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“My 20s have been the loneliest era in my life. I am surrounded by people but not connecting with anyone. Everyone is living their own lives while I am still waiting for mine to start. I feel lost between what I should be feeling and how I actually feel.”

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I want to be myself again,

but I'm still trying to find it.

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- Unknown

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I've won many battles but I may lose the war. I am so tired of this fight. What is the point of this so called life.

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And I just want to tell you, at some point, it doesn't matter who was right and who was wrong. At some point, being angry is just another bad habit, like smoking, and keep poisoning yourself without thinking about it. - Jonathan Tropper

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I show you my favourite books

because I love you

and I play for you

my favourite music because I love you.

What is love if not the sharing

of something beautiful?

Something that will make your life brighter?

Love is your happiness being my happiness.

I came into this world with

only half a heart

and I'll spend my whole life looking for my missing part.

Is it you? Is it you? Is it you?

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Hatred

How can I let go of hatred? When I say I forgive, my heart is stating another.

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Living

I am asking myself why should I keep on living. Is it worth it anymore? Am I worth it? Will I ever change? Is there a light at the end of the tunnel? I only see darkness and the bad in everything. I want to be able to see the good in a bad situation, to put a smile on my face and mean it. Life doesn't seem real anymore because everything is going wrong all at the same time. To feel the joy of being alive and not have tears in my eyes is all I want right now. I need a friend but most of all I need a reason to live.

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“Sometimes I wonder why words can’t actually make us bleed.”

— Swati Avasthi

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thats when you know your love has died..

when you can't write about love anymore, when it used to come so easily to you. you can only write about the pain, because the love you held inside is now dried up like a gnawed on peach pit, the lingering memories of love are nothing more than the sweetest scent of a ripened fruit you can no longer taste.

'insomniac poem, number one'

-moth

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Today

I want to be okay today.

Be able to forget yesterday.

Move on from mistakes I've made.

Put a smile on my face.

Maybe have it stay.

Tell myself today is a new day.

Let those worries fade away.

With a restless mind like mine.

How can I just be fine.

Breathe in and out they say.

Slowly until you are okay.

When that does not work.

And it is only you.

When alone what can I possibly do.

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Okay

I just want to be okay. Able to live day to day. Wish I could put a smile on my face. It always fades away. What will it take to be okay? When you don't want to live for the day. I feel so broken and beaten down. I've been made to be the clown. A joke is all I am, to all my family and friends. How can I be okay with that? Just a glimpse of happiness would be nice. But misery is my company and here to stay. One day I hope to be okay.

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Misung Kim

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He says he loves me but I don’t think I believe him anymore