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This is a God dream.!

on this frequency, everything is intentional. 🍂♥️

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Standing on business 2024 ✨

#praying #disciplined #self love #on god bro #the universe #smiles upon you

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I have been very anxious lately, It’s been scary. I have grown up and there are so many responsibilities. Yet I do have a plan , or rather an idea. It might take a while . it might be a long game but I will save my life ❤️

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She would be soo proud 🥹❤️

Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

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Reflecting on a beautiful birthday week. I am blessed to be loved and to give love. To be held and to hold ❤️

#reflecting #love lives here #bigdays #colourmepretty

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Manifesto 🌼

27th September 2026

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September, ❤️

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I will allow July to always give me hope 🤍

#growth #trustyourlife #trusttheprocess

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I want this soo much , but I am also scared of change. 🤍

#braveheart #level up #run me my money

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Sometimes when I wake up, I water our plants . Its makes me happy. To know there was a time when this didn't exist for me, serving proof of concept that all my other prayer will too come to be.

#self love #self acceptance #moving forward #manifesation #contentment #sandton

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The trenches of getting better ❤

dealing with fear of abandonment through LOA + general tips

personal backstory / long post ahead

“Change your conception of yourself and you will automatically change the world in which you live. Do not try to change people; they are only messengers telling you who you are. Revalue yourself and they will confirm the change.” ― Neville Goddard, Your Faith is Your Fortune

as a child, my needs were not met and therefore, i developed a schema that people were meant to disappoint me and leave me and my relationships, both platonic and romantic reflected EXACTLY that.

countless times, i was ‘left’ without any reason, always strengthening the notion i had always felt that people were meant to abandon me. even if i was close to someone, i would still engage in self-sabotaging behaviours when i felt disappointed by the expectations i had set for them. feeling this lack of control when it came to relationships because i was so deathly afraid of being left alone; of disappointing the other. not putting myself first because i felt the only sense of worth i had was through whether another found me worthy. this is all very hard for me to say of course, im a private person but i felt maybe someone at least needed to hear this. my parent would be nice at one point and disinterested in the other, i felt i had to work to gain their approval and for them to be nice to me all the time. i needed them to view me as perfect, so they wouldn’t leave me. but guess what guys? thats stupid, bcos fuck perfection.

in my abandonment activation strategies/self-sabotaging behaviours, my body would go into a state of desperation, in dire need of any sort of relief and safety, crying my heart out because i was so scared, leaving people because i was scared of being left first. being scared i was being clingy by asking for reassurance which in turn sends me into another frenzy, isolating myself from people so i have no chances to be hurt, feeling resentment when someone doesnt meet my expectations/needs through no fault of their own. my inner child would just take over my body, repeating the same distress i experienced as a kid. 

but i am not a kid anymore. i am a well-functioning adult and i cannot continue this abandonment schema. so what do i do?

i use loa. 

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There are things, I am currently struggling with. Eventhough I am certain that I will eventually get better some days I struggle. Bottom line is...I Will get Better .

#all about love #healing #it gets better #self care reminder #slowly but surely #one day at a time

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I will get it right !

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Me to me

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Thats on God ! 🤍

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The only Flaw tumbr has 🤕

Way too many bitch ass bots on this shit here.

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Also believing takes some practice 💫

#all about love #breaking patterns #healing #new ways #faith in the future #faith>fear