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My first planned binge in months. I hate myself I was restricting so well. I am a failure and a fat ass

Also don’t mind my fat leg in the photo 😫

#anorecca #anorecya #anorekic #bulim1a #bulimina #bulimxa #i want to be skiny #i want to purge #low cal ana #pr0 an4 #binge eating #binging

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its so weird how much depressive shit i get away with saying just because people think i'm joking.

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Why rice cakes are a common food among ED community but not cucumbers?

Cucumber has 2 cal per one

Rice cake has 35

Cucumber is full of water

Rice cake is dry af

Cucumbers are cheap

Rice cakes are not

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REBLOG IF ITS OKAY TO TALK TO YOU.

Please.

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I’m so hungry I can feel my heart beat in my stomach… I must be doing smth right for once

I will be skinny

#anorecca #anorecya #anorekic #bulim1a #bulimina #bulimxa #i want to be skiny #i want to purge #low cal ana #pr0 an4

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How I lost 20kg!!! (75kg-55kg)

I see a lot of totally unrealistic time frames in this community and I know (from experience) it makes you feel like shit that you aren’t making progress fast enough but you just have to keep trying and not give up. REMEMBER EVERYONE HAS A DIFFERENT BODY SHAPE SO DONT COMPARE YOURSELF TO OTHERS

It took me around a year to lose the weight and there were times where I stopped working at it and that’s when I stopped losing weight.

What I did:

Restrict for a few days then eat healthy for a few days so my body had a chance to recharge and reduced my chance of binging.

I did 20mins of HIIT training a day (cardio) and reduced how much I worked out during restricting periods because it’s so dangerous to exercise while restricting.

I did binge, but because I worked out everyday I didn’t feel as guilty when I did binge. I did purge at times but because of my 8 year struggle with binging/purging I am still trying to stop that.

I still live this lifestyle now and am not trying to lose anymore weight because anything lower than 55kg for me is really dangerous.

I’m 5’6” and 23y/o. Good luck and don’t give up, YOU CAN DO IT!!!❤️

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130kcal for an ENTIRE chocolate cake

If you’ve already seen this recipe on MPA, it’s because I posted it there a while back. Anyway, here it is:

Ingredients

20g all-purpose flour (72.8)

10g cocoa powder (22.8)

2 egg whites (34)

40g allulose (14)*

Total Calories: 143.6kcal

*You can, of course, use zero-calorie sweetener if you’d like. The resulting cake will be 129.6kcal.

Instructions

Beat the egg whites to soft peaks and add in the allulose in 2-3 stages, mixing well between each addition. Continue to beat to form stiff peaks.

Fold in the flour and cocoa powder, being careful not to knock out too much air from the meringue.

Put the batter into a cake tin, flatten out the surface (or don’t and get an ugly cake), and bake in a preheated, 170˚C oven for 20 minutes.

Turn off the oven but leave the cake in there for 10 more minutes.

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40 calorie chocolate pudding

best way to beat late night chocolate cravings

(MAKES ½ CUP)

2 tsp cornstarch - 15 cals

2 tsp unsweetened cocoa - 12 cals

100ml almond milk - 13 cals

1 tsp sweetener - 0 cals

💫 mix the powders together and add a small amount of milk to form a smooth paste

💫 add the rest of the milk and mix

💫 microwave for 2 minutes, stirring after 30 seconds

this creates a thick pudding consistency and can be eaten hot or cold (will thicken more as it cools) so would be perfect to cook in bulk and keep in the fridge if you can withstand eating it all!

more sweetener can be added to taste, I personally love dark chocolate so this is slightly bitter (darker chocolate works as an appetite suppressant)

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BEST ANTI BINGE TIP.

whenever I feel I’m about to binge, I take a small sip of chilli sauce and immediately feels like not putting anything in my mouth, except for tons of water. You always can buy a little flask, and keeping it in the kitchen where you can see it. 

the second i read this i inhaled all of the chili pepper we have at home /hj

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stomach: please… food… I’m just full of water and diet Coke…

me: full you say?

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I just ended my 24 hr fast with eating two pieces of bread and 2 kabobs and I’m debating being more of a pig and eating another I hate myself 🤪

#low cal ana #anorekic #anorecca #anorecya #i want to purge #i want to be skiny #i’m a dumbass #i hate this #i hatemyself #bulimxa #bulim1a #bulimina #binging

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My saviour

#low cal ana #anorecca #anorecya #pr0 an4 #anorekic #ana #starving #bulimxa #bulim1a #bulimina #skinny #i want to purge #i want to be skiny #don’t eat #fuck food #thinspo #eating disoder things #eating disoder tips #meanspo

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My favorite low-cal substitutes and options! All under 50 calories.

Feel free to add to this! I didn’t include everything out there :)

Drinks 🧋

0 cal - herbal tea 🫖

0 cal - green tea 🍵

0 cal - water flavoring like Mio

0 cal - Diet Coke 🥤

0 cal - pretty much any diet soda

2 cal - Black Coffee ☕️

2 cal - black tea

10 cal - monster ultra (I like paradise and fiesta especially)

20 cal - other sugar free energy drinks

39 cal - shot of sake 🍶

Breakfast (snacks, smoothies, etc)

25 cal - 1 large egg white 🍳

32 cal - 100g Strawberries (~50 cal per cup) 🍓

40 cal - 1/4 c low fat cottage cheese 🦴

42 cal - 1 kiwi 🥝

42 cal - 84 g (1 thick slice) pineapple 🍍

47 cal - 154g (1 c) watermelon 🍉

50 cal - 1/2 grapefruit 🍊

50 cal - 3 oz plain Greek yoghurt

50 cal - 2 tbsp serving powdered peanut butter 🥜

50 cal - 4 oz (120ml) low fat milk 🥛

Meals (mix and match this shit!) 🍴

0-10 cal - serving shirataki noodles 🍜

0-20cal - Broth 🐥

5 cal - 1 c lettuce 🥬

6 cal - 28g (1 oz) pickled onion (do this yourself! So easy! So good on everything) 🧅

7 cal - 1 c spinach 🥗

16 cal - 70g (1 c sliced) mushrooms

17 cal - 1/2 c kale

20 cal - 1 c zucchini 🥒

20 cal - 82g (1 c. cubed) eggplant 🍆

21 cal - 1 tbsp parmesan cheese 🧀

25 cal - whole tomato 🍅

25 - 148g (1 med) bell Pepper 🫑

30 cal - 78g (1 med) Carrot 🥕

30 cal - 116g (1 c) pumpkin

30-40 cal - 1/2 pack or can tuna 🐟

35 cal - 1/2 serving (1.5 oz) cod 🐠

36 cal - 1 c miso soup 🍲

37 cal - 40g shelled edamame

38 cal - 1 c Brussels sprouts

39 cal - 1/2 hard or soft boiled egg 🥚

39 cal - 1/2 serving (42g) halibut (white fish) 🐟

40 cal - 1 c arugula 🥗

40 cal - 186g (10 spears) asparagus

45 cal - 148g (1 med) broccoli 🥦

45 cal - 6 med raw oysters 🦪

45 cal - 3 oz/85g lite tofu

50 cal - 100g (1/2 small-med) sweet potato 🍠

50 cal - 1/2 corn cob 🌽

50 cal - 50g shrimp 🍤

Snacks 🍬

0-8 cal - pickles 🥒

5-10 cal - 1 tbsp salsa

17 cal - 1 passion fruit (18g)

23 cal - 1 tbsp hummus

25 - serving seaweed snack

25 - 1 med bell Pepper 🫑

30 cal - 22 Organic Yogis (okay technically this is baby food but it’s just freeze dried Greek yoghurt and fruit so shut up it’s good) 🍓🍌

30 cal - 300g/1 Cucumber 🥒

35 cal - 1 cutie (small orange/tangerine) 🍊

40 cal - 1 light babybel 🧀

47 cal - 1.5 c Air popped popcorn 🍿

50 cal - 6 oven-baked parm crisps 🧀

50 cal - >1/2 c unsweetened apple sauce 🍎

50 cal - 3 dried apricots 🍑

50 cal - 15 pistachios 🌰🥜

Dessert 🎂

0 cal - Diet Root Beer (I don’t care that it’s a drink! It’s so insanely sweet and it kicks the ass of my cravings. Also, my list my rules. Sue me) 🍺

5 cal - serving Sugar Free Jello 🍮

5 cal - 1 tbsp Hershey’s Sugar Free Syrup 🍫

~14 cal - WHOLE BOTTLE Too Tarts sweet sour spray candy (so a few sprays is just 0-3 cal)

20 cal - 2 tbsp Frozen Cool Whip Lite (seriously, eat this frozen) 🍨

20-50 cal - baked fruit (bake some peaches, apples, etc. and mix with Splenda, cinnamon, etc.) 🍑🍎

23 cal - fun size sweet tart pack

25 cal - no sugar added small outshine popsicles 🍧

25 cal - 1 pack smarties (American) 🍬

35 cal - swiss miss reduced calorie hot chocolate ☕️🍫

40 cal - small Outshine Popsicles 

40 cal - 5 sugar free hard candies 🍬

42 cal - 1 Hershey assorted mini 🍫

43 cal - fat free green yoghurt with sugar-free jam 🍧

46 cal - 2 regular marshmallows

48 - 8 mini Cinnamon Sugar skinny pop Rice Cakes

50 cal - 1-2 squares dark chocolate 🍫

50 cal - 2 Dum dum suckers 🍭

50 cal - ~25 sugar free jelly beans

50 cal - halo top pops (lots of flavors) 🍦

Miscellaneous

0-2 cal - any herb/spice 🌿

4 cal - 1 clove garlic 🧄

5 cal - 1 stick sugar free gum

50 cal - 1/4 container White cheddar seasoning (2 cal per 1/4 tsp) 🧀🧂

50 cal - 10 sugar free mints 🌱

Disclaimer: actual calorie counts may vary depending on serving, brand, food tracker, etc.

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I look too fat to have an eating disorder…

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my life is a curb your enthusiasm meme.

me: I’m never eating. I’ll starve the entire day and it’ll be worth it.

me, two seconds later: *binged*

Cue the soundtrack.

#anarecia #ana #starving #binging #ed #eating disoder things #I hate my life #I hate myself #tw ed talk #tw ed thoughts #eating disoder tips #i’m a dumbass #thinspo #meanspo