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My monthly ugly phase has finally come to an end hallelujah 🙌

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Weighed in at 110.8 this morning ARE YOU KIDDING ME IVE NEVER BEEN THIS LOW BEFORE WTFFFFFFF I am a skinny legend

Celebrated by eating whatever I wanted, within reasonable portion size. I had..

♡ homemade coffee with caramel creamer

♡ a BLT sandwich. Ciabatta bread, 3 slices of bacon, a bit of avocado, lettuce and tomato. I had a few French fries and chips as well.

♡ my favorite coffee order (iced Chocolate Chai Latte with Oatmilk + shot of espresso ~24oz)

♡ a homemade maple pumpkin muffin from my mom

I might have a dark chocolate truffle before bed, then tomorrow it's back to business 🫡

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Guys I just made myself a huuuuuuuuuuuuge salad for dinner and I wanted to share the recipe

♡ bowl of mixed greens (however much you want)

♡ red onions

♡ strawberries

♡ avocado (I used the whole thing for healthy fats to keep my hair and skin nice while restricting)

♡ dried cranberries

♡ chopped pecans

♡ Walden Farms Thousand Island dressing (supposedly zero calories????) Was a little sweet.. I'd rather just make my own dressing)

I added a stalk of Celery to the mix cause I was craving it. Also I would have added a bit of feta cheese but I was out 😫

>so i just 🍃 so I need to ramble a little bit sorry<

Managed to only have a coffee, grilled chicken breast, and an espresso martini other than that. I have a chocolate protein shake on standby incase I crave something sweet later. I only ate the chicken earlier cause I am trying to grow my glutes a little bigger and last time I low restricted and got really thin I lost all my booty 😳 like all of itt girl I was flat which sucked when I would wear certain outfits...

I want to be skinny but I need at least want a little booty like come on please don't go flat on me I'm nervous cause I'm starting to lose weight again. My face is becoming more defined and my jawline is sharpening up. My collar and hip bones are becoming a little bit more prominent. When I sit down my belly roll has turned into a tiny puppy roll. My waist is getting smaller and I'm not spilling over my bras anymore. Need to work my glutes at least a few minutes every day so I don't lose them and make sure to get as much protein as I can.

#dieta ana #tw restriction #ana rant #ana trigger #thin$po #thinspø #tw ana diary #ed relapse #tw weight #aesthetic #we starvin

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Little update 2/14 ♡ lengthy ramble about my habits lately

So I got covid and ended up losing the 5lbs that I had gained so I'm back to a steady 113 and feeling a lot more comfortable!! I still have fat to lose but I no longer feel ~chubby~. Every time I accidentally lose a few pounds is when I am able to restrict successfully lol so I'm back to clean eating. I've been loving fruit and seaweed lately, and coffee of course. I bought some raspberry leaf tea as well as a ginger+tumeric tea and I've been drinking those for their anti-inflammatory and detoxifying properties. My acne cleared up, I suspect it was caused by stress, binge eating, excessive meat and sugar. (Had a baddddd flare up after a late night McDonald's run, lasted ~5 days (do not recommend) ). I've been on top of my skincare and nails, learning new makeup techniques, groomed my eyebrows and feeling like a bad btch 🤣 aside from the superficial things, my prayers are all being answered and delivered to me and I am just feeling very grateful today 🫶 sending love and good vibes to anyone who gets this far

#tw restriction #ana rant #ana trigger #thinspø #thin$po #tw ana diary #ed relapse #tw weight #dieta ana #aesthetic

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Just thinking out loud...

I gained 5lbs due to stress eating but I'm not gonna beat myself up for it. It's really starting to bother me the way I can see and feel the fat creeping on and especially my face 🫠 I have a very round face to begin with so every pound counts. I work all week so I'll be able to get away with restricting. I'll try to stick to ~600-800? Mainly iced coffees, lite salads, grilled chicken, fruits, etc. I'm tired of feeling bloated and chubby and having stomach pains and acne. I need to detox my system for the next couple of weeks and I will be back to my best self 🥰

I'm also going to do some home pilates workouts here and there to try and tone myself up, especially my abs and booty :p

I fully intend on dressing up in skirts, dresses, 2 pieces, bikinis, etc this summer so I need to get myself in line before this weather starts to warm up (especially since I'm single now..???ayo)

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Just had to break up with my first love.

Relapse time 🫠

Happened a couple days ago cause I found out he was cheating on me. I had deleted this app cause I didn't want him to find out I was in the ED community lol but I always end up back here, always. Anyways, I'm weighing in at 111-114 average right now. I haven't been so strict with myself but eating hasn't been really a desire of mine lately...

I want to become the most beautiful version of myself that ever existed. Partially out of spite, partially because I need to heal and love myself. Here's to getting hot 2024 I guess 🥂

#tw restriction #aesthetic #anablr #ana rant #tw ana diary #tw weight #thinspø #i will be thinner #thin$po #anami4 #ana trigger #ed bllog #tw edd #edtwitter #ed relapse #3d relapse #i wanna be weightless #skinnii #st

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A witchy kind of of autumn

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I’ve felt so ugly for the past week. I gave into my skin picking habit and ruined 2 months of clear arms. I’ve been eating pizza and chipotle and lava cakes and Doritos like whaaaaaaat! I also bit my nails short :(

I don’t think I’ve gained actual weight perse but my stomach is a lot less flat, my cheeks are softer and I’m feeling bloated and low levels of energy.

Today I’ve had two 90cal hazelnut lattes so I think I’ll keep it light with veggie sushi and miso soup tonight for dinner (400cal). When I get home from work I’ll go to the gym then fix my nails. I’ll make sure to drink extra water and herbal tea to fix this bloat going on.

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just a reminder that consistency gives results <3

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HOW I’VE BEEN SUCESSFULLY LOSING WEIGHT: Notes from a former binge eater ♥️

*this guide is to show how ~I~ do things and offer advice on how to do it MY way. I am in no way encouraging anyone to do themselves harm. First off,

HEALTH IS WEALTH.

That being said.. this is literally the longest I’ve ever gone without bingeing. It’s just,,, easy this time. Once you get a feel of what it’s like to be skinny you just don’t crave junk as much anymore bc you KNOW it’s not worth it. The trick is to eat clean 90% of the time and allow your favorite treats 10% do the time. Fit them into your calorie limit!!! Here’s some personal favorites that have helped me lose like 20lbs in the past 2 months.

I tend to do one higher- calorie drink during the day (protein shake, Starbucks, etc) and one healthy filling but low cal meal and a sweet snack at the end of the night.

LOW CALORIE 90%

Mediterranean salad (~150): mixed greens, chopped bell peppers, cherry tomatoes, red onion. Little bit of feta cheese. Balsamic vinegar (not dressing or vinegarette!!!!) I don’t add meat but you could totally add chicken for low cal high protein choice. You could also add olives but I don’t fw them.

Chocolate Protein shakes from the gas station (loll). They’re 220 cal on average and a great treat. Strawberry one is good too.

SEAWEED SNACKS they’re literally 30-60 calories for a pack and kill my urge to eat chips!!! Please give them a try!

Soups. Soups that are already portioned and have the calorie amount posted. I add extra seasonings and spice to boost metabolism.

Coffee!! With almond milk and a little coffee creamer. It’s worth the calories if you want a coffee just make one it’s better than going to Starbucks.

Sushi: I’m vegetarian so I get an avocado and cucumber roll. It’s so good with fresh ginger and a little soy sauce. Sometimes I will be craving it allllllll day and have it as my OMAD so rewarding 🥹

Miso soup>>>>>> add tofu and seaweed and onions!! And mushrooms if you like them.

Monster Ultra energy drinks,,,, yeah I know they’re bad for you but I love them.

Fruits!!! I especially love strawberries, watermelon, cherries, blackberries, pineapple and mangoes.

TREATS 10%

Trail mix: dried cherries, pecans, walnuts, pistachios, cashews. High in calories but perfect for killing hunger. High protein keeps you full and muscles strong, high healthy fats will keep your hair and skin and nails beautiful.

Chocolates: SMALL PORTIONS. if you can’t eat just eat a piece without bingeing, do NOT buy a big bag. what I do is I buy a bar of whatever chocolate I’m craving for my bf and we share it piece by piece. Dark chocolate, milk chocolate, white, hazelnut, with coffee beans, with toffee, fruits, chocolate is the best thing ever 🍫

Starbucks! My fav drinks are matcha lattes (hot/iced), iced white chocolate mocha, caramel macchiato, and occasionally a pumpkin spice latte. Peppermint mochas on the holidays. Oat milk always

Baked goods. Same deal as the chocolate, ONLY BUY THE PORTION YOURE GOING TO EAT. If you have been craving a croissant, go get one. One. Don’t buy a whole dozen of them. You will end up bingeing trust me. My favs are cinnamon rolls <3

Habits

I’m going to the gym!!! Consistently for the first time in my life. It doesn’t have to be anything crazy. Spend 30 min on the treadmill alternating between incline walking and easy paced jogging. Put on a YouTube video. Wear pink and bring a cute water bottle. You have to make an experience out of it! I stick to cardio and full body stretches plus ocasional (light) strength workouts w my bf.

I don’t drink anymore. Just 🍃. Alc is so high in sugar and carbs and it’s literally poison bro. I know it’s hard to stop but once you do you’ll feel so much better.

I rarely weigh myself. I’m at my bfs house all the time so I only step on my scale maybe 3 times a month. It’s been a game changer!!!

MINDSET

I practice mindfulness and speak kindly to myself. Basically sweetspo + affirmations to myself all the time.

Taking more pride in your appearance will also help motivate you. You think you’ll still want to binge after you took a full body shower, clean PJ’s or outfit, painted your nails, skincare and makeup done, whitened your teeth and lit a candle? No thanks.

Limit stupid, negative, useless media consumption. Watch things that have to do with your hobbies/ interests and your social media algorithms begin to kinda clean themselves up over time. My pages are all about exercise, study blogs, beauty tips and sciencey stuff. No more drama or celebrity nonsense. Cut down your following!!

Remember you only have one life on earth. You’re young and hot once. Don’t you want to grab this chance while you have it? Unfortunately your beauty is your currency especially as a woman, so if there’s anything I can do to give myself a better life I will. Losing just a few pounds of fat will make the craziest difference in ways you’d never expect. Free and discounted stuff. More people smile at you and listen to what you have to say. Both literal and figurative doors will be opened for you.Clothes fit better bc they’re more flattering when your body is fit and healthy. While it feels good to get validation from other people, the best part of it is looking in the mirror and feeling proud instead of ashamed. The inner confidence that comes from successful transformation………….there’s no other feeling that compares. If you know, you know. I’m just saying,, the choice is yours 🤷🏼‍♀️

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August 27 update:

~ my weight ~

I weighed in at 117.6 yesterday. I was 123 last week. I’m not going to get attached to that number yet because we all know it takes a while to stabilize.

In the past I always got stuck FOREVER in the 120’s but they just seemed to melt off of me. I’ve really been so lucky.

I’ll count my official weight as 120 so that if I weigh in that much it won’t upset me. 🥰 it’s a good number for now.

Last night 🍸🍹🥃

Last night ended up going to an impromptu night out at the bar so I had 2 cocktails. I’m not really stressed about the calories bc honestly I don’t ever drink anymore so it was a little treat. I also had a huge cinnamon roll and matcha latte yesterday and it was heavenly. I really went all out didn’t I lmfao

So this was like immediately after I came home from work btw. My bf was like let me pick your outfit otherwise our ride will leave us lolll so I obliged. He picked out some jeans (too big for me now, they were a little saggy on my waist/booty 😫) a mock neck tank top, and his cowboy boots. It was a cute outfit other than the damn jeans being too large. I was for the first time able to get dressed for a social function in less than 5 minutes. I changed with the lights on in front of the mirror in front of my bf and damn…I looked a lot better

This is all so new to me… the difference losing a few pounds makes in your life is absolutely crazy.

Note to self + anyone who needs to hear it… 💕

I’m very proud of you for the progress you’ve made. I’m proud on the days you fast and I’m also proud on the days you indulge in sweets. Weight loss isn’t linear so it will always fluctuate. CONSISTENCY IS KEY. Keep the amazing f’ing work up cause you looking beautiful.

#tw ana fast #ed bllog #tw ana shit #tw ed rant #tw restriction #ana rant #ana trigger #dieta ana #tw ed diet #ed tings #ed di3t #edtwitter #ed not ed sheeran #tw edd #anami4 #ana meal #weight loss #tw weight #i wanna be weightless #skinnii #thinspø #thin$po #i will be thinner

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Just weighed in…. Guess who’s officially out of the 120’s

#skinnylegend

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I keep getting nothing but fall baking videos on my tiktok fyp nothing but cookies and muffins and cakes and pastries

I think I’ll experiment making some cinnamon rolls from scratch tomorrow and If they turn out good I’ll make a few batches to give to everyone. (My family, bfs family, maybe I’ll come into my work and drop some off to my coworkers)

I’ll let myself eat one without feeling guilty! I’ve been working so hard and I need a damn cinnamon roll once in a while. I’m only allowing this bc I know I won’t let it trigger a binge anymore :) feels so good to enjoy cravings in moderation 🧡

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August 25 / random thoughts

On restricting,

I’m so glad I passed the hard part of restriction,, (the first few days when all you can think about is what next to put in your mouth)

I’m at a point now where I haven’t binged in a while. I don’t have super strong craving anymore, except for chocolate. I’ve been surviving on Monster ultras and chocolate protein shakes for nearly a week now. I haven’t ate solid food in 3? 4 days? I don’t remember. I don’t eat unless someone buys/makes me food or wants to eat with me. I save my calories to eat with my bf. He’s gonna bring me Starbucks rn and keep insisting on getting me food and a venti sized latte 😪 he’s so sweet he really cares whether or not I eat but doesn’t push or force it. I couldn’t ask for a better partner.

I’m gonna try the ice cinnamon dolce latte w oat milk and no whip, maybe it’ll be a new favorite. It says it’s 300 cal for a grande but that’s with 2% milk and whip cream. I’m still gonna assume it’s around 300. I need to slow down and let myself enjoy things because it’s scaring me a bit how easy it’s been to just starve.

UPDATE THE DRINK IS SO GOOD he put whip but it’s ok it’s MF delicious I’m in love

As for my weight loss results…

Yeah I think I’m lighter than last time I weighed in. Just haven’t done so bc I stay at my bfs house all the time and he has no scale. I think it’s better this way bc I’m more focused on the physical and mental feelings than a stupid number. My stomach is so much flatter and I’ve been changing in front of my bf without getting shy for having a MF muffin top. My arms are slightly more slender, my legs are thinner. My face looks less puffy and my features are standing out more. The discipline that I’ve obtained over the past month has shocked me and honestly I’m proud. I still got more weight to lose but I’m approaching it more calmly than last time.

It’s easier this time around.

I take vitamins and make sure to drink a protein shake every day. I’ve stopped picking at my arms (dermatillomania) and they’re almost all the way cleared up for the first time since I was 11 years old. I’ve been getting more into my hobbies and have my soul mate to come home to every day now. Life has been feeling very sweet lately and I’m grateful.

🏔️🍵🌲🕊️

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If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.

C.S. Lewis