#writing stories was my main point here

[lord-of-the-bundle-of-sticks]

i genuinely wish i was good at smth other than my stupid little doodles. i wish i could actually get inspiration to write and make it have an impact

#writing stories was my main point here #but songwriting also applies. i want to learn how to make music but it wont matter if the lyrics are shit #i wish i wasnt praised so highly when i was little #my writing was not allat and never was allat #i cant even finish a fiction story for school anymore #my plots are lame #i just wish my writing was good #ive never gone over 2k words #i barely publish my works because they're never good enougg #god i wish i just. had that skill #anyways yapping time over

[silverskye13]

In which Mato strikes

#the barking writer #Nailmaster's Folly #nailmaster mato #nailmaster oro #hollow knight #while rns is taking a quick vacation while i sort out the plot points #i finally figured out how this plot should progress #if you like my writing about angry sword boys -- here is another story about angry sword boys #from the perspective of an angry sword boy #they are all bugs though #unfortunately for everyone here for mcyt this is a main blog not a mcyt blog sometimes you get my randomness i apologize #if it makes you feel any better the last time i worked on this fic was 2021

[yourlocaltiredartist]

Some Broken Bonds stuff, plus doodles:

Splinter taught Raph how to knit when he was very young. Raph loved it, and continued to learn all about knitting, sewing, etc. This spiralled into a love of sewing and textiles. It was also something he and Splinter could spend time doing together, and still is.

It's now Raph's main hobby, and he often adjusts or makes clothes for himself and the rest of his family (bc yknow. shells and stuff). One of these things is Donnie's favourite hoodie that he often wears off missions.

(more info in my pinned post)

#realising I haven't talked much abt my iteration much on here whoops #so thought id post smth #a lot of what I've written so far is pre-canon and Hamato Clan lore #so its all spoilers and I can't post abt it :( #but hopefully ill be able to start writing the main story soon lmao #OH there's also A LOT abt the magic system #might post abt that at some point too #anyways #tmnt: broken bonds #tmnt #tmnt au #tmnt original iteration #tmnt raph #tmnt splinter #tmnt donnie #fanart #art #digital art #crow does art

[cerealmonster15]

i do love sneaking in side ships to fics where they arent the focus but also i think the only reason i have the cater/trey mention in this story was bc i needed a reason to prevent cater from giving silver and kalim more thought out advice kflsjdfklsjd i had to interrupt him and make him LEAVE!!!

#well. his advice wasnt exactly bad per se #i think my reasoning was like hmm cater might just try to talk them out of this actually #but i didnt want him to do that and i hadnt initially planned for them to talk to cater but that organically planned itself #when i was writing ch 2 so i was like FUCK how do i get out of this kflsdjfklsdj #my solution was bully cater about trey and make him desperately hastily end the convo #im sitting here taking notes from my own story like ok. where was my mind during this part again. sdjkfldsjkflj #there were small things in the azul/jamil convos that i forgot i put in for later #so im MAKING NOTES like bitch dont forget your own ideas #i do that a lot LOL sometimes i forget the initial point i had when i write a fic #bc it kinda runs off as i write and goes in another direction #like fun fact i THINK one of the main ideas if not the very initial one for the jamil/azul fake date fic i wrote #was i like. wanted to write a short convo of jamil being like 🤨 r u wearing cologne for this fake date. and azul being like 😳 um. maybe. #and like the dates looking like bugs in his food / the reason they were sitting in booths were all an excuse to set up that dialogue. #AND THEN I FORGOT THATS WHERE I WAS GOING W/IT LOL #sobs. o well LOL

[inklore]

writing for an hour and thinking you’ve written so much because it feels like you’ve been at it for hours now but when you check you see you’ve written less than 2k words when it felt like 11k

#literally my villain story #and i know some would be like omg 2k is a lot #like yeah it is but not when you’re not even close to the freaking main point of the fic #like the reason you decided to write it to begin with and you’re not even close to it #like my fingers have been moving for hours what do you mean i haven’t written at least 5k???? #here laur goes again..

[gideonisms]

I think I tend to read htn as muir playing with tropes commonly used in tragedies to examine what we think is a tragedy/what tragedy even looks like when death isn't the end. That's the most shakespearian thing about her writing imo. I know I am constantly on about how htn is basically a shakespeare play but it IS and that's because she is doing a similar thing with her stories within the story. She is throwing out potential endings left and right and then subverting all of them. That's why I don't think everyone's encouragement to harrow to give up on keeping gideon safe really can be taken at face value. It's like. To use one example (but you literally could insert 5 different plays here) it's like when Isabella thinks her brother is dead. It's forcing the audience to think about the consequences for that but the terrible part is more that there was someone in power who could easily order a death or stop it on a whim. The point is not that harrow needs to learn to let gideon go for moral or self-actualization reasons imo. The point is that the death is a site of potential for harrow to either be manipulated into upholding john's goals or for her to reject the whole premise behind them by deciding gideon's life is more important

#when i finally write my harrow measure for measure henry viii manifesto. then you will see!! #i think where i disagree with many htn readings is that #i don't think it's a story about learning to let go of people/let things die #or at least 'stopping' as cytherea put it is not equivalent to accepting other people's deaths that's not the same thing #letting go of power over someone is not the same thing as letting them die. that's a very simplistic way to put it and it's not exactly the #main point i am getting at here. but it approaches that point #the aus are doing something too. it's like. story within a story within a story #is this how it happens? but for gideon's death #the people in harrow's life are trying to get her to accept her loss but i don't think that's what the narrative itself is doing #because the narrative is very interested in examining the conditions surrounding gideon's death #and whether it would have been possible to do things differently #with cristabel alfred & loveday it's like. this is how the story usually goes #but i don't think that's the only way it ever goes bc she is poking around at different ways to subvert that tragedy #tlt isn't a tragedy at least not a classic one. that's just not the structure #that is the structure of its 15 fakeout endings but they're there for flavor. once again thank u shakespeare

[dishsaop]

does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians

#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic #im just like. tired of gnawing #and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get #content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky #young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me #im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing & #digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances #m text #i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story #not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a #lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out #bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples #and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified #(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right) #and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here #(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh) #I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost. #anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein #out as lesbian #like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has #to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic) #meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just #and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so #yknow. personal viewer bias here #but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian #and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out #but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough. #im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes #I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY. #like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'

[destinywillowleaf]

how to go from a one-shot/conversation spawned from thinking too much about an unseen father to more than a dozen fic ideas and an overarching narrative about family heritage (and the generational trauma that comes with it), the importance of communication, and how all lives touch other lives to create something anew and alive in one easy step

#pokemon #sir aaron #blood curse of sir aaron #no seriously this was supposed to be a one-shot with maybe ONE sequel. now there's 4 sequels and at least 7 directly related side stories #and three (3) fics that are more or less gonna serve as prequels/background for all my canons at this point when riley's involved #it was also only supposed to be one and then i had Ideas and did not stop them. #(benefit of setting things during legends arceus and promptly ignoring the actual protag) #i've only had the core idea rolling around my brain for 6 months and there's this many fics. prequel 1 came before but the others are newer #at least i'm not trying to write an entire game plot this time unlike my other big pokemon project #so much of the conflict could've been avoided with better communication. not all of it mind you but the big issues? yeah #at the very least they could've been handled a LOT sooner #<- series name for all this nonsense in case i wind up talking about it more here. will probably post links here once more is written #i've got a scattered 20k worth of it so far of actual fic and over 10k worth of notes. 2k of those notes are for a single episode rewrite #i know that might not sound like a lot to some people but only the first main fic is done. the third one is arceus chronicles. #im making. choices. that's for sure. and writing so much aura lore you have no idea #i might need to make a family tree soon

[gale-in-space]

Does anyone happen to know how subscriptions work on AO3 in the context of posting under different pseuds? For example, if someone is subscribed to my default pseud, would they receive a notification if I were to post to a different pseud?

Edit: Asked and answered T_T well fellas idk if I'll be posting this one after all. I may be a slut for attention but I am a coward first and foremost

#long story short: i'm writing suit fic #there's no point in being coy about it. that's just what's happening #and i would... maybe like to post it when it's done? maybe? i'm kind of scared #but i don't really want it on my main pseud if that makes sense #i don't think there's any point in making it anonymous either. people would see it and know it's me #i'm kind of the suit guy #i just kind of want to avoid people getting notified of this is all... because i am embarrassed #i am being so brave for posting this to main btw #i'm really only doing so because my question is more likely to be answered here tho

[bonestrouslingbones]

goddammit all that LV worldbuilding has lead me to creating a scene in my head that now has me wondering if i have to put a plot-important sex scene in what will be a main-storyline arc instead of a fade to black or disconnected easily-skippable oneshot

#theres a point where the guy HAS to get some energy out and the bf is RIGHT THERE ........................... #sigh. a bit ago i made a lil agreement with myself that actual sex stuff wouldn't really be in the main plot outside of allusions #and that anything Real would stay in epilogue fics & oneshots #but now im like. man. there is something here that i can use!!!! but its like im still in the mindset of writing as a young teen!!!! #too scared to make other ppl uncomfortable with MY OWN DAMN STORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #WHEN will my brain catch up that other people finding selfcest weird is a skill issue on THEIR part fucks SAKE!!!!!!!! #laying facedown on the ground . as if thats not the entire reason i made this blog in the first place 😔 #every time i go on atbb and the pinned rules reminds me of a time that is not necessary anymore #im GROWN NOW !!!! I NEED NOT RESTRICT MYSELF ANY LONGER #but my AUDIENCE.................. #ppl said it was refreshing that i had selfcest where everything wasnt about sex and obv it still wont be but that is IN MY BRAIN FOREVER #AUUYHGHGHGHGH SOMEBODY PLEASE GET THIS 14 YEAR OLD OUT OF MY HEAD SO EDGE CAN FINALLY GET DICKED DOWN COME ONNNNNN

[waywardsalt]

ok since tears of the kingdom is coming out like. insanely soon i figured i’ll just dump how i’ve been feeling abt it here. i wont tag for them and i dont intend to share any but because i have been actively seeking out spoilers i will vaguely reference them here so… idk really long musings on this game and my feelings abt it

(im just writing this out mostly for myself since i really kind of just. want to really figure out how i feel about this)

i… am not excited for totk?

i’ve figured out a bit ago that my severely waning interest in botw and general anxiety and discontent surrounding totk is just that… these games arent for me. i dont enjoy open world games with half a million things for you to do like it’s basically a sandbox. i struggle to really enjoy singleplayer minecraft. the space stage in spore gives me genuine anxiety, both when i played it as a kid and again when i reached it as an adult.

botw and totk are not games for me, and that’s cool. i’ve figured that out.

so why am i getting so damn anxious about this new game?

i am getting totk- not entirely of my own volition, i live with someone who is very genuinely excited for it, so it’s pre-ordered digitally on our switch. i am going to play it and complete it at least once.

the gameplay and world of botw never really got to me, and even what snippets of gameplay i see for totk dont really entice me. it just makes me anxious to think about the sheer amount of new stuff i’ll be dropped in the middle of and how i really dont care about this version of link or zelda or anyone else in botw’s hyrule

and some of the story spoiler stuff and general direction this game is going in has me just worried that the zelda series is moving away from what it used to be into an entirely new direction, that being a direction that it seems like i wont enjoy as much as everyone else seems to

so then i guess my main worry outside of totk is that i just end up struggling to really feel connected to the rest of the community about this? being a contrarian is fun until everyone is enjoying something you for some reason can’t get yourself to

i dont have a lot of hope in the story of totk to harken back to… ANYTHING of worth that past games have built up and made to be so important and interesting. hype is a dangerous thing for a not-yet-released game, and while i think the insane amount of speculation and theories and hype around totk will cause a lot of people to be disappointed with the final story, i dunno if i really wouldve liked it even if the story actually piqued my interest

maybe totk’s gameplay will really hook me. maybe i’ll enjoy the massive open world and gmod-ass gimmicks. but what ive seen of the story makes me less interested and the snippets of gameplay i see just make me remember how bored i now am with botw

at the end of the day this is just a video game with tags on this site i can blacklist and videos i can ignore and lore i can brush aside because at this point loz canon is a suggestion more than anything

i just cant shake the discomfort of once again being an outlier as everyone i see loses their mind about this new game while i just feel overwhelmed by it. i have played botw for a long time and have long since worn it out. i played age of calamity to completion and have not touched it or cared for it beyond the music since. i am not excited about totk and i feel like i am in the wrong due to my opinion

#salty talks #kinda personal? just angsting abt totk and being a lil negative abt it #at this point im not expecting it to blow me away. i no longer have fun playing botw. i do not care for the story or characters #this if anything is to soothe my nerves and is for the sake of my own wellbeing to articulate how i feel about this #it is cool to like. put your feelings into words. this is a lot more eloquent than ‘i miss linebeck’ #it feels kinda selfish to bitch abt a game thats not out yet and complain abt it not seeming enjoyable to me #but it looks like a genuinely good game. but its not for me. and thats what im ruminating on here #like i love linear stories games that limit you and fun little gimmicks and characters with complex arcs and all that #i played a little bit of skyward sword earlier and was finishing up the cistern dungeon and was so delighted to see the main statue lowered #i love the dungeons with gimmicks that flip everything around and force you to really think abour your next move #im excited to reach the water temple in oot again to swim around and tinker with the water level #i cant wait to finish oot and move onto mm and its wonderful gameplay and areas #id love to revisit albw and get back to playing ph (and maybe finishing triforce heroes idk abt that one i just want the linebeck outfit) #i played botw for like ten minutes a few weeks ago and then put it away without a second thought #so. if anyone wanted to know how i feel abt totk. its a bit alienating #i might blacklist every variation of ze/ink tbh. sayonara you weeaboo shits and your bland fucking milquetoast ship thats kinda irritating #i may delete this bc it errs on the side of being too personal but i really just need to write this stuff downh #anyways. going back to writing my thing abt my oc n linebeck hanging out and being gay

[mejomonster]

i think in my indulgent Demon immortal Fei Du au, I’m going to make him part fox spirit on his mom’s side. Just because priest made SO many references in Silent Reading to fox spirits being with humans, and to Tales from a Chinese Studio stories. It wouldn’t be right if my boy Fei Du wasn’t actually a sneaky fox too ToT

#silent reading #lb #mejo writing #i think partly Silent Reading really AWOKE my urge to want to write fanfic #well 1 cause im procrastinating writing original stuff #but 2 because i really GET the characterizations #its a very satisfying feeling when i can read something and Predict VERY well what characters think and are hiding and Would Do #it tells me that first of all the writer wrote VERY CONSISTENT ARCS which is just so satisfying to me as characterization is my #single most valued trait in stories. if characterization is bad or even just has some Key Weak points its the main make or break for me. #then it also tells me i in particular GET the characters really well. well enough to play with them and predict their future or X scene or X #past. and thats just really fun to me. #like i love dmbj and i do suspect maybe i get xiaoge... but also i still feel i OUGHT to read ALL novels before i feel confident i truly kno #him well enough to accurately depict. whereas fei du and luo wenzhou and tao ran? within 20 chapters i clocked how it was going to shift and #change. they surpassed my expectations in a few areas but generally tended toward the arc i expected. so i can generally rely on probably #knowing them well enough to write them fairly. #however the big But here is. i do suspect fei du has one more big reveal left in him post chapter 141 #i feel like theres Still an aspect of him we the reader dont fully know. and i feel i cant write HIM in too much depth like a big long fic #or future fic or speculative au fic. until i see what his final secret ias #past fic is fine though - i grasp him pretty well that angle wise ToT and present wise. its just i suspect #hes got a few traits to him luo wenzhou hasnt reacted to and acclimated to yet

[specialshinytrinkets]

Literature teacher, to a group of my classmates: Could you explain to me why [my friend] is interested in America of 1950s and 60s?

Me, listening to this going down, with my interest in America of 1920s:

#random.dusty #life fabric snippets #i've been thinking in my head on how to explain to her why i am personally interested in this period without sounding #like a madman #context: there was an assignment to write 'which historic period i like and why'. i didn't do it bcuz i don't have the literature #material necessary in mind (the writings require at least two arguments from literature and i've just started The Great Gatsby) #and because i'm lazy #anyway. today we had the analysis/grading of those assignments and another group got my friend's work #the friend in question is the mvp in everything btw. hydrogen bomb of the school #she helped out with suggestions on material about 1920s this year! very knowledgable person #the main point of this story is that the teacher wasn't convinced by her argument (friend used The Catcher In The Rye as an #example of why this time period is interesting to her) and now i'm sitting here with Gatsby and gay casino workers like #*chuckles* i'm in danger

[hawnks]

INTRO PARAGRAPH LETS GO GIRLS

#I’m excited hehehe :3c #i have my roadmap planned now all that’s left is….. writing it 😥 #SO SO SO scary #also the fact that I’m gonna have to stand in front of a room full of academic snobs and DEFEND this book to them #and the fact that one of the main subplots hinges upon the concept and investion of love 😥 #this is a ghost story. but like all ghost stories it is also a love story #everyone is all for genre fiction in the academy until I bring up romance #there’s a lot of people here who think I should be allowed to write whatever I want because I’ve proven my metel; many more who absolutely #despise the fact that I will tell anyone point blank that my main interest is romance #the DRAMA of it all u_u #anyway first chapters are so much harder than everything else :’) #but I’m trying my best just chugging along #choo choo #<3 #squawk tag #SORRY everyone I can’t shut up about this I’m just soooo abbddjdjdjfnfnfndnjf 😵‍💫😵‍💫 right now #everything is happening so much #and so fast 😔

[violentlydefending]

maybe nobody's played plvspw and maybe plvspw is insane and maybe it takes place in britain but it's still better than aa5 and 6 i'll die on this hill

#all respect and love to ppl who enjoy aa5/6 i do like parts of them myself but i've got some haterade in me rn #also plvspw paved the way for dgs so. a huge point in its favour <3 #like yeah the endgame can drag and the twist is. Something. and some of the character writing can be wonky and the puzzles #are as a whole arguably weaker than that of the mainline pl games and it's basically just Fanservice: the game (ala pq) but also. #consider: maya and luke are besties <3 the graphics don't look eye-searingly ugly <3 for a crossover a really solid balance is struck <3 #the main themes of the story aren't explored via incredibly stupid vehicles like ''the dark age of the law'' #phoenix and maya's characterizations are like. good. sincerely i think they have the dynamic of All Time but in aa6 they felt. eh. #also while i'm here drinking haterade #i really do not like nahyuta he's just worse aa1 edgeworth bc he doesn't even go through like. an arc. #he just reveals he's Actually A Good Guy Lol and that's it ? #i like what simon and athena have going on but the basis for aa5 is too Much with the themes and ideas being bizarrely in my face while #simultaneously being weirdly vague like. ykwim (is also being weirdly vague and is therefore a hypocrite) #wait i'm gonna go back to being a lover for a sec bc. i really do like a lot of how layton elements and aa elements are combined in plvspw #like during investigations it's mostly layton-esque but there are subtle shifts towards a more aa-style at times like usually #the characters'll talk like in a layton game--facing each other with their sprites at an angle but #when multiple conversation topics become an option (aa-style) the character you're talking to will face the camera head on (aa-style) #idk i just think it's neat!!! it feels very thoughtful! #okay sorry for being mentally ill and having mental issues. i love you. #contra.txt

[c-nan]

brb crying over my lesbian 50’s housewife oc

#have to write it for class and i’m getting a little too into it #a lot of ppl here would probably not like one of the main points in the story bc how media treats lesbians but its necessary for my storu y #so deal with it 😛