mothmadeofmud

[mothmadeofmud]

To a friend, now long gone.

I still think of you sometimes, but I can't seem to remember your face. Everything happened so quickly. I wish I was there for you more when your father passed, but I was still so afraid of my own.

The one night you stayed over and my lamp caught on fire. We called for my dad, but he was already drinking. My brother had to come help us. You were uncomfortable the whole time. I shared a part of my life with you that night that I wish I didn't. You looked at me differently. Slowly pulled away from me. I don't blame you. It's okay.

I became more quiet, and you made friends that weren't on pills. It's okay. It hurt then, but I understand. You were my best friend so I knew it was for the best. They could be there for you.

When I told you CPS was coming, you didn't say much of anything. I didn't know I wouldn't be coming back. My dad threw all my stuff in a trash bag and gave it to my mom. I never came back from spring break.

You texted asking what happened. I told you. You asked what to do with our science fair project. I said you could still do it if you wanted. You didn't. It's okay. You didn't text again after that. I get it. It's okay.

I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you. I'm sorry I became something else. We haven't talked since. In my head, you're still my best friend even though I know I wasn't yours even before I left. And it's okay. I wonder who you are now. I wish I could say I've changed, but I've done nothing but become worse. I miss you, but I really hope your life is exactly how you want it. You were always better than me.

#themudmothspeaks #letters

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João Ruas aka João Paulo Alvares Ruas aka Feral Kid (Brazilian, b. 1981, São Paulo, Brazil) - Dagger, 2023, Mixed Media on Fabriano mounted on Wood

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✨🧚‍♀️ Women as fairies 🧚‍♀️✨

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✨️ I want to swim ✨️

#cottagecore #cottage core #goblincore #meadowcore #farmcore #forest core #fairycore #pastelcore #oceancore #seacore #mermaid #water aesthetic #watercore #naturecore

[mothmadeofmud]

tomorrow……… is august„„„„,?????

its augu…….st?? tomorrW???????????

8th monTH???????? 4 ,more mont hs of 2013?????????????

what??????????????????????????????………………………..

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I'm sure this has been expressed before but, I have never in my life been interested in getting married. HOWEVER!! Boy oh boy, I love hearing women say, "my wife." Instant smile and tears. She has a wife! I could have a wife! Pretty cool.

#themudmothspeaks #lesbian #lgbtq #gay pride #gay #lesbianpride #lgbt representation

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#cottagecore #cottage core #meadowcore #farmcore #goblincore #lovecore #fairycore #pastelcore #periwinkle #oceancore #coquette core #forest core #ethereal aesthetic #water aesthetic #moodboard

[mothmadeofmud]

when gerard way sings "the broken, the beaten, and the damned" and when kermit the frog sings "the lovers, the dreamers, and me" they're talking about the same people btw

[mothmadeofmud]

i would have played pretend on the playground with all of u btw

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“Someday you will be old enough to start reading fairy tales again.” ♡

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#sirencore #etherealcore #ethereal aesthetic #water aesthetic #cottagecore #cottage core #goblincore #meadowcore #farmcore #fairycore #pastelcore #mermaid #seacore #oceancore

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#cottagecore #cottage core #goblincore #meadowcore #farmcore #fairycore #pastelcore #pastel aesthetic #dolletecore #softgirl

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#etherealcore #princesscore #fairycore #ethereal aesthetic #kawaii grunge #softgirl #coquette #dollete aesthetic #soft egirl #soft goth #cottagecore #meadowcore #nymphcore

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My girl when I first brought her home 💖

photography was invented to take pictures of cats

#themudmothspeaks

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~Strawberry Cottagecore~

#cottage core #cottagecore #meadowcore #farmcore #lovecore #aesthetic #strawberry

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#cottagecore #meadowcore #lovecore #etherealcore #watercore #water aesthetic #cottage core #sapphic #lesbian #sapphic aesthetic

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🪻~Dream Home Aesthetic~🪻

#cottage core #cottagecore #goblincore #meadowcore #farmcore #cozycore #lovecore #kawaii #pastelcore #pastel aesthetic #alternative