jesterthebestsir

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my finger is sore as hell man i so happy that this wasn't my good hand

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I HATE how people just smother random sticky shit on doorknobs and leaving ME to find them and touch them and freak out because now there's germs spreading all over my fingers and hand and body and I hate it and the only way to get rid of it is to cut the place where it was and I already did that but I missed so I cut it again and it worked for a bit but now my brain is screaming that it's not gone and that I need to get in between the two cuts so that it can go away

#jestertalks #self h@rm #i need to cvt #i can still feel the imprint #im writing this so i can put it off for a bit #but i know im going to do it the moment this goes up #i tried hand sanitizer but it was just as gross #i hate school

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It's all fun and games until I write your name on my wall with my blood

#jestertalks #lovesick #obsession #obsessive love #obsessive thoughts #yancore #yanblr #yandere

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I want to contact her so so badly but I can't because I know my intentions

#jestertalks #self awareness

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I should've cherished you longer

#jestertalks #she was awful but perfect for me

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Gordon Ramsay WOULDN'T beat my ass if he saw the burger I just cook

Gordon Ramsay would beat my ass if he saw the burger I just cooked

#jestertalks #i got better guys #that shit WASN'T raw as hell #i got character development

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Intro Post:

No dni I block whoever whenever

This blog isn't limited to one single thing as I use it to vent my thoughts but here are some Trigger Warnings:

Obsessive Thoughts Talks of stalking Talks of self harm/suicide Talks of murder Talks of toxic "relationships" (anything to do with her)

If you don't like this subject matter, please block me Anons: 🐁

pls spam my inbox, i'm dying out here

I'm Jester! I'm 16 and use he/it pronouns

I do cool guy stuff like:

Write

Talk about how I fumbled the bag with a 10/10 despite the fact that she's literally 21 now (her)

I ate raw hamburger once :(

idk i just talk about whatever i want

#intro post #blog intro #blog info #blog index

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if they leave me i'm actually done for

#jestertalks #i would only depend on fiction and that's not good

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I wanna write until my hands fall off

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Pretty please? My inbox is a desert right now and Jester's bored!

I NEED POSSESIVE ASKS IN MY INBOX >:(

#jesterreblogs #come out come out wherever you are #i'm ignoring my homework rn

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The masculine urge to break someone in to the point where they can only rely on you

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I don't even think I love her, I love what she represents;

Peace, Nostalgia, Youth, Friendship, Naivety, Pureness, everything NICE and SWEET and GOOD about life that I once had, but now can never get back because I'm disgusting, quiet, and have a distrust towards the world because it's just as gross.

If I actually had her tied up and helpless, I would get bored of her and kill her

#jestertalks #yancore #yandere #lovesick #obsession #obsessive love #obsessive thoughts #obslove #self awareness #i hate her #but i love what she could do for me

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y'all don't fw my hyperfixation like i do

#jestertalks #hyperfixation #if you say you do i will fucking dox you (JOKE!!!!) #no but really

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I think the worst part is that I could have had her.

I could be talking to her right now, saying 'I love you', drawing each word out because I'm not used to saying it.

I could be playing games with her, awkwardly laughing as I mess up something I've done a billion times because I'm nervous

I could be drawing her, writing about her, thinking about her...

but no

She had to be taken away from me and now, years later, I'm desperate to find someone to replace her.

To replace how she talks to me

To replace how she acts towards me

To replace everything about her

#jestertalks #lovesick #obsession #obsessive love #obsessive thoughts #desperate #obslove #i hate her

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Oh WOW that really worked! (i think)

Hello Lurkers, welcome to the light!

I wonder if there's anyone stalking my blog.

They see every single post as soon as it comes out, has me bookmarked on their device, and checks up on my blog every couple hours to see if I posted something new...

but they don't do anything; like, reblog, or follow me. They just watch from afar.

I love, but also hate people like this

Won't you show me you're there? Jester doesn't bite!

#jesterreblogs #Come on Lurkers #Jester will welcome you with open arms

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She can fix me

#jestertalks #lovesick #obsession #obsessive love #obsessive thoughts

[jesterthebestsir]

I wonder if there's anyone stalking my blog.

They see every single post as soon as it comes out, has me bookmarked on their device, and checks up on my blog every couple hours to see if I posted something new...

but they don't do anything; like, reblog, or follow me. They just watch from afar.

I love, but also hate people like this

Won't you show me you're there? Jester doesn't bite!

#jestertalks #lovesick #obsession #obsessive love #obsessive thoughts #desperate