I love you robots and artificial intelligence with mental illness. I love you repression being depicted as literally deleting archived data to preserve functionality. I love you anxiety attacks being depicted as a system crashing virus. I love you ptsd being depicted as an annoying pop-up. I love you anxiety disorder being depicted as running thousands of simulations and projected outcomes. I love you artificial beings being shown to be human via their own artificiality.
i want to be inconvenienced by you. i want to wait for you, i want to hold your things while you do something else, i want to make adjustments to my plans to make space for you.
someone at your side who takes up no space and has no needs of their own is not a person, but a shadow.
i don't want a shadow, i want you. i want my life to be altered by your presence in it. please, inconvenience me.
i just got hit with an intense wave of sadness thinking about janis and i guess it makes sense. i think tomorrow will be a year since we lost her. i just don't really feel okay right now
And if I could tell my younger self one thing, it would be to be less afraid of being alone than of being with the wrong people. To be brave enough to wait for something good. For someone who's right for me.