lilmisstrauma

[lilmisstrauma]

So...

I'm back.

After thinking everything was okay. I was okay. When the matter of fact is nothings okay, it may seem that way for a short while but then it all goes back the way it was. With me sitting debating my own existence and sobriety

#mental breakdown #mentally exhausted #mentally fucked #mentally ill #mentally tired #mentally unstable #sorry for being depressing #depressing shit #i just want to sleep #kinda depressing #fuck you #fuck being sick #anxi4ty #drug abuse #bpd problems #bpd blog #depressing post #depressing life #tw depressing thoughts

[lilmisstrauma]

❤: "I want to forgive them"

🧠: "Remember what they did..."

#mental breakdown #mentally exhausted #mentally fucked #mentally ill #mentally tired #mentally unstable #sorry for being depressing #depressing shit #i just want to sleep #kinda depressing #chilhood trauma #trauma #anxi4ty #used and abused #quiet bpd #bpd blog #bpd life #grief cw #griefsucks #i miss u #im unloveable #i wanna disappear #i want to disappear #i want to kms #fuck my life

[lilmisstrauma]

Having no choice in losing your fp is one of the most hardest things to try and understand. The fact there's nothing you can do, you're both hurting because you know they have to move. But moving means they'll meet someone new, new friends, new love, new everything and you'll become a memory, a face in a picture and someone they used to know. Whilst you sit in your room crying, wishing for them to come back and trying to find someone to replace them but deep down always knowing no one will be half the person they are 💔

#bpd life #bpd blog #quiet bpd #bpd problems #bpd favorite person #mental breakdown #mentally exhausted #mentally fucked #mentally ill #mentally tired #mentally unstable #sorry for being depressing #depressing shit #i just want to sleep #kinda depressing #anxi4ty #used and abused #comeback #i miss u #moving #chilhood trauma #i need them

[lilmisstrauma]

"Oh you have tattoos, mental health issues and have to sleep with a stuffies, you must be so kinky"

That might be the case....

But also I'm a person.

A person who enjoys drawing, music, the smell of the air before it rains, the feel of my blanket after a hard day, going to pet shops just to see the animals, walking through woods and listening to nature....

Why don't people get to know me for me and not just what they want from me

#mental breakdown #mentally exhausted #mentally fucked #mentally ill #mentally tired #mentally unstable #sorry for being depressing #depressing shit #i just want to sleep #kinda depressing #used and abused #anxi4ty #chilhood trauma #im unloveable

[lilmisstrauma]

Old Friend

She greeted him like an old friend

No fear in her eyes when he returns

Each time taking someone she loves

Pulling her apart piece by piece

But she can never hate him

Hes comfort

He always comes back

An apologetic look on his face

With each person he takes

Until she no longer cries when he arrives

#grief quotes #stages of grief #griefsucks #griefandloss #grief cw #kinda depressing #mental breakdown #mentally exhausted #mentally fucked #mentally ill #mentally tired #mentally unstable #sorry for being depressing #used and abused #chilhood trauma #depressing shit #i just want to sleep

[lilmisstrauma]

Knowing you're fuckable not loveable...

#mental breakdown #mentally exhausted #mentally fucked #mentally ill #mentally tired #mentally unstable #sorry for being depressing #depressing shit #kinda depressing #im unloveable #used and abused

[lilmisstrauma]

Sleep anxiety...

Lying in bed at night, feeling calm and relaxed. About to fall asleep, but just in that moment the worst feeling of anxiety and on edge just hits you like a brick. So now you just have to lie there wishing for sleep knowing it won't come whilst you try and talk your head out of picking your skin and scratching yourself restlessly

#mental breakdown #mentally exhausted #mentally fucked #mentally ill #mentally tired #mentally unstable #sorry for being depressing #anxi4ty #sleepless #i just want to sleep #trauma #chilhood trauma