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I’m currently doing this, I’ve been sick for almost two weeks but don’t have the funds for a doctor.

Minor Healthcare Poll #1

PLEASE READ THIS FIRST: All 3 of these polls, listed below, ask USAmericans about a health condition that could be treated at home or with the help of a professional. The question is asking: if this was you, with your current circumstances and level of knowledge, which option would you pick?

Poll #2: Skin Infection

Poll #3: Cut

#I have insurance through my family thankfully #but still #healthcare #medical care #United States

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i have. a lot of big complicated thoughts about how people tend to treat depression as like. as if it’s nothing. like it’s the most basic easiest mental illness ever. why do we do this. depression kills people. constantly. people will throw around “depression and anxiety” and say they’re totally normalized nonstigmatized disorders and then you realize they only think mild versions of these disorders exist. i have a laundry list of mental disorders and the only one that’s ever actually put my life at risk was depression. if you throw around depression as if it’s the mildest least harmful mental illness ever have you considered shutting the fuck up.

#this!!! #it’s treated like the baseline #“everyone’s depressed #mm #well #I’m sad sometimes but my best friend is struggling to stay alive and those aren’t the same #I was diagnosed with depression and brushed off when I really had adhd #it’s seen as a catch all and treated just as badly. #tw suicide #tw depression #mental health

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Damn, thanks.

I was screaming to the void but sometimes the void screams back with advice.

Okay y’all.

I’m sick of every “small business” I’m finding on Google being a front for some random MLM.

Multi Level Marketing is NOT a small business. You are an agent of a big business. You are an unpaid intern!

#local business #small business #screw mlm schemes

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So do y'all know how multi-level marketing schemes tell their consultants to use the Law of Attraction so they can blame said consultants for not working it hard enough when they lose money? Even though multi-level marketing schemes are intentionally set up so the vast majority of consultants lose tons of money?

That's a thing. Look it up. The Law of Attraction can't save you from a system designed to exploit you.

#law of attraction #multi level marketing #multi level marketing schemes

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#multi level marketing #tiktok #multilevel marketing

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Okay y’all.

I’m sick of every “small business” I’m finding on Google being a front for some random MLM.

Multi Level Marketing is NOT a small business. You are an agent of a big business. You are an unpaid intern!

#corporate greed will kill us all #multi level marketing #I’m not gonna tag it as just MLM because yeah but #MLM scam #multi level marketing scam #small business

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It’s just simple economics, at work you get what you pay for. You have to join a higher tier to unlock certain features. I’m a membership, not a purchase.

The thing about weaponized incompetence is that it's a very rude and cruel thing to do to a partner or friend but it is an extremely funny and cool thing to do to your boss at work

#corporate greed will kill us all #work to rule

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Yo I feel like the idea that the only historical women who counted are the ones who defied society and took on the traditionally male roles is… not actually that feminist. It IS important that women throughout history were warriors and strategists and politicians and businesswomen, but so many of us were “lowly” weavers and bakers and wives and mothers and I feel like dismissing THOSE roles dismisses so many of our mothers and grandmothers and great-grandmothers and the shit they did to support our civilization with so little thanks or recognition.

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#corporate greed will kill us all

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Hi y’all.

Since I was laid off at the end of last year, I haven’t been able to find another job to supplement my first one. Meaning, I’ve had a bit more time, but I’m also really struggling to get by.

I’ve been doing commissions for people I know IRL for a while, mostly for fun or as a trade, but while I’m still looking for another job, I figure I’ll open them up on here.

I’m gonna make another post about the commission information here, because hopefully my situation will change so that I can do commissions for fun again, but I figured I’d give y’all a heads up.

I’m really, really grateful for everyone who reads and likes my stories, and there’s no pressure for anything commission related, I’ll still be writing as much as I can.

I’m apply for other jobs constantly, so if there’s a remote job that you recommend or could get rewards for referrals, please let me know. I’ve got 7 years in customer service, management and training, and health insurance/healthcare. (I know tumblr isn’t really the place but well, stranger things have happened.)

Thank y’all again and hopefully this year will be a good one even if it’s off to a rough start.

#job search #customer service

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#current events #corporate greed will kill us all

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Since they don’t teach gay sex ed in school let me tell gay guys and anyone else that wants to use the back door that douching is bad for you. It will cause long term problems.

Also starving yourself all day will not work because sometimes it can take up to two or three days for something to move through you.

Just eat a bunch of fiber and use the bathroom at least an hour or two before your booty call if you can. If you hate eating fiber just get yourself some fiber pills to take with meals. If you eat enough fiber the section after the colon should remain relatively clean on its own. Just wash the outside part. Not your insides. Those clean themselves.

Also if he shames you for anything that happens by accident in the bedroom and/or refuses to use a condom he’s a jerk-wad and an idiot and you should dump him.

#sex ed #gay sex ed #gay #psa

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It's often hard for me to admit– but I do long to be taken care of. I'm so tired.

I'm so tired of having to be stronger than I feel I'm even capable of being. I'm so tired of having to be in survival mode all the time. I'm so tired of always pretending like I'm okay.

I want to relax. I want to feel safe. I want to let go.

I want to ease my exhausted body into the arms of someone who cares. Someone who wants me to feel not alone. Someone who can see the burdens I've carried and say, "I see you. I acknowledge your strength– your sacrifices. Let me take over for a while. Let me take care of you. You've been so brave. Your only job now is to rest."

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y'know, one thing i don't see get talked about much in regards to asexuality is how it feels to never be 'sexually motivated' by anything

and not just when it comes to advertisements using 'sexy' models to try and sell you stuff, but like. in general

sex as a favor, sex as a bribe, sex in exchange for whatever

casual sex, 'friends with benefits' situations, even simple flirting

it all looks a whole lot different from the perspective of someone who's immune to manipulation via sex appeal, who has virtually no understanding as to why sex would motivate someone to cheat on their partner, etc. etc.

sex is worthless to me

i mean, it's useful as a story element in fiction, but it genuinely perplexes me that sex is such a driving force behind so many aspects of irl society & of people's individual lives, for better or for worse

and that it's so deeply ingrained into how the average person views the world & various situations, because the average person feels sexual attraction, whereas i do not

i think the barrier between aces & allos is actually even deeper than it seems on the surface at times, because it's more than just the grating expectation that everyone must want to 'settle down' and have kids, it's also the fact that the majority of the world is sort of 'in' on a joke that aces will never truly be a part of

#asexuality

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It is so exhausting to be optimistic.

To keep fighting even when the people around you shrug their shoulders and sigh, lay down their fight because “why does it matter?”

To try to convince not only others but yourself not to give up or give in because things are going to be okay, goddamnit I will make them okay, I will mold them with my bare fucking hands if I have to.

To just…be there. To look on the bright side. To placate, to assume the best, to forgive. To not ignore the pain that is so sickeningly real and bright but to also work to change it.

To go to bat constantly with all the people who, intentionally or not, want you to believe that giving up and just accepting “fate” is the easiest, most merciful and morally correct choice. TV, social media, friends, family, everything in an echo chamber of “nothing matters”.

And knowing if you can’t keep your spirits up for others, if you fall apart outside of the safety of privacy, everything you’ve been working on for weeks will fall apart.

If you struggle, if a setback knocks you flat on your ass, if you are starting to come apart at the seams, you still have to grin and bear it because you have to be stronger than this, you have to keep going or there will never be a future to rest.

You can’t get angry, you can’t scream and throw things or snap, you can’t be the kind of angry that would soothe that awful expanding feeling in your chest, the kind you’re almost afraid of because what if you don’t break down and cry? What if you explode?

There’s only so much sleep can do for the kind of exhaustion it brings. You go through the little positive media you can find like a kid with Halloween candy, and all it leaves you is hungry for something real but sick to your stomach, a disgusting feeling in your mouth.

You can’t channel this feeling very easily. The anger is hard to direct, the sadness only helps you understand what you already knew, the apathy ties you to your bed and cuts you off from the people you care about, the people you want to help.

You feel helpless but you can’t be.

You know better.

You can do better.

But the only thing you want to do is lay your head down and for everything to stop for a minute.

But that’s not going to happen.

So you clean your room, you cook dinner, you take a shower, you take a deep breath, you listen to your own advice. It feels hollow but in the morning, it’s enough to start again.

It’ll be okay.

Eventually.

The only way out is through.

You just wish you weren’t doing it alone.

#caretaker burnout #burnout #optimism burnout #nihlism #tw depressing thoughts #tw depression #it’s just so overwhelming

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Conservatives will be like “Why are you holding me accountable for my bigoted beliefs? Whatever happened to tolerance???”