madeitthisfar-notgivingupnow

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If I just lay here silently, I’ll at least be okay for a few moments ..

#if I’m not saying or doing anything so there’s nothing to regret or analyze #mine #personal #anxiety #anxious #ocd #social anxiety #depression #depressed #sad #self hate #self destruction

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crying over a picture of a dog watching the northern lights

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no self discipline combined with ocd thoughts is not very conducive to success

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The guilt, the embarrassment, the regret, the self hate.. I guess this is my life now.

#literally #I’m not good enough #personal #mine #friends #family #relationship #fiance #guilt #sadnees #mental illness #self destruction #self hate #scars

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i don't understand how i am supposed to live with this profound sadness. to be honest

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suffering from a condition called remembering too much and loving too much and caring too much and

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Or maybe just feel okay for a few seconds..

go outside and sit in the sun, your problems won't disappear but you might gain a little hope

#that’s good too

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When I actually go to therapy that is.

Are you supposed to be anxious every week thinking about going to your therapy appointment?

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U want something and then when u get it it’s like omg………… I’m scared

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you ever have a good time laughing with your friends and think this is it. this is actually the point of it all

#but life still ain’t worth it

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I have no concept of tmi you should tell me everything

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𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬

[madeitthisfar-notgivingupnow]

why am i so insignificant in the lives of those who are yet so significant to mine

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Allergies..

sorry can't talk rn i'm looking up the menu of a restaurant i'm going to in a week