#you didnt ask for this but i wanted to vent lol

[naturecalls111]

on liking girls

#comic #vent art #other fandoms #the fandom is my personal life LMAO #I had posted this on twitter and deleted it because it was vent art from back in like. Ohhh I forget. Must have been january #Like I had just had my birthday and I don't know what it was but something made me realise like #oh. I haven't come out to my parents #like it's Been a minute I probably should right #and my parents are like. the best in the world I say that with my whole chest #my sexuality is not something they would ever care about let alone judge me for #like they have so many gay friends OBJECTIVELY I KNOW THIS IS A NON ISSUE LOL #but I don't know. something about it DOES feel dangerous and I can barely come to terms with it #I hate the idea of making it a "thing'. does that make sense #i don't want it to be a “thing” #I don't want them to tell me they'll love me no matter what and that this doesn't change anything #I don't want to have to subject them to feel like I'm “opening up” and then Have to respond like that #I wish it felt like as natural of an integration as someone is being straight you know #i wish it was: i come home with the prettiest girl in the world (she is the prettiest because she is my girlfriend) and they're just like #“hi! so nice to meet you! lets sit for tea!” #and thats it no questions asked. my mom or dad wouldn't ask “why didnt you tell us?” does that make sense #This is why none of my highschool friends know either #i'll tell them if they ask but I don't want to make a performance of Telling Them #I don't. Owe them that #I don't owe anyone a heads up. I don't want to. I don't want to make it A Thing #It's a Me thing. I don't get why it has to be turned into a You thing. #also hi if you havent seen my face i look like That LOL

[emilnikos]

out of curiosity where'd you go/what did you have to do to get your T prescription? we're the same age but I have no idea where to go or what to do! :')

okay so. the way I got it might be different from yours bc of where I live. I'm from Scandinavia and started the process of pursuing medical transition around 5 years ago. I have no idea how things work outside of my own country sorry 😔

The first thing I did was talk to my GP who then referred me to a psychiatrist who I talked to for roughly 5-6 months. I believe I received a diagnosis of Gender Incongruence but idk if that's still required bc again. That was 5 years ago.

From surface level research it seems that it's still a diagnosis but doesn't mention anywhere if it's still required. so. shrugs. My psychiatrist then referred me to the only clinic in the country who helps you with this kind of stuff (there is one alternative you can use if you have a postal adress in the capital, which I don't) And then I had meetings with a professional there twice a year (if I was lucky the waiting lists are loong. but on average it should be twice a year) until I turned 18.

When I turned 18 I was transferred from the kids unit to the one for adults. Then I had to have a conversation with Two More psychiatrists (with a half year gap in-between yes still only biyearly meetings) who would then discern if I was ready and prepared for medical transition (though sometimes it felt like they were testing if I was "trans enough" lmao) and then after that they finally referred me to an endocrinologist, who I met with to discuss the side effects and risks of testosterone. and then I got my prescription.

#im not even gonna get into how they treated me when i was a minor there but basically they told me they wouldn't do anything #until i was 18. so idk why i had to talk to them bht yk. i got there in the end #the guy i talked to when i was 15-17 fucking sucked it felt like he was trying to scare me out if transitioning. #he even suggested i look into detransition once. n by looking into it he meant reading a forum run entirely by detrans people #no disrespect to people who detranstion of course but pushing a trans teen into what looked like a place made for detrans people to discuss #their negative experiences is. um. yeah #anyway i hope this didnt turn into a vent sbout how much i hate the medical system. this is literally just recounting my experience lol #sorry if this wasn't very helpful anon. i hope you get the medical support you need and want as soon as possible. and faster than i did #asks

[thdramas2]

"Mod Jesus" has plenty of problems and criticisms of them that are valid, but since you are apparently a sycophant of theirs, I guess you're not going to listen. Enjoy I guess.

Watching you defend them with so much fervor and ignore asks being sent of actual problems with Mod Jesus, while they hardly acknowledge your existence IS kind of funny tho

i dont think i have ignored asks about actual problems

if i have lemme know and you can resend them and i will post them

sometimes tumblr eats them

although this blog is for talking about toyhouse and not other drama blogs

#vent #also i dont think me posting about him twice counts as me being defending #one ask was about how he fell off which accidentally used my name so i made a joke of it #i did edit that #the second was me laughing at a post mod jesus posted bc it technically mentioned me #how is that defending anon? i didnt say “oh mod jesus did nothing wrong your all insane!!!” lol #if me saying “keep doing what ur doing” is defending then you are mistaken. it is not. #i want to see his downfall from his stupid actions/choices

[narutomaki]

people will tell me it doesn't matter what people think about me and then turn around and go home/online to the people that love and care about them unconditionally

#bro have you ever even been kicked out of you house at 8. 13. 14. 15. because you either fought back or expressed yourself too openly #and ur mum was just in a bad mood that day? have you never been abandoned on the side of the road half way across town? #have you never had anything on the floor or our of place on your desk or shelf thrown out because it pissed her off? #have you never been ostracized every day at school from KINDERGARDEN TO GRADE 5? have you never had someone you thoight #was a close friend laugh in your face for talking to them on front on their other firneds? #like dude. it matters a lot what other people think about me. that it comes off like i dont is not a fucking compliment for me 😭 #UNFORCH. AND I STILL CONSIDER MYSELF LUCKY. :) COULD HABE BEEN WORSE!!!! XOXO #i dont care what people think about something indo until someoen goes wow i love how you do x like no ones looking #and then i will never do x again ever even in the privacy of my own bedroom 2 years removed from my mother being alive. #like. idk man. #i had people that did not like children OR ME ON A PERSONAL LEVEL telling my mother to be nicer to me. #its. idk man idk how to explain that its engrained in my fucking dna and idk hownto escapenit. #sad. oh well #vent #neg #like. dude i have had people drop me for being too interested in their lived and for not being interested enough. #i have in fact been locked out of the house at night b4 without a key and only been let back in bcus the neighbours called the cops. lol. #lmao. lmfao. even. like idk! idk!! #if i was quiet if i was good if i sat and listened to her and asked the right questions and provided myself as the pwrson she wanted #me to be thst day than i didnt get ostrasized! i wish i had had. any adult. growing up. thst i felt unconditional love and safety from #id say thst person was my grandmother. and it was. she just wasnt there for me in practice? idk man. maybe #she just didnt want me in the house w my grandfather. maybe she just didnt want the family stress that would come #from taking me from my mother. but regardless. she died before i turned 16. so. doesnt matterm #death m #abuse m #oh man we are spiralling oopsm

[lycanr0t]

normal tumblr experience: i make a post with an opinion and say im just going to block ppl who try and argue with me about it but no one actually reads posts let alone understands their contents so naturally within just a few minutes i get an anon from someone who missed the point of the post entirely and is mad at me about it because their inability to read or click away is my problem for some reason

#rot posts #im not going to respond to the ask bc as i stated in the post. i do not fucking care and dont want to argue with ppl on the internet #but dont come into my ask box just to announce youre unfollowing also. lmfao. you dont Have to tell me you dont like my opinion you know #like i know. i know its so tempting to stomp your feet and make sure me (rando on the internet) #knows that you (rando on the internet) disagreed with me and i should feel soooo bad #but like. 1. you can just block/unfollow you dont have to send your passive aggressive anons lol #and 2. i literally said i wasnt going to argue with people which you clearly ignored or simply didnt read my post. #anyways im not in the fucking mood for this. cant a guy vent on his own damn blog in peace lmfao... christ alive

[mothheart]

The more i think about it the funnier it is to be told no one owes me emotional labor or affection by someone I never talked to on a personal level even once

#like all that over using my space on my blog to vent lol #have you ever watched a grown adult older than yourself make the biggest scene because they didnt want to admit they just dont like you #and cant communicate #it sure is something lol #god forbid we self reflect and acknowledge how weird it is to stalk someones blog after unfollowing them and blame it on them #not a single one of those people did i ever talk to on a personal level #what they saw was what incredibly vague information i chose to vent about on /my/ blog lol #believe it or not i care about the people i love and always make sure they are okay with me venting #and they vent to me too. because you know. thats what friends do. #i want to hear the good and the bad in my actual friends lives because i give a shit about them but yk thats just me #anyway this is brought to you by me having another anxiety attack yesterday when i remembered how my ex stalked me and etc #and Once Again i was stalked ! by someone who very heavily insists on making it known how self aware and responsible they are. #little weird if you ask me but what do i know #miles rambles

[mikkokomori]

I do not feel the energy to answer asks but if I don't then I feel guilty because what if I'm hurting you guys' feelings, but then I remember someone who dmed me telling me to take breaks however much I want to but then if someone asks me when I'll return then I feel more pressured but they told me not to but then what if I'm missing out, but then there's the fact that recently I don't make content I enjoy and want to see on here but then what if you guys aren't interested, and what if I am just simply some person who you see as someone to make your own ideas into reality by having a 50/50 chance of it being turned into a drawing, but I know you guys mean well and maybe I am just overthinking things and aaaufjfjcjdjx

Maybe I do need a break and spend some time for myself and do what I want instead of going along with what others want, but I am just being a pushover at this point like I always have been ahaha y'know?? I want you all to feel appreciated and happy whenever you're on my blog-- but then at the same time I feel like I force this happy persona onto myself too much, but it's just always been this way with me??

Sometimes I don't want to talk at all and sometimes I do, but what if I seem rude or mean when I don't want to communicate, what if I am too annoying and clingy and weird when I do want to communicate and I always do try to make friends on here I really do but in the end getting to know someone new makes my anxiety spike and it makes me wonder if you'll like me at all if you guys were to dm me, so I put on a cheerful persona so that I don't scare you away because if I were to be my natural self, would you feel uncomfortable? Would you accept me for who I am? In the end, I sit there and observe you all to see what type of approach I should have to make you feel comfortable, what type of person you would like to talk with-- and in the end, even if I do end up being comfortable around you, I will never truly open up myself to you because what if in the end you leave because I talk too much about something? The moment I see someone reply with no tone indicators makes me feel like they're not interested in what I have to say at all so I turn the conversation to them instead of my own thoughts and feelings and maybe I am merely just making myself look pathetic for this and wow this should've only been a small post about me not wanting to respond to anyone at all because I realize I am slowly getting burnout

So in the end

Can you tell I've been listening to upbeat depressing songs for 5 days straight? I didnt think it would affect me this much but the more I read into the lyrics the more I lose myself into a spiral mess of anxiety and depression ahahahahahahahahaha lets end this post with a happy, joke-y note ok?

This is a Basil kin moment for real 💔

#i type all this with a straight face but i wonder what it would be like #to finally be able to pour my emotions out rather than keep them stored away #would this be considered a vent post or what?? #anyways i think i'll answer some asks evem though i said i didnt want to #sorry for feeling this way #i know you guys are usually here for a good time and not a depressing time lol 💔✨ #miko talks. #miko panta #i'll delete this #eventually

[tobe-sogolden]

Hello! I’ve looked through your blog a couple times, as I’m trying to find other harries of color to interact with about Harry, and I have a question but I hope it doesn’t come across the wrong way as I am genuine. Why do you keep up with what larries, deuxmoi, and what you call “pr harries” are saying about Olivia and Harry? If I’m understanding your replies to the asks that you get on the topic, these things make you very upset, which is understandable. But is constantly complaining (sorry if that’s harsh I can’t think of a better word for what I’m observing) in response to the latest rumor or hissy fit about them being spotted together any healthier for you and your anons/followers? Doesn’t that just distract from talking about what you actually enjoy? I used to often check accounts from known big larries or Harry haters as yeah, it was funny observing the immense cognitive dissonance, but eventually it became less fun and more mentally exhausting to do so much doom scrolling when I could just…block and ignore them, y’know? I’ve also deleted twitter, cause that’s just another head ache, and with some curating of my dash I’m mostly blissfully unaware of what’s going on Harry’s personal life. But if I chance upon your blog, suddenly I’m aware of the terrible things being said about Olivia everyday by people who are dug into their own narratives about Harry and likely aren’t going to change without real help. I’m just curious if this is fun or cathartic for you and your anons to be stuck in this seemingly self imposed cycle of always seeing negativity about Olivia and focusing on that, rather than talking about the fun things?

To be honest, I try to not keep up with it. I don't ever seek out the information on my own and I prefer to stay ignorant if possible. But it inevitably ends up in my orbit (I probably need to delete twitter too 🥴) and (1) I'm very triggered by people spreading misinformation and physically cannot shut my mouth if I see it lol and (2) I really hate for the naysayers to be the only voices. I feel like just ignoring it and not calling it out or providing a rational alternative to their insane bs is what's allowed this behavior to become so commonplace and accepted in this fandom and I hate that. I would say like 85% of the time it's more funny than truly annoying to me and like 15% of the time I get genuinely angry over it and then I just take a little break and remind myself it's not that serious 😆 and no I don't find that it distracts me from talking about fun things! I know that might seem like that's all I'm doing lately but that's only bc tumblr is so dead these days so I literally just log on, answer messages, and then log back off bc there's usually like 5 new posts on my dash from the last like 12 hours so not much else to do 💀 but rest assured I'm still listening to the album on repeat and enjoying myself 😌

#ask #if you ever see me getting genuinely mad over something it's usually bc im stressed about smth in real life #or about to start my period lol #i have really really terrible pms #and also like even though sometimes i dont like when people bring stuff here bc im like wow i wish i didnt know that 😃 #i also get that some people just want to vent and im okay with entertaining it for now #if it ever starts getting to be too much i just wouldnt do it

[echo-s-land]

My parents know I don't trust them to tell them anything that is wrong/which worries me and that me being the contrary of a needy child when I was, well, a child is - actually - worrying and they're aware why I did it

At least they know that much lol

#vent #a few years ago id have panicked being known this well by anyone #last year already i panicked a bit when i realized that people who saw me everyday actually had a vision of me in their head and i wasnt #just a ghost #like wtf. what do you mean you can perceive me. i didnt sign up for this bs #now im like 'yeah youre right lol. wont tell you more than what you figured out but yeah' #my parents talking about how them raising us was also us raising them #me replying i probably raised them the less. my dad wondering what i mean. my mom saying that im the one who asks the less. that i didnt an #still dont ask for shit even if i want to #wdym you understood i tried and still try my best not to be a burden to you

[smol-tired-binch-blog]

I do kinda hope we get a sequel, it’d be nice to be able to talk about Lorabetta again

#smol has a vent #this aint as bad as my other vents but it's still a bit melancholy to go in my normal 'speaks' or fandom tag #cause like i dont wanna make out like 'oh the attentions not on ME im LEAVING this fandom' cause im not. but like. #it's one of my only fandoms ive ever truly been In. i made friends from it. i developed OCs for it. discussed the lore and game with others. #i was INTO it and made one of my favourite OCs ever. and people actually wanted to know about her!!! #people asked me about her!!! we made our OCs interact!!! thats not happened before!! #i finally felt like i was in a community! but of course things have lulled these last few months #which is only natural of course. people have their own lives and stuff to deal with they get into other fandoms its natural its normal. #the server aint fully dead most of us are still kinda there. i hope it picks up again at some point #but yeah no i finally drew a Lorabetta comic for Easter and i was PRAYING this might get more attention than the last one (which was 0) #cause i was following up a previous comic! one that got attention! i shared it in the server and.... #nothing. no one cared i suppose. ik she's not like the Best or Most Popular OC in the fandom. i dont think she even registers #on a fandom-wide scale. but she matters to me. and it mattered that other people were interested. and that interest just...isnt there anymor #didnt help i nearly had her ruined for me over something i really shouldnt have got so upset about but i had no way of like assuaging #my worries so i lowkey spiralled a little bit so it left a sour taste in my mouth. another reason drawing her comic meant a lot to me #telling myself 'i still love her'. i want others to love her too. is that a lot to ask? maybe. ah well. such is life. #i reckon a sequel would also be very fun but i mostly do just want a reason to go back to Lorabetta. maybe Mollinda too #im sorry i left you by the wayside girls. and sorry to Lanabelle and Edithana for never developing you. but ya meant a lot to me. still do. #'wow shes apologising to her OCs thats so fuckin sad' yeah maybe but im a sensitive bitch me. its how im built lol

[missshame]

My parents made me tell them how I feel and then they got mad and told me to get some help

#Lol I love them #I think the try to be supportive but mostly they want me to be normal #Like I don't doubt they wanted to know and that they want me to get better #But I think it's mostly because they are not satisfied with my current state #When my sisters or I aren't happy and healthy they take it as a personal failure #They want us to look good and be successful and never complain #Idk #Like they didn't say anything nice or comforting during the conversation #They told me to do something about it because I can't stay like this it's not normal you're 24 you shouldn't be like that #At the end my mother told me to study haha fuck you #But yeah I will find myself a therapist mainly because I know I need one #But also because now that they have decided that I need one they will never leave me alone with that #And blame me for not following their advice anytime I feel like shit #Like when she told me BuT you SAiD u WeRe goIng tO Go to ThErApY And ThEn u diDnT #No shit I asked my gp to recommend me someone and he was useless #Then I had to study for finals #Like I tried actually #And even if I didn't what's your fucking point don't you think I already feel useless and disappointed with myself #Anyway happy Wednesday #vent post

[xaeydnquartz]

Part of me kinda wants to stop DMing my first and current campaign? IDK just need to vent

So, brief expo. like many, got into CR during the pandemic (mainly due to "The Legend of Vox Machina" which lead to me actually bingeing the all 3 campaigns) During which time a friend (who was in my immediate friend group but like the rest of my friend group, i didnt really feel close to) told me that he was really into CR as well. As a fresh new critter, i was stoked. Was able to share my blossoming love of CR with someone (FINALLY!) during which we both mentioned how D&D looked so much fun and that it would be really great to be able to play and ooo what if we got our friends together and played.

After which we discussed, if we did, who would be DM? Seeing as how none of our friends really played D&D our talk lead to either my friend or me and after asking the question "Which do you think you would prefer more?" It was clear i would try my hand at DMing (i like lore in games, and i like storytelling, and im a tad bit of a control freak at times, lol)

Anyway, we eventually got in touch with our close knit of friends, and though i intended to be a standard 6 we suddenly had an 8 party party (and that was with me having to tell even less close friends there wasnt room).

Feeling it would still be manageable (as there was precedent that i could pull inspo from, CR) i began planning a rough idea of a campaign and working with my friends to create their characters and running a session 0 so we were all on the same page. You know standard stuff.

-Fast Forward to current date and time-

It has its stressful moments, but i still am able to enjoy the time with my friends for the most part (though theres a lot of times were ive never felt lonelier) Which brings me to the whole point of the post, my need to vent to the void about this loneliness. Nobody really gets in touch or interacts with me at all. Not to talk about the campaign or even collab on their characters. The most i get are occasional critiques about how i could have done something better couple sessions prior and request to add another person to the 8 person party. When we have sessions, people show up late quite often, leave early quite often, have to cancel as they have other things they are doing (even though we planned and scheduled weeks prior) and even when people are there they somtimes feel like they arent always present. i already feel extremely distant from all of them as they all live closer to each other while i live on the totally opposite side of the state and theyve known each other way longer than i have, but the minimal interactions they have with me, the DM/GM of all people, just continues to add to all of it I know we all are busy with our lives, and that compared to those things D&D is really not that big of a deal or important. And i get that, it is just a game afterall, but it still manages to hit pretty hard

I've communicated my feelings through our time of this campaign, if im being honest, maybe not this indepth. I mean, its partially because i barely see or talk to them (again life gets in the way) but also because i feel extremely guilty for putting this kind of tension to something we are all supposed to be enjoying and relaxing to. Its especially painful as most recently 2 players, who said they would get in touch with me about changes possibly being being made to their characters, never got in touch in anyway shape or form, and its been about a month now? And session is in a week...i didnt even get much as a reply back. Idk, its been almost about a year now and i felt i just needed to get this out somewhere other than debating myself.

Thanks for listening tumblr.

#D&D #Dungeons and Dragons #venting #vent post #its just a game it really isnt a big deal #feels pretty lonely though #not what i was hoping for

[rzyraffek]

Hiiii I do like to request slashers with a really calm reader that as a kind and calm aura and talks their way out of situations and for some reason just makes however is trying to fight or attack them vent, cry on their shoulder without even noticing that and when they point that out the reader is just like Isn't that how it goes with everyone? "🤔🧍‍♀️🧍‍♂️" (male or G/n reader would be cool🥲)

YAaas😈 Will go will he/him pronouns

Request open as always have fun reading

Micheal Myers

S/o was vibing making tea in kitchen when micheal just spawned in hallway

So he either had to runaway or try to talk him out of this situation

"Eee you want some tea? I heard that the guy that thats chasing(DrLoomis)you isnt very kind isnt he?"(yes yes s/o trying to make micheal wanna kill somone else but not him yess)

Micheal enjoys smell of tea (bruh I love white tea with hint of rose/strawberry) and he for sure would enjoy taste of it but hes shy and nono dont see his face pls.

S/o wont make him vent mostly due him being mute and non comunicative at all but He definitly will vibe and think about how much he would rather be stabing Loomis rn

But ig he wont stab him? S/o makes nice tea, keep up,king, he might come again and again just to lisen him ramble about daily life and steal food from fridge

Brahms Heelshie

This one is opposite of Micheal. Brahms will probably instantly vent and cry. He wil talk about how lonley it was and how alone he felt and how everything was unfair

He will hug him, he wont stop for a while

He accualy never intended to kill him, never but He thought that he has No choice. But now He loves that he didnt kill him!

S/o is a great lisyner and great person to talk to! He is so matture and smart!

Easiest way to calm him down is giving him glass of water or cup of tea AND hugs of course dont forget about hugs

Brahms is a big babi he is emotional he will cry a lot

Asa Emory

"???Qhat you talking about??" Look nothing personal but He came here to like??? Kindap you?? Im mean yeah he would love to tell him how much kindaping people and putting them into huge jars is tiring but like??? Sir?? You gonna be in jar next??

I mean its more intresting than average screaming and begging for help🥰

He will start with "lmao this loozer thinks hes gonna talk me away from killing lol" to "yeah sometimes its so hard you know? Once one of them stabed me and I still have scar :( " and "oh you wanna see🤨😳 i mean yeah?😳" and takes his shirt off

He will kinda forgor he suppose to kill him and just vibes ESPECALLY if s/o likes bugs HE WILL BE LIKE: :D omg u like moths🥺😊? Wanna hold hands😳😈

He will eat his dinner and then ask for recipie

Billy Loomis

This guy already talks more than he should have. One question and he will do a monologue about his traumatic past and everything

Ofcourse not litteraly, he speaks in weird sentences (yall seen the movie) Nothing is said streight forward

He will hug them looking for support and probably falls asleep due to crying and huge amount of emotions

Then he will woke up and think "😳 did? Did I Just got laid? Noo its impossible wtf happened here??? Is he dead or???" " hi billy did you sleep well? Are you better now?" "AAAAAAAAAAAAA"

He is shocked, first of all he just vented, second of all he slept on somone with their consent, and third of all ??? He feels better now?? Yep s/o is definitly a wizard, yep no way it could possibly help, he just did some magic

Thomas Hewitt

I- Im not sure He ever expirienced somone just being nice, just being nice, without some plan to gain anything from it, without hint of manipulation or plan to use him

He wanted to kill him but He Thomas acually felt guilt, he didnt seem to deserve it. He helped his friends even when he himself was in danger.

Thomas broke when s/o started talking. Again Thomas is mute he wont magicly start speaking like eminem RapGod song

But he will akwardly hold his hands together and be shy (Thomas is shy guys)

S/o just seems to understand him so well

He wont kill him and he probably will be like "Luda🥺 theres this little goblin creature in our basement can we keep him💖" "No way in hell imma-" "he knows how to cook and do chores!" "Yeah sure we can keep him"

Cool his alive now!

Now just preapre for being thomas therapist for rest of life

Hopefully u like it, didnt really have idea what to write

#slasher x reader #billy lenz #billy lenz x reader #micheal myers #brahms heelsire #slasher headcanons #brahms x reader #brahms headcanons #brahms heelsire x reader #brahms the boy #micheal myers x reader #micheal myers x you #billy lenz x y/n #thomas hewitt x y/n #thomas hewitt x reader #thomas hewitt

[bthump]

I dont like how whenever homoeroticism in berserk is brought up its always “griffith was in love with guts!!!” Like yeah that is true but the guts side of it is rarely if ever brought up so much so that a lot of people believe its canon that guts didnt even reciprocate griffith’s feelings and thats why griffith was so upset. For all griffith knows guts didnt but we THE READERS should know that guts actually did and thats what adds to the tragedy. I get that with griffith it was a bit more obvious what with ruining his fuckin life over guts but guts also threw EVERYTHING away just for a CHANCE of getting griffith’s approval! It wasnt even guaranteed! (to guts it wasnt, we know he had it all along) Why is that always downplayed? And people always try to find other reasons for it like a man’s honor or whatever tf. Idk it all just adds to the false and widespread narrative of griffith being the “crazy obsessive homosexual” who unleashed an apocalypse bc his crush didnt like him back and its just icky and borders on homophobia at times. Guts was/is just as obsessed with griffith as griffith was with him and is no less of a homosexual than griffith is is all im saying. And dont get me wrong a lot of griffith’s narrative is driven by his feelings for guts but there are more layers to it than just that and repeating only that guts sentiment all the time just stands in the face of having any nuanced conversations about his character beyond, again, the crazy homosexual. This is about the fandom btw nothing @ you obv, just wanted to make sure thats clear

yeah lol, no arguments here. I mean I've written a 4 part essay about Guts' feelings for Griffith specifically because I feel like fandom has a tendency to ignore his half of things - mainly fandom as a whole rather than Griffguts fandom specifically, ofc.

it's funny because in a lot of ways I think Guts' feelings are more obvious than Griffith's - like in terms of homoeroticism and implied sexual attraction, eg. But he's more masculine, he's got a potential het love interest, and the anime downplays how his dream is just a misguided attempt to get closer to Griffith, so I guess it's easier for a lot of people to miss how gay he is lol.

Thanks for the ask, hope venting helped lol.

#ask #anonymous #b

[sapphicdib]

hi!

i was just wondering, what is your headcanons for ragequit? I just wanna see your visionTM for them!! /pos

OUUGHGHGHH i guess i just be answering asks now lmao I HAVE SO MANY HGSKDJHKFD

ANYWAYS...

i headcanon that before the events of the game, pebbles and sig didnt get along super well, but it was more of a "haha teasing" kind of way. annoyances to lovers if you will. ragequit post-ingame-events is a lot more complex and would require both of them (though particularly sig) to work through a LOT of shit before an actual relationship could form or whatever. but my general idea for them is that sig and pebbles are kind of like, the babies of the local group. they're younger, their emotional AI is a lot more developed, and in terms of pebbles, painfully human to the point of self-sabotage. when they're feeling shitty, and just want to vent, they go to each other. that isnt to say that moon and suns dont do their best to help, but sig and pebbles understand how frustrating and honestly painful really, really feeling shit can be. moon and suns will often attempt to offer solutions (such as how suns doesn't go to comfort pebbles in the "bug" conversation from the game, they go to providing logical answers), whereas sig and pebbles will just let each other cry it out. there's less of a power dynamic between the two of them, sig is older but pebbles certainly doesn't respect her as much as he does suns, so its less..."embarrassing" to rant or break down to one another because their arent any expectations between them. this is partially how the rot au ends up happening lol

more below the cut!!

General Headcanons:

Sig has a billion nicknames for Pebbles, including: Pebbs, Pebbies, Peebs, "My grumpy little sunflower" (that one comes from the streamer au which is just. absolute chaos)

Sig is very touchy in general. He just. Casually puts a hand on Pebbles' waist, or rests her head against his shoulder, or gives him hugs as greetings, and Pebbles doesnt have to ASK her to! He hates asking for affection bc it makes him feel weak/vulnerable

Oh the bickering. The bickering is so cute. Sig pushes every single one of Pebbles' buttons and it is endlessly entertaining

They trust each other. A lot. Despite the teasing they've seen each other at their lowest, and neither poke fun at shit they know will truly hurt them

#rw ragequit #ragequit rw #NSH x FP #rw shipping #letters #dibz rambles #rw #ty for the ask!! #i love ragequit a LOT and i dont think i explained them super well here but i hope u understand a little

[our-genderfluid-experience]

im in the closet and so is my bi bff. im genderfluid/pan and sometimes we joke about coming out to our parents (mostly me) but doubt itll ever happen due to how religious it would be (sometimes i dream about it tho... maybe more than her idk) and hypothetically just think about cutting everyone off and flying out to avoid the backlash (just being silly) and the "interventions" of spiels of how gays go to hell and God wouldnt like That (i am still a christian... somewhat i think and its not uncommon in the spaces ive been to have gay/trans people in the church spaces something about Anglican churches etc, in my country. i just dont have the same exact beliefs as my parents)

sometimes i lie awake about the implications of coming out, the worst case scenario, how id probably no one to tell my achievements anymore, no one to be happy for me the way they had, no one to comfort me or be there when i get married etc. and i joked about how id just get up and leave and fuckall if i die alone to my friend even tho it fills me with loneliness and sadness ;w; anyway um she suddenly took one of my jokes seriously one night and say to me that she'll probably never come out because she loves her parents too much and i just idk. felt hurt. did she think i didnt love them either? i think she didnt mean it that way and i cleared it out that i was just joking about my plans bcuz idk if i want to do it actually (tho i feel like its an inevitable canon plot point with every trans ppl atp) but i just think about it sometimes. i love them but yk. i want to live.

maybe i wont actually cut them off as they try to process that but idk.

i dont think they'll like hurt me or anything but mentally and emotionally probably yes even if they probably mean well. i dont think i want to be in the closet forever?? idk im just sad about what she said ngl. and my future.

sorry just had to vent

i just dont think she gets how painful itd be to me. my parents and their extended family are Baptists. she has mostly catholic relatives (which in my experience from school and friends and gay teachers etc is more accepting ngl) and her dad is pretty accepting, having a brother who is gay and stuff. i dont wanna do a suffering olympics here but the more i think about forever in the closet the more i wanna puke lol

I have a religious family (Catholic), and I'm still religious as well. You wanting to come out to your family is not selfish or "proving you don't love them" in any way. You are who you are and you can't change that. You don't always have to rely on your family to get those feelings of achievement, love, happiness. You can make some friends who will basically become a second family, and they will be there to be happy for you and support you.

Catholics may be a bit more supportive than Baptists (idk I haven't met anyone who's Baptist), but they aren't super supportive (maybe that's just my family idk), but my family probably isn't the best example.

Anyway, you won't be stuck in the closet forever. Once you get old enough to move out, you aren't under your parents' rules anymore. If you ever need to vent some more, you can send me a message or an ask 💖