cry343y

[cry343y]

// tw: vent, fǒǒd, bod-dys //

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I went to the mall today with my family, they wanted me to get new clothes. but I couldn’t find anything that wasn’t a crop top, something that was my size, or something my parents like.

im just a fat pig

later coming home I didn’t wanna eat. I was already so fat and didn’t have to add anything else on my fat body. I don’t have an așș anymore, I got a door body frame, flabby arms, double chin, and my disgusting stomach. I got everything anyone wouldn’t love.

im just a fat pig

and always will be

#tw #tw vent #tw depressing thoughts #i’m sorry #i’m not okay #nothing i do is good #im so tired #tw fatphobia #i’m fat and ugly #i’m disgusting #i want to leave #i want to lose weight #fatty piggy

[cry343y]

I saw someone skinny in front of me while I was out eating

I started tearing up and wish I hadn’t eaten

I’m such a pig

#tw #i hate my brain #i’m not okay #i ruined it #nothing i do is good #im so tired #tw fatphobia #fat piggy #i hate my body #i hate my existence #i’m sorry

[cry343y]

I honestly, don’t know what I’m doing anymore

#tw depressing thoughts #i hate my brain #i’m sorry #i’m not okay #nothing i do is good #im so tired #idk why #suic1de

[cry343y]

how long I have dreamt of sleeping

and never

waking up again

#depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw death #i hate my brain #i’m sorry #i’m not okay #i hate everything #i hate it so much #please #i dont feel safe #i want to go home #i want to feel better

[cry343y]

// vent //

I prayed he’d reach out, but now I wish he didn’t

He can’t do relationships, but I want one with him, only him

I really miss him again now and I wish I didn’t

I know we aren’t gonna go back to how it was before

But oh god

How I miss him

#i hate my brain #i’m sorry #i ruined it #i’m not okay #nothing i do is good #one sided relationships #i cant handle this #i hate love #i hate him #but i love him

[cry343y]

// vent //

im so tired

mentally and physically

I literally can’t do anything

I can’t move

Can’t think

Can’t see

Can’t hear

I just can’t live anymore

I’m so tired

#tw depressing thoughts #i hate my brain #i’m sorry #i’m not okay #nothing i do is good #i cant do this #i cant think #no motivation #im so tired

[cry343y]

///tw: sh implied///

I ruined it this time

im so done with life and nvr want to fall in “love” again

2yrs clean,,,down the drain

#tw #tw self h4rm #tw depressing thoughts #im the problem #im done #i hate love #i hate long distance #i hate my liiiiife

[cry343y]

I really was getting better,

so what happened ?

Am I not worthy of feeling joy anymore ?

I just wanted to be a happy little kid again. . .

But that’s too much to ask for

#i’m tired #i’m sorry #not worthy #why can’t i be normal #depresión

[cry343y]

Being in a relationship is hard

especially when ur mentally unstable

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anxiety

trust issues

manic / depressive episodes

and more all come in to play a role

#self h@rm #actually mentally ill #i hate my brain #sorry for being depressing

[cry343y]

i’m honesty tired

i don’t know what to do anymore

I feel lost

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I wanna feel safe again

#self h@rm #im so tired #crybaby #what’s wrong with me