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My friend died this week.

I came on here after so long to try and find his old blog but I can’t seem to find it.

I realize all my old posts are about wanting to die and being sad, but I just want to say that life is precious. Life may not always be what you hoped for, and I don’t know what anyone else is going through, but there will always be someone you leave behind. It doesn’t matter who you are. There will always be someone who wishes you were still around.

My friend was a wonderful person and he left us all behind. The happiness he brought us will remain forever, but we can only keep what we already have, we can no longer create new memories with him.

He’s gone.

We can’t tell him how much we’ll miss him. We can’t tell him how wonderful his presence is. We can’t tell him how much we will cherish every minute that we got to spend with him.

I can’t express how important your life is. It doesn’t matter how much you hate yourself or hate the world, there are things worth living for. Someone loves you, someone will miss you, someone appreciates you. Please don’t leave them behind.

I hope that you can find the time to cherish the relationships you have with others. You can reach out to people. You can ask someone how they’re doing. You can tell someone you appreciate the time you’ve spent together. You can reconnect with old friends. You can keep telling yourself that you have all the time in the world. You’ll talk to them again someday. You’ll bump into each other somewhere and chat. Stop waiting.

Your childhood friends will die someday.

Don’t let them die without reminding them how much they mean to you. Don’t let them feel forgotten. Don’t wait. Reach out now before it’s too late. Tell them you appreciate their existence and all the adventures you went on together. Tell them you remember all the fun you had. Tell them how important they are.

The last time I saw my friend was 5 years ago when I casually bumped into him at the store at 2am. Now he’s dead. I can’t talk to him now. I can’t say hi. I can’t reach out. I have to just accept that I let all my friendships slip away while I secluded myself. I am so full of regret and I can’t do anything about it. All I can do is reach out to the rest of my friend group, trying to correct my mistakes before they’re gone too.

Please reach out to the people you cherish. And please don’t leave those that you cherish behind.

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“…and you drink a little too much and try a little too hard. And you go home to a cold bed and think, ‘That was fine’. And your life is a long line of fine.”

— Gillian Flynn  (via alunit)

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There are people who are always in love with the sky, no matter the weather. One day you will find someone who’ll love you the same way.

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Four years and I still cry sometimes First love never die Four years and I still cry sometimes First love never die

Soko “First Love Never Die” (via the-sea-of-immeasurable-loss)

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If it’s true love it never dies

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