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Life Update

Hey, y'all! It's been a while! I don't really have much to report. I have been through some shit since the last time I posted. good and bad.

I don't have a lot to say. I just wanted to come on here and interact with this account.

I have some ideas about what I want to do with my life, but it's been difficult because I've been struggling with dealing with trauma and its effects on my life. Mental illness is serious. Especially when you live in a country where lives are being threatened and taken daily.

its hard to concentrate on having a job and paying bills when its systematically difficult to even buy food and keep a roof over your head.

anyway. I'm gonna try to be on here more now that I have wifi on my laptop.

if you read this, thank you! I hope things are going well for you.

#life update #personal

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put me out of my fucking misery

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know that feeling where you don't want to be alive? where you actually want to die? but you know you'll never actually try to make it happen?

because that's how I feel.

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i assume everyone hates me. because I hate myself.

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Nickname: Mo. Morri.

Zodiac: Libra Sun/Rising. Sagittarius Moon

Height: 5'5.5"/165cm

Hogwarts House: Slytherin

Last thing I Googled: Walgreens hours

Song stuck in my head: a TikTok song

Number of Followers: 430

Hours of sleep: 7

Lucky Number: anything that is multiples of 5 or even numbers

Dream Job: Right now? Death Doula

Currently Wearing: Pajamas

Favorite Song: I can't choose just one

Favorite Instrument: Depends on my mood. But usually string instruments.

Aesthetic: Eclectic

Favorite Author: Caitlin Doughty

Random: I am a Queer Non-Binary Satanist Witch

tagged by the lovely @marculees thanks!

Nickname: Wren, little bird, bun bun, witchy wren

Zodiac: Taurus sun, cancer moon, Gemini rising

Height: 5’3

Hogwarts house: hufflepuff

Last thing I googled: sukhumvit swimming lyrics

Song stuck in my head: “in my head” but the punk goes pop cover lol

Number of followers: 388

Hours of sleep: last night? Like 6

Lucky number: uhhh idk if I have one lol

Dream job: art teacher

Currently wearing: black leggings and a navy tank top

Favorite song: I couldn’t possibly choose just one but a song I’ve been listening to a lot recently is Flower Rock by FTIsland

Favorite instrument: to listen to? Guitar. To play? Drums haha

Aesthetic: most days I’m all dark colors, piercings, and rock music; some days I’m rainbow pastels and fluffy bunnies, know what I mean?

Favorite author: I don’t really have one tbh I just kinda read lol

Random: I can tie a cherry stem with my tongue, I can say the alphabet backwards, I can touch my nose with my tongue, and I can pick up small objects with my toes!

tagging @rushifer @stray-but-okay @shoustar @teambigmantiddie @kihyunspanda

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It's called Peachy Ki. Light and fruity with a tinge of mint and rose.

Thanks for tagging me @marculees to make drinks based on my blogs! I only have one active blog rn bc I’m disorganized these days lol I used to have three.

My blog theme is black and white and grey so I had to find a way to add a pop of color so the drink didn’t look boring lol tbh I could have included more dark colors but oh well.

So this is the Pouty Channie! I imagine it has a light and sweet taste, but it definitely has vodka in it haha

Tagging: @rushifer @shoustar @teambigmantiddie @kihyunspanda and anyone else who might want to!

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HEY Y'ALL!

Idk if anyone will see this. But I am struggling financially right now, so I would love to do some tarot readings for my followers and mutuals! (Or anyone who sees this!)

If you are interested, please send me a message!

#tarot reading #tarot #oracle #divination

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kihyun // gambler mv 💰

#monsta x #kihyun #ult #bias #he's dangerous.

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HANBIN'S FIRST SOLO ALBUM DETAILS

#GREAT #now i have to spend money #but I'll do what it takes to support that man #ikon #hanbin #b.i

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#a sweet boy #bts #jimin #chim #moochi

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I have this intense feeling I should do something, but I don't know what it is.

I've been going back and forth on different apps on my phone and I just feel empty.

I haven't been getting any actual rest while sleeping and I can't actually do anything to change that. I've tried meditations, sleep sounds, etc. When I get home, I'm so exhausted that I end up falling asleep and then wake up after an hour and I'm up until 3 am. And if I stay awake, I still don't fall asleep until like 3. So I can't win.

I'm stressed, but not. I feel like I'm going nuts.

I had some good tarot readings today and it felt good. But the people coming into the shop drain my energy. And I'm not sure how to stop it.

I need to do more to actually get into doing witchcraft, and someone suggested starting with protection because that's what they wish they'd known how to do.

I'm just blabbering, so I'm gonna stop here and try to sleep.

#notkpop #personal #beginner witch #witchcraft #mental health

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tuesday tyongday ♡

#the cutest boy #nct #superm #taeyong

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It has been SO long since I've actually posted something on here that wasn't just a reblog. I don't even get on here that much anymore. I spend so much time on Facebook and TikTok. Lol.

Now that I have a job that I don't hate, I am doing so much better.

But today, I feel just a little bit more lonely than usual. I keep having dreams about dating my friends and that is a bit annoying. I love my friends, but I wish that was not happening. Lol.

Why can't I have more kpop dreams?

Anyway. I doubt anyone will see this, but here it is. And I may end up making more posts like this, but idk.

To my mutuals and followers, I hope you're doing well!

#mythoughts #notkpop

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attractive photographer 🐹

#i just wanna know #WHY IS HE SO BEAUTIFUL?? #monsta x #kihyun #hamster #ult #bias

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가요대축제 OUT + LAST PIECE : Jackson

(cr.)

#i love this man a bunch #like buckets and buckets #got7 #team wang #wang puppy #jackson #puppy

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I'll tag @wonhoslittledevil

I’m a Barbie Girl

I was tagged by the homies @imagineredwood and @woahitslucyylu. Thanks chicas, this was super fun!

Make yourself a Barbie too!

Tagging @irrelevantwriter @thesewickedhands @cockslut-padalecki @letsby @imtherain @starrynite7114 @thesandbeneathmytoes

#tagged

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#hyunjin is so prettyyyyyy #stray kids #skz #hyunjin #seungmin #minho #jeongin