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How did I drop a size when I've been mentioning for three months on???

This has become something I'll just have to live with now. thanks autism, depression, and general non-binary dysphoria

#nb ed #@na buddy #nb ana #tw disordered thoughts #sk1nn1 #@na trigger #ana talks #@n0r3xia #tw edd #tw disordered eating #body dysphoria #body dysmorphia #ed buddies #sk1nny legs #ana stuff #sk11ny #ed behaviour tw #tw ana trigger #ana rant #4n4rexia #tw @na #@na vent #tw ana diary #actually autistic #body dysmorphic disorder #nonbinary #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing thoughts

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I already meet my goul but I went to bed hungry last night now ana brain is back...

#tw ana diary #nb ed #@na buddy #nb ana #disordered eating thoughts #ed vent #it's not as simple as just eating #tw disordered thoughts #sk1nn1 #r3striction #tw ana relapse #ed relapse #low cal restriction #🕯️as a 🪶 #🦋diary #🦋tw #🦋log

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I might my goul btw

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Yes yes I haven't online in months, I finally got my second job and my irl friends have been keeping me busy. I'm on the road to recovery or at least that's when I tell the people in my life. Ana still has a grip on me and I'm still dropping...I'm 5lbs away from my gw!

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[voldz3mptyeyez]

If someone has a disorder don't pick on them for it

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I finally made a grocery list for my father, who insisted on helping me. But I haven't eaten in so long I don't even know what I eat anymore... I'm sorry only cuz others make me feel guilty. Only half of it is poverty to blame, the rest is all me. I don't want to show them my list and how pathetically short it is even tho their offering me anything I could want...

#tw ana diary #nb ed #@na buddy #nb ana #disordered eating thoughts #ed vent #it's not as simple as just eating #tw disordered thoughts #r3striction #tw ed diet #tw restrictive ed #tw disordered eating #ana talks #@na trigger #ana rant #4norex1a #tw @na #⭐️ving #🦋diary #🦋diet #🦋rant #🦋log

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I thought I was maintaining...and the only reason I wanted to maintain was because there were/ are so many eyes on me. It's my feeding week and ever since I've had so many people saying finally, if they know I'm still losing a lbs to half a lbs a week I don't know what they'd do but I don't want them know.

#ana bllog #tw ana diary #nb ed #@na buddy #nb ana #disordered eating thoughts #ed vent #it's not as simple as just eating #tw disordered thoughts #sk1nn1 #r3striction #tw restrictive ed #4norex1a #tw @na #@na trigger #@n0r3xia #ana talks #skinnytumbler #⭐️ving #🕯️as a 🪶 #🦋diary #🦋tw #🦋log

[voldz3mptyeyez]

Still losing a lbs a week

#tw ana diary #nb ed #@na buddy #nb ana #disordered eating thoughts #ed vent #it's not as simple as just eating #tw disordered thoughts #sk1nn1 #r3striction #ed bllog #4norex1a #4n4rexia #tw @na #@n0r3xia #i need to lose this weight #sk1nny legs #sk11ny #i wanna be skinnier #skinnytumbler #🕯️as a 🪶 #⭐️ving

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Why is everyone telling me to eat? I am eating! Some of it is in my control and some of it isn't. Please stop tell me eat, your just making it worse.

#tw ana diary #nb ed #@na buddy #nb ana #tw edd #disordered eating thoughts #ed vent #it's not as simple as just eating #tw disordered thoughts #i wanna be weightless #ed bllog #@na trigger #@nor3×14 #🦋tw #🦋diary #🦋log #⭐️ving #⭐️ve #🕯️as a 🪶 #low cal diet #sk1nn1

[voldz3mptyeyez]

How my life is going scene its been turned upside down.

My steps have included by 1-2000

Always reaching my water goal (33.8 fl oz)

Avg cal intake has dropped into the two digits.

#tw ana diary #nb ed #@na buddy #nb ana #tw edd #disordered eating thoughts #ed vent #it's not as simple as just eating #tw disordered thoughts #ed bllog #ed di3t #tw restrictive ed #low cal restriction #r3striction #4n4rexia #@na trigger #@n0r3xia #sk1nn1 #th1nsp1ration #⭐️ving #🕯️as a 🪶

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Just hit my lowest average intake

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Only think I hate about a liquid fast, is how often I need to use the restroom.

#tw ana diary #nb ed #@na buddy #nb ana #tw edd #ed vent #ana talks #tw @na #tw ana fast #ed bllog #low cal restriction #tw restrictive ed #r3striction #sk1nn1 #disordered eating thoughts #it's not as simple as just eating #tw disordered thoughts #i wanna be weightless

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So I'm staying at my parents house cuz I'm going through a breakup (hopefully just a separation) I haven't been eating or very little at most for the past few days, in that time I dropped 4 lbs!!! I only needed 3lbs to reach my next goal. I'm heartbroken but seeing those numbers made me so happy, I felt like everything was okay.

I'm gonna double check when I get home

#tw ana diary #nb ed #@na buddy #nb ana #tw edd #disordered eating thoughts #ed vent #it's not as simple as just eating #tw disordered thoughts #tw disordered eating #tw restrictive ed #tw ana fast #tw @na diary #tw @na #@na trigger #@n0r3xia #4norex1a #4n4rexia #sk11ny #sk1nn1 #r3striction #ed relapse #ed bllog #low cal restriction #tw ana relapse #⭐️ving #🕯️as a 🪶

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Thanks to ana I don't need to worry about groceries... im gonna be living alone now so all need to worry about myself and that's not much

#tw ana diary #nb ed #@na buddy #nb ana #tw edd #disordered eating thoughts #ed vent #it's not as simple as just eating #tw disordered thoughts #ed bllog

[voldz3mptyeyez]

I failed my six weeks....

#tw ana diary #nb ed #@na buddy #nb ana #tw edd #ed vent #ed bllog #disordered eating thoughts #tw disordered thoughts

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Damn it... I'm sick and can't take medic on a empty stomach without upsetting it

#tw ana diary #nb ed #@na buddy #nb ana #tw edd #disordered eating thoughts #ed vent #ed bllog #ed buddies #@na trigger #@na vent

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They know I'm a year into my relapse, and I haven't been eating. All I want is acknowledgment or validation. They won't say anything until I'm crying, scratching at my body, or saying I'm fat

#tw ana diary #nb ed #@na buddy #nb ana #tw edd #ed relapse #ed bllog #tw disordered thoughts #tw @na #ed vent #@na trigger #@na vent #disordered eating thoughts #i hate my body