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[high-fae-amseren]

This hits different.

"She gave you just enough love to show you how it could be if she truly cared for you and then casually withheld the rest leaving you wondering where you went wrong and trying to figure out how to fix it and being constantly afraid you'd lose what little you had."

#quotes #guess who

[high-fae-amseren]

Cages and Wings

I craved freedom. I wanted to be free and fly with fiery wings But everyone in my life caged me. They put me in a cage and decided that my wings were broken. I hoped for so long that I can grow my claws and prove that my wings were not broken. I so badly want to break free of my confinement. Now after longer than my broken mind can remember, I stare at the broken lock now lying outside my cage And the door that I can open with a push of my scarred hands But I cannot remember how it felt to not be caged, How it felt to be free. How it felt to not be broken I cower at the corner of my cage as the realization hits its mark. I forgot how to step out of the cage I have been stuck in for so long. Too long. Even now, I still hope that I would one day learn how to leave behind my nightmare But I could feel the hope slipping through my fingers like sand. I hold onto the bars in my cage, the only support I had, and promise to myself A constant reminder of why I won't trust anyone. I will not let anyone else into my life who would lock my cage again before I even made it out.

- Arcane Amseren

#wings of freedom #hope #free #trust #cage #broken #nightmare

[high-fae-amseren]

Hope

"I never trust it when things happen the way I wanted them to happen because if I do, if I hope that for once they won't fall apart...it would be so much more painful when they do. And it will."

- Arcane Amseren

#fall apart #painful #hope #trust #feelings

[high-fae-amseren]

Falling

"I have been falling for a long long time but that day, I finally drowned."

- Arcane Amseren

#falling #drown #finally

[high-fae-amseren]

Words with Meaning #1

Logolepsy

A lover of words.

Obsession with words.

[high-fae-amseren]

Probably a conversation that happened after KoA

Manon: Can I kill him?

Chaol: No.

Manon: Just a little bit?

#throne of glass #sarah j maas #manon blackbeak #manon crochan #chaol westfall

[high-fae-amseren]

Knife

Every word is a knife slicing her skin, sinking deeper each time Cutting through tissue, muscle, and bone Pulling apart the essence that is her. Breaking her into pieces she isn't sure she'll be able to piece together.

- Arcane Amseren

[high-fae-amseren]

Left

I stretch my hand out, hoping that he catches it and pulls me through. But I am always left standing with my hand held out."

- Arcane Amseren

[high-fae-amseren]

Giving and Taking

I got so used to giving everything of myself to everybody, not caring about what I am giving myself that somewhere along the way I just stopped caring about myself at all. If I did anything for myself, it wouldn't be out of love and respect for myself, it would just be pride or ego or hatred. I acknowledged it but I don't know how I am supposed to get past the hatred I feel for myself. If I even can. I am not used to taking, even from myself for myself.

- Arcane Amseren

[high-fae-amseren]

Expectations

"When people see good, they expect good and I don't wanna have to live up to anyone's expectations." - Damon Salvatore

This quote is one of my favourites. After so much of misuse to the good in me, I don't want to show it anymore, because once I am good ONCE, that is what they expect from me again, again and again. They don't understand that I can slip, that I am human, that I make mistakes. If once I am not good, they think that something is wrong with me, too out of character. It makes me feel like I am wrong, that what I feel is wrong. So I did what I now do, I hide. I make myself seem cold and bad so that I don't have to live up to anyone's expectations. So that I won't feel like there is something wrong with me. Because once I am cold, if there is a change it will be socially acceptable but that won't happen would it?

#damon salvatore #quotes #social acceptance #character #expectations

[high-fae-amseren]

GWYNRIEL THEORY

This is a theory @writermist07 and I came up with! I know that many many of us already ship Gwynriel, but I have a quick theory to make it clear that Azriel WILL end up with Gwyn.

I understand why Azriel thinks he loves Elain or likes her to say the least. It's because he was where she is now, broken and helpless while having no say in what people did to them and he wants to give her the love he once craved for himself. But in the end, I think Azriel and Gwyn are mates. Azriel's shadows shy away from Elain and Mor because they don't feel accepted or free to be visible around them. BUT, Azriel's shadows didn't even alert him about Gwyn's presence on the night of Winter Solstice. His shadows, as his constant companions, as an extension to himself, know when to be uncertain and what Azriel needs to be consciously aware of. They never shied away from Gwyn, it was almost as if she sang to them through her breath and they wanted to embrace her and play with her like they do with Azriel. Azriel never had to consciously think of what he said around Gwyn and their effortless conversations talk for themselves.

#gwynriel #azriel #gwyneth berdara #sarah j maas #acotar #a court of silver flames #otp #acomaf #acowar #mates

[high-fae-amseren]

You held on when you needed me to heal your broken heart and you let go when I needed you to put together mine.

Arcane Amseren

#heartbreak #heal #heart #let go

[high-fae-amseren]

I fell in love. I fell in love with books and the words etched in ink on the pages. I fell in love with the sound of music and the voice of the lyrics. I fell in love with late-night walks in the park and the springtime picnics. I fell in love with the falling leaves and shimmering snow, with the raindrops twinkling all around. I fell in love with the paint that smears on my palm. I fell in love with the chilly nights watching Netflix wrapped in a blanket. I fell in love with the good old memories and the thrills of the new ones. Instead of falling in love with someone, I fell in love with everything that makes me happy.

Arcane Amseren

#fell in love #happy #books

[high-fae-amseren]

(via https://open.spotify.com/track/78kH8cUdaJgGDbPokSnlJG?si=jSlfO5nsQ8e5u8pIKOm_fg)

#pain #songwriter #music #heartache #hearbreak #umusic #love #skyerider #song #lyrics #musical #album #music writing