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I've discovered a secret hack to get free Lindt chocolate which is to help old folks out with technology. happened twice this week already

#same here #only with merci chocolate #some experiences seem to be universal

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never mind. the feeling was nice while it lasted.

yes i'm sure winning the lottery feels nice, but have you ever returned to a story and somehow ended up writing a sentence that's a banger

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why would you like media that is good if you can like media that is bad instead and pace around your room like an insane person thinking about What If It Was Good

#my adventures in writing fan fic #laugh rule

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guys, if you have an old windows laptop like me, which is barely able to run the most basic programms without freezing/ overheating every other minute, please deinstall microsoft 365 and everything connected to it if you don't need it (you don't). it's been a game changer. my disk usage is down to 10%. my laptop doesn't sound like a helicopter trying to take off.

i promise, typing stuff in word just isn't worth it.

#windows #microsoft #writing problems #windows 10

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yes i'm sure winning the lottery feels nice, but have you ever returned to a story and somehow ended up writing a sentence that's a banger

#writing #my adventures in writing fan fic

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9 People Tag

a big shout out to @bookish-karina ! Thank you for tagging me <3

last song: Lana Del Rey Video Game

last movie: Barbie (unfortunately, I'm not watching a lot of movies these days)

currently reading: I just finished Burnout by Emily and Amelia Nagoski

last thing I searched for writing purposes: fresh water turtles in Australia

currently watching: nothing. but I'm trying to catch up with the new doctor who episodes which were released last week.

three ships: not much of a shipper, really

currently craving: a nice conversation, a cup of tea on the balcony, a day off, strawberries from the garden, a never ending summer with plenty of time to write

currently consuming: trail mix

current obsession: probably those Australian fresh water turtles mentioned earlier lol

tagging: @aelaer , @beguilewritesstuff @thirddoctor , @natalunasans and whoever comes across this post and wants to participate. Consider yourself tagged!

#tag games

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“omg you’re so creative. how do you get your ideas” i hallucinate a single scene in the taco bell drive thru and then spend 13 months trying to write it

#where is the lie #my adventures in not writing fan fic

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So i'm working on a project that involves looking at people's opinions on public transportation, and something that keeps coming up is that a lot of people like the idea of public transportation but ridership is at the same time low, so I wanna figure out what stops people from riding.

If you could reblog this for bigger sample size that would be so so appreciated

#other #bc i ride my bike to work #our public transportation is great btw #but riding my bike is cheaper #and my mental health needs that exercise

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somehow the cold weather is making me absolutely miserable and the only thing I'm looking forward to is me either going to buy some kimchi on Friday after work or some cake

#about me #like #seriously #i don't even know what's going on with me anymore #is this my brain on seasonal depression? #is this what being an adult will always feel like? #i should probably go and see my gp but i don't want to

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It's Saturday evening and I'm mourning my favourite pair of jeans I ripped at work. They were supposed to last five more years. Or more. Made of close to 100% cotton. They were the best, comfiest jeans I've ever had and I only got to wear them for three years (I guess????). Also, there isn't much I can do to mend them. The fabric is wearing thin so there is no point in fixing them.

#about me #i know there are bigger tragedies out there but I'm still sad #also #me ripping them at work was a lot less awkward than it could have been

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It's Friday night before a long weekend and it's downright scary how much I'm not feeling motivated to do stuff.

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever feel like working on my stories again. Honestly, I have no idea but then I don't think I know myself anymore. Which is a good thing. It makes me hope that maybe I'll surprise myself in the hopefully not too distant future.

#about me

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I answer many emails for my job. And you wouldn't believe how many people are using chat gpt as their personal secretary. Today was the first day which made me feel as if I had been chatting with a bot all day bc that's exactly what I was doing. Only via e-mail. And let me tell you that reading a billion emails which are basically the same apart from the names iiiiiiis exhausting. Especially bc going by the data I have in the system they were supposed to give me some *actual* information instead of those cookie cutter phrases I received. And I'm sure if they had written their own e-mails I'd have got a lot more accurate information which would have made my job so much easier.

I don't have a solution. I just know that not dealing with humans is frustrating. (Of course, dealing with humans is also frustrating).

#rant over #about me #ai #I'm not against ai #but if you can explain a situation in 200 words dont use an ai to do the same in 2k #and no #it doesnt sound better

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Tfw you're reading a book on mental health bc you want to enjoy writing again, only to learn that a brain's default setting is to tell stories.

My brain must be pretty messed up if it finds telling stories impossible right now.

#I'm tired #i know it's just stress with a dash of seasonal depression #but i just want to be able to write again #i want to enjoy the process again #and i want to like what my brain comes up with #is that too much to ask #? #i know i “just” need to sit down and write #and eventually it will happen #but i just cant seem to do that #my adventures in not writing fan fic

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Sry, it looks like somehow I removed my reply by accident. I didn't know that was possible 🙃 if anyone comes across this in the tags: I think it's Should I Stay or Should I Go ( tagging @missyswife bc they asked)

i have come to realise that, a combination of a) having read a thoschei fanfic that rewrote the entirety of 13s era but if the master had been there when she regenerated and was there for the rest of the time and b) having not watched 13s era in years, i now think that the master actually WAS there for all of seasons 11-13 and i dont know how to feel

#doctor who #tfw you've read far too much fan fic #lol

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today I saw a king fisher on my commute.

and I started reading a book on mental health.

we're also having ten degrees in February, instead of zero.

#about me

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at this point life just feels like a to do list

#mood #about me #life

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the other day I had a conversation which made me realise that maybe the reason why I'm tired all the time is that I'm giving 100% at the office.

The thing is, when I'm at work it's easy to feel productive. There are instant results. I know what needs to be done. At all times.

But when I'm trying to be creative, there isn't a check list. I'm only putting one word after the other and more often than not those words don't feel good. Funny how much I used to love writing and now I'm just not enjoying it anymore. The other day I was trying to find something to read but somehow, there wasn't a single book which would have been appealing.

I'm tired of not enjoying things. Bc I'm not saying I'm enjoying my job. I'm not. I'm just not feeling motivated to figure out what I should do whenever I'm not working.

#about me