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[eleiyaumei]

John Malkovich's character in Dangerous Liaisons (1988) is an incel, only a seducer in the sense of a pick-up artist

He's so goddamn creepy and aggressive, he scares me!

And with Michelle Pfeiffer's character, he constantly demands she have sex with him because he's in love with her Dx I can relate to her (because she is mostly scared of him and I have some experience with creepy guys being attracted to me) but I cannot imagine ever developing romantic feelings to this walking red flag. He's only ever attractive when he's flirting with Glen Close's character because then he mainly is non-threatening and playful and they're both on an equal footing.

(I feel like several elements of this movie come from the fact that both the director and the script writer were men...)

Also, if you decide to watch the movie, here are some content warnings I noticed:

sexual assault, sexual coercion, dubious consent, sexualization of a minor (actress)/showing a minor actress and her naked body in sexual situations, domestic abuse/abusive relationship, verbal, sexual and physical abuse.

#dangerous liaisons #movie #john malkovich #hot take #or not #incel character

[eleiyaumei]

I see no difference.

(After watching cari can read's and Haley Whipjack's plot summaries of ACOTAR and Once Upon A Time respectively, I am CONVINCED that Rhysand was inspired by Captain Hook (not only because of the personality but also because of the role in the story, collaboration with one book's/season's antagonist, later redemption, winner of a love 'triangle', ...).

#acotar #a court of thorns and roses #rhysand #once upon a time #ouat #captain hook #killian jones #parallels #I'm too asexual and enby to ever like ACOTAR #but I had a crush on Hook as a teen so I kinda get the Rhysand hype #but also #let's all be aware about the misdeeds of both these characters

[eleiyaumei]

There's no straight explanation for this xD

Ich habe Goethes Liebesgedichte ja geliebt, weil sie meinem Teenager-Ich sehr relatable waren, aber letzten Endes war das Schwärmen für Frauen immer oberflächlich, auf Aussehen, Verhalten o.Ä. reduziert, und vor allem nur ein Ausdruck der Verliebtheit in heftige Gefühle, nicht in die beschriebenen Frauen.

In diesem Austausch zwischen Schiller und Goethe sehen wir eine Liebe für das Wesen des anderen, ein ernsthaftes Interesse an des anderen Meinung, eine Beziehung auf Augenhöhe.

Nennt es meinetwegen weiterhin romantische Freundschaft, aber als alloromantische, asexuelle Person sehe ich hier den Ausdruck romantischer Liebe.

Ich bin der Meinung, dass es einen beträchtlichen Anteil an Leuten gibt, die aufgrund von Abneigung oder Nichtempfindung sexueller Anziehung gegenüber bestimmten Gendern/Personen fälschlicherweise glauben, keine romantische Anziehung zu diesen Gendern/Personen zu empfinden. Allo- und Heteronormativität machen uns immerzu das Leben schwer... *seufz* Glaubt mir, das ist auch etwas, an das ich mit mir selbst arbeite.

schoethe best of: Die Leiden einer Fernbeziehung

#schoethe #goethe #schiller #german #romantic friendship? #I don't think so #(ofc there's still the possibility that they weren't romantically attracted to each other) #(and you can also interpret this as queerplatonic)

[eleiyaumei]

Witcher fandom hot takes

most (vocal) Witcher fans have never read the books, only played the games

many if not most people that complained about the casting of PoC in the Netflix series are racist* (which is sadly ironic because racism is a frequent issue in the Witcher books and games; and btw, black people do exist in the books)

the people that took issue with the Netflix series being marketed as "the new Game of Thrones" and claimed that The Witcher was nothing like GoT have never read the Witcher saga (nor A Song of Ice and Fire)**

anyone who finds the Red Baron's storyline in Wild Hunt sad and tragic because of the Red Baron's fate and only shows sympathy towards him is likely to be a misogynistic a**hole like the Red Baron himself (Anyone who has sympathy, not just empathy, with a domestic ab*ser without centering the harm they caused their survivors is more than morally dubious to me.)

*You can actually complain about/criticize the casting of PoC without being racist: by criticizing WHO was casted as PoC (only [morally] bad people or antagonists, insignificant side characters, characters whose main function is to serve important white characters, etc.)

** I just read Time of Contempt and it shared several major aspects with ASOIAF: Political intrigues, powerful people pursuing their own egocentric goals and their decisions and actions causing a wide range of chaos, suffering and death, especially to the ordinary and unprivileged populace, a main character who dislikes politics and agendas and just wants to live a simple life but gets dragged into this mess by others, a fem POV character who goes through the WORST, ...

#witcher #the witcher #wiedźmin #the witcher books #the witcher games #the witcher 3 #witcher wild hunt #the witcher netflix #fandom #hot take #hot takes #fandom hot takes #criticism #asoiaf #game of thrones #red baron #just my opinion #sorry i needed to vent #before this year ends

[eleiyaumei]

"You can't be attracted to people of your own zodiac sign!"

People of my zodiac sign:

#kpop #kpop faves #exo #dreamcatcher #stray kids #exo lay #dreamcatcher siyeon #stray kids bang chan #zhang yixing #lee siyeon #christopher bang #libra #zodiac signs

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reblog for larger sample size :)

#poll #tumblr polls #eye color #I do have heterochromia #but my eyes are still green overall #the left one just has more brown around the pupil #so I chose green

[eleiyaumei]

Poll response: Gender in Hakuōki

A few months ago I made a poll asking about how you feel about how Hakuōki portrays/handles gender and this is my response to it.

First of all, I’d like to thank everyone who voted. This was intended as a poll about your feelings, i.e. personal impressions, and not meant to find out the “truth”. I’d like to encourage everyone who wants to elaborate on their impressions to do so and for those knowledgeable about topics like Historical Accuracy, to publish posts about these in order to spread knowledge and potentially clear up misconceptions.

Secondly, to the person who asked/chose the option: “Why do you care about this?”

I care about this because every person has their own relationship to gender – indifferent or not – and my relationship to it clashed so hard with Hakuōki’s in KW/EB that it gave me gender dysphoria. I wanted to know how other Hakuōki players/fans reacted to it – not to judge them, just to understand them better.

Thirdly, I want to lead the way and tell you about what I feel in regards to how Hakuouki treats gender. To be exact, I’d like to discuss the appeal of the franchise’s fem MC with the leading question:

Whom is Chizuru for?

Oh, and before I start:

Please don’t judge people for (not) being okay with Hakuōki’s treatment of gender. Everyone has their own experiences and reasons for feeling these ways. Reducing it to “internalized misogyny” is generalizing and redundant.

(BTW, internalized misogyny (or sexism) can influence both sides of the coin:

PROs can be okay with the conservative gender roles in Hakuōki because they were taught this is the way men and women are and should be and they’re comfortable in these roles.

ANTIs can be not okay with them because they were taught femininity/womanhood was inferior and weak and they don’t want to be seen that way.)

Now, I hope I can illustrate the ways that make us feel what we do in regards to gender.

1) Chizuru is for “Not Like Other Girls™ but also kinda still like other girls” girls and women

Snappy (and provocative to some) way to say:

Chizuru is for girls and women that struggle with their femininity/girlhood/womanhood but still identify with it.

Perhaps they don’t like makeup or feminine clothing, perhaps they don’t like hyperfemininity (i.e. wearing pink, skirts, dresses, accentuating their fem* body characteristics, going shopping etc.). In some areas, they might think of themselves as unfeminine but in others, they’re able to fulfill what’s expected of girls and women (e.g. having sex only in romantic relationships, marrying a man, starting a family, being a housewife or stay-at-home girlfriend).

Despite not matching with 100% of their gender’s expectations, they still want to be seen as a girl or woman and not as man or stereotypical lesbian or whatnot. And they want to be desired and respected specifically as a girl or woman.

Most Hakuōki guys, especially Harada and Hijikata, acknowledge that and that’s appealing for girls and women as described above.

And then there’s...

2) Chizuru is for people that don’t care about gender roles and expectations

Androgynous-looking, cross-dressing, sword-wearing, living-in-a-men-dominated-world Chizuru is appealing for Gender-Non-Conforming, trans*, non-binary, genderfluid, genderqueer people and others.

I was raised by a gender-non-conforming woman who builds sheds and does housework, whose income feeds the family, who wears colorful but gender-neutral outfits, whose arms are muscular, chest rather flat but body still feminine, who did karate and handball, who likes women like Whitney Houston, Sigourney Weaver/Alien’s Ripley and Downton Abbey’s Dowager Countess of Grantham, who loves the military not for the “hot masculine men” but for the discipline, weaponry and combative prowess... (I don’t like the military but I see where she’s coming from.)

What I meant to say was: The way I grew up influenced my view on gender. My education lacked a focus on gender roles and expectations, with my mom constantly defying them and my dad not being fond of (hyper)femininity. I wasn’t told that fighting was only for boys and men so I never felt bad for being interested in it. I never questioned my gender identity because no one seemed to care about how feminine or not I was.

The game developers did not include the wishes of players who wanted to fight in a samurai visual novel. They added a singular training scene with Kondo, not to teach Chizuru swordfighting but for the player to develop sympathy for Kondo so that they’ll feel bad once he’s executed.

They could have fixed this easily by including the options to fight so every player that wanted to could do so and those who didn’t could have not done it – and accompanying both options should have been no or neutral consequences so as to not tell players that they are wrong to choose one option over another. Or if they are positive/negative consequences, make them adhere to the respective love interest. (Like how saving Harada at the end of KW does not give you affection because it hurts his masculinity/does not fit with his preferences for his future wife.) Easy fix to make everyone happy, no? Instead of hating the game (experience), we can instead come to the conclusion that we like one love interest less or more.

Also, I want to address this statement I saw:

“The way Chizuru is portrayed is nice to see because women should not have manly qualities in order to be seen as strong.” (*This is no direct quote.)

Yes, you’re right. Feminism is about not forcing roles and behaviors onto people depending on their gender, physical attributes etc., and it’s also about not privileging one gender (expression) over another.

But, do you know that a lot of people in the manosphere and other patriarchal spaces use this sentiment to enforce traditional gender roles and exaggerate the masculine attributes they see in popular media (like Shadiversity sees in Princess Peach in the new Mario movie) and claim that popular media only portrays “strong women” as having masculine attributes, often without convincing arguments? I just say this here to spread awareness so that you don’t fall for manosphere conspiracy theories and such.

Especially when we look at otome games, most fem MCs adhere to traditional fem gender expectations and this is okay (while also often criticized in reviews) but this makes any strong feeling you have towards not wanting Chizuru portrayed in ways you associate with masculinity seem over-the-top. Like, don’t you think that there are otome game players out there who want their MCs to be different from the majority – for whatever reason? It’s great you can see yourself in these fem MCs or you just like seeing such fem MCs but please acknowledge that you are not the only otome game players out there and others might feel differently from you.

(I hope you’re not coming from a place of seeing otome games as ‘one of the last bastions of traditional femininity/gender roles’ because gatekeeping this whole genre of games and forcing each game to adhere to certain standards relating to gender is not fair to anyone [and arguably sexist].)

Another reason why some people are frustrated with Chizuru or with the treatment of her by characters and the franchise as a whole has to do with what X talked about in their critique of the Hakuouki anime series:

Set-up and pay-off.

KW sets up Chizuru as a cross-dressing young woman with a sword, who has basic knowledge in sword fighting, proves herself to be able to protect herself sufficiently (in the test by Saito and Okita), wants herself to be useful and not a burden on others.

So it feels forced, illogical, maybe even ill-willed whenever KW/EB puts Chizuru in compromising situations where she does nothing but scream and cry and has to be saved by others which fuels her self-loathing and feelings of being a burden but she never asks or is being offered to be trained nor does she become able to defend herself in the long run. There are singular scenes of her training but it never pays off. (If she was never set-up to be swordfight-savvy enough to protect herself, her always not being able to protect herself would be justified and not (as) frustrating.) And even in Okita’s EB route, Chizuru wants to fight, Okita allows her to, she kills a man, then has to be saved from another and what does Okita say to Chizuru, who clearly wants to fight by his side? That she has to leave everything to him – without offering her to teach her even though he is a kenjutsu prodigy and instructor. Set-up: Chizuru wants to fight. Pay-off: She fights and kills a man ONE SINGULAR TIME. Like, at least adhere to the Rule of Three... (Or do you think this adheres to this rule: 1) Chizuru proves herself to Saito and Okita, 2) she saves Okita from Kazama, 3) she kills a soldier? Well, it’s at least not enough pay-off for me.)

EB especially spends a lot of time describing in excruciating detail how much Chizuru suffers from guilt and self-loathing, thinking herself a burden on anyone, and how is this resolved? By the love interests saying some phrases about caring about and loving her, needing her (as emotional support...pet, tbh), kissing, sometimes sleeping with her and/or marrying her. She is never given a character arc for growth/change because the love interests are always prioritized over her.

(And she is so goddamn passive in 'her own story'... I would argue that Hakuōki is not about Chizuru, it's about the love interests. She is the Watson to the Sherlock Holmes.)

#hakuouki #hakuoki #hakuōki #kyoto winds #edo blossoms #my polls #gender #discussion about gender #analysis #hakuouki analysis #just my opinion though

[eleiyaumei]

Kid-me loving Bernd probably was foreshadowing that I was to become depressed later in life...

AND he demonstrates that I always loved and always will love grumpy characters xD

Bernd das Brot

Kermit the Frog

#poll #puppet poll #bernd das brot #german tv #kika

[eleiyaumei]

I'm done uploading the romance compilations of Hakuōki: Edo Blossoms; feel free to check them out!

Hakuōki: Edo Blossoms - Romance Compilations

The follow-up to my Kyoto Winds love interest scene compilations.

Every route is recorded, every video is edited, now you just need to wait until I upload them on my YouTube channel.

These videos are only about the romance in EB, not about the love interests' personal journeys (except if they overlap), so there might be scenes missing that you liked but I didn't consider romantic.

This post will have links added to every video uploaded.

(Upload dates are in brackets:)

Hijikata (9/2) | Saito (9/9) | Harada (9/16)

HaraShira KW&EB scenes (9/23, bc it's Bisexuality Day)

Okita (9/30) | Heisuke (10/7) | Kazama (10/14) | Sannan (10/21)

Yamazaki (10/28) | Nagakura (11/4) | Souma (11/11)

Sakamoto (11/18) | Iba (11/25)

@alterncs Sorry that this will take a while ^^'

#hakuōki #hakuouki #hakuoki #edo blossoms #love interest scenes #romance compilations #okita souji #hijikata toshizo #saito hajime #harada sanosuke #toudou heisuke #kazama chikage #sannan keisuke #yamazaki susumu #nagakura shinpachi #souma kazue #sakamoto ryouma #iba hachirou #harashira

[eleiyaumei]

🎶✨️when u get this u have to put 5 songs u actually listen to, publish. Then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)🎶✨️

Since I'm 'traumatized' by chain letters from back in the day, I won't send this ask around. But if anyone wants to answer this ask too, feel free to do it!

Sign by EXO

Bewitched by PIXY

Undercover by CRAXY

Crazy by 4MINUTE

Playground by Bea Miller

Yep, it's mostly Kpop... and I'm not ashamed to admit it! xD

#ask #music #kpop

[eleiyaumei]

Among all the characters in Hakuoki, who do you think is the one who is the most muscular?

Is this a trick question or is there something about muscles that I don't know? Anyone with actual knowledge about muscle building, please share it here and correct me if I'm wrong!

It's Shinpachi, isn't it? He is eating and working out a lot to build up muscles and compared to the other characters, his muscles are the most defined/visible. (Doesn't mean they are the most built, though.) And whenever Shinpachi brags about his muscles, nobody seems to disagree that they are well built...

But seriously, I'm not the right person to answer this question, I'm a passionate workout-avoider ^^'

#hakuōki #hakuouki #hakuoki #nagakura shinpachi #ask #Is Shinpachi the most muscular character?

[eleiyaumei]

short hair!Chizuru should be canon in more routes and/or HSSL

I was working on my AU!Police when I needed to draw Chizuru with short hair like in Sakamoto’s route. 

I really want her to cut her hair in my fic. I don’t know when but I will do it 😂

I will do a better version than this doodle in the following days because Chizuru in my fic is my queen. I’ve so much love for her ❤

#hakuoki #hakuouki #yukimura chizuru #chizuru yukimura #fanart #hairstyle #hair style #no I'm not biased bc I recently realized that short hair IS ME #*cough*

[eleiyaumei]

WE DID SO WELL

I don't care whether anyone else likes it, I'm just happy we did this! ^-^

DIY EXO card game arrived 🥰

#exo #exo game #exo fan game #exo werewolf game

[eleiyaumei]

I'm halfway done with uploading the romance compilations in Hakuouki: Edo Blossoms. Check them out if you like!

Hakuōki: Edo Blossoms - Romance Compilations

The follow-up to my Kyoto Winds love interest scene compilations.

Every route is recorded, every video is edited, now you just need to wait until I upload them on my YouTube channel.

These videos are only about the romance in EB, not about the love interests' personal journeys (except if they overlap), so there might be scenes missing that you liked but I didn't consider romantic.

This post will have links added to every video uploaded.

(Upload dates are in brackets:)

Hijikata (9/2) | Saito (9/9) | Harada (9/16)

HaraShira KW&EB scenes (9/23, bc it's Bisexuality Day)

Okita (9/30) | Heisuke (10/7) | Kazama (10/14) | Sannan (10/21)

Yamazaki (10/28) | Nagakura (11/4) | Souma (11/11)

Sakamoto (11/18) | Iba (11/25)

@alterncs Sorry that this will take a while ^^'

#hakuōki #hakuouki #hakuoki #edo blossoms #love interest scenes #romance compilations #okita souji #hijikata toshizo #saito hajime #harada sanosuke #toudou heisuke #kazama chikage #sannan keisuke #yamazaki susumu #nagakura shinpachi #souma kazue #sakamoto ryouma #iba hachirou #harashira

[eleiyaumei]

Cover-in-progress

It really was so much fun figuring out how to combine the game mechanics of Werewolf/Mafia with the EXO lore ^-^

Ask me about the exo (kpop) themed werewolf game thar i made with @eleiyaumei

#exo #fan game #work in progress

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EXO - EXO'rdium in Japan

(Help! My friend made me into an EXO-L Dx)

(Baekhyun's moves should look ridiculous but he's doing them so seriously that it kinda looks cool...)

(I'm wayyy too obsessed with Sehunnie's GIF O.O)

Source

Being a noona-fan of a group can be nice but sometimes you just wanna admire and look up to your hyungs, you know?

#kpop #exo #exo'rdium #exo d.o #exo baekhyun #exo suho #exo xiumin #exo chanyeol #exo kai #exo lay #exo chen #exo sehun #byun baekhyun #kim junmyeon #park chanyeol #kim jongin #oh sehun #kim minseok #zhang yixing #kim jongdae #doh kyungsoo #gifs #my gifs

[eleiyaumei]

Passively learning Korean through K-Pop

samkyeo [삼켜] = (to) swallow

EXO - Monster, Stray Kids - Venom, PIXY - Bewitched, CRAXY - Lion

#kpop #k pop #exo #skz #pixy #craxy #korean #lyrics