dollgr4ve

[dollgr4ve]

drawing my dream body till i have it

#tw ed things #ed bllog #anarecix #tw ana shit #ana dairy #low cal diet #ed not ed sheeran

[dollgr4ve]

hello not new to ed tumblr just relapsing looolllll

CW: 117 lbs

GW: 90lbs

UGW: 80lbs

#tw ed things #ed bllog #ana dairy #pr0 ana #anarecix #ana trigger #tw ana shit #ed not ed sheeran

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i hate myself so much i can’t look at my reflection without crying. i fail with every bite i take. i have to gain my control back i’ve lost it and gained 21 pounds i want to die. someone please motivate me to stop being such a fat bitch please. i know my mom is going to want to make me dinner but i have to come up with some excuse.

#pr0 ana #anarecix #ana dairy #tw ed things #thinspo #thin #i will be thinner #ed bllog

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school started and i’m already back to restricting

thank god i miss it so much

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i know it’s horrible to say but my best friend is literally my thinspo

when she sits down, there’s no rolls, just a smooth board

she can eat whatever she wants and not gain weight

she can control her eating

she makes herself a bowl of cereal and can’t finish it

seeing a really skinny girl irl hits different compared to just looking at pictures.

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i really fucked up

my lowest weight was 99lbs but then i decided to recover, but in reality i’ve been bingeing

i’ve gained 8 pounds in less than two weeks

i feel so disgusting, i’m fasting for 72 hours

new goal weight is 85lbs

#tw ed things #tw eating stuff #eating problems #thin #anarecix

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i’m not eating for a week

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i’ve gained 6 pounds in two days

i’m so stupid

what was i thinking

i feel so disgusting

what’s wrong with me

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i cant tell if i’m recovering or bingeing LMFAO

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UPDATE

the one day i decide to fucking eat because i’m so tired of this my mom comments on what i’m eating

i’m so done

why did i think it was a good idea to eat. i’m fasting for the next 72 hours good fucking bye

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guys i think imma recover lol

or i’m just binging

i cant tell

like i really just wanna eat like a normal human, but now i’m eating everything in my kitchen

oh fuc

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tried on a dress that used to be tight on me

it barley fits now

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103lbs today

#thinspo #thin

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took too many laxatives so woke up in the middle of the night with the worst stomach pain of my life

sat there for a few hours and clogged the toilet LMFAO but i feel so skinny it’s unreal

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i weight 107 now but still have so much fat on me

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my mom told me how pale i look today

i feel accomplished

#thinspo #thin #pr0 ana #skinny

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day dreaming about ending my life <333