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Strawberry Full Moon - Lara Cobden , 2020.

British , b. 1971 -

oil on panel , 50 x 40 cm.

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Daydreaming

I have the craziest thoughts sometimes. I think it probably leans itself into my mental health issues I had post partum, but since then I've come to understand and appreciate my imagination.

Recently, I've begun to think harder about why I think the things I think. I'm always in nice homes in my head, imagining a better life for me and my little girl. But, why am I always wearing a long red skirt? Why recently, have I been wearing a leather belt and eating yoghurt? I know, I know, it sounds ridiculous, but when I'm daydreaming, where do those things come from?

Am I just longing for my Gucci belt I've put aside, because it's just not my vibe anymore? Or, has it always been my vibe and I miss it? What do belts symbolise? And why on earth is it always yoghurt?

I think the more I analyse my subconscious, the more I can help myself in the future. Do I need more calcium in my diet, maybe? Perhaps I am starting to crave who I used to be, back when I was in my twenties. I always wore skirts and I loved brown leather.

I think though, deep down, I'm becoming someone new. Or, at least, a newer version of myself. Especially after my health scare, I've changed so much as a person. But as I change and grow, I also want to bring with me little snippets of my youth. The belts, the skirts, the yoghurts (lol) and pehaps my old engagement ring turned into something new.

Who even am I anymore?

It's giving six of cups energy with an ace thrown in for good measure.

#dreaming #dreams #intuition #imagination #spiritual #spiritualism #spirituality #mental health #psychosis #manifest #dreamblr #spiritual journey #land of milk and honey

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"A Shadow moves in the dark... We cannot get out... They are coming."

The Sun reversed and Seven of Wands

It's getting dark. They are coming.

#lotr

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Ok, so this is giving me howl's moving castle vibes. Please tell me there's a ghibli tarot deck.

Page of Pentacles.

She gives hope to those who are lost to darkness. A child of the earth. Adorned with a crown of sunflowers. Her smile soothes, her presence is calming. Dreams are born of her laughter.

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Eight of Cups and Ace of Pentacles

To Whom it May Concern, It is with considerable Regret that I tender my Resignation, but I find myself unable to continue in my current Position. In the Circumstances, I fear that I must pursue an Occupation with a Salary attached, however small that may be, as I have discovered that mere emotional Attachment is insufficient to sustain Life. Yours very sincerely, etc.

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Hell

I've always wondered - does hell exist? Like, really? When we die, do some of us really meet Satan? Or, do we rather experience hell here on earth, and the afterlife is something else entirely.

Because, the afterlife to me, is energy. This life, our human life, can be torture. I look back on my year and a half of mental illness and see that as hell. The torture of my own body turning against itself and causing me agony as I wandered the rooms of my home trying to escape my mortal body, but not being able to/wanting to.

Hell is being locked in a breaking body. It's being trapped in a cage and being poked at with a fiery stick. It's rape. It's kidnap. It's crippling anxiety. It's prolonged and seemingly never-ending torture. Its physical and emotional abuse. That's hell.

I know it's nice (and sometimes needed) to think that when we die we get judgement on what we do on earth. But, what if we don't? What if, instead, we just go back to our makers? The majority of us get to return to whatever source we originated from, and those devils amongst us, who act in apaulling manners, return to the fiery chasm from whence they came (iykyk).

Maybe then, earth needs to be some people's judgement. We need to stand up more and hold the evil accountable, because it's the only time good and evil really coexist together.

I'm not religious, as you can tell. I don't go to Church. It's just some casual thoughts ruminating in my head on a Sunday evening.

#spirituality #religion #theology #religious #spiritualism #spiritual enlightenment #philosophy #hell on earth #heaven and hell #jtolmehome #dark and light #roguelotrquote

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by odwyer_sio9

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Manifest 2024

6 years ago, I put out into the universe that I wanted one thing:

A house with a bath and a garden.

After 1 baby girl, a consequent mental health break, divorce & moving half way across the world home, I finally got what I thought only my ex husband could get for me.

I got a job, used the last of my savings and secured a mortgage. Who says a nutcase single mother can't create a home?

Believe. If I can do it anyone can. Anything really is possible.

Now though, I'm scared to ask the universe for anything. If that's what I had to go through to get my house, then what will I need to go through to get my wardrobe full of Sezane clothes and cupboards full of Maison Flaneur plates?

#manifestation #manifest #law of attraction #abundance #gratitude #heal #mental health #psychosis #actually psychotic #jtolmehome

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If I could do 15 hours, I would.

you are not a bad person to sleep as much as your body, mind and heart requires.

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Lighting the candle of the new year. Wishing everyone a happy and prosperous 2024!

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All 13 full moons of 2023 | by Ivana Fanti, @moonwise8

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God gives you what you can cope with.

Ruth Awad, from “Let me be a lamb in a world that wants my lion”

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Sh2-136, Ghosts of the Cosmos

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Light and darkness  can’t exist  without each-other. Day and night  are born  from their encounter.