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I regret eating. I could have been skinny by now. Why do i eat. Why can't i just stop. I regret it so much. I wouldn't feel like this right now if i would have not eaten today but i did. and now my brain is telling me how useless,fat,disgusting and dumb i am. Because i wouldn't feel like this right now if. i. just. handn't. eaten.

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Ordering Out, Without the Panic 🤩

***I do not promote anything, this initially was for my own agenda. ***

Last updated: 6/10/2021

Burger King

Cheesecake Factory

Chick-Fil-A

Chipotle

Dominos

Dunkin Donuts

Five Guys

Honeygrow

McDonalds

Olive Garden

Shake Shack

Starbucks

Taco Bell

Wendys

I started this for myself, but it gained some interest from others so I wanted to make one list of all restaurants that I have so far to be a quick go-to. Each day or whenever I have time I add more popular chain restaurants to prevent panic with last minute food decisions in my everyday life.

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tried on some months ago jeans and they're so tight around my legs and waist i seriously want to cry they used to be so loose

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im even eating more than i have actually did like

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i keep binging and gaining weight i hate myself

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i lost all my muscles but i still weight the same or even more which means im bigger bcs fat is lighter than muscles.

plus i can fit my old clothes which sucks even more and i can't really train anymore and keep eating. eating a lot. i havent been under 1000 in months lmao and some days i only have a meal im just so fat and gross and have no control over myself

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Me: I need to loose weight faster

My ed: stop bingeing then?

Me:

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It’s so discouraging to have to lose weight you already lost before

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if i kept being consistent I'd be skinnier than my ugw.

if i kept being consistent i could eat almost normally while maintaining my lowest weight.

i just feel so sick to know how i lost control and let food win

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few weeks went by and i almost always stood under 1500/600 and burned 200+ daily.

i honesty feel like shit because i feel so awful when my net is 1100/1200 even though i know it still low.

i feel like I'm understanding everything and idk

also almost binged yesterday after two weeks and my cals counted 2000+

i feel gross and i really suck at being constant.

I just wanna go back

yesterday i planned what to eat but drank at night and binged right after my meals lol

today i planned on staying lowish but i had a big lunch with my family. i got up early to train and i really did it but then my mother told us we'd get pizza for dinner lol.

but they went out to eat and i was home with my siblings.

had 700ish then almost binged lol but i did train so i stood on 1000 ish

in: 1260

burned: 310

net: 950

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just a reminder

i. do. not. promote. eating. disorders. of. any. kind. whatsoever.

if you are trying to recover, please, get the fuck away from my blog.

the reason i have this blog is for my own motivation.

seek help: 1-800-931-2237

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i need to learn how not to eat again

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Reblog if you feel fat right now.

Always