming and hope we can all get some enjoyment out of the holiday

To contrast what both people at Easter breakfast this morning said 🤦 and my own head with the truth: You do not need to earn food today, or any other day. It's okay to have a chocolate or bigger meal or whatever else. Regardless of your size, the time, what else you've ate, the calories, the nutritional value, exercise, or *anything* else. Your body deserves the fuel. Period.

#ed recovery #recovery #<3 #edrecovery #positive reminders #easter #chocolate #ana recovery #mia recovery #love you all #happy easter

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nourishnrecover · 1 month

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Thinking about some of the triggers I have and justifications my ED has clung to.. One was certainly a sense of safety and home. Familiarity and running from other aspects of my life

Safety never really came from being sick though. Those things didn't really disappear and I was so much MORE miserable when I was at my worst. Recovery is going to be terrifying at first.. or for a while lol.. but being safe is being in a life well lived, well loved. Replacing the coping mechanism that destroyed me, rather than letting sickness remain a romanticized sense of home, is the only way to more lasting peace

Home is better found in genuine love, pursuing goals, and calling my friends up. In morning coffee, with cream when I can make myself get it, in the energy to do things I enjoy, lessons learned in therapy, the softness found in good rest, and so on. Not in my eating disorder.

#ed recovery #recovery #ana recovery #<3 #anarecovery #mia recovery #mental health positivity #healing

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nourishnrecover · 1 month

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#tumblr poll #tumblr polls #love polls #poll #lovecore #positivity #compliment #recovery #hopecore #positive affirmations #affirmations #<3

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nourishnrecover · 2 months

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Sitting through the discomfort of eating sucks

But living with an ed my whole life would suck even more

#this 🥲#tw restrictive ed #ed disorder #ed not ed sheeran #mentally exhausted #ed recovery #recovery #ed not sheeren #edrecovery #eating disorder recovery

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