#will write more abt her eventually

[bluelolblue]

what r ur thoughts on gianna and santino’s relationship? (ive always loved gianna but it feels like she’s just as if not more ruthless than santino. she just manages to act civilized more)

The D'Antonio siblings

They're both so fucking beautiful 💕

I definitely think Santino was jealous of Gianna when their father willed his seat to her and throughout their childhood

The reason for their father leaving his seat to Gianna is unknown in the movie (we can make headcanons on that ofc). However, I think that just made the relationship between Santino and Gianna even worse

I think through their childhood, Gianna was more the serious one, had more tolerance, patience and took things as a D'Antonio heir seriously.

While Santino probably wasn't like that. He's the younger sibling, and he was probably a bit spoiled. Or he tried his best to impress their father, but he was "not good enough."

Since they're both D'Antonios, they got everything served on a plate for them... but it's not as easy as they thought. Or at least not how Santino thought

Idk what Santino was thinking. That he's gonna get the seat after his sister proved herself more? But this is just my thought since we don't know that part

Really, it could've been differently. Maybe he did everything he could to prove himself, but his father was just an asshole

In the movie, we don't even see them interact with each other. Only like through John. Santino saying "I could never do it. She is my blood. I still love her." Has a little bit of truth in it, but the real reason he couldn't kill his sister was just that he didn't want to risk getting his hands dirty. And to kill Gianna D'Antonio, he needs someone special... and that someone special is John Wick. Just what Santino told him "That's why I need the ghost, lo spettro, John Wick. That's why I need you."

While Gianna called John "Death's very emissary." So even in all this, you can see how they're both using and picking their words carefully

Gianna didn't seem very fond of the fact that when she dies, Santino takes her place, but he also takes New York. And John would be the one who gifted it to him. So that's something I'll have to analyze more

Although, I feel like they both still cared for each other in their own ways. No matter how cold they might have acted towards each other, I still think they cared and loved each other. Or that sibling love is somewhere deep in them

They were both born into this D'Antonio family, into this toxic hierarchy of the High Table, and they couldn't do anything about it. It's the way they were raised to believe that this life is normal and it's supposed to be like that

That one of them is gonna be the next representative of Camorra. Of course that one child is gonna be jealous of another. It just happened to be Santino

I do agree that Gianna seems just as ruthless as Santino. HOWEVER, she has more self-control, can act more civilized, and has more patience, so she is really good at hiding all that, which makes her a great leader in my opinion

They both share the same way of having good ways with their words. They both talked to John in a very...how do I say it? Manipulative but calm tone and had rather relaxed and even dominant body language around him. So they both don't fear John, and they're not afraid to show that

But we all know what happened to her and later on to Santino. Gianna had a really tragic death, in my opinion, since she killed herself. "I lived my life my way. And I'll die my way." That line sends chills down my spine and it's fucked up in a tragic way. Makes me think she actually didn't want to be a part of all this. And really, the only way to escape from the curse of being a D'Antonio that's supposed to represent Camorra in the High Table is death

While Santino literally decided his own death with talking back to John. All he had to do was not mock John any further, and maybe he could've had his seat at the High Table for a longer time

Both share a lot of similarities, actually...it's just that Gianna died willingly trying to escape from this life she was born into, and Santino died after he got what he wanted by force

There is, unfortunately, no good ending for the D'Antonio siblings

Rip Gianna and Santino D'Antonio... yall were too attractive to die 😞 💔

I'll write more about them in the future, I wanna do deep analysis on both of them so... one day, it's gonna happen. I love their sibling rivalry lol it's very interesting

Also, I like to add some pics from pinterest for aesthetic lmao :3

#santino d'antonio #santino d’antonio #gianna d’antonio #john wick #john wick chapter 2 #I'll write more abt them in the future #i have to rewatch the movie over and over again to make a deep analysis on them #but yeah Gianna deserves more credit #will write more abt her eventually #and the sibling rivalry between them is really interesting

[shadowedvales]

when jane's powers return in season four (and because they were regained by her confronting and accepting her past, rather than being retraumatised with it!) they're stronger than they ever were. when she starts getting a handle back on them, she very quickly comes to realise not only have they affected her, but her mother, too. one of the biggest losses that came about with her losing them was the fact that she could no longer visit terry in the void; while there was no real communication there, it did allow jane to sit with her, and gain a little more connection than she could in the real world. when she first visits the void after their return, it takes her three hours to find terry, something that is both unexpected and incredibly worrying. but when she does, it's something of a miracle. jane's increased strength and control over the void actually wakes terry up from her catatonic state, but only in the void. there's no way to help her mother physically, but she does do so (unbeknownst to her) mentally. terry is reborn in jane's newfound control over the vale of shadows; she becomes the woman she once was, and while her body remains frozen in a "good dream", her mind connected to jane's own allows her some freedom. jane is able to speak to her mother in the void, is able to be held by her, and while it's still unfair and jane cannot stay in there forever, it's something. this only lasts for about eight months, as each visit slowly begins deteriorating terry's physical and mental state, and jane's health begins declining after spending hours upon hours in the void each and every day.

when jane finds out these visits are actually killing her mother on the outside, she deems to stop, but terry expresses the importance of them being able to speak, that she'd prefer to die on the outside, if it meant she could have just a few months with her daughter like this. terry and jane's connection was always so strong, which ultimately led to terry "waking up" in the void, but even jane's newfound strength cannot save her from the harsh realities. each visit nearing the end of those eight months, terry fades more and more, becomes weaker in the void, and her real body eventually gives up. jane's in the void when her mother eventually passes on, and physically feels their connection weaken, like some part of her suddenly becomes lost in the shadows, a part she'll never find again. jane falls into a depressive state for weeks after her mother's death, given she's technically lost her a second time, but soon comes to realise she was lucky to have even shared those eight months together. it was better than nothing at all. there is a proper burial and funeral, (and when jane dies, she's buried next to her mother) which allows jane some sense of closure. she never fully recovers from losing terry, nor from the fact that she never had a proper relationship with her, but she does eventually find some peace with it all.

#study‚ in my dreams it's all real and my heart has so much to reveal. #IF U SAW ME POSTING THIS YESTERDAY. no u didn't. #i wanted to change things again (who is surprised!!) and decided to just rewrite it all rip. #me taking a few weeks off from this blog and then coming back with a brand new terry / jane hc? more likely than u think. #purely self indulgent too i might add! #every day i battle with making my terry portrayal canon to jane's timeline so jane can have her mother in every verse not just #selected ones. #but. her not having her mother is ultimately important to my writing of her and sfjasfjas >:( hate myself for it. #so here be a brand new addition to my timeline that gives jane SOME time with her mother!!! bc i need it for my mental health. #i imagine when terry dies her body turns to smoke in the void. almost like what happened to billy when jane was spying on him. #and he stopped her connection and faded in front of her. #and jane also visited terry a lot in the void because it allowed her to see more memories of her mother. #i hc that she had a real grasp on that before s3 when she looks into billy's memories. #terry (even in her catatonic state) WANTED jane to see what happened to her in hawkins lab. #so she'd want her to see the good stuff too. her childhood. andrew. her grandmother that raised her and becky. #all the good memories! #so when terry dies jane loses all that completely. #which leads to jane grappling with the conflict of whether or not she should have kept visiting terry in the void which eventually led to #her death. #because if she hadn't connected to her. she'd at least be able to look back on all those memories. #jane becomes obsessed within those months and barely speaks to anyone else. #in any free time she has. she's in the void with terry. #her own physical body grows very weak after a little while but she pays no attention to it and even gets into heated arguments with becky. #because becky is jane's carer and needs her safe and healthy. needs to look after her. #but jane is so adamant about the fact that this is her MOTHER and she's finally able to speak to her. #UGH i have so much to say abt this actually i sense a brand new addition to my timeline coming on. #ANYWAY. i'm emotional about them that is all.

[mantisgodsdomain]

All these fics about Kabbu and Leif sharing a bed for "shipping reasons" or whatever are a fool's move. Give us the bee! Acknowledge Team Snakemouth's canonical inn arrangements of "all three of them sleep in the same bed" you coward! We aren't here for "romance" or "pairing the boys together because they're the stock standard Shippable Men", we're here for bed sharing!

Team Snakemouth consists of three bugs, and they absolutely should get fic with inconvenient and uncomfortable sleeping arrangements where Vi somehow monopolizes 90% of the bed despite being physically smaller than everyone else, Leif is banished to the very edge of the bed for being Cold, and Kabbu dumps both of his teammates on the floor on accident when he wakes up from a nightmare. The bed sharing fic that we deserve as a fandom should be rooted in deep inconvenience and it should contain at least one instance of someone getting kicked in the ribs, and that's our firm opinion.

#bug fables #we speak #legal disclaimer this post is a joke and all kabbuleif hate is exclusively to set up the joke #we DO feel that using “and there was only one bed” for romance is just a missed opportunity #especially since it means shoving vi to the side and especially because like. theres already so much fic that treats her as The Spare #it would be nice to get more fic where she isnt treated as baggage and shoved off to the side for the sake of developing her teammates #but we've been making our own food for long enough that we know if we want something good we'll have to make it ourself #so really its just an aimless complaint #we'll get around to writing our own things eventually we just have to bitch abt the state of things a bit first

[poprockspillage]

man so many metal gear women(rosemary, emma, NAOMI) could’ve been so interesting if they weren’t limited to love interests and shit. i mean. that much is obvious but specifically i’m thinking about how metal gear characters have very complicated morals and are often Very Smart and pulling some wild shit. and the problem is that the women hardly ever get away with pulling their wild shit, they always die

and it’s so frustrating because they get set up to be very interesting with complex motives and feelings(again, NAOMI!!!) but then they fall in love or fall dead to quote eva.

#poprock txt #just thinking abt this as i think of how i want to write rosemary #cause i don’t want to keep her as passive as she is in mgs2 i want her to have more agency #but i don’t want to make her evil/opposing raidens eventual goals just for the sake of it. even if i don’t really like their relationship

[fruitbatvalentine]

Making OC's for post WDGFIL Valentine to become friends with because he's a sad wet cat to me and deserves friendship

#also writing a fic ill never post lmao #the OC's r like. semi already existing. im just making adjustments to throw them into the MH universe #changing my beloved Logan's name to Aero and then also changing everything abt him except for like. 2 personality traits #and making Sam look way more cunty and also making him only Half vampire instead of just a straight up vampire #haven't figured out Rayne yet we'll see if i throw her in there #created a new zombie oc her name is Cammie #like part of his redemption is befriending Draculara but also #but he needs some other friends too that arent an extension of being Draculara's friend #like get out there my love. make some friends. experience being an akward loser teenager just trying to be nice #hes also broke as hell and has been disowned by his mother and told the homophobic clouds to kill themselves #so hes not having a great time #lets get this boy a support system #whisp hangs around but he doesnt want to use his last wish bc she'll have to return to the lamp and that would be sad. #eventually she convinces him to say bye tho #in that the last wish he makes is like. hey gurl gimmie a magic phone or smthn so we can talk while ur in there #ill figure it out. doesnt matter rn #kieran valentine #mh #why do ghouls fall in love

[whichwoods]

Do you have any lucemond fics Planned for when LSTS is over or is close to finishing?

oh so many!! for the lsts-verse i'll probably have a compilation of sorts added to the series in a few chapters or so, of deleted scenes and flashbacks that aren't making it in

and maybe i'll actually post some of my luke-gets-warded-to-kings-landing, slowburn/fix it, enemies to childhood friends to lovers au that was being plotted long before lsts ever was, but has so many moving parts i've been hesitant to share lol :,) someday <3

honestly i have so many ideas it'll be hard to pick what to do next, i may start posting snippets here early just so it can all be archived somewhere even if they don't get full fics

#i also have a few shorter fics for lsts for their kids after their first #actually have a whole fic planned for luke finding out he's pregnant w their 3rd but that's SO far off SORRy lol <3 #lsts #ty for this ask!!💕 #also excited to write about all the kiddos dragons eventually #discord already knows so i'll spoil it here - they have 3 kids - naerys aerea and baelon #these 3 babies r constants in almost all my aus i have in my drafts so im vv excited to share more abt them when the time comes lol #im also v attached to my joffrey-pov slowburn joffron fic where lucemond r like parents to him kinda😭 #jace is king aemond is his hand luke is lord of driftmark rhaenyra is [redacted] #built around me writing a scene of joffrey and jace having a screaming match like birdie and her dad when he tried to marry her off LMAO #“YOU CANT MAKE ME GO!!!! I WANT TO MEET LUKE'S BABE!!!👺😭” #“the babe won't be here for many moons!!😩 luke tell him” #luke:🫃🏻🤨 “uh pretty sure the babe wants to meet their favorite uncle jace (which isnt gonna be u btw)” #wynch writing

[banrions]

hi ive checked your faq & i know the answer to when will you write x is "ehhhhh, soon? hopefully?!" but i figured this is maybe a specific case! i just found your pansmione fics and loved them so, so much––i saw that the story hasnt been updated in years & i wanted to send an ask bc i know a lot of folks (reasonably) stopped engaging with hp when jkr went mask off. so i wanted to know whether its a wip that fell by the wayside or if you purposefully left it? so i know whether to hold out hope xx

sorry for answering possibly very late (i'm not on this site quite as regularly as i used to be).

ummmm. well. that one is def complicated. that's a fic that i've wanted to write for YEARS. i've had it plotted out for um, smth like going on a decade or more, now. and i only got the prologue up and complete, and haven't posted any of the main slow burn fic yet. it WAS initally def just a WIP that i hadn't gotten back around to finishing after i graduated, and then lost a lot of writing motivation in general in the last few years/pandemic etc. but always planned to return and finish.

BUT ALSO, the jkr of it all.

tbh, i've waffled a lot on whether or not to finish it. i haaaaate having unfinished fics up, so like, i wANT to. i'm gonna be real. it's smth i've wanted to write for years. i 100% want to, but i feel weird abt it, ngl. like, everyone can only make their own choices abt how to engage with harry potter/death of the author, at this point. (i personally don't want to engage in anything of monetary value, and still feel a little weird engaging with fic/fandom stuff. i don't know if that will last forever, but it's def how i feel right now). but it's still a story that was very influential to me as a kid and i still rlly love the world and the characters. and i am DEEPLY fond of the versions of them in this fic. i rlly want to write hermione and pansy falling in love. (bonus, i think jkr would hate it!!).

i'm gonna be real, i think it will dive me up the wall to leave it forever and not finish it. i've waffled a lot over the last few years between just finishing it and then being done ever engaging in hp again, just leaving it as is and calling it a wash, or something (somehow?? lol) in the middle, but i honestly haven't fully decided. i DO think abt the fic quite often, and seeing it incomplete bothers me. i haven't touched the files in years, but i have gotten some general writing motivation back reccently, though not for more than fic exchanges and more shorter things. i want to finish it, i feel like eventually i will, i just don't know when that will happen. i don't know if there are a lot of people who want it finished or not, but likely i would finish it for me if i did. i might start writing in a few weeks, i might not touch it for a few more years. i wish i had a better or clearer answer for you. i will say, i really appreciate that you loved it, and you liked it enough to reach out, becasue that means a lot and knowing someone else DOES want it makes me feel very happy<3

#it truly could go any way but i do feel like i will eventually write it #idk man. she sucks!!! she's a bigot and she sucks!! she's ruined a lot of the fun #but also fuck her these are my characters now etc etc. you know? #idk. everyone feels differently and weird abt it in varrying ways. #herblazinglook #asks #my fic #things that are mine #good bones au #GOD I TRULY HAVEN'T USED IT'S TAG IN AGES #this ask is actually making me think abt and miss it even more.

[honeydots]

What do you think Siegbert’s relationship with Laslow and Soleil’s relationship with Xander are like particularly as they get older/teenagers.

anon you're enabling me i LOVE their parent/child relationships as they get older!!! read more cause this got looooong

for laslow and siegbert--well first off, i think laslow always can provide a particular brand of emotionally-based support that develops more as siegbert gets older. siegbert has his Anxiety Issues, and where laslow and xander both struggle w sociality as well, i think laslow can relate in a more... empathetic way? dealing with some of the emotional aftermath and letting feelings be feelings (this isn't to say siegbert doesn't go to xander or that xander doesn't help, i just think they're good at different things). on a more lighthearted note, i think laslow's really good at getting a giggle out of siegbert, and good at finding ways to alleviate pressure. he's been doing this for years with xander. and yes, xander and siegbert need different things, but laslow's good at pinpointing those things

something i rly like abt their relationship is that i think that where siegbert more openly shows his idolization of xander (like we see in-game), he still does something really similar with laslow. looking up to him, taking inspiration from him. it just comes out in different ways. for example, siegbert probably trusts laslow's opinions... a lot. considers his sometimes more than his own. and he's just fascinated by the stories he tells. even after laslow's married to xander, i like to think he still travels (and drags xander with him as often as he can--and also drags their kids along as often as he can hahaha), and those stories in particular really entrap siegbert. which is good for a budding prince, i think something laslow (and eventually siegbert and soleil) has that xander lacks is some open mindedness, and not being so narrowly nohr-centric in his perspective--esp in upbringing, if that makes sense. this is also why i like laslow taking xander traveling, cause ultimately i think it would do him good.

ONTO!!! soleil and xander!! ive mentioned before how much i like the grumpy-dad and peppy-daughter dynamic, but. to reiterate: i really really like it gjsjfjsnf soleil, similarly to laslow but probably even more, tends to go to xander and ramble about her girl successes and failures. just barging into his office like i hope you're not busy cause i have things to SAY!! and i don't think xander dismisses her, but he does make her wait sometimes, hahaha. i also think xander will often tell soleil what she needs to hear, rather than what she wants, and ultimately for her that's better than the alternative. he's not entirely harsh (though he can be and that's something to work on), but honest. he also dotes on her more than he should by a xander-standard LOL

i think soleil provides to xander a lot of brightness--it is NOT lost on me that they named her soleil, sun, in a place like nohr. i think surrounding xander with bright people is a fantastic idea. and just like laslow's doing with the traveling thing, soleil probably gets xander to socialize a little more, haha. he isn't a brick wall that can't talk to anybody, but--he does strike me as the kind of guy who has coworkers, but not friends, ya feel me. soleil's confident and full of energy, and tbh i think she's the type to really want attention from her parents, so asking xander to come along with her is a frequent request. and that eventually, naturally, leads to xander getting out more. she doesn't have the same setback as laslow that if he gets shy enough he'll retreat entirely while they're out, hahaha

and one final note to round this off: i like to think!! that xander and soleil are both cat people (xander = cabbit, and soleil has lines about owning kitten posters), where laslow and siegbert are dog people (i have many aus where laslow has a pet dog so this is more of a 'because i said so' kinda thing) (also you might be inclined to think cat for siegbert also but i need you to look inward. deeper. i think he'd like the enthusiasm...!!! i have more i could say but i'll leave it at that)

there you go!! :D

#GAWD this was long. i was writing the second part of the siegbert one and i was like shit #i still have soleil's to go. ghsjfjsb #i rly do have more to say. but..... #my next longfic after my current one is LITERALLY all about this. especially as the story goes on #and im rattling the bars of my cage like. i wanna explore this in the fic rather than here #cause i can do it BETTER in the fic i know i can #so. eventually there will be more on this topic. if you're still interested in (checks scheduling notes) a year? gjsjgjsjfjsdn #that fic is easily why i have so much to say NOW. i think abt it a lot #and honestly i just really really love parent/child dynamics of all sorts #especially from both of their perspectives. you know!!! #anyway thank u anon for giving me the chance to ramble. this is seriously some of my fave stuff #ahhh this reminded me i have a fan parent-child support for xander and soleil i still need to write out #i have the synopsis but it's not really properly *written* #part of that is bc im indecisive on the formatting tho #comically i think the mother-son support for siegbert works very well to just slide laslow into #but tbh id like to eventually make one for them too #just for fun hehe #okay i will stop now because tags are getting long too #(<- girl who can't shut up abt her ships) #dots answers asks #anonymous #dots's xnlw tag

[chisatowo]

Read the new sekai story. Not ok.

#rat rambles #sekai posting #I have my complaints but. not with the writing like holy shit #this was the most uncomfortable and scary sekai event Ive read and thats a high bar #its litterally so well written and also hply fuck is it physically painful to read #mafuyu's mom is so. slimy. and creepy. and manipulative. I fucking hate her. Im so scared for mafuyu #obviously theyll be ok eventually this is sekai but. things are probably abt to get rapidly worse for mafuyu #this is the breaking point Ive been waiting for. right now the cracks are simply expanding but soon things might get Rough #the wall mafuyu built between their two lives is wearing so thin and its fucking terrifying #its been literally so painful watching mafuyu trying to stop it and now having to face the incoming collapse when shes not ready #but she never will be ready. not as long as she still holds onto the desperate belief that her mother cares. that her mother loves her. #mafuyu is so fucking terrified rn its horrible to watch. I legitimately felt like crying. holy shit this event #now I will say. this was a great mafuyu event. why are they the fucking 2 star hello #I have mixed feelings on this as a kanade banner but even asside from that why the fuck is mafuyu the 2 star like wtf?? #was it rly that important to have mizuki be one of the 4 stars??? did they rly need to be one of them???? #like mizuki should have been the 2 star imo #if I had it my way itd be kanade mafuyu and kaito as the 4 stars ena as the 3 star and mizuki as the 2 star #ena and kaito could be swapped but since its kaitos intro I think he deserved it more #speaking of ena taking that 'the only one who can protect you is yourself' and running with it babeyyyyyy #adds that to my ena mommy issues arsonal (thats literally the only thing I have in there rip) #also the way you can feel everyone's development so strongly in this event #they still have a long way to go as individuals and a unit but theyve come so far from the start #mafuyu is in fact now most due for 25ji I think so. time to mentally prepare myself for the storm to come #I wont lie tho I am losing my mind over this event as a mafuyu fan but I am also disapointed in it as a kanade one #like dont get me wrong kanade has some rly good moments but. this does not sooth my worries abt the direction shes going #I just dont like that this was a kanade event about mafuyu. from the kanade fan perspective this was like one of the worst case scenarios #kanade desperately needs more stuff actually about her. Im scared she just straight up wont get it :( #so yeah. mixed feelings on this event from a kanade perspective but dear god is it good otherwise

[consulaaris]

wip wednesday 

was tagged by @lavampira and @impossible-rat-babies this week, as well as @ghoulsbeard a few weeks back-- thank you all! <3 

here’s a little snippet from a backstory fic for my ffxiv WoL zori !

She tries to follow him. So used to being her father’s tiny shadow it almost comes as second nature; even after what he’d said to her mother, about the wanderlust that had overtaken him. Her little brother is too young to understand, but even at seven summers old all Zori really knows is that her father is leaving. That they-- that she-- isn’t enough to make him stay. 

The somber silhouette her father makes in the doorway as he leaves is burnt clearer into her mind than his face, now just a blur of brown skin and laughing golden eyes. Those eyes are sad, now, and she can feel the tears that trickle unbidden from the corners of her own. Zori tugs at his hand, pleading-- if he’s so unhappy in going why can’t he stay, for just a little longer? Can they not come with him? 

Little Zori, he rumbles in her memory, kneeling down and tucking a lock of wavy hair behind her horn. Though the sound of her father’s voice has long since been lost to time, she still feels his last embrace with a clarity that makes her chest ache. You cannot follow me this time. 

In a way, the tenderness hurts worse than anger would have. 

(She almost can’t bring herself to hate him for it.) 

(Almost.) 

#rae writes #oc: zori aviriq #also realizing just how deeply deeply angry she is #long before it starts to show / manifest itself more explicitly in her rage & grief post HW #the way that she too eventually leaves her family #following in the footsteps of a father she hated for doing the same-- no matter how much she tries to justify it to herself #and say that it's different #and the way that her brother hates zori for it in the same way she hated their father #cycles and cycles #idk!!!! smth in the way she feels such a deep loneliness & alienation from the world n people around her #while also being fated to save it #i have so many thoughts n feelings abt her KJGSK ignore my rambling #also i haven’t named any of her family members yet lol hence why the prose is a lil clunky my b

[unproduciblesmackdown]

thinking about how of course billions is about people trapped in eternal battle world, and trapped because they won't ever exit, and don't want to because that's the only way they can define their idea of themself or like move through life, to the degree they have to just create or find another battle if one ends or they don't have enough going on at once or they're unhappy about anything & can only respond to that the only way they'll respond to anything: finding someone to consider a target to Defeat & being like nice, i'm so competent & active as a person, so with any other issues in my life, i'm sure it's not my fault at least

and it's been clear that to be someone at the Center of the show means needing to be inflexible enough to never leave that life, which also probably means never engaging in genuine self-reflection besides like, fuming in distress for 5 sec & then immediately searching for blame for someone else, or calling up your designated moral supporter who'll tell you you're upset b/c you're very complex & sympathetic & maybe if you do [xyz] you'll be able to Keep Winning, so like, don't worry, we'll never get too off track here. you have someone like connerty who cares so much about playing by the rules ft. ethics, but he was also someone completely inflexible who would give a shit like "ha ha you broke the law" and be Defeated b/c like yeah damn you do got him in that situation. he may then have gained the flexibility to throw a punch when he's already imprisoned but he's still just gotta retire & pursue some completely different goals

this in contrast with like, what a coincidence (surely not) that the more flexible characters are the ones who also do introspect & reflect & genuinely think about & question themselves ever, & how even beyond that, being in this world of people who overwhelmingly are thee opposite & aiming for a static sense of self & thus strategy for navigating life & all interactions & situations, the more reflective parties also tend to accept both Blame & the fruitlessness of pushing for more/different/better from the people & relationships & situations they're amongst. those willing to take on responsibility at all surrounded by people casting all of it off, always, w/the former already primed to take blame & the latter primed to be looking to find the blame in anyone else, a powerful mismatch....which allows the flexible parties to also put up with shit for longer lol like if they got fed up that quickly or recognized the dead-end here they'd just leave the show lol. like wow can't believe taylor spent their whole life already stuck having to deal with someone who's so very much like these bullshit central men & those trying to emulate them, & perhaps also then have a lifetime of experience extending endless patience & sympathy with little to no expectations for more from people who put up with such a bullshit man & his effects on everything around him, like, what do you mean taylor's mom hasn't seen them b/c douglas didn't want to see them b/c he wasn't yet motivated enough to have to exercise begrudging shows of basic respect. whilest sure seems like taylor felt more concern & basically stated their responsibility re: trying to make their relationship with their dad work / basically take on the task of making his life work for him according to his sense of himself (genius! who deserves the recognition thusly!) and doesn't seem to take on this role re: their mom, who nevertheless is just presumed to move closer to them along w/douglas. and here's taylor never truly putting their foot down re: wendy, no matter what, able to have no real positive expectations in how wendy treats them or thinks of them, but also always able to extend sympathy / decent treatment themself

thinking of like team ben out here as the Nicer axe cap or mpc people who also happen to be people absorbing the L's, blaming themselves for being at the bottom of the hierarchy & being subjected to the always negative treatment doled out to them accordingly, and, winstonesquely, still generally like extending genuine gestures of amicability, efforts of constructive actual communication, etc, & this being shut down & likely punished by all the people around them who won't handle that kind of thing. that Of Course nobody's actually supported around here, like, at best they'll get some kind of "well you're actually talented & valuable :)...." (so why aren't they already treated in a way such that they're aware of this?) "....so just have more confidence already god!" wherein (a) again that just means it's Their Fault that they're having a miserable time at the hands of others & (b) their having "confidence" doesn't really mean like, an emotional buffer between their sense of self-esteem & the message of inferiority in how they're treated, it has to mean externally acting different in some ways, more like A Winner, more like everyone else. the limits of ben trying to sometimes be a buffer for tuk as that kind of friend/mentor role, where either it simply fails or ben's Help is more unilateral "correction." that generally only any increase in aggressive hostility gets them anywhere, and really not that far.

the way dollar bill could always act however he wanted & they could always clean up his messes / save him from himself / just flatout blame other people for what dollar bill did to them or someone else; success in being a mini axe in that way for sure. dollar bill going off the rails over his literal dollar bill & that's not a problem, he's validated b/c he's upset, & b/c rudy knew he'd be upset it's really all rudy's fault....who just so happens to be more of a loser, what with his glasses & possible masturbation ever and all. whilest even when dollar bill is like every season being shit at his job & life, well, just find a loser to trounce while everyone ignores this, cheers you on, takes on responsibility for fixing things for you, blames the person targeted probably. dollar bill couldn't even do in office transphobic hate crime physical attacks, or that but while yelling the r word at the autistic guy he's already harrassing & threatening, without it being really basically the target's fault, & hey, as long as no investors are watching. and we're still dragging dollar bill back to the office b/c uhhh yeah!!

& then of course there's winston, who, like a loser, says things in real efforts for real communication with others, that they winningly can only bring themselves to respond to as "he's not allowed to talk, that's out of line, i have to punish/deny this to reassert our respective status" except for, sometimes, taylor actually communicating in turn, or even simply receiving the information. winston in a duo with the very winning & worthy rian, being something of a quasirival for 5 seconds but even during then, and since, trying to be amicable to establish an actually positive dynamic, trying for actual communication, engaging flexibly & actively based on her feedback & her terms & etc to try to find some more success; versus rian completely inflexible, unwilling to respond to efforts to communicate, unwilling to have an actual relationship with any flexibility & genuineness in turn, or see winston as a person of course, and engage with real emotions. which is hardly an exclusive response of hers, like, everyone else is just the same, she's just also the one interacting with him more often and personally bullying him & standing next to him & immediately responding with clear contempt when he tries things like earnest expressions of "hey rian could you not do what you just did b/c it makes me feel like shit, probably b/c that's what you're trying to do" and "hey that was cool what you just did b/c it makes me feel like—" b/c like, what a loser. real winners cannot handle engaging with another person as a person. when you can just make up & stick to a narrative about "oh but i don't hate winston, who i feel is inherently beneath me. i wouldn't wanna feel bad about killing him, not when i could feel fine about administering more of a death by a thousand cuts with some other people helping out & hey maybe it was their cut that did it after all....but also if you're like 'pwease' then eh sure" or that winston's got a lesser inner existence anyways, some classic dehumanization, no complexity there, & hurting him isn't real, & it'd never be you in his position anyways! especially the more you're buying into "yeah i'm more of a person / more deserving / more real & sympathetic & correct than him :)" & being cheered on as you act that out. pretty cringe of winston to be earnest, flexible, openly trying & wanting & needing things, sounds bad & silly. unlike the winners around him who really cannot handle him or any of these things about him. of course near equivalent in loserness, tuk, is the person with the realest most amicable relationship with him. both of them too incompetent to realize their mutual failings in this, ha ha, real winners are repulsed & fleeing & can't handle a basic exchange with either of them. and the imbalance re: how little others are willing to give them in interest, consideration, time, words, etc, while they're always trying Too Much re: the disinterested others, totally proves their unworthiness

winston and tuk always having to stay at the bottom of the hierarchy, winston only able to be shitted on even as he extricates himself, ending up surrounded by people who will only act "correctly" according to their superior roles & this mf wags only processing anything as "did that reinforce my being a correct/winning person???" & only responding by trying to reassert to others how much of a winner they are, which requires establishing a loser, and crushing them. winston having recognized / gotten fed up with a bullshit scenario & had realistic expectations of those around them & spent those years being treated like shit yet never crushing an enemy to restore his ego & also spent those years trying to communicate and work with others and share actual info and make actual connections & now independently choosing to make a big shift in his life so that things can be different? is definitely the contemptible loser here while everyone else looks very good faffing around for an episode getting some temporary ego boosts & being very "correct" in every response to winston, even pointing out that rian even noticing something genuine & positive from winston in the absence of it anywhere is first & foremost incorrect, which rian will Also immediately drop in the face of that "well yeah it's more correct to prioritize Anything else. like that he's pathetic & mpc 5ever" like wuh oh rian being doomed from 5x08 "time to embrace acting more correct now" & being truly inflexible from that point on, never had a moment of conflict not resolved by [ignoring that] &/or again just getting someone more correct to declare how it'll be answered. taylor at their most flexible and Taylorest and most juxtaposed with central men & static ossified "winners" when they are also at their best in engaging with winston. taylor Like winston & vice versa in so many substantial & interesting ways, despite their relating to / sympathizing with / devoting much more effort & interest to people more like the central men. that here we are, when taylor might have to give up on Being A Winner, someone who'll walk away with status & resources & a seamless transition into some established business foundation, to really get the wins that matter, against pince, &/or to clock out of a sunk cost factory, &/or to not have strangled every part of themself that can be in conflict with this general situation into eternal dormancy. don't You dare blame latency lol, the taylor who gets to exist outside the conditional "well i guess you're a winner who's very useful to me, like dumping work on you & blaming you if it goes awry. and you can act like a Real winner in the ways that really matter (crushing people)"....is also a taylor who can be rejected & shut down & shut out & have their value denied & be treated shittily despite even knowing they'd be / are good at this shit, superlatively even, & could never feel okay just being regarded as a tool stashed away at someone's disposal. & Has been treated shittly & is liable to accept blame, unilateral responsibility for other's selves & feelings & actions & lives, & marinate in self-loathing. while people who refuse any introspection, questioning, responsibility, awareness, etc, & refuse to handle the least of genuine interactions/relationships with others as real people, are glad to scoff at them & dismiss them & imply or assert their superiority, like, wow have You got a lot to learn, or maybe you can't b/c you're inherently inferior. all just like re: winston!

tl;dr shoutout to the flexible characters who like can & do reflect & change things up actually, just so happening to always be Losing for this in the [only way to win is not to play] arena of fake winners seeing if they can consider themselves superior to everyone else & only even possibly correct always & forever, in the pyramid scheme of social hierarchy & also capitalism

#real winners quit! it's winston #society if rian Wasn't quickly boxed in & given the ''prominence'' of being Used for other characters #and where we could more truly have this like triumvirate of seeing yourself in both the other two parties in tmc lol #almost a similar fate re: lauren showing up Worthily Yet Zanily! then Most offbeatness falls away / dating is in the bg #& she's mostly Around & doing general [just competent things] But she was also flexible enough to do things Wrong actually / be doomed lol #which we Knew b/c of the relationship that billions would only eventually crush as the Cost of xyz.... #rian's offbeatness mostly gone too; ''what am i gonna do next!'' Conveniently/contradictorily; going Bazinga; snark instead of aggression #general [just competent things] that'll last until ppl quit last minute; if they do. she started out secretly pretty inflexible already #& is really locked in by now; very similar to wendy who also never really considered ditching her life of ''i love to feel like i'm toying #w/ppl's lives & enabling some mf with more power'' & really isn't that different from prince; who tf else isn't also totally inflexible #team ben's endurance come from what insulation / teamwork they can find w/each other & just staying out of the way really #& also just the writing like ''of course they can & will stick around for years despite how they're treated. bit of Loser Feelings as #Lesser Feelings after all b/c haha i mean come on they may be nice but do they seem Epic to you?'' #which is just as true / even more so re: winston. until he; in another [the Actual winner's move]; finally leaves #and gets like the most bass boosted [WHAT A FUCKING LOSER] treatment on his way out b/c what else could or would anyone do #winston billions #anyways he & the Loser Nerds like him have so much more maturity & flexibility & allowed capacity for actual growth lol. cringe comp!! #and this may be at all on purpose Of Course. show's aware central ppl are peak shit & intractible. show also does think winston's a loser #&/or is certainly trying to have their cake and eat it too with him and like tuk as well & even to a degree w/e goes on w/spyros etc etc #and Illustrating a lot of the ''deserved'' aspect through static inflexible Assumed Universal Facts abt what seems wrong & unworthy #like fucking yourself literally! objectively Bad. having glasses. knowing the diff b/w a vagina & vulva. not being ''''attractive'''' #[jumpscare of Blaring Tangent dialogue abt that all overlaid on itself into 1 second of 9000 decibels] #taylor is also Flexible re: philip who is Flexible re: them in turn. definitely Something and Promising as has been established lol #visit taylip hq nothingunrealistic.tumblr.com for so much more. and this blog for [thinking abt winston] hq in turn. covering ground

[hirokiyuu]

How's this for a dyssol prompt? Fairytale AU, prince Dys carrying a secret romance with commoner Solana (fem!Sol), while trying to fight off arranged marriage offers. Go nuts :D

Also I'm sorry for being so specific 😅

The problem with Tangent fucking off to join the Magic Bullshit Academy or whatever the fuck they called it was that now all the stupid proposals that had been going to her were coming to him instead, and as she’d been considered the (barely) more approachable one, that meant the number had more that doubled overnight. “It’s all such fucking bullshit,” he snarls, throwing a full handful of letters straight into the fire and not even enjoying the way they warp at the edges.

“I mean, you’re gonna have to pick one of them,” comes the voice of the only person Dys could ever even think of marrying, from his side where he can’t bring himself to look at her face, because the only thing worse than her being hurt would be her being not hurt at all.

#its ok tho i think in the end tang comes back n gets politcally married to marz #and then dyssol fuck off into the woods together. as u do #i think dys would be less of a prince and more of like...... medium noble of some standing u kno #i DO think him getting cursed would be fun ive been idly considering batb dyssol au but #feels too easy u kno. monster dys is just fun to think abt WWWWWW #actually a sol+tang batb where its like..... sol brings dys eventually and twins reconciliation (tang being honest w/herself nad him) #is like the thing that solves her curse. could be fun. and also dyssol do definitely kiss but thats a side thing #anyways ty for ask!!! #asks #ask meme #va1iant viridity #i was a teenage exocolonist #how do you writing

[pesteringchum]

no one can comprehend the mlp au fanfiction i am cooking in my head

#its a magic school au where ive done like 10x more world building than actual writing so far #which is to say. ive done like no writing so far #AGH its so emotional #i wish i could explain it but i cant without having to explain like. EVERYTHING #but some details im very excited about: #fluttershy is a transgirl and also eventually gets turned into a werewolf and she hates it at first bc she becomes an obligate carnivore #there is a scene where the girls find fluttershy crying sobbing and beside her is a plate of dragon shaped chicken nuggets #<- it is very sad but also very funny to me #also twilight sparkle is an orphan and watched her parents die. celestia did a spell to wipe twilights memory of the event but it didnt work #twilight was not born magical but was given magic by her mother bc her mom knew she was about to die #bc of the magic bestowing twilight has two handprint scars on either side of her face where her moms hands cradled her and a mark on her— #—forehead where her mom kissed her goodbye #twilight wears her hair long to hide the scars #can you tell twilight n fluttershy are my favourites #i prommy the other girls also get the spotlight. theyre all just so wrapped up in lore that idk how to say anything abt them succinctly #chum pesters

[dylanconrique]

Have you got any new chenford WIPs? I love reading fic! 📚 😁🧡

oh, i have a couple dozen ideas that have been floating around since the season finale aired; however, i'm very emotionally caught up in my head rn, and i can't seem to break myself out of it... so even though i have the muse, and the desire to write... i just have not been able to.

which sucks, cause i've been dying to write a little fic-lit of lucy touching herself to the thought of tim, after their kiss. 🤭🤭

#anon #answered #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #tucy #otp: you know me so well #i also really wanna write this wip where lucy waits for nolan to get back from ???mexico??? #and pm ambushes him and bailey the moment they get back cuz 'holy shit if i [lucy] don't confide in anyone abt this #'i am going to bursts at the seams' #like she's pacing his living room info dumping everything he missed while being away on vacation #and nolan and bailey are just watching her and absorbing everything like 🤨🤨 #until she blurts out 'i kissed tim!' #*cue both their jaws hanging on the floor* #nolan eventually pulls her aside so they can discuss more of this in depth since they have previous romantic history together #really just any excuse to use john's wise buddha powers to help lucy come to terms w/ whatever possible feelings she has now for tim #*my wips

[guubiiz]

trein...

#i want to write beautiful romance of him falling in love again #with some angst as he still loves and cherishes his wife and awaits their meeting once again #but maybe he comes to realize that his wife would want him to be happy... and that is all he feels with you #the heavy guilt.. he doesn't want to leave her and her memory behind #and it leaves him unwilling to pursue you #eventually though... eventually trein would let his guard down #maybe at first he's done nothing but compare you to his lovely wife (not aloud) but he comes to see the two of you are different #but both wonderful in your own ways #maybe it'd just end in him staying as your close friend and confidant.. he feels as though it's wrong to even think about loving someone els #trein is such a complicated character to simp for given his wife #and the fact he is canonically still very much in love with her #would he ever be able to accept the fact he may be falling in love again? #would he be scared that he is betraying her? would he be scared that you could go dying on him too? #omg imagine if he fell in love with you but you've only got so much time left to live.. #the trope of knowing the person you love is going to die.. yet still loving them anyways #makes me so weak! #or knowing that you will return to your world.. between that and his wife.. he decides to leave you be and admire from afar #up late at night talking with the moon (his wife) and asking her what he should do #is she okay with this? would she be angry once they reunited? #or maybe she sends him a message from above and lets him know it's okay to be happy even if it's not with her #he loved her once.. and still does.. but that doesn't mean she's all he ever has to have #trein should be happy even if that means it's not with her by his side #omg and imagine meeting his daughters at one point somehow and they just absolutely adore and fawn over you #they cherish you just as much as he does... and seeing you fit in so well makes him love you all the more.. #theyre trying to set their father up because they want him to experience the joy of love once again #he doesn't have to live in and reminiscence on memories he can still make new ones #maybe you give trein that feeling of youth once again.. and when he first meets you it's like the first time he saw his wife and he has a -- #-- crisis about it #might be going into the WIPS cause i have a million more thoughts on him #all the staff for that matter really. abt to blabber in rb's to this post later

[angeltrapz]

is my dad capable of leaving me alone

#the answer is no apparently :) #im so fucking tired. at the point where i fucking hope they get a divorce #i cant stand to see such a miserable look on my moms face night after night #or my sister crying because hes talking shit abt her interests since he doesnt find them personally interesting #or to see my grandma feel like she has to stay in her bedroom to remain sane #or for ME to feel like im a fucking burden by existing #its worse than its ever been before #connor.vtxt #i just hope it will get better eventually. in whatever way it has to happen #im so tired of feeling like shit every day of my life its getting unbearable #gonna either play minecraft or write some more bc fuck. i gotta do smth #it really does feel like he doesnt consider me a person worth respecting sometimes and im so tired of it #i mean he repeatedly has been triggering me on purpose for months so #someone please tell me its going to get better. thats all i want