#yeah that’s p accurate

[miralyk]

another orbit around the sun finished...! here's to continuing on 🎇

#my art #not much i can say esp bc i'm still p bittersweet about so much that's happened #but... yeah...! life will keep going and i'm now taking a deep breath taking in the night air and fireworks #happy new year #2024 #update: fixed the caption to be accurate bc i mixed up earth’s rotation = 1 day and earth’s orbit around the sun = 1 year LMAO

[dootznbootz]

I absolutely love your head canons about Water Wife™️, but I’m curious about what head canons you have for Odysseus (aka. #1 Water Wife™️ simp) 🤔

I have so manyyyyyyyy!!! :D

For both, of course, and I'm not even done with Penelope never will be There's some I probably have mentioned before but bleh :D I'll put it out anyways.

Odysseus is a "pretty boy" and he's able to balance "masculine" and "feminine" beauty perfectly and he knows it and uses it. (When you're aspec, you tend to "study" what makes people "pretty". To understand it as, "What's the big deal?". That's what he does) I knew someone in theatre who when playing different characters for acting, the more "sweet and goofy" one (Seymour, Little Shop of Horrors) and the "rugged, handsome" one (Prince from Into the Woods) and he looked like different people and realized it was because he was able to really shift his jaw around and also just really expressive and Odysseus USES this. ALL the time. Paris is a more feminine pretty boy while Menelaus is a more masculine pretty boy but Odysseus is a perfect in-between. (Paris and Menelaus are definitely prettier than him in a way but yeah >:D Homer doesn't stfu about Odysseus and he had multiple people wanting him. When he didn't want anyone but Penelope)

What "mars" his beauty is that Odysseus bites at his lips a lot. Usually chapped and ripped up.

I kind of plan for it to be kind of unknown whether Sisyphus or Laertes is his dad. He REALLY takes after his mom in so many ways. He's a lil jealous of Ctimene as while both take after Mom, she has Dad's nose and eye color. It's something that means a lot to him that his dad loves him regardless. And it REALLY bothers him when people try and bring up Sisyphus being his dad. It makes him sincerely happy seeing Tyndarius loving all his kids even though there's a CLEAR difference on who's whose. (Omfg imagine if he could talk to his mom about Calypso and Circe as what she went through with Sisyphus 😭Maybe Penelope trying to get advice from Laertes!!!)

He actually couldn't really grow a beard until after the war for whatever reason :D he was just kind of pretty smooth-shaven (not shaven but just no beard til later). Penelope teases him about it and when she does he rubs his face against hers.

He tries to say his favorite poems/epics/myths are the ones of Heracles but it's actually Psyche's myth. Not giving up because you're so devoted? That you want to see your person/people again?? RINGING ANY BELLS. (Also Baucis and Philemon, because Xenia is very important to him and to grow old with his love to then get turned into olive trees together?? That's his LIFE GOAL.)

I really love the thought of him and Eumeaus being super close. Like he actually wasn't that close to Polites and Eurylochus until mid-teens but Eumeaus was raised beside him and Ctimene.

Demisexual/demiromantic/aspec: Like he didn't really get it until Penelope, at least not fully. And then he's just hit by a truck. They were in the garden when they first met (no details yet! But she just knocks him on his ass) and there were beehives and beekeepers around and he turns so red and is so gobsmacked that Penelope freaked out thinking he was stung by a bee and was dying. (being Naiad she's dealt with this before) I wouldn't say "love at first sight" as he didn't really think anything until she called him out.

Mentioned before, but the Boar scar caused fertility issues. He's...very ripped up. He blames his asexuality/demisexuality on it and it's a surprise that he can run so well (Hermes' descendant and Athena saved him...just not "all of him".) Penelope had some fertility issues too (she has a lot of siblings so she's really sad about it) but he always took the blame and always made a point of "I won't take a concubine. I don't want one and I'm the reason why we can't have children. It wouldn't change anything." Though his leg does get stiffer in joints and the skin is tight when he's older. Water Wife™ helps with that. :D

Since it took a while before they had Telemachus, he had... a lot of toys made in preparation even though it took awhile. Crib too but wasn't used for a while. Telemachus luckily has many keepsakes and gifts from his dad :') and yes he carried them everywhere. (There was a branch off their "nest" that Telemachus messed around on too much when he was around 8 and it broke :'). When Odysseus comes back, Telemachus is ashamed and says sorry and Odysseus is just happy he wasn't hurt. (OUCHIE)

He actually had the Trojan horse idea for YEARS (like year 5) but everyone thought it was "dishonorable" and he was SO MAD. (also yeah, he remembered all the toys he made his son and that's how he got the idea) It is a "TOLD YOU SO!" moment when they win.

One thing I love about him is that he really is "all or nothing" in many ways. or a "0 to 100 very quickly". He does NOT let even minor insults slide. He goes all out and over the top for the people he loves and the people he hates. like, he DOES care. He loves as much as he hates. Like he's an asshole but there's always a reason (honestly I think he does have his rules. and they ARE consistent I think. probably will write an essay on it soon)

Honestly, I know a lot of people think "oh familiar stranger" when they get back and yeah, they look so different but they still think the same in many ways. Homer ends with them still being like-minded. I think Penelope and Odysseus had the feeling of "feels like there was almost no years of separation" as they can be in-sync and "are like they were before". They're older, wiser, but he still does the funny voice that makes her laugh. She's still ticklish on her neck. So much is the same. It'll be fun to learn what's different.

Except the PTSD.

And Odysseus is basically just trying to force himself to be "normal". He's bottling things up but not pushing away. Some war stuff he's shared as there were games and some fun stories (also not as recent) But he doesn't share Circe or Calypso with Penelope at first. And he definitely doesn't want Telemachus to know. But he's not pushing away. If anything he wants them even closer than ever. And doesn't really like them being away from him.

He usually has to be the one to make "first contact" or "first touch" (don't go up behind him...ever) but he is very physically affectionate so...kind of works.

Though it saddens Penelope, as this is all Telemachus knew, he's not too affected. As to him, Odysseus is already so loving and wonderful to him and so he just sees his moments of war flashbacks and fear and his violent outbursts against others are just... Dad. He knows it's strange but no one's perfect. He's fine most of the time otherwise. He kisses his and his mother's cheeks and is trying to learn pottery from him. But Penelope knows this is not normal. Plus he's sharing some things with her that he would rather keep hidden from Telemachus forever.

Before she could always just hold him and basically do whatever and he melts. She now needs to go slow and always give some sort of warning. He usually meets her halfway, so that helps. Something he did before but...There is so much lost and that needs time.

Slowly reaching her hand out to his face? He grabs it and leans into it. She didn't need to go slow before. She opens her arms? He flops into it. Before, she could've grabbed his hand and basically pulled him into her.

He always has to be in control now and he's mad at himself for it.

"That's your son. Why did your son's joyful shouts make you think of the screams of the young men in war. Your son is fine. There's no war here. You made sure of that. That's your wife. Your wife that you've longed for 20 fucking years and you still wake up weeping and think you're with the goddesses again. Hold her. Let her hold you. Stop crying. Let her hold you. That's what you want."

He's like a cat who digs their claws into you to keep you to them. He's angry at himself for getting scared/upset and...in a way HAS to let it be known that even though he's a mess, he NEEDS them. Always has.

He can't be the little spoon anymore. He can't have her sleep/rest on top of him anymore. He can lay on her and be the big spoon but as he was basically a "doll" for Calypso and manipulated and tricked by Circe, there are certain things he can't have done to him. If he gets in his funks, he sometimes has to have it where he holds her and she's completely still before he gives her the go-ahead to hold/touch him in return. Sometimes he has to quiz her questions only she would know. And then he just cries. He won't talk about it for a while. :')

As he and Laertes shared some of the same "adventures" with the same beings, they bond over that :D Also, with his older cousin Jason? "I don't like him. >:( He always would fuck up my hair by messing with it."

In their Early marriage, they tried each other's "hobbies". Aka Odysseus tried weaving and Penelope tried woodcarving. Two of their most prized possessions is a fucking ugly wooden duck and a little blanket that is uneven and has some holes in it. When he doesn't see his blanket next to her duck when he returns, he's worried and a bit sad but then Penelope reveals that she sleeps with it :') the dye is faded and some parts are clearly rewoven so it won't fall apart.

#I did a LOTTT #and this ain't even all of them but idk wanna reveal some in fics :D #I like studying these goobers :D #Mad rambles #shot by odysseus #my headcanons #ask #fangirlofallthefanthings #I'm basing a lot of this on my own recovery and shit :D #idk feels nice in a way??? and honestly? accurate as yeah :D Everyone's different but so many moments of 'I know what you're #doing. I did it too.' and yeah :P #Telemachus helps more with the War PTSD and Penelope is the SA PTSD...Dad is a bit of both :') #tw ptsd

[skitskatdacat63]

Here is a badly drawn comic of my terrible, awkward group project experience from yesterday. I thought it was very absurd so I wanted to share it other people lol :)

Let me know, how do you find their conduct 😭

#i tried to small talk #and they werent rly listening and were like i just wanna get this done w so i can eat #yet talked to me abt smth random after #but the moving the laptop is what made me draw this 😭 #like is that not absurd???? #i dont wanna rewatch the video #but i wanna see what the camera frame looked like #bcs from what i saw my drawing is p accurate #but yeah they also talked for the majority of the time #even tho i did more research bcs they took up most of the slides #AND ALSO TOOK MY IDEAS #im like uhhhh im p sure [insert slide topic] is required!!! #and i went to go start writing it #and theyre like oh okay ill do that slide #and even tho i kept reminding them of the slide requirement #they kept being like ugh i cant think of anything #and then would take my ideas when i proposed them #like the conclusion part was to write a proposal abt what solution can be made for the current event topic #AND i took notes the night before and wrote down the idea for the solution #and i told them and theyre like oh yeah thats okay and started writing those slides #i know i should be more assertive but im so conflict avoidant and was kinda like oh. okay. ah. #lmao i hope this doesnt make me come off as someone victimizing themselves #im just annoyed 😭😭 #and also this person was on my abroad trip and we all hated them #but i felt bad abt how much we hated them and theyre(I THOUGHT) much more chill in a classroom setting #so i kinda softened my hate for them and theyre the only person i know in my class rly #so im like ahhhh we should work together! #and now i remember why i dislike them 😭😭 #catie.rambling.txt #catie.art.

[ej-artyarts]

Icon Comm for a friend’s biblically accurate Aasimar

#odd guy is intrigued by human emotions - hell yeah #if you can name the constellations I’ll give you a gold star #one is rotated A LOT cause I don’t care :P #commission #commissions open #comms open #dnd commission #dnd #dungeons and dragons #Aasimar #biblically accurate angel #constellations #Druid #fantasy #icon #artists on tumblr #digital art #arty arts #arty comms

[mechsbrackets]

I am here to submit GALAHAD PROPOGANDA. My poor little meow meow. So fucking crazy. Experiencing the horrors 24/7. The only one who actually listened to Brian. Sounds like a Georgian ate a Texan. Fourthwheeling SO HARD on his OWN quest with the pendragons. Has a fucking villian song AND never has a villian arc. He's just unhinged and vaguely terrifying and also like. A good person. I care him so much. The only one crazy enough to handle the horrors and take literally 100% of the gunfire while STILL WALKING. What a king. Vote galahad <3

Incredible propaganda, thank you for you submission!

#the mechanisms #the mechs #propaganda #'SOUNDS LIKE A GEORGIAN ATE A TEXAN' #yeah that's p accurate #i have been convinced #this is very good propaganda

[benetnvsch]

y know, its silly to me how much misinfo I see floating around esp regarding canon skk stuff so I wanted to just rq list some things that I've seen to have it all in one place -

"I should have taken Chuuya [from the mafia] with me" -> Not real, false memory, commonly sourced as the latest stageplay. The person who came up with this was a twt users who just misremembered what happened in the latest stage play which actually never did. They have since publicly stated that this quote isn't Actually in Canon and rather just them misremembering

"Human or not, doesn't matter to me" -> Not canon, mis/fan translation, commonly sourced from stormbringer. This was from a twitter fan translation which I believe has also? since been deleted/disclaimed by the translator as not Real/accurate

The "Chuuya and Dazai are one soul in two bodies" quote from Asagiri- Real quote, just not from Asagiri. It was said by a director working on Dead Apple

"The person I trusted as a partner and protected as a boss suddenly committed suicide without saying anything to me" -> not real, completely made up, commonly sourced from Beast Movie (often said its from credits). This one came from a mistranslation from a Very Controversial SKK account on twt who has been heavily criticized by other BSD (translation) accounts for being inaccurate and biased. Completely made up. The actual closest thing to it is a bit where Chuuya is complaining how horrible and how much he hated to work with Dazai and that he's been wanting to kill him for years and wished he was the one who killed Dazai instead of Dazai just dying on his own- a Very different vibe

Chuuya being Dazai's next in command/right hand man in Beast -> I just see this sited/used in fics A LOT. Just want to just say that in beast Atsushi is explicitly called Dazai's right hand man and there's an executive higher in command then Chuuya (not stated who but there is one more at least)

#yipppeee #kite watches bsd #these are just silly to me - #idk #just want people to know before spreading them #there's so much actual canon stuff- no need to spread lies #Fun fact- the person who did the fake beast quote has me blocked on twt for some reason??? #I haven't even interacted with them LMAO #but yeah- they've been heavily called out for being biased and just Not Accurate #By The Main Translator in the fandom I dare say #(their name starts w p u either know who I'm talking abt or not ) #but yeah :)

[roshield]

ennegram personality test

TYPE 8: CHALLENGER

You are tough, straightforward, and intense. That’s because your personality is based on the belief that only the strong survive in this world. You try to make yourself invulnerable by pure strength and willpower. You enjoy to take charge, to go big, and to win. With the most energy of any type, you have the stamina to power through longer than most others. But you are in danger of running people over as well as running yourself dry. You are intense. It doesn’t matter if you’re physically large or small, if you’re introverted or extroverted, male or female, old or young: You have the charisma to dominate a room as soon as you enter it. When you speak, you make sure people listen. If people don’t, you have no problem telling them that they should.

Strengths of Enneagram 8s

Care about truth and justice and are willing to protect the weak

Are confident in their decision-making skills

Don’t worry what people think of them

Have a charismatic knack for leadership

Are fearless and inspire others to overcome their fears

#reblog meme // #yeah thats p accurate

[stylishanachronism]

PSA: if you use a formula that has Nothing to do with the problem you are trying to solve, and it gives you the wrong answer (because it is the wrong formula) it is neither my fault nor my problem that the amount of money you have earned is not the amount you were expecting.

#did I have to do p((1+r/n)^n)=x solve for X out long hand to prove it? yeah #thank fuck that used to be a party trick #but yeah shockingly (p*r)+p does not equal compound interest especially for a period not divisible by twelve #had a couple roll over a cd and get very mad at me that the interest they earned was not what their math problem had come up with #‘oh it’s always been accurate before!!!!1! >:(‘ #my good dudes we’re rolling a 11 month cd that was previously rolled from a 14 month cd The Fuck It Did #anyway for the record p= original principal r= rate and n= number of times compounded #you can’t actually subtract n unless n is 12 exactly because the rate is generally an *a*py (annual (as in a year) percentage yield)

[blinkpen]

It’s just so hypnotic the way Zoe possesses genuine emotional intelligence but then just (gestures wildly) like he just turns it into more fuel, like his awareness of him doing harm to others gets converted into self-loathing and guilt and other things that he can redirect back at his own ego and indulge in. The “I can fix him” impulse goes into overdrive because he has all the knowledge and tools he needs to be better, he seems so tantalizingly close… but you can’t fix him, actually. He doesn’t wanna.

Him being a hairy guy is also kind of gap moe.

Hold on I have to look up what "gap moe" means [beat] Yeah that's pretty funny

#mog art #ask x #zoetrope #monster boy #also yeah p much everything you said is accurate lmao #you can imagine how frustrating this man is for lamarr to deal with

[lctibule]

WHAT COLOR IS YOUR AURA?

Sage

ㅤherb clippings, macha, bullet journals, mini backpacks, needlefelts, pistachio, laptop stickers. your essence is sage: you are introspective and retreating. everything is organized and planned ahead; you are meticulous, stacking up a card tower you can't let fall. it is difficult for you to untwist your tongue and tell others you need them. you are the observer. you are the writer gone off alone. you find kinship in like-minded individuals of green, forest, honeysuckle, and seafoam, who share your guarded nature. you are also drawn to the self-expressive sky and apricot, who will help you grow and embolden you to say what you need. however, you may struggle to get along with the overly-emotional personalities of rose and cream who ask you to be too vulnerable.

tagged by:ㅤ@bluefeathrs ♡!!

#❥ 𝐄𝐋𝐒𝐀 、dash game #yeah that's p accurate ngl #i don't think she's like. ridiculously organized or anything but meticulous in the things she does? absolutely. #like i'm sorry but u can't look at the shit she makes w ice and tell me that she's NOT meticulous ok have u SEEN the detail??? #but also that refusal to let everything fall no matter what... and the struggle of asking for help... yeah. YEAH.

[radmystique]

Twitter “activists” are something else, man.

#like why are yall getting mad at ppl for posting during the ‘strike’ when hardly anyone even knew about it #and what exactly is this strike going to do when you have no backing whatsoever from any union or anything #I’ve seen so many general strikes in the last several years and exactly 0 had any sort of impact at all #it’s just a way for people to be performative and feel morally superior #saw a white person claim an indigenous woman a genocide enabler all bc she didn’t know abt the strike and was posting about the new sw show #that’s internet activism for ya #also expecting people to call off work for a whole week with no adequate warning whatsoever is wild #in this economy?????? #don’t get me wrong #I would LOVE for a strike to be successful #esp for Palestine #but the way people are going about it just dooms it to fail and it sucks #this country NEEDS a well organized general strike #and these corny social media ones aren’t going to cut it I’m sorry #someone said ‘activism in the 2020s is going as little as possible in the most disorganized and individual way and then expecting a #revolution to just happen’ and yeah. yeah that’s p accurate

[heleneplays]

augh i,,, finally,,, I FINALLY FINISHED,,,, one (1) outfit meme that has been in my drafts since 2021 🤧 and dear god can i just say

FASHIONISTA! HELENE RIGHTS!

#the visceral need for helene spillane to look as mommy as possible #she saw v-neck shirts and necklines that emphasize the bust and really said yeah i'll make it my statement #also pls its canon to me she owns the same shirts in every shade of the rainbow but she has a lot of whites for the clean professor look #anyways mrrp!!! #fashionista! helene #helene spillane #relics mc #relics of the lost age #they're actually p accurate period fashions in the midst of 1930s to 40s as is the game is set #so. yeah :) #relics series #relics series my beloved #fan art #my art #lee draws #lee draws stuff

[deathfavor]

WHAT COLOUR DOES YOUR LOVE FEEL LIKE?

deep, staining red

Ripped out confessions, warm velvety whispers and a heart like an open wound. Your love flows out like dripping blood, beautiful, flawed and twisted. It's gut wrenching, the type of painfully dramatic feeling that makes you clutch your chest, picturing dramatic monologues about love and loving and big screen over the top scenes of sobbing into your pillow until you fall asleep. It rips out of you, clawing it's way up your throat more so than tumbling out. Sticky words that just need to be let out, feelings so big they don't fit inside you. Your love isn't easy, it's a true bloody mess, dripping and staining everything it touches in a desperate attempt to be seen, to be felt, to be loved back. And you, you love so hard, so deeply, so much for someone who carries all that pain. Atlas holding up the world, how are you? Is your love still flowing? Is your heart still open? Still pumping and bleeding and dripping with blood and tears? Still painting your beautiful pictures and writing your love letters in deeply personal red ink? Because I see them, I read them, I love them and you, you, you, you. Clench your chest, scream your love, cry it out. Spill your words of loving, keep your heart beating, keep your love coming and paint the entire world red with it. Make it in your image, keep going, it's okay. Maybe one day the whole world can be red and loved and beautiful just like you.

dark stormy blue

Sinking ships, raging seas and tumultuous hearts, love isn't easy for you. It's a struggle, a constant inner fight of should I? Can I? Do I? Feelings are hard and they rumble inside you in a dissatisfied mess that begs to be let out. Your heart screams and cries inside you and you... You can't, you won't. You're scared. And love is scary, it's hard and sometimes it just doesn't work out. People leave, people hurt, people change their minds. And you and your cold stormy heart yearn for the calmness, for the distance, to be allowed and able to simply not feel. And yet, you do. It rages, it fights and storms inside you and you try to keep it down, keep it quiet, to feel pretending not to. It's the burn of childhood friends growing apart, of parents that aren't quite there, of relationships that burn out. So you snuff it down with water, cold and calming and blue, blue, blue. But being loved by you is blue too, just not in that way. It's the soothing, embracing feeling of floating, the moment when you sink down bellow the waves and become one with the water, with everything. It's the balance, the dramatic yet calming sound of waves that crash against a rocky shore. You're the good and the bad, the violence of the storm and the watery peace right after. You're the blue, blue feeling and loving you is watery tears, yelled confessions that no one will hear and burying your feelings in a deep watery grave never to be found out about. Your love is dark stormy blue, it's vast and deep and all encompassing, it's safety in the surface of danger, it's trusting the unruly abyss and yet I'd gladly risk drowning just to feel what it's like being loved by you.

i stole this from my old blog when i did chrollo’s, so feel free to take it! 

Chrollo’s under the cut bc, well i did his before.

cold stark gold

Fireworks, borrowed lighters and sparklers against a dark backdrop, yours is a love that burns stark and bright. It's scary though, like things that burn always tend to be, but for you it isn't the thrill of the open flames that gives pause and a slight stomach drop of terror, but rather the time when the flames go out, the sparkler ends and the night is cold and dark once again. Fireworks, borrowed lighters, a striken match, your love burns bright and fast and then maybe it passes, maybe the feeling dies out and you're left in the cold once again. And that's the feeling isn't it? Of being bored and waiting for someone to light you up again? To be fair, you do know you don't need it, but then again we don't often crave the things we need. And you crave and yearn and burn in the wait, restless in the knowledge that at some point someone will pass and rub you the right way, that some day you'll light up the night sky bright yet again. There's comfort in the darkness and solace in the predictable loneliness of the in between, but your heart still squirms inside you, waiting and willing and begging to burn up again. Your love might not be comfort, it's not one for the sick days, but then again, there's a reason why everyone waits for the shining lights in the sky during holidays.

#HELLO SERPENT'S IS SO PAINFULLY ACCURATE #like it really is brutal how well that fits her #bc its all so true #its not the prettiest and its intense and messy but its genuine #feels so much that it claws her chst #and ngl seiroku's i did just to see how inaccurate #bUT UHHH YEAH NO ENDED UP BEING P ACCURATE #if he could #i dont think he knows if he can #likes to feel nothin #and talking about the burn of things falling apart? #me staring @ his little comments abt his past when he was talking to naoe #seiroku vc: if i feel anything positive i'll bury it and one day die #᛭ — [HEADCANON] bleak reality is never far away [SERPENT] #and like ive said with chrollos in the past #its accurate bc he just !! oh ! he is feeling something #will get interested but he can crush it if need be #esp for the troupe's sake #its not a soft love but theres soft moments #᛭ — [DASH GAMES] lets have some fun

[skitskatdacat63]

Orb...

+ process kinda

#istg lineart is just a horrible terrible thing LOL #i sketch and it goes very well and i am very happy and i feel very creative!!! #i have to do lineart and it makes me want to give up the piece ..... #i get to paint and im like omg i could do this for hours !!! this is so fun !!!!!! #thus: orb #im very happy w it so thats why im posting #idk how long the actual piece is gonna take so might as well post a little sneak peak ig #lmfao i gave up on the crown bcs it was too complicated and then drew this. maybe the crown will come back. prob not #im surprised w the process of this. i usually struggle a lot w accurately referencing real life things #and i usually end up tracing them just to understand how the form works #and god ive drawn so many complicated things for this piece and havent had to trace at all???? okay????? #i mean ofc its not entirely accurate bcs the craftsmanship on the original orb is actually insane #but i think ive got it down p well :) #ill have to try to make the gold look a bit better at some point later on but for now its !!! #i like how half my art i post here is either chibis #or just the most brainrot intense historically detailed shit ever #yes no one i talk to probably knows what a globus cruciger is but GOD DAMN IT IM GONNA DRAW IT ACCURATELY #had this thought ^ when i looked at my top posts and my last post was those nando chibis #and then after a week of not drawing after that im like yeah let me draw several imperial relics #catie.art.

[rigels-nigels]

Something I don't get is when someone is talking about things being expensive and then some americans are like, it's not actually a scary $125 guys it's actually only $80 which is still a lot but it's actually kinda reasonable for the item

And it's like no!!! It doesn't work like that!!! Just because it costs less in usd doesn't mean the person didn't actually pay that much!!

If you buy a mug for $125aud, and you live in australia, you're paying that in $125aud, not $80aud!! Currency conversion doesn't matter in the slightest for understanding because in practice it is functionally the same as paying $125usd for a mug in america!!

If I earn $15cad/hr, and someone in Poland is earning 15zł/hr, and they bought an item that was like 150zł, me converting that price into Canadian and being like it's actually not that bad bc it's only like $50cad :), it doesn't change the fact that that for them!! It was a lot more!! Like functionally that's the same as $150cad

Functionally 1cad = 1zł = 1aud = 1usd = 100¥

Like the only time currency conversion is useful is for figuring out how far your coin goes when used in another economy, not for understanding if an item is or isn't expensive for a person living in said economy

#op #i dont go on tiktok often but. a few weeks ago there was a thing with this influencer who bought a mug and didnt see the price first and was #shocked to see it was $125 and there was a lotta discourse about it even tho she wasnt really mean about the cup or anything #and there were people in the comments being like oh 80usd that's not as bad as i thought it was (prev thinking it was $125usd) #and i just. aughhhh #gestures wildly at my post #anyway. unless im buying something in another country i just cannot see the point in currency conversion for figuring out if something's #expensive in that currency #like gimme ur min wage/is there a functional equivalent of a dollar/monthly or yearly cost of living #and like yeah it's not perfect but imo its soo much better to understand things #im sure a repeated some things here but whatevs #this is also good for more accurate despair when buying anything in euros/pounds bc it may only be 18£ for them #but comparatively for me id have to spend like £30 😩 #currency conversion hell euros are basically double canadian #also if im wrong on any price things do correct me. pretty sure my equivalents are correct but ive only ever lived in canada so :p #rant done now lol #does anything i said make sense? who knows. will i attempt to bury this in reblogs? absolutely!

[transmogrified-in-the-void]

I've been going through a very interesting, and important gender and gender presentation journey over the past four months, which culminated into a comment that has been bothering me for a while.

Since about mid-September, I've been slowly gaining a lot of self-confidence for various reasons, and I've also been looking at the parts of myself that I've hidden underground inside my mind for a long while. Including my own feelings about my own femininity.

For those who have known me for a while, you'll know I've always been more masculine leaning in presentation and gender. As it turns out, I sort of pendulum swing across the entire spectrum.

Me and the friend who's been by my side this entire journey (who, funnily enough, is the only allocishet friend I have), had this inside joke with each other that if I showed up to a meeting with the gang in a skirt they wouldn't know what to do. And so we eventually got me a skirt.

I can't begin to describe the amount of pure bliss I felt when I saw myself in it. I'd only felt that feeling once before, when my dad put one of his old ties on me for a fun little game we were playing in 2020. The only difference was that when that happened, I was still in denial about who I was. When I looked in the mirror, it was something I couldn't even begin to grasp onto. When I looked into the mirror just barely two weeks ago, I finally saw me.

And so we ended up making a whole "scene girl" outfit for me. This was revealed in almost its entirety a few days later, and we were right. They really didn't know what to do with me. With the exception of my mom and one of my oldest friends (who both said I looked cute, and I did! I felt cute!), the actual group I hang around with didn't know how to react to it. One of my friends just ignored the whole thing like it was normal (hurtful, but it's whatever), another kept asking when it happened and trying to wrap his head around the change (funny), and one eventually ended up saying something that's been bothering me.

Initially, they were really surprised I had legs because he forgot that I did. But later, when we were talking about a character that me and the aforementioned friend had made for a sitcom (a transman who dresses femininely for the most part), he turned to me and said "so like you, a transmasc drag queen".

While yes, that fits that character fairly well, it didn't sit right when about me. Because no, as it turns out, I'm not a transmasc drag queen. I'm not really . . . anything. When I dress more masculine, it's queer because it borders on tomboy/butch and transmasc (which, I know those terms can coexist, but I'm using it as a scale of masculinity because I can't explain it any other way), and when I dress femininely it's also queer because I'm someone who inherently goes towards androgyny/masculinity as my comfort expression.

Here's the funny part, though. Of the four people I hang around, three are queer in some way. The only one, the only one, who saw that I'm fine with fluidity in pronouns, jokes about my gender, and just sort of knew from the beginning that I was suppressing my femininity (which he told me after the Skirt Moment, so that was a fun night), was allocishet. I could get into all the weird shit that has gone on with me and the group, but the least queer person in the group understood, almost immediately, that I, the most verbally and visually queer of the group, enjoy funny little gender jokes. Hell, a few days after meeting I was doing something in my friend's kitchen and he said "oh sorry I was raised in a republican household, if there's someone in the kitchen I assume it's a woman".

So I guess what I'm saying, right now, is that I'm not any particular gender identity, I'm not trans anything, I don't really enjoy the fit of genderqueer even, I just. Am. And I wish that people irl would be willing to have fun with that more, rather than being so fucking afraid that I'm going to have a breakdown and kill someone for misgendering me.

#also this is like. really small. #but that allocishet friend didn't know my pronouns for the first week knowing me and when i wasnt there was she/her-ing me #and everyone would just. death glare him??? and not correct him??? #like he was supposed to know??? #one whole week of it happening!!! and he had to go and ask because they wouldnt tell him!!! like what!!! #its just. so weird that my friends are so protective of my identity in places that i dont give a fuck??? #meanwhile one of their moms is protective of me because. and i quote. 'payton will give up things for others that they care about at their #own detriment' like that is the second most accurate reading of me anyone has given #idk i could get into the small shit that this group does #like how i used to talk about being in a constant state of disassociation and it was just 'eyyyy cool! me too sometimes!!' #or how i make a joke that im constantly touch starved and they still dont even really want me to hug them or anything???? #idk small shit like that #or paytonisms #but i love them #so yeah. heres this ig ;-; #p bangs the keys