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https://archiveofourown.org/works/38896812

@9misorai​ thank u for giving me the motivation to crank out some words i hope u enjoy :33

#allya writes #if this sucks pretend it doesnt #also if its ooc its bc i just want fluff for once ok #kaizo can be a bitch next time #but i need a break from the angst just for a bit :'3 #bbb #boboiboy

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(lightning mcqueen voice) i am spite

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conflicted feelings prompts

please don't repost these prompts. reblog instead <3

” one day you're this really great guy, the next you're giving me mixed signals. ”

” i don't trust you. ”

” you're the only one i trust. ”

” you deserve nothing.

” you deserve everything. ”

” just because i love you, doesn't mean i trust you. ”

” you don't need to trust someone to love them. ”

” love can't survive without trust. ”

” you just spent three hours dilly-dallying some stranger. ”

” are we strangers? ”

” the language of flowers... ”

” flowers can't tell you shit. ”

” have you ever danced under the stars? ” ” not so sure i'd want my first time to be with you. ”

” i'm thinking that five years is a long time. can't exactly erase it all in an hour. ”

” let's forget the past and start over. ”

” i don't want anybody else. ”

” i want you, but not this way. ”

” exactly, and that's the problem. ”

” this isn't love, it's infatuation. ”

” you're so far up your own ass you can't see right from wrong. ”

” tell me, was it everything you would have hoped for? ”

” you're not capable of love. ”

” you're the only one i've ever loved. ”

” because you gave me hope, name! ”

” we're wrong for each other. ” ” but it feels right, doesn't it? ”

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Studies show that gay and bi men are much more likely to struggle with body image issues than straight men.

To all of my gay and bi brothers out there, you are beautiful. You are handsome as fuck. Every inch and curve of your body is sexy. You are loved and YOU ARE LOVABLE. Please don't beat yourself up to meet some stupid 'standards'. You will find someone who will love you for who you are.

Reblog to let your gay and bi men followers know that they are beautiful.

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Frickit im sick of slow burn hmu

“right to the good parts” prompt list

So many prompts are about the meet-cute. So this list is meant to go straight to the good parts. Please use, prompt, share, add to, etc.

I have you shoved against the wall but now I can’t stop looking at your mouth

We were dancing but all of a sudden it’s a slow song and we’re standing here awkwardly staring at each other

I just told you I liked you but now I’m shy and say “never mind, forget it” and why are you looking at me like that?

We slept in the same bed for space reasons but now we’re just waking up and there’s something about your bleary eyes and mussed hair

It’s time to fight the boss and if I don’t tell you now, I might not live to tell you

Congratulations! One of your dreams has finally come true. Let me give you a big hug and wow, you’re warm…

I’ve never seen anything like the way you handled that. I’m just so moved.

Oh, my God, I thought you were going to die. Please don’t ever scare me like that again.

We’re hiding from the authorities and it’s very close quarters in here, I can feel your body against mine.

Wait, my hero’s secret identity is… you? To be honest, I’d always kind of hoped…

You’ve said you’re going to leave, but I don’t want you to go and if I don’t say something now…

We were pretending to be lovers but I’m not pretending anymore and I have to know if you feel the same way

 This wasn’t meant to be a date, but we’ve had such a good time and now it’s 2 a.m. and I should really go home…

#cant promise ill get to em too quick cause uh #//look right look left #c i r c u m s t a n c e s #but don hesitate ples #writing prompts #prompts list

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ramenzo angst uh one of them dying but not actually dying yknow got hurt really badly

how dare you make me write angst >:c

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The first thing he hears when he wakes up is crying.

Ramen keeps his eyes closed as he regains consciousness, tensing up as his nerves register waves of pain that had been blissfully numb under the spell of sleep. It takes him a moment to even process the sound, but once the agony reduces itself to a regular hum, the spasmic breathing and choked sobs are clear against the otherwise silence of the sick bay.

He opens his eyes a fraction. The room is dark, so he squints, just barely making out the figure turned away from him. Ramen makes the smallest movement on the bed and immediately Kaizo is silent, still as a mannequin. He doesn’t turn around.

Ramen opens his mouth but all that comes out is a low grunt in pain. “Kaizo..”

“Don’t.”

“I’m sorry,” Ramen tries.

“I said don’t.” Kaizo’s voice is deliberately distant but even in his exhausted state Ramen can sense the trace of vulnerability.

The blond leans back and sighs. “Fine. I won’t.”

Naturally, this makes Kaizo livid.

“What the hell…” he mutters softly, then whips around to face him, not even bothering to hide the tear tracks running down his cheeks. “What the hell were you thinking.”

Ramen attempts to shrug but his arms refuse to lift. He laughs ruefully, the sound never quite making it out, then gives back into gravity. “No think, only action,” he sighs, too tired to elaborate, though he knows Kaizo understands. There was no time for thought in the heat of battle, the other knows that well.

“Your instincts are screwed up,” Kaizo shakes his head in dark amazement. “What in the universe told you to throw yourself at a death crusher was a good idea.”

Ramen doesn’t have a response to that - Kaizo does have a point. He tries to think back to the moment, what exactly was going on that provoked him to jump in front of a giant machine that could easily slice him up and roll over his pieces on the ground. His mind is so foggy he can’t recall any of it.

Kaizo is side-eyeing him, correctly concluding that the blond has nothing to say for himself, and nods. “If you were trying for certain death, I’m sorry to say I had to spoil your plans.”

“Don’t.”

Kaizo raises an eyebrow. “Then?”

Ramen sighs. “I promise you, whatever was going through my head when I saw that tank, it wasn’t that.”

“Then why?”

“I don’t know,” Ramen admits. “Maybe so you wouldn’t?”

The logic is weak, but in complete honesty, it’s probably closer than any other response would be. Kaizo is silent, and Ramen closes his eyes again, trying to ignore the searing pain of his open wounds.

When he finally speaks up again, his voice is soft. “No. I would’ve gone right after you.”

Ramen freezes, then slowly opens his eyes to make sure Kaizo isn’t joking. Not that it’s a joking matter, and Kaizo was never one to joke anyway, not even a dark remark in a tense situation. Kaizo is staring off into the distance, and Ramen wonders if he was even aware of what he just said. When he doesn’t go on, Ramen breaks the silence,

“What?”

Kaizo murmurs something under his breath that Ramen can’t hear, then he manages to make out some words “long”, “alone”, “again”. He strains, but his mind and body refuse to cooperate and provide him more context to work with.

“Kaizo…”

“You can’t just leave me like that,” the other finally snaps. “I won’t let you.”

Ramen stares at him for a few moments. “For the longest time, you wanted to be alone-”

“And then you forced your way in anyway, didn’t you?” Kaizo glares. “Now you’re leaving me alone again. What kind of sadism…” he trails off and goes back to mumbling, this time completely inaudible.

“I didn’t mean to hurt you…” Ramen speaks up.

“Guess your intentions weren’t enough,” Kaizo says bitterly.

The blond stops. As long as he’s known him, Kaizo has been stubbornly adamant on working alone. Living alone. Being alone. It doesn’t take a genius to put the pieces together and figure it’s a coping mechanism after losing far too many close people in his life. Ramen tried to fill in the gaps only for Kaizo to push him away time and time again. He knows he’ll never be enough to fill the hole. But at some point, Kaizo let him in. Now he’s almost left it again, leaving a void so big it’ll swallow Kaizo himself before it can seal over again.

Ramen would never forgive himself if he let that happen.

“I’m sorry,” he tries.

“Just don’t,” Kaizo says again.

“I was always here for you,” Ramen sighs, ignoring his body’s protests. “I made a mistake once. Never again. This time, I’m here to stay.”

“Always?” Kaizo echoes in disbelief.

Ramen internally rolls his eyes. “Why would I stay with you after a decade of coming back if I wasn’t?”

Kaizo stares. “Gosh. I’m an idiot.”

Ramen can’t help but laugh, which quickly turns into a strangled cough. He grunts, shifting to a slightly easier position to breathe, then wincing when the movement brings on another wave of agony. Kaizo watches him, expression uniquely worried, but Ramen manages to relax and the pain dulls down again.

“How long till we get to the station?” he asks, changing the topic.

Kaizo shakes his head and Ramen pauses.

“What?”

“I lost connection with the station. I can’t contact anyone.”

The blond stares at him, eyes wide. “We’re stranded.”

Kaizo bites his lip, running a glance up and down Ramen’s injuries. “Yeah, pretty much…”

Even as a high ranking official with years of experience and endurance, anyone would find themselves screwed over with wounds to this extent, let alone stranded in the middle of nowhere. Ramen can’t panic now, though more likely than not Kaizo has already been worrying for a while.

“At least you woke up,” Kaizo says quietly.

It’s a brief mental image: Kaizo, starved and exhausted, heading towards TEMPUR-A station, or maybe TAPOPS - he doesn’t even know which is closer here - alone with a corpse on board. Ramen resists the nausea that comes from the idea alone.

“I’ll be fine,” the blond promises, though it’s a weak one at best. “I’m right here.”

Kaizo nods, then shakes his head, then nods again. Ramen is confused for a moment until he sees the tears spilling out of his eyes and he ducks his head down, face crumpling.

Kaizo doesn’t let anyone see him cry. He suppresses his emotions with remarkable control and then hides, finally letting the tears overflow. In fifteen years his brother never once saw the tight grimace waver in weakness.

Ramen wasn’t supposed to see behind the facade. Kaizo still hasn’t forgiven him for it, but he can’t forgive Kaizo either, not when he tried to reach out and ease those muffled sobs only to be aggressively rebuffed.

But this time, he doesn’t turn around. He drops his head, swiping at his eyes, and Ramen aches against his limp limbs to rest a hand on his shoulder, or wrap him up in a close embrace, rubbing comforting circles into his back and reminding him he isn’t alone. Instead, he watches him from his immobile place on the sick bed, expression softened in concern for lack of the words he doesn’t have.

He watches in silence and Kaizo doesn’t push him away.

#Anonymous #no beta we die like men #also not proofread haah #allya writes #idk what this is uh #pls take it #i cant angst okay i try ToT #ramenzo #not tagging fandom tho #cause shippy hshshsd #uhh what else can i say #ur welcome?? #for ramenzo?? #enjoy?? #bon appetit- #uhhhh #ye pls don shoot me- #i should stick to crack n action tbh #cracktion #craction #crackshun #hahshshdhjksbjf ignore me im high #uwuwu

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abandoned wips masterlist

so not too long ago i did an insta poll asking if i should expose all my abandoned fic drafts cause i mean it’s not like theyre ever gonna see the light of day otherwise. i was going to do it when i hit 3k kudos on ao3 and i did so i suppose it has come time for me to expose my mistakes

for obvious reasons, don’t repost these (idk why anyone would lol) but if you really like one of these and want to see it continued, just hit up my ask box and i may or may not consider~

Miscellaneous Fandoms:

Ninjago: Zephyr - a Morro backstory fic bc the hageman bros refuse to feed me more content of my son. barely started it but yknow its there

Miraculous Ladybug/BoBoiBoy: this failed attempt at a fanginette fic bc @secretagentspydetectiveninja got me invested even tho writers block is a binch hahshs

BoBoiBoy:

kokotiam gang angst that reminded me i cannot for the life of me write emotional angst (or any angst for that matter oop)

ramenzo (and kaifang) angst that i churned out on a saturday afternoon on a writing spike instead of doing homework bc I Do Not Control the Writing Juice

au where bbb is a forest guardian(?) and fang just wants away from Society (same fang same) i will probably be yearning for woodland aus till the day i die bc who *doesnt* wanna ditch everything and go live in the middle of the woods amirite?

ramenzo n boifang water fight bc you cant convince me these idiots dont get up to ridiculous shenanigans on their downtime

abandoned draft for the sequel to the og ramenzo fic (dont bother reading it literally nothing happens i swear)

i literally don’t remember where i was going with this i think it was supposed to be fang introspection but idk??

uhh kaifang with ramenzo vibes i think this was gonna be? i genuinely don’t remember anymore oop-

RAMENZO IN QUARANTINE yes this one was regular au (i mean duh) and it’s a shame i never ended up finishing it-

i am actually goboifang t r a s h...until i realized im going to have to make all the food by myself and i never learned to make food :’)) (fr if anyone provides me with any kind of fanon gbf content i will love you forever pls)

this...exists even tho i honestly prefer it didnt but ramenzo is ramenzo n ramen has freckles i will fite u on this (dont read it pls)

if anyone wants ramenzo crumbs (and i mean that quite practically) then feel free to consume the Specks

dont read this pls im begging just dont lets yeet it into the void it doesnt exist~ I Do Not See It

update: i discovered this uhh kaifang post-bora ra incident thing in my other drive

Miraculous Ladybug:

okay forewarning there are wayyyy too many of these so im skipping the ones that are sequels/dependent on other fics for context just to spare myself from having to sort through this mountain

i was planning to participate in chlonath week 2k19 (unfortunately for chlonath nation I Do Not Control the Hyperfixation oop) if you want context then ask

marcnath crumbs thats it thats the doc

oh look allya is self projecting again (writing is still pain) (marcnath)

for the one who requested chloenette with the dialogue prompt i am so sorry

idk why this feels like something ive posted before but then again all lovesquare is the same to me (dead) so who knows im not gonna bother checking hshsh (marichat)

chlonath go to comic con or sth idk chloe is tsundere as always (or would have been anyway if i ever ended up Finishing this)

i *think* this was based on a @terrible-miraculous-ladybug-aus post but heck if i remember now- (lukanette??)

i have absolutely no recollection as to where i was going with this but if anyone finds the concept interesting then by all means go ahead n snatch it- (manon finds the miraculous i guess?)

this is a great. opening. to a chloe fic. that doesnt exist. oof :,)

caline bustier’s home for orphans amirite (i mean she basically already adopted the whole class so)

im genuinely not a fan of the jealous!lover trope but someone in the marcnath server wanted some at one point so i. attempted. and failed but you know thats to be expected at this point :’3

oh look allya is projecting her writing struggles onto marc again is anyone surprised?

theres probably a museum brotp story in here but it doesnt exist and at this point it never will rip

oh good lord not this again i genuinely managed to forget about it for a while until now-

i just read the first line and im already reeling what the heck is this nathanette(??)

WHY IS THERE MARICHAT IN MY WIP FOLDER WHAT

allya stop projecting onto emo weebs challenge failed

i really wanna know where the context for chlonath skiing trip came from i literally have 0 recollection of this at all??

YO I ACTUALLY REMEMBER THE CONTEXT FOR THIS ONE anyway nath n aroace!alix arranged marriage au anyone?? well too bad cause i abandoned it oop-

ahahahahahahaha wdym i wrote 7k of chlonath and then ditched it i would never do that lmao-

i think this was a hunger games au uh

something something marcnath

marcnath angst i guess? *allya pls stop trying to write angst we’ve already established that is not a thing you can do*

something something chlonath

im never gonna forgive @powerdragonmoon for the fact that i thought “beecock” while glancing over this to figure out wth was going on. cholaon works here too tho so that is what i shall call it //sideways glare at moon

take your otp. now put them on a trampoline. but heaven forbid you ever finish the fic- (chlonath if it wasnt obvious)

nathanette doll au from forever ago with @lotus-duckies that was a real concept its a shame i have 0 commitment

i wanna call this lukanathanette but i honestly don’t remember where i was going with it so idk

hi uhm what is this and why is it so depressing allya fr quit self projecting on emo tomatoes oml

chlonath established relationship i guess??

museum brotp go skating?? is that what this is?

how much chlonath do i hAVE also chloe u tsundere

nathaniel is Yearning n tbh i dont blame him cause same (ft. marc)

i could swear this was gonna be luklonath (chlolukanath??) but i wouldnt be able to remember-

if anyone can figure out what’s going on with marc pls tell me bc i dont-

cholaon but theres no context

Oh god im finally done good lord that’s all of em i hope i never have to look at a mlb doc again in my life anyway pls be grateful n enjoy the crumbs n stuff thanks i sacrificed my sanity for this-

#writing from the void #and now #allya writes #i did this for yall thirteen (13) ig followers man #whew #happy 3k woot #now take ur food #n be thankful #uwu #uhh how to tag #o yea #ml #mlb #miraculous ladybug #ml fic #not gonna tag ninjago cause #all too well #barely #n then #bbb #boboiboy #bbb fic #aight thats it #im out #abandoned wips #if you want moar then ask 4 it legit #now my work here is done #finally

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is it bad that i'm simping for kidnapper Kaizo like ah yes please take me instead creepy duck butt hair guy

ngl i’d probably follow an attractive man offering me free ice cream who also has an attractive brother even if i didnt have a mean babysitter but also like. don’t get kidnapped.

actually tbh it depends what his motive is maybe tapops is running low on soldiers so they start stealing children to train em early who knows oh wow i just remembered my one parent!kaizo au i had--

#answers from the void #meta #you can send meta asks to my mainblog too issokie hhssh #kaizo is a stinky bastard lmao #dont get kidnapped kiddos #Anonymous

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kaifang au where everything is the same but kaizo is child kidnapper

He already knows all too well what stands in front of him, another pawn in his brother’s sick game of torture and blackmail, playing with the lives of the innocent and naive, but still he asks, “Captain, what’s this?”

Kaizo flashes him a twisted grin, though the young girl who’s wrist he holds in an iron grip is none the more aware of the true intentions of the generous man who offered her evasion from her own tyrannical babysitter, his tone is jovial as he answers, “it would be a shame if we didn’t get some ice cream after she’s been such a wonderful good girl, don’t you think?”

Fang swallows, casting a glance at the girl, her eyes widening in excitement at the prospect, his stomach churns at her childish wonder, and looks back to his brother, nodding stiffly, “right, of course, Captain.”

#this was so hard oml #i had to sit for a while and figure what kinda child kidnapper he gon be #idek what this is #but hey at least i wrote something for the first time in uh #forever?? #oop #kaifang #writing from the void #kaifangst #i mean it kinda is #hshshsh #child kidnapper au #im not gonna dare reread this idk what the heckity it Is- #Anonymous

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1) Give me a pairing.

2) Give me an AU setting.

3) I will write you a three-sentence fic.

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My Followers: *send writing prompts to my inbox*

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Reblog if you're a fanfic writer and you wanna know what your followers' favorite story of yours is ❤

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Reblog if you write fic and people can inbox you random-ass questions about your stories, itemized number lists be damned.

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gib me plsssssss

150 Angst/Horror Prompts

“The screams all sound the same…”

“You’re gone… I watched you disappear…”

“We all watched it happened, and time stood still.”

“It feels as if time hasn’t passed”

“I feel stuck. And everyone is moving without me.”

“They keep staring at me.”

“What if I never get better?”

“Why wont they wake up?”

“You said they’d come home. Where are they?”

“I used to think I didn’t deserve love. Now I know that it’s true.”

“We found you crying. What happened?”

“Who hurt you?”

“You’re scared…. and broken…”

“I don’t deserve this. I don’t deserve you.”

“What did I do wrong?”

“It’s so cold…”

“Am I going to die?”

“Please answer me.”

“Nothing ever goes right!”

“Why do you have to ruin everything?!”

“Why do you hate me so much?”

“Things will be better this way.”

“I swear to god if you jump-”

“I trusted you.”

“I never thought this would happen.”

“This is all my fault.”

“You’re the worst mistake I’ve ever made!”

“Are you even listening?”

“Why are you always so sad?”

“Why have you been hiding this from us?”

“… Where did all of these scars come from?”

“Were you drinking again?”

“I gave you everything and this is how you repay me?”

“Did I ever even matter to you?”

“Would they even notice if I vanished?”

“What if I end up being forgotten?”

“I don’t know what I’d do without them.”

“I don’t think I can make it.”

“Why are you being so nice to me?!”

“You’re supposed to be yelling at me! And… and hitting me! Why aren’t you doing that?!”

“Please don’t look at me…”

“I never want to see your face again.”

“You’re dead to me.”

“I wish I never met you.”

“Why do you look at me like that?”

“I found those medical papers in your room… Why didn’t you tell me?”

“Are you going to be okay?”

“Stop lying to me!”

“Please, just breathe.”

“Where did you go?”

“I thought you died.”

“Why are you doing this to yourself?”

“I just wanted to help…”

“It hurts so much.”

“Why can’t I stop thinking about you?”

“I can’t feel anything anymore.”

“It never mattered anyway.”

“I’ll just be forgotten.”

“There’s too much going on!”

“I can’t think like this.”

“You will never be good enough.”

“It’s okay. They’re gone now.”

“Why did they have to be so cruel?”

“I hate you!”

“I didn’t mean it… Please forgive me.”

“Get out of my head.”

“Put the pills down.”

“I can’t hear you.”

“My eyes hurt… why can’t I see?”

“Bad dream?”

“My throat feels tight.”

“I-I can’t breathe!”

“Please help me!”

“I think I broke my leg-!”

“Quiet- I can hear it.”

“I want to cut your hand off so I can hold it forever.”

“Nothing could go wrong!”

“Where am I?”

“What did you do to them?!”

“Where are they?”

“Will they be okay?”

“Don’t turn around. It’s behind us.”

“Breathe slowly, show no signs of fear.”

“I think it’s touching me.”

“Hey, who turned out the lights?”

“There’s something in the kitchen.”

“Did you hear that?”

“Please tell me it’s just you down there.”

“If this is a joke it isn’t funny!”

“Where are you? I’m scared.”

“My light wont work.”

“This is all your fault!”

“Wake up!”

“Why aren’t they breathing?”

“Please tell me this is fake.”

“Just shut the hell up.”

“You’re the reason why I’m like this.”

“I thought you loved me.”

“If this is what you think is best…”

“Am I just a toy to you?”

“Nothing ever mattered to me.”

“I am damaged.”

“The weakest must go…”

“I can hear it calling my name.”

“I feel so sick.”

“I’m tired of living in a life where I’ll never be happy.”

“All I can think of are those rainy days.”

“Why can’t things just be the way they always have been?”

“Do you not care anymore?”

“I would rather die.”

“I’m tired of getting wounds that will never heal.”

“Why am I always so tired?”

“Is this what sadness does to people?”

“You mean to say that you’ve never been touched?”

“Please don’t touch me.”

“It feels gross.”

“It burns.”

“Stop! Turn it off!”

“Why are you doing this?!”

“Why can’t I make you happy?”

“I don’t need you anymore.”

“You were never useful to me.”

“Why are you still here?”

“You have a lot of nerve showing up here.”

“Please don’t shoot!”

“When they died, I feel as if I died with them.”

“Life isn’t worth living without you.”

“I need you. Why do you always leave me?”

“I thought I told you to leave.”

“Why is the window open?”

“This was the worst mistake I’ve ever made.”

“I had a dream where I killed you.”

“I had a dream where I killed myself.”

“Why won’t this nightmare end?”

“God must hate me.”

“I think the medicine is starting to kick in.”

“That wasn’t there before.”

“Who are all of these people?”

“I don’t remember who I used to be.”

“I deserve to rot.”

“We all know you hate me. Just admit it.”

“You promised me nothing would happen.”

“The creature is staring at me again.”

“We found you in the snow. What the hell happened?”

“Can you hear me?”

“Why am I always late?”

“This is all my fault.”

“They hate me, don’t they?”

“I just want to look at you.”

“I don’t want to fall asleep. I’m scared.”

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chlonath au from chlonath week 2k17, now including a brand new oneshot!

#chlonath #miraculous ladybug #nathaniel kurtzberg #chloe bourgeois

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new fic y'all