ilovelawrencee

[ilovelawrencee]

lawrence: "show me again... now..."

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that's NOT sammy lawrence from batim.

#boyfriend to death #btd fanart #btd lawrence #lawrence oleander #self ship #my art

[ilovelawrencee]

// vent post.

i just don't know what else to do. I just wanted to live alone. I just wanted to go a whole day without crying or feeling scared. living close to my mother is hell. Hearing her scream scares me. and the worst of all is that I'm stupid and I can't do anything alone. so I can't even live alone.

i just hate being alive. living should be a choice. because I've already decided that I don't want to live. then people could just accept that I don't want to be alive anymore and allow myself to die. because I'm tired. I'm tired of this hell.

#Is that what being autistic and depressed means? Do you want to die every day? #thanks for fucking with my head mom #I would rather be a child again #living shouldn't hurt so much #living should be something beautiful and satisfying so why can't I just have it? #I'm tired of trying to understand my life #I wanted to kill my mom #Do you know what it's like to cry every day to the point where your head hurts and your vision becomes blurred? #crying to this point is hell #I'm sorry for posting this #vent post #autistic vent #depression vent

[ilovelawrencee]

// vent post.

you're probably tired of this, but believe me, I'm also tired of putting these rants on your screen.

but it's not my fault, i spent the whole day crying. my mom hid my tablet and cell phone as punishment. and I had a sensory crisis and spent the whole day lying down. so much so that I wasn't even feeling well enough to eat anything. but my mom swears I'm faking depression and autism. and this is hurting me a lot. I just wanted her to die and leave me alone. I just wanted her to disappear from my life.

#She said I'm faking hahaha faking autism? as if it were possible #she just laughed in my face during a crying fit I hate this woman #I hate living I hate living I hate living #Is it wrong to wish her dead? #vent post #autistic vent

[ilovelawrencee]

vent post.

I confess that I would love to die now. and it's my mother's fault.

#kill yourself since you're no good for anything #kill yourself #I really hate her and I hate knowing that she is my mother #i hate this woman #i just want to be loved #i hate my life i hate this hell #vent post #sorry for being depressing #She said and it hurt so much #why the fuck don't you do it first?

[ilovelawrencee]

I confess that I have no idea about my gender or sexuality. and it's sammy lawrence and alice angel's fault ( i wanted to be sammy, but i also wanted to be alice. but at the same time i just want to be sammy. but somehow i'm not attracted to real people. but if sammy or alice existed I would be in love with them ) does that make sense?

#i hate my life #i hate my body #i want to kms #I don't know. I hate thinking about my sexuality #I think I started thinking about it because I had a crisis earlier #I hate my little head and its inconvenient thoughts #i hate my existence

[ilovelawrencee]

Cabral and Sammy are so adorable here. I really love your drawings

and I feel like Sammy and Cabral would get along really well

Wow, I completely forgot to post this here...

I'm really proud of this one!

It was an art trade for @ilovelawrencee (hope you're okay with me tagging you there)

reminder that I DO NOT own the oc, it's @ilovelawrencee's one (he's really cute and was fun to draw btw!)

Anyways, that's it for now *run away*

#sammy lawrence #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #omg my friend art!! #art trade #gensokiyo's art #digital art #i love this so much #my oc and sammy ♡♡♡ #my babies ( there are two adults ) #they are friends!! they are being silly!!

[ilovelawrencee]

Miss Delight ✏🍎‼️

#poppy playtime #poppy playtime chapter 3 #poppy playtime deep sleep #poppy playtime playcare #poppy playtime miss delight #miss delight fan art #miss delight #poppy playtime fan art #poppy playtime fanart #my art

[ilovelawrencee]

I didn't want to have to say that. but...

please don't forward my art. I don't want them to repost or use my art. It's literally the only thing I ask *DO NOT REPOST MY ART. DO NOT EDIT OR MODIFY MY ART*.

This is my work, the drawings are my comfort and my work. so please don't repost. Someone made an edit to my drawing of Miss Delight and posted it on YouTube. and do you know the worst? the video has 3,000 views and 190 likes. and when I asked the person to delete the video, they simply disabled the comments and made fun of me. and it hurt me. I literally couldn't sleep thinking about this shit ( and yes, I'm being dramatic. but this is my drawing I'm talking about. I don't let people repost and steal my art ).

so please don't repost my drawings. If you want to use the drawing as a pfp, that's fine, you can ask me for permission. but please don't repost, it irritates and hurts me. and I really hate it when people take my things, mainly because I have a lot of affection for the character Miss Delight and the drawings I make of her.

and to the person who reposted my drawing, I hope you die.

#vent post #dont repost my art pls #i hate this shit

[ilovelawrencee]

miss delight ✏🍎‼️

#poppy playtime #poppy playtime chapter 3 #poppy playtime deep sleep #poppy playtime playcare #poppy playtime miss delight #poppy playtime fan art #poppy playtime fanart #miss delight #miss delight fan art #miss delight fanart #poppy playtime smiling critters #tw blood #tw eyes #my art

[ilovelawrencee]

Hey! Okay so um, I'm saying that in an ask because I've seen that I couldn't talk to you in dm for some reason? (Which is okay!) But, yeah, I'm gensokiyo! Y'know we became friends and stuff a few weeks ago? I've got a lil' problem with my phone recently and couldn't log back into my account because I've forgot the pass word (I'm dumb) so yeah! This is my new account! Anyways, sorry for the bothering, have a good day!

Ps; your Sammy drawings is awesome I like it! Really, don't underrate yourself! And if you ever want, I could teach you how to draw him someday! :3

aaaaa hi hi!! I don't understand how dms work here, but it was probably a mistake ( because I can usually dm everyone. And people can dm me too ). but hey, it's ok, we can interact now that you have a new account. and I hope you can also recover your old account :))

and thank you very much, this makes me very happy. mainly because I've been trying to draw Sammy for a long time, but the drawings aren't good, and that makes me sad. But thank you very much, this motivates me a lot. and I would be very happy if you taught me how to draw Sammy!!

#ask #omg hii #sammy lawrence is god i love him

[ilovelawrencee]

miss delight

i will post the colored version later.

#poppy playtime chapter 3 #poppy playtime deep sleep #poppy playtime fan art #poppy playtime miss delight #miss delight fan art #poppy playtime playcare #my art

[ilovelawrencee]

peter :))

#your boyfriend #your boyfriend peter #goth peter #your boyfriend fan art #i love him so much #he is my husband #my art

[ilovelawrencee]

my ocs

#my ocs art #i love my ocs #they are in love #my art

[ilovelawrencee]

i officially don't know how to draw sammy lawrence. and it makes me very sad.

because he is my favorite character. and it always looks horrible when i try to draw it.

i don't know how to draw men.

#bendy #bendy and the ink machine #sammy lawrence #i just wanted to draw sammy and feel proud of the drawing #i'm not good with anatomy. and that's the biggest problem here #sammy has such a simple appearance. but drawing him is so difficult and stressful. i just wanted to draw as well as the people i know #i hate it

[ilovelawrencee]

bobby and hoppy ❤💚

this drawing is a gift for a friend ( only they can use )

#poppy playtime #poppy playtime chapter 3 #poppy playtime deep sleep #poppy playtime smiling critters #smilling critters fanart #hoppy hopscotch #bobby bearhug #hoppyhug #i love my babys #omg lesbians hiii #i love them #my art

[ilovelawrencee]

i would like to introduce my smiling critter to you.

—> character's name;

in the cartoon: ( the character's name was never mentioned in the cartoon )

bigger body experiment: scientists call him "bunny" because he is a rabbit. but the experiment was considered flawed. so they didn't bother to give it a name.

—> character appearance;

changed detail: the necklace around his neck had a green leaf. but it was changed to a small cloud.

—> character card; ( it is incomplete )

note: in his bigger body version, the scarf around his neck is tied around his waist, as he seemed uncomfortable having something around his neck.

—> bigger body version;

his job was to make sure children were safe while they played or did their activities. being able to intervene whenever the children were fighting. and can help them interact with each other

in short, her job was to take care of the children, as a caregiver does.

—> important points;

he was not allowed to leave playcare.

did not have a voice. because scientists couldn't give him one. and when they tried, the experiment seemed to scramble the words, making strange sounds, which scared the employees whenever they tried. and that's one of the reasons they consider "bunny" a failed experiment.

he is taller than dogday. which made his presence uncomfortable for some children and adults. while others liked his way.

he communicates through drawings made on paper.

does not have a gender. but being okay with being called boy or girl.

uses the pronouns he/him, she/her and they/them

their ears are always pointed back.

generally walks using its hands and feet, as it appears less frightening when not on two paws

the experiment is the responsibility of Harley Sawyer, its creator.

—> during the hour of joy;

during the hour of joy. he looked for just one person: Harley Sawyer. but unfortunately he didn't find it, which made him attack the other employees, and while he was desperately looking for the scientist who created him, and who tortured him during the tests.

—> curiosities;

he protected two children during the hour of joy. but they probably died.

he is 22 years old.

before becoming a bigger body. he was a playcare employee.

he likes to be in the dark.

its color is brown. and the necklace around his neck has the symbol of a white cloud.

during a test, he was alone with Harley Sawyer in a room. and while the scientist spoke, asking questions to test the reaction of the experiment. bunny attacked him, leaving some wounds on his arm. but unfortunately the doctor managed to use a small shock device to ward off the experiment.

his biggest regret was not killing Harley Sawyer while he could.

#poppy playtime #poppy playtime chapter 3 #poppy playtime deep sleep #poppy playtime smiling critters #smiling critters #poppy playtime oc #smiling critters oc #poppy playtime fan art #my art

[ilovelawrencee]

his name is cabral. he is a goat

observation; he is non-binary. and uses he/him pronouns

#my oc art #my oc #he has a cult in the middle of the forest. and worships a god that no one knows if it's real #i love him so much #my art