h1sprincess

[h1sprincess]

Something I wrote 6 yrs ago…

"You made me happy

You made me sad

You made me feel sexy

You made me get mad

Up and down we went

Round for round it went

When we were high we soared

When we were low we mourned

I tried to help you see the beauty I see

I tried to help you release

I put you first while I slowly faded

Away into the dark but you had to make it

You fought so hard to prove your strength

You're weakness was your best friend

I slowly died losing my mind

Couldn't give up "just one last time"

The last time never came

I felt your love and knew your pain

See we were so much alike yet different

Our pride and pain colliding within

Yearning for truth but lying to ourselves

Forgetting the love we felt from the beginning

I love you S.O.S and I always will

But this time I love me more I can't hurt me again

I forgot who I was and where I was headed

But thanks to you I am stronger than ever

And forever will not forget it

So this is my goodbye to you for good for I don't want to know you anymore

I'm saying goodbye to the old me and all that came with it

And goodbye to the old you hope you understand this

Can't wait til we meet again

Stronger than ever and forever good friends

So this is my farewell to the demons that dwelled

We're beautiful souls that got trapped by sin

It's time for freedom it's time to be born again!"

-HIS Princess ☺️

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Self Reflection

I’ve caused pain

Because

I’ve been hurt

Lost sight of what’s real

So, I got numb

I didn’t want to feel

I used things that took me away

And

Fighting isn’t what I did

It’s not something I was taught

“Run if you see or hear any truth,

Especially truth about you!”

So, I ran each time on the spot

Pride; preventing humility,

preventing clarity

I couldn’t face myself,

I wouldn’t face myself,

Knowing I should face myself,

So,

Naturally I hid; escaping my reflection

Didn’t realize I was the one

That drew attention,

Disgusted by what I saw,

Caught a glimpse

a second!

It hurt to see

The pain in my own eyes

I looked away and began

To question,

Who is she?

And

Where did I go?

Filled with shame

And

Full of guilt

Allowed myself to get misled

I Went Astray;

Wrong direction

Refusing to reflect

It’s my true self I neglect

On a path to find the “truth”

Opening my mind

I don’t know what to expect

But!

Defeat, I won’t accept

I lost too much running

Looking around for a solid win

And Ain’t nothing coming?

It’s time to reflect

Stop the neglect

Learn to accept

It’s me I need to correct

If not now

Then when?

I stood in front of the mirror

I saw myself for the first time

Haven’t seen her since before

I started to numb

What’s been buried deep inside

I stared long enough

All to finally see

It all came to me

the only way to be free

Is to know the only one

In my way

Will always be me

I won’t give in

Understand it’s

Time to win

Time to shine

I got to

For ONCE in this life

HISPrincess 💎

[h1sprincess]

Hello there,

Please excuse my brain

But It’s going insane

Trying to solve the problems

Inside my membrane

Consistency isn’t something

I’m equipped with

So pardon me

If I’m all over the place

I’m hardly balanced

I don’t know what that is

Chaos; thats normal

What’s this clarity?

Now that’s new

Not what I’m used to..

My depression,

she comes and goes,

Sometimes she stays,

No middle place..

Shes always high or low,

Not for a bit though,

But For many days..

Sadness, consumes my every being,

Even when attempting happiness,

It’s imbedded in me,

I believe I was born like this..

And, Pain

It’s all I’ve experienced,

Naturally, Sorrow tags along with it..

When things go right

I anticipate wrong

To make an appearance,

I’m mentally prepared to take on

All the bad since it’s all I know..

Emotions convinced of things that

Didn’t happen,

So, naturally conviction follows..

But,

this time it’s different,

It’s all good all around me,

Somehow I’m conflicted..

Subconsciously doubting

Things that go Good

With all the bad I’ve known,

I don’t know how to accept this,

I’m sorry I just don’t..

I will try this time though

I promise, I will,

I’ve yearned this for years!

Now Attainable, I fight it still

But

Forgive me for being honest,

I just can’t help myself,

Self destruction,

Is where I’ve excelled,

I’m afraid and I’ve always been

Because

Deep within my soul,

I’ve come to understand,

The biggest challenge has always been within myself…

HISPrincess💎

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“The true self destruction”

“Warning comes before destruction

Pride comes before the fall

And most times

pride makes you feel like you know it all

a person full of pride

Isn’t willing to be humble

Sometimes it takes a BIG fall

like crashing hard into a brick wall

And even then your pride won’t let you see

That you are your own worse enemy

Because when the warning came

Pride dismissed the truth

Creating the illusion

✨there’s no way it will happen to you✨

If you’ve been warned and

your pride is at an all time high

Don’t wait until it’s too late

humble yourself for you shall surely die

And since you’ve been warned

take a look deep inside

Are you striving to be humble or are you filled with pride?

Don’t get destroyed if there’s been a warning

Because it just means you still have some time

Time to learn humility, letting go of your pride

Is being prideful worth losing in the end?

Having to Take a step back like

“damn I should’ve listened back then”

I’ll make it clear one last time

Warning comes before destruction and pride before the fall

So please Take heed to this:

Don’t let your pride be your downfall”

HIS Princess 💎👑

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“Inhaling denial

Exhaling acceptance

I’ve learned to expect the unexpected

Accepting any tragedy

While

In search of clarity

Im seeing things differently

Adapting to this new reality

I’m Aware and open minded

Now In tuned with my spirituality”

#my writting #mypoeticways #mytruth #poems on tumblr #poetry #poets on tumblr #true story #get to know me #here i go again #storytime

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My mind in one place

My heart in another

Which one speaks truth?

Which one is cluttered?

I can’t tell the difference

My emotions tend to stutter

[h1sprincess]

Hello there,

Please excuse my brain

But It’s going insane

Trying to solve the problems

Inside my membrane

Consistency isn’t something

I’m equipped with

So pardon me

If I’m all over the place

I’m hardly balanced

I don’t know what that is

Chaos; thats normal

What’s this clarity?

Now that’s new

Not what I’m used to..

My depression,

she comes and goes,

Sometimes she stays,

No middle place..

Shes always high or low,

Not for a bit though,

But For many days..

Sadness, consumes my every being,

Even when attempting happiness,

It’s imbedded in me,

I believe I was born like this..

And, Pain

It’s all I’ve experienced,

Naturally, Sorrow tags along with it..

When things go right

I anticipate wrong

To make an appearance,

I’m mentally prepared to take on

All the bad since it’s all I know..

Emotions convinced of things that

Didn’t happen,

So, naturally conviction follows..

But,

this time it’s different,

It’s all good all around me,

Somehow I’m conflicted..

Subconsciously doubting

Things that go Good

With all the bad I’ve known,

I don’t know how to accept this,

I’m sorry I just don’t..

I will try this time though

I promise, I will,

I’ve yearned this for years!

Now Attainable, I fight it still

But

Forgive me for being honest,

I just can’t help myself,

Self destruction,

Is where I’ve excelled,

I’m afraid and I’ve always been

Because

Deep within my soul,

I’ve come to understand,

The biggest challenge has always been within myself…

HISPrincess💎

#my writting #mypoeticways #mytruth

[h1sprincess]

Temporary Visit

I’m trapped again

Only this time

I opened the door

I let myself in

took a seat

And waited for a moment

I don’t plan on staying here

I’m going to zone in

And slowly disappear

But I

I’m still physically here

Awareness is my guide

Making my way through

The soulless paradise

From the corner of my eye

I pin them on sight

Lurking in the shadows

Disguised; playing roles all night

Heard the whispers of those who cried

“How is she not affected by the haunting skies?”

I’m dressed in sheer confidence

Imprinting my presence

Made a choice to revisit

The path I shall leave behind

Burning all bridges

HISPrincess 💎

#my writting #mypoeticways #mytruth #poets on tumblr #poems on tumblr #poetry #true story #storytime #get to know me #here i go again

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Temporary Visit

I’m trapped again

Only this time

I opened the door

I let myself in

took a seat

And waited for a moment

I don’t plan on staying here

I’m going to zone in

And slowly disappear

But I

I’m still physically here

Awareness is my guide

Making my way through

The soulless paradise

From the corner of my eye

I pin them on sight

Lurking in the shadows

Disguised; playing roles all night

Heard the whispers of those who cried

“How is she not affected by the haunting skies?”

I’m dressed in sheer confidence

Imprinting my presence

Made a choice to revisit

The path I shall leave behind

Burning all bridges

HISPrincess 💎

#my writting #mypoeticways #mytruth #poets on tumblr #poems on tumblr #poetry #true story #storytime #get to know me #here i go again

[h1sprincess]

Hello there,

Please excuse my brain

But It’s going insane

Trying to solve the problems

Inside my membrane

Consistency isn’t something

I’m equipped with

So pardon me

If I’m all over the place

I’m hardly balanced

I don’t know what that is

Chaos; thats normal

What’s this clarity?

Now that’s new

Not what I’m used to..

My depression,

she comes and goes,

Sometimes she stays,

No middle place..

Shes always high or low,

Not for a bit though,

But For many days..

Sadness, consumes my every being,

Even when attempting happiness,

It’s imbedded in me,

I believe I was born like this..

And, Pain

It’s all I’ve experienced,

Naturally, Sorrow tags along with it..

When things go right

I anticipate wrong

To make an appearance,

I’m mentally prepared to take on

All the bad since it’s all I know..

Emotions convinced of things that

Didn’t happen,

So, naturally conviction follows..

But,

this time it’s different,

It’s all good all around me,

Somehow I’m conflicted..

Subconsciously doubting

Things that go Good

With all the bad I’ve known,

I don’t know how to accept this,

I’m sorry I just don’t..

I will try this time though

I promise, I will,

I’ve yearned this for years!

Now Attainable, I fight it still

But

Forgive me for being honest,

I just can’t help myself,

Self destruction,

Is where I’ve excelled,

I’m afraid and I’ve always been

Because

Deep within my soul,

I’ve come to understand,

The biggest challenge has always been within myself…

HISPrincess💎

[h1sprincess]

Giving Up On Myself

I lived a crazy life

Man, I’ve been through some things

My momma always said I

Won’t amount to anything

But little did she know

I’ve known that from the start

And when my daddy left, he

Left me with a broken heart

Round and round I go again

Pass the weed I need a hit

Taking shots to ease the pain

And it never seems to change

Now I gotta find a new escape

Lost a fight inside the devils ring

Losing just about everything

Round for round

It’s all the same

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Heartless

Heart in hand

It bled and it bled

Once alive, now dead

Tried closing these wounds

It’s impossible

These wounds are too thick

Can’t remember how it got like this

Stopped beating so I ripped it out of place

Holding my heart in my hand

Longing those times of innocence

Where the “I Love You”

Meant something

Taken advantage of one too many times

I decided to get rid of mine

Where the heart once lived

Resides a stone of ice

Now cold-hearted

Don’t get too close

Or unguarded

Fooled me once

To fool me twice?!

That was my fault for letting that slide

All I hear are lies

Love no longer resides

Numb to it

It’s deceit I despise

Took my love for granted

Here is my hate for free

Think karma is a bitch?

You haven’t met me

I’m the cold, careless side of things

Won’t think twice, not even blink

You watched me slowly die

Never lost a wink of sleep

So now you will

Get to know the other side that lies beneath

HISPrincess 💎

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Her

As her knowledge grows

Her appreciation shows

She’s aware now

Good & bad comes with

Wearing her crown

Watch her wear it though

Loud and proud

Time to time it shifts

And she fixes it without a flinch..

That’s all she ever wanted

Even though she struggles

She lets things go & continues to walk

I believe she is special

She is different

Of her

There’s only one

She is:

A leader

Role model, an example

For women to come

And she starts at home

If she doesn’t

Where does that leave

Her daughter and son?

Selfless most of the time

But

If she ain’t right

Nothing will be fine

Battles; she faced many alone

And she’s fought for a long time

So, next time you see her

Understand

She is one of a kind

A woman of strength

A wise one

Beyond her time

No, she’s not rude

If anything, she is very kind

And no, she is not a snob

She’s guarded

She has to be

She’s protective

Of her own little family

Many have tried to destroy her light

But her faith in God

It’s so strong

She CAN see at night

She’s a diamond in the sky

HIS PRINCESS

Hurt his child & you’ll get a glimpse

Of her FATHER

Don’t believe me, go ahead and try

But because she is different

She won’t push you aside

Just remember

For next time

That she is me

And Know

I will always protect what’s MINE!

HISPrincess 💎

[h1sprincess]

Self Reflection

I’ve caused pain

Because

I’ve been hurt

Lost sight of what’s real

So, I got numb

I didn’t want to feel

I used things that took me away

And

Fighting isn’t what I did

It’s not something I was taught

“Run if you see or hear any truth,

Especially truth about you!”

So, I ran each time on the spot

Pride; preventing humility,

preventing clarity

I couldn’t face myself,

I wouldn’t face myself,

Knowing I should face myself,

So,

Naturally I hid; escaping my reflection

Didn’t realize I was the one

That drew attention,

Disgusted by what I saw,

Caught a glimpse

a second!

It hurt to see

The pain in my own eyes

I looked away and began

To question,

Who is she?

And

Where did I go?

Filled with shame

And

Full of guilt

Allowed myself to get misled

I Went Astray;

Wrong direction

Refusing to reflect

It’s my true self I neglect

On a path to find the “truth”

Opening my mind

I don’t know what to expect

But!

Defeat, I won’t accept

I lost too much running

Looking around for a solid win

And Ain’t nothing coming?

It’s time to reflect

Stop the neglect

Learn to accept

It’s me I need to correct

If not now

Then when?

I stood in front of the mirror

I saw myself for the first time

Haven’t seen her since before

I started to numb

What’s been buried deep inside

I stared long enough

All to finally see

It all came to me

the only way to be free

Is to know the only one

In my way

Will always be me

I won’t give in

Understand it’s

Time to win

Time to shine

I got to

For ONCE in this life

HISPrincess 💎

[h1sprincess]

Fuck my EX

txt to my ex 👌

Look!

First of all

I’m over wanting to be your girlfriend,

I mean I did say you’re not relationship material and whatnot!

I don’t CARE to be your girlfriend (whatever the fuck you think that is) and I don’t care to be friends

Never cared to be your lover

And this needs to be said

I had expectations

And they were NEVER met

How could you possibly think

I want to go backwards

Nigga, all that’s DEAD

SO you’ve inflated your ego

I think you’re too far gone in the head

I ain’t fucking on nobody

Just working on myself

You SUCK MY NIGGA

FUCKING with you lead nowhere

But a dead end

You can’t say shit about me

But

You insist on it being the end

Well, here’s some truth

I don’t regret fucking with you

I don’t regret the love we made in bed

You got me fucked up tho

The past is the past

And I don’t want dead weight

I’ll wait for a MAN

a gentle one

With gentle hands

Got a good heart

No “friendship” with any EX

To be with you, now that’s backtracking

And I’m moving forward

If I look back, it’s only to see

That I am better than accepting

Less than!

I’m Royalty girl, you didn’t know

I got God

Someone you haven’t MET

HISPrincess, HISDiamond

So with that said

I’m on a different level

One you can’t even grasp

You viciously wanna tear my name

But guess what?! You’re forgetting one thing

Curse my name and I WILL ALWAYS BE BLESSED!

Be HUMBLE!

Be blessed

Don’t be a crab In a pot

Trust and believe

I don’t trust you

I never did

You’re just another miserable and lonely person

Blameless in your actions

Wake up before it’s too late

Just understand that with God

And through God

I’ll always strive to be the best

The best version of me

One you can’t comprehend

Find yourself before

You even try to talk to me with your confused ass mess!!

DUECES!

HISPrincess 💎

[h1sprincess]

Fuck my EX

txt to my ex 👌

Look!

First of all

I’m over wanting to be your girlfriend,

I mean I did say you’re not relationship material and whatnot!

I don’t CARE to be your girlfriend (whatever the fuck you think that is) and I don’t care to be friends

Never cared to be your lover

And this needs to be said

I had expectations

And they were NEVER met

How could you possibly think

I want to go backwards

Nigga, all that’s DEAD

SO you’ve inflated your ego

I think you’re too far gone in the head

I ain’t fucking on nobody

Just working on myself

You SUCK MY NIGGA

FUCKING with you lead nowhere

But a dead end

You can’t say shit about me

But

You insist on it being the end

Well, here’s some truth

I don’t regret fucking with you

I don’t regret the love we made in bed

You got me fucked up tho

The past is the past

And I don’t want dead weight

I’ll wait for a MAN

a gentle one

With gentle hands

Got a good heart

No “friendship” with any EX

To be with you, now that’s backtracking

And I’m moving forward

If I look back, it’s only to see

That I am better than accepting

Less than!

I’m Royalty girl, you didn’t know

I got God

Someone you haven’t MET

HISPrincess, HISDiamond

So with that said

I’m on a different level

One you can’t even grasp

You viciously wanna tear my name

But guess what?! You’re forgetting one thing

Curse my name and I WILL ALWAYS BE BLESSED!

Be HUMBLE!

Be blessed

Don’t be a crab In a pot

Trust and believe

I don’t trust you

I never did

You’re just another miserable and lonely person

Blameless in your actions

Wake up before it’s too late

Just understand that with God

And through God

I’ll always strive to be the best

The best version of me

One you can’t comprehend

Find yourself before

You even try to talk to me with your confused ass mess!!

DUECES!

HISPrincess 💎

#my writting #mypoeticways #mytruth