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I think there's some serious symbology in the fact that the original rainbow had 7 colors (7, a divine number in the Bible) and the pride flag only has 6. You fell from God's perfection into Pride

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College

God is good

My mental health has gotten significantly better, I’m back in college, and have finished midterms. The adjustment was a little rocky, mostly because I am figuring out how to manage my time better and gain some more self-discipline.

I didn’t do much in terms of faith over the summer, but when I moved into my dorm and looked out the window, I could see a Catholic Church right across the street. I instantly felt a pull, but I ignored it at the time, and went to parties instead while it was still warm out. However, every time I went to bed, I would look out my window and see the Catholic Church. Looking back at this now, I knew this had to be quite an obvious sign from God.

While still on my own I read a Christian book my mother gave me (Winning the War in Your Mind by Craig’s Groeschel), went to my home church while I was on break, and I felt that pull again. At the end of that book, there was one verse that really stuck with me:

Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” (Hebrews‬ ‭13:5‬).

When I read it, I teared up a little, because I was feeling so alone at the time. I love this verse because now I know I’ll never be alone. God is always with me. He’ll never leave me which means I can rely on Him.

Thinking of that verse, I prayed to God about it, and the next morning I felt God’s presents, physical presents. I felt a warm embrace and I knew it had to be Him. I realized the importance of prayer, and now make it a point to pray everyday, no matter how short the prayer, or how small the worry is. I also decided I really wanted to grow spiritually, and needed to find a church at college to help me with that.

The protestant churches here are a little… misguided. The are a lot more worldly than the church I grew up in. There are some sins they outright reject as being sinful which doesn’t sit right with me. So, I’ve decided to go to the Catholic Church tomorrow on Sunday since they seem to focus more on obeying God than the world.

While I go through this spiritual journey, there’s another verse from the Bible I like to go to (well technically it’s two verses):

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

I always think of this verse whenever I feel worried or anxious, and I pray over it. There are times I’ll stop what I’m doing just to pray over it. I find myself praying for other people too whenever I hear their worries.

Please pray that I may continue to grow closer to God, and if I may stumble, that I can look to Him who will always be there to lift me up again.

Have a Blessed Day

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Just done

How many times can I screw this up?

How badly can I screw this up? Before you’re just done with me.

Questions like this can really haunt us in a relationship. Because everyone has their breaking point. And because, if we’re honest with ourselves, you and I have within us the (all too often realized) capacity to screw up any relationship.

I’m not talking about intentional stuff. Our problem is more subtle. Whether it’s through what we do or say without thinking. Or what we fail to do. You and I have some serious skills in this area.

If we’ve ever wondered why someone has abandoned us, why they’re just done with us? The odds are that you and I are at least part of the reason why.

It’s something we don’t like to think about. Because it makes us wonder which relationship we’re going to screw up next. And who’s going to be just done with us.

Which is why today’s Gospel is so important. After all Peter has done. Denying Jesus on Good Friday. Abandoning his ministry and going back to his old job.

After giving Jesus every reason to be done with him – to treat Peter just like Peter treated Him – Jesus doesn’t throw away their relationship. Jesus invites Peter to come back, to come home.

The simple truth? Our capacity to screw up any relationship is a tiny, feeble thing – when compared to the love of God for us.

Because God has no interest in throwing away His relationship with you.

There is nothing that you can do to change that. Nothing that will make God say, “I’m just done with you.”

No matter what you’ve done, God will not abandon you.

No matter how far you’ve gone, God is inviting you to come back, to come home.

Today’s Readings

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Journey

It’s been a while since I’ve posted something. I was in college for a year, but then I decided to take a gap year to focus on my mental health. I’m returning to college this Fall.

Throughout this time I my faith has been very turbulent. I’ve switched from being a Christian, a Pagan, and being Agnostic/Atheist. I tried to find peace without God, and isolated myself from family and friends. I thought science would have the answers to all my questions. I tried the “self love” and “goddess” routine that the younger people in my generation do. Bad idea. My mental health only got worse and I became suicidal. Thankfully I didn’t do anything damaging to my body while going through this rough patch. However, my mind and spirit were deeply effected. Which is why I am taking the time now away from college to recover.

I’m not enough, and that’s okay, because I have Jesus Christ who IS enough. I’m not perfect. I will never be perfect in this life. And that’s okay. There is someone who is perfect watching over me know, rooting for me to reach salvation.

Please pray for me. That my faith grow stronger, that I may have a sound mind, and that I may find my way back on the right path towards God.

Have a blessed day :)

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a profession of faith.

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A.W.Tozer

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My FULL Testimony:

trigger warning: I mention some very hard things to read for some. proceed with caution! and don’t read this if you are not an adult.

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Staying close to God’s Word is what gives us strength to run away from temptation.

l.m.c.a

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Instagram requests

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Ladies, your beauty is not defined by your waist size or weight, but by your heart and passion for Jesus Christ.

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Anxiety

Since middle school, anxiety has probably been the #1 emotion taking over my life. Partially my fault because I procrastinate and have low self discipline. I worry about so many things. Even when that problem is solved, I just move on to the next thing to worry about. Anxiety has caused me to do things I’m not proud of. And then those things would make me anxious. It was - still is an endless cycle of worry, doubt, shame, and unreasonable expectations I have set on myself.

This emotion is pretty common for everyone nowadays, so a lot of you could probably relate to what I’m talking about. Yes, I blame the internet, I blame social media, I blame the 24-hour news cycle that profits off of fear (which I watch less of now, basically none), and I blame myself (although my therapist and mom say I blame myself too much since I couldn’t have known the repercussions of having such easy access all of these things as a child).

Casting all your care upon him, for he careth for you (1 Peter 5:7 KJV)

I’m still figuring out how exactly I’m suppose to do that to be honest. How do I just... stop worrying? How do I give my worries to God? How does he take them from me? Anxiety has been a big part of my life for so long, I barely know what I would do it I didn’t have it. Yeah I can think of the good things, but... I don’t know.

What am I afraid of?

The future.

How do I change the future?

I can’t, literally impossible. What I do now is all I can do, and that’s what shapes my future. But what do I do now?

I’ve started reading a book called Resisting Happiness by Matthew Kelly. So far it’s been helping me figure out what I need to do.

I really want to have more joy in my life. Please pray for me.

Have a blessed day

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“When someone says, ‘I haven’t felt God in a long time. I feel like He is gone. He left me.’ I would just tell them, ‘He said He would never leave you nor forsake you. He is as close as the mention of His name. Just believe that. You don’t need to feel Him to know He is with you. Just believe Him. Don’t make God a feeling. He is not a feeling. He’s Spirit and Truth, and He lives in you.’”

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