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Thinking about removing Tumblr... I don't really use it much if at all anymore. 🤔

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Sometimes... I just don't know.

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What in the world!! Are there only kids on spoon? My friend has not informed me of this .. but sooooo many kidssss...

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So I am trying spoon... If you want to hear my dorky voice then here is a link... Beware it is a bit heavy so far but I will add more to it tomorrow hopefully happier.

I found this amazing streamer on Spoon (audio live streaming app).

You gotta check them out: Isaren

https://spoon.onelink.me/Uuzo/a872d6ff

#spoon #blogger #journal #my journal #my life #random thoughts #pondering #cant sleep so i post too much #avoid adulting #too old for this shit #deep things #thoughts #i try my best #why not #dark thoughts #i warned you

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We went hiking well I guess technically yesterday lol .. my friend says I should try voice blogging on spoon... Anyone ever tried the app?

#random thoughts #pondering #cant sleep so i post too much #hiking #natureisamazing

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My roses 💛💛

#random thoughts #roses #flowers

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If you like I am on Twitter but shhhh my Tumblr is a secret from people I know.

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Welp... Today I have a killer headache but I am going to do adult things!! Well not really but I am going to the DMV once again hoping all the forms will be done! I am just waiting for a call. Then I have to get a vase for the roses my dad bought me 💛 I love him so much but there are so many issues from the past with him that try as I might I can't forget some words. It hurts a lot when your dad says you are a wh***. I still want to cry just thinking about it all those years back... A few years ago I brought it up joking around but in all seriousness he still wouldn't take it back ... In the end I know his culture growing up was different but words hurt and they fester. Idk... BUT moving on lol then I have to go past the pharmacy and then come home hopefully!! I don't want to adult and I know the DMV is going to be atrocious! Ugh 😫 I will take a picture of my flowers later and share it 💛

#random thoughts #avoid adulting #coloring #avoiding my real issues #daddy issues #waiting in line is the worst #anxitey #anxious

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When you are being harryassed by a silkie Weiner dog 🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️ 🐕 I'm going to start back at the gym tomorrow... 😅 I was thinking though... I have had anti-romantic stuck in my head by txt and wondered what exactly does that entail... So I looked it up... I fear I am a anti romantic who is in love with the thought of romance 🤷‍♀️🤯

#anti romantic #in love with the thought #random thoughts #pondering #cant sleep so i post too much #avoiding my real issues #silkie weiner #just going to read #forgetting life for a book #trashy romances are best #txt #tomorrow x together #kpop

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— Sunrise, by Louise Glück

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These stupid dramas have me all up in my feels... I should just hush it and watch some good ol horror movies 😅🤷‍♀️

#random thoughts

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Do you ever feel like damaged goods? I can't help but wonder... If things were .. different. If I'd ... Thought different... Hung out .. different... Felt... Different. Why did I need to be loved so damn very much? Why did I throw something away... Why didn't I value myself.. .. more

#random thoughts #i... i just... #i wish things were different

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So yesterday I heard someone knock on my backdoor late... I am convincing myself it was just a bird. They have flew into my windows before although never into the backdoor 🤷‍♀️

#random thoughts

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Curse viki pass now I'm all in my feels 😭😭😭

#random thoughts #kdrama #i married the anti fan #i bawled my eyes out #whyyyyy #ugly crying #ugly cries #filter cause the real is horrifying

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Well today I feel like crap lol... I have no one to blame but myself for starting the anti-fan kdrama 🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️ I regret nothing!!! 😇 I still have like 5 or 6 more ep left I knew I had no self control when it comes to kdramas but we'll here I am... Half dead running on a hour of sleep heh....

#i married the anti fan #kdrama #random thoughts #i should have known better #no self control #viki pass is going to be the end of me #i wont pay for netflix but I will pay for viki #avoid adulting

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Well tonight I was going to talk about my attempted kidnapping? Not sure really what else to call it I was 14 at the time... But instead I am going to talk about a incident today. You see my parents live across the driveway from my place. I have a very long side yard it goes about 2acres which a large part is mowed down. This morning I go next door like every other morning to have coffee with my mom. She lifts her shirt and shows me she is packing and I was like greaaaat mom are you getting in touch with your cowgirl life? But apparently there had been a person in the far back part of my side yard... Now let me explain rail road tracks run along one side and a at least 10ft fence along the other... She said by the time she had went back in for her gun (we don't live in that great of a city outskirts) the person was gone. I have locked my cars up and my doors windows etc. As have they. But what bugs me is there isn't a house near us besides each other for around a mile... Idk it's something for me to think on and be cautious of as well as keep my eyes and ears open. I have also turned on my motion sensor lights and set my ferocious silky Weiner dog to attack mode... If she wakes up 🤦‍♀️ hard of hearing 🤷‍♀️😅 but one last note... Lastnight I had heard knocking on the side of my house... I thought it was just another cat vrs possum fight 😒 but maybe not...

#paranoia will kill me #you'd be paranoid too #random thoughts #daily blog #grandmas packin