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I love you might not be enough. (3)

HI! I'M BACK!

this is very much a filler chapter but didn't want to leave everyone hanging for too long!

Don't know how many parts this will end up being but I promise the next one will bring more to the table! So please bare with me here :)

angst(ish) and just some good ole forgiveness arcs LOL

Y/N's pov

The walk home felt longer than it should have been. 

Deciding against going home and wallowing, I cross the street to the park across from our shared apartment.

I scoff at myself as I sit on a bench 

"Not your apartment anymore more bug," I whisper to myself tearing up 

"oh Drew how'd we end up here"

Letting more tears slip out I hug my arms tighter around myself. 

“Y/N?”

Arms wrap around me and I jolt in fear but instead of pushing off the person I break down into sobs recognizing the comforting arms

"Shhh, Bug it's okay. You're okay"

Rudy.

I lean into the boy's chest as I sob violently "Fuck. Why does it hurt so much?"

"He loves you. So fucking much that this is hurting him just as much as it hurts you" Rudy whispers into my hair "Let's get you home babes,"

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Rudy’s pov

I tuck the poor girl into bed as I grab my phone to call Drew. 

"Thank you, Rudy... " I hear her whisper before turning over to fall asleep

I press a kiss on her forehead and pat her shoulder before stepping out to the kitchen to call Drew 

"Is she okay?" Drew asks as soon as he picked up the phone 

I sigh "I found her at the park crying... but besides that, she’s doing as good as she can be"

The line goes silent for a few seconds 

"What do I do Rudy?... How do I fucking fix this"

"You fight for her." I say firmly "You love the girls but they were wrong to assume everything they saw in the media. They were wrong to not give her a chance. For them to not understand her let alone get to know her. You love her Drew and it's about damn time you fought for something that makes you happy."

"The girls may have not seen it but Chase and I could. You love this girl… she’s it for you. So fucking fight for this. For you and for her" 

Drew stays quiet for a second processing everything 

"I'm going to talk to the girls tomorrow..." He trails "I need to get them to listen then I'm going to get my girl back"

I smile "Look... I'll stay with her tonight. I’ll make sure she’s okay, just update me with everything that happens"

"Thank you so much, Rudy. Thank you for being with her"

"She family now. Regardless of what happens. We got her"

Drew says one last goodbye as I let out a little sigh 

"Please let them be okay."

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Drew's pov

Last night was rough. Nowadays, I wasn't used to waking up alone.

I didn't like it.

Chase let me stay over which was bound to lead to an awkward encounter with Maddie. 

Walking out of their guest room I immediately spot Maddie sitting quietly at the counter staring at her cup.

"Hey..." I say almost stoic

after no response, I figured she hadn't wanted to talk. And I had no energy to try.

"I'm sorry..." She starts 

My head shoots up as I stare at the girl with a small frown evident on my face

"I can't speak for the other girls but Maddison implanted this idea that you deserved better and I didn't look at the bigger picture. She loves you and you love her... I saw the type of love that reminded me of Chase and I. I'm so fucking sorry I let it get this far"

"Please tell me it’s not too late to fix this" She pleads 

I nodded slowly and whispered, "I sure hope not…"

Maddie sadly smiles at me 

"I hope you can forgive me for not seeing it sooner"

I muster a smile at her "I do. Thank you for seeing how much she means to me. But please understand that I’m not gonna stick around for shit like that. It’s my relationship, not everyone else's."

Mads nods as I pull her into a side hug

"am I free to enter?" I see Chase peek his head out from the side of the wall

I chuckle and nod, ushering him in

"Phew I'm glad the tension is cleared I swear I was about to grovel" Chase jokes 

Maddie walks over to chase wrapping her arm around him 

"Let's go get your girl Drew" Maddie smiles

Let's go get my girl back.

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Y/N's pov

I woke up with a raging headache. Rubbing my eyes I throw the covers off me desperately needing a coffee.

"Thought I heard you were up," Rudy says peaking his head in "I made you some coffee"

I carefully take the hot coffee and look at the boy gratefully "thank you, Rudy... I'm sorry you had to deal with all that last night" I say sheepishly

Rudy scoffs "Don’t apologize for that bug." 

I smile at him lightly 

"Have you heard from drew?" I say while looking down at my coffee

"He stayed the night at Chase's," He starts softly

"He's hurting just as much as you are... He loves you so much, but he wants to respect you and your decision,"

My eyes water "I'm so at a loss here... I refuse to be the reason they hate him, but I don't want to lose him"

Wiping at my eyes I place the coffee on my side table trying to hold it all in. Rudy sits beside me wrapping an arm around my shoulders 

"Before we left with Drew he said and I quote 'my sweet girl, selfish enough to want me but not selfish enough to keep me’ Do what your heart tells you bug... be selfish for once"

I laugh through tears "Easier said than done,"

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Drew's pov

"you think she'd want to talk to me?" Mads asks sheepishly "I want to make things better,"

I lightly chuckle "She would love nothing more, because despite everything that happened that girl will welcome you with open arms" 

Mads smiles "I'm gonna head over today"

"Thank you," I whisper

"Baby you go and head over, Drew and I are gonna set up at the beach," Chase says walking in 

I tilt my head in confusion "How did you-?" 

Chase lightly smiles "the first thing she told me when I asked what she liked about LA, First, she said obviously said you…”

I laugh as I shake my head

“and second, was that one beach spot you took her to when you first asked her to be your girlfriend" 

I smile down at the floor 

"she definitely isn't the biggest fan of all things LA brings..." Chase trails lightly chuckling "but she loves it because you're here... the beach is just a bonus"

"Whenever I can't find her I know she's down in a secluded area of the beach reading a book," I say grinning

 "I miss her."

"I know for a fact she misses you," Chase says patting my shoulder

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Hello!

Update soon!

Part 3 to "I love you might not be enough" will be out soon I promise! School and work has been killer so writing has been on hold!

But I promise once I get what I've written edited it'll be out ASAP!!

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I love you might not be enough. (2)

A/N Hello! Hope you all enjoyed the first part! Don't know how this is going to go but I really wanted to do a few parts for this! Enjoy!

angst (with a smidge of fluff if u squint real hard LOL)

Drew’s pov

"Why did that feel like a goodbye? that wasn't a goodbye right?" I hear Chase whisper to Rudy 

I could feel Rudy's frustration at the situation. Hell, I wanted to grab a glass from the table and smash it towards the wall

"Drew where are you going?" I hear Elaine ask me

I hadn't even realized I stood up.

Rudy looked at me concerned as I shook my head scoffing at the girls. 

"I'm going home."

"to her? drew just stay out with us for a bit we never see you anymore" I hear Madison bite out “It’s like she takes all of your time,”

Not being able to hold it back any longer I burst.

"I love her. I love her more than I can ever describe and to have the people I call family absolutely degrade her and make her feel any less welcome makes my heart hurt for the woman I absolutely adore... All she wanted was to get to know you all and you wouldn't let her!"

"Drew..." I hear Mads start

"I really don't want to hear it. I don't want to hear that she isn't good enough or that she doesn't fit in. You don't think she hears that enough on a daily from the media? You don't think she constantly questions if she is enough for me? FOR ME? god... she's more than fucking enough."

it was silent for a few moments before I speak again

"she didn't want me to choose... my sweet girl selfish enough to want me but not selfish enough to keep me" I laugh lightly "she will always put others before her... it's one of the things that made me fall in love with her"

I take a deep breath and rub my temples in frustration.

“I love you guys but I fucking love her... so yea I wanna go home to her, but I- I guess I can't. because in one night I lost the one person that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. the one person who showed me how it felt to be loved so fucking hard it physically hurts... all it took was one fucking night." I say scoffing with tears pooling in my eyes

Rudy and Chase come up to me.

"we're gonna take him home," Rudy states placing an arm on my shoulder

not wanting to hear another word, I shrug his hand off lightly and walk out for a cig. 

Shortly after I feel the boys stand next to me.

"you know I haven't craved a cig since our first date, yea I’ve had an occasional smoke here and there  but I never felt the need to smoke anytime I was with her," I say softly laughing under my breath and twirling the cig around my fingers

"Drew..." I hear Chase start 

"I planned a future with her" I laugh bitterly "I wanted her to meet all of you first. I wanted forever with that girl. And the only reason why I hadn't introduced you guys earlier was that I wanted to be selfish. I wanted something that was my business and not everyone else's. I just wanted to keep her to myself for just a while longer"

Laughing at the non-humorous situation, I turn to the boys "thank you, for making her feel welcomed…I know she appreciated it"

"I can go check up on her," I hear rudy say laying a hand on my shoulder "She's the only person who's managed to become my best friend in a night" he jokes

I look up at him gratefully 

"can you-" I say before swallowing the lump in my throat "can you tell her I love her..."

Rudy nods before pulling me into a hug "don't let anyone take your happiness Drew. Not this time"

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I love you might not be enough. (1)

​​"and it's because I love you... that I won't make you choose. I love you, Drew Starkey. With every fiber of my being but these guys are your family... and I refuse to be the one to get in between it.

"Why does this sound like a goodbye?" Drew whispers as his eyes start to water

"how about... it's a see you later" I say with tears streaming down my cheeks

Drew and I stand face to face. Tears track down mine as he whimpers in protest. Wiping the tears I sniffle and grab his hand pecking the back of it

"I should go now," I say, barely a whisper 

Drew, almost zombie-like, allows me to drag him back inside where the others sat chatting. Clearing my scratchy throat I politely cut in. 

"it was nice meeting you all," I say mustering a smile "but something came up and I need to head out"

Drew's hand tightens around mine as he grasps the situation. My eyes fill with tears as I send the group a watery smile 

"oh is drew coming with?" I hear Madison ask almost accusatory 

I shake my head not trusting my voice 

I hear a soft "what" from Rudy seeing as he was the only one willing to make a convo with me the entire night and must have known that something was up if Drew wasn’t coming home with me.

"I really must be going now... it was nice to meet you all"

a single tear managed to slip out as I wave goodbye and face drew whose eyes were glossy and red

I allow the tears to finally slip as I raise my hand to wipe the tear sliding down his gorgeous face

pressing one last kiss on his lips I whisper "I love you." before walking away from one of the best things that could have ever happened in my life.

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Love of my life - D.S

Hello! First, imagine on here and I'm excited to get back into writing! Hope you all enjoy it! And welcome to my little universe!

Song: Love of my life - Avery Lynch (bolded words = lyrics)

TW: slight (little to nothing) angst, FLUFF

Love of my life

I wanna call you that, would that be alright?

I know I get ahead of myself sometimes

But darling, you might be

The love of my life

I knew I was going to fall in love with him the moment we first met. Drew Starkey was the epitome of storybook prince charming. He walked into that coffee shop and straight into my heart.

“Hey” 

I slightly jump causing my book to slip from my hands

“Sorry, didn’t mean to startle you,” The blue eyed man chuckled 

I lightly giggle and shake my head “no, don’t worry,”

“I just wanted to let you know that you look beautiful today,”

My cheeks flush at the compliment as I smile at the boy “Thank you, I’m Y/N”

“Y/N,” I hear him whisper under his breath “Well, nice to meet you Y/N, I’m Drew,”

I tried to find

Someone just like you in the back of my mind

And look here you are, like you've been here the whole time

But darling, can I call you the love of my life?

“Drew?” I sob at the sight of him 

“Baby?” He asks concerned “Why are you crying sweetheart,”

“I’m sorry… I’m so fucking sorry,” 

“Are you okay?” He asks walking up to me and swiping the tears off my cheeks

“I know I have no right coming here after ignoring you for days… but I just got so scared,” I say lightly laughing through my sobs

“Hey now…” Drew says wrapping me in his arms “Take a deep breath for me sweetheart and let me know why,”

I inhale deeply and find comfort in his musky scent 

“You are single-handedly the most important person in my life. Whether you know it or not you have my absolute heart and soul Drew Starkey and that scares the shit out of me. In a couple months, you’ve made my life feel like a fairytale and I so badly want it to have a happy ending. But some part of me, just for a second, thought that maybe our ending wasn’t happy…that I’d be left here in bits struggling left and right to pick up the pieces…”

“So you though you’d save yourself the heartbreak,” Drew whispers softly into my ear

I nod and squeeze my eyes shut

“I want you to listen to me,” Drew saying pulling my chin up to face him “you are my person. You single handedly stole my heart and soul the minute I saw you at that coffee shop…”

My eyes water as he looks at me with so much adoration

“But what if-”

“I love you!” Drew blurts out 

My eyes widen 

“I know it’s only been 4 months and I know you’re scared but I fucking love you.” He breathes out “I love you so much.”

My eyes soften as I reach up and cup his face, wiping the stray tears trailing down 

“It’s okay to be scared sweetheart… I am too. But it’s what let’s me know you care about me as much as I care about you,”

I stare into this man's beautiful eyes and press my lips to his “I love you too.” 

And I know we're young

But that only means that we get more time for us

“Can you believe Drew is dating her?” Someone whispers from around me 

My body entire stiffens as I clutch my book tighter in my hands 

“She's like half his age! And she preaches about loving him, they’re too young. She’s with him for his fame and money,” 

I hear the girls giggle as tears pool in my eyes. 

Quickly gathering my stuff I stand up and rush out with the small sliver of pride I had left.

Not paying attention to where I was walking, I crash into a body

“Hey, hey hey,”

Immediately recognizing his raspy voice the tears start pouring out of my eyes

“Baby, what happened,” Drew says cupping my face in his hands and swiping the tears away 

Not being able to form any words I shake my head and bury myself in his chest

“I can’t help you if you don’t tell me what happened my love,” Drew says softly as he wraps his arms around me 

I take a deep breath gripping the back of his shirt tightly “Just being stupid…I’m fine,”

“Let me into that little head of yours pretty girl,” Drew whispers into my hair 

I look up at my concerned boyfriend “Do you think I’m only with you for your status? Or that I’m way too young for you?”

Drew looks at me confused “baby… why would you think that?”

“Just… heard some people talking,” I say softly 

Tucking a strand of hair behind my ear  “I know you and I know there is not a selfish bone in that pretty little body of yours.” 

Drew strokes my cheek with his thumb “I love you… I love everything about you. And I know you love me as Drew, not the Drew Starkey the world knows,”

More tears pool in my eyes “I’m sorry,” I whisper

“I don’t want to see any more tears and I don’t want you to apologize or worry about what people say about us because I fucking love you and that's all that matters”

“I love you with all my heart,” I say lightly smiling at him 

“You are my heart and soul Y/N, and nothing anyone says will take that away from me,”

So will you let me love you? 

Say all the things I want to 

Confess my heart a million times, until you're sick of hearing why I love to love you 

“Good morning,” I say softly 

“Mmm, good morning my love,” Drew rasps out throwing a lazy arm over my waist

I snuggle deeper into his embrace as he snuggles us deeper into the comfort of his bed 

“Don’t think I’ve ever been this content before,” I say pressing a kiss to his chest

“Better get used to it baby… cus you’re stuck with me” He says popping his eyes open “and I plan to make sure you’re happy for the rest of your life,”

Love of my life

Happened so quickly, but I don't think I mind

'Cause something about you made me so sure that I

That I know I found you

The love of my life

I press a kiss on Drew’s bicep as we intertwine our hands 

“You ready to meet the cast baby?” He asks squeezing my hand 

I smile up at my excited boyfriend “nervous but excited,”

“They’re going to love you as much as I do,” Drew says pressing a kiss onto the top of my head

“There’s the love birds!” Chase calls out from in front of us 

Smiling I walk up to the boy as he pulls me into a hug “Nice to finally meet you guys,” I say shyly turning towards the group 

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“Drew why would you keep her from us!” Rudy whines 

Drew chuckles “I wanted her to myself for just a while longer,”

“She’s amazing Drew,” Maddie gushes 

Drew looks up to where I stood with Chase pouring the group some waters

“She really is huh?” He says grinning like a Cheshire cat

Walking back up to the group, Chase and I distribute the waters and I go to plop back down beside my grinning boyfriend.

“What’s got you all smiling,” I say staring into his gorgeous eyes

He smiles, shakes his head, and wraps an arm around my waist, pulling me closer to his side “Nothing, Just love you that’s all,”

So can I be someone who 

Does all I can to show you 

That there is nothing in my life I'd rather do than be the one who get to love you (I get to love you)

“I love you,” Drew says wrapping his arms around me 

“I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of hearing you say that,” I say whispering into his chest

“Good. Because I plan to say it for the rest of our lives,”

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