#which means more planning on my part

[youchangedmedestiel]

I happen to have a fic with two endings.

I can't choose the one I prefer. One ending has light angst and the other is funnier. And I just... can't choose.

So I'll guess I'll post the fic with the two possible endings in different chapters and like that YOU can choose which one you prefer because I can't. It just gives you more content so I guess it's fine.

#I didn't plan that fic to last that long honestly #it was supposed to be just the one scene at the beginning more developed #but I guess that's the fun part of writing #you never know where it'll lead you #I had fun writing it like that so no regret #it's about those two idiots in love obviously #destiel #deancas #castiel #dean winchester #ao3 writer #fanfic writing #writing fanfiction #why choose when you can have both? #two endings for one fic #that just means more content #I'd like to know which ending you preferred when I'll post it #I'm curious #probably posting it this week-end #my destiel fanfic

[vermillioncrown]

by this point, my frustration is justified--if i have:

1) already mentioned in multiple replies that a fic is on hiatus

2) bolded its status and my reasons in the end note

3) added the status and a warning that i will delete comments of the type in my summary

why do i still get asked whether or not i'll ever update again? and that's all they have to say?

becoming increasingly concerned there's a subset of bil readers that don't know how to read or pay attention in a hobby that requires reading comprehension and an attention span

#opinionated verm #redglyphs #also: not into the weird squicky mean-spirited or performative way that some readers take the humor #(which is 100% not meant to be and it's something i intentionally try to avoid) #or caring about the quips over everything else #it's just off-putting and frustrating to see #bc if they cared that much about the fic it's so easy to find WHY i've been busy #or like. at least drop a line beyond the superficial?? i don't need effusive praise or whatever. but it'd be nice to see signs of life #i legit feel like a dog doing tricks for treats with the general attitude from that fic's readership #there's a fromsoft-like meter that fills up to me deleting bil akin to incurring scarlet rot #it sucks bc i loved writing bil + sharing it + have plans to continue it #but it doesn't feel fun to know that rude and ignorant readers still get to enjoy something they had a part in ruining for me #really sucks. i'm not a popular author by any means but bil is my most popular fic by raw metrics-to-duration of posting #and if this is how it be then i never want to have anything more appealing than bil bc damn i'd lose all my hair lol #on bil

[fatcowboys]

oh no time for my first ah packing overwhelmed moment hhhhh

#god i hate how my brain makes me feel when trying to pack for a move specifically. #i just. struggle with it so much. figuring out the tasks and what to do and aaaaah #however. its okay. me n bobbi already are planning on meeting on sunday to talk about packing bc they are good at it #this is the hard part for me. our group has a really complimentary skillset that i thonk overall. will help make the move less Bad #and previously we have been in the blue good times phase where i took lead on finding listings and tours and stuff #but now we are approachijg the end of that bc we have aplace we are applying to #but also going into the area that i am going to struggle with so much more which means i am going to #be doing a lot of being vulnerable and asking for help which i can do. i am getting better at it. #but still packing is so overwhelming i may explode #but. bobbi and i are meeting this weekend. i am trying to take advantage of my brain being so eeep by trying to note #what is overwhelming me and what will help w that #but god i hate it so much

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

ppl will go “i’d notice if society was going to sacrifice a marginalised group of people and if they said that it’s ok that a bunch of people would die then i would stand against it” and then they’ll hear people saying “well only disabled and vulnerable people will die of covid” and go “yes this is normal and ok and fine”

#first of all it’s not only disabled people who are dying and also covid can disable you real quick and make you part of that group that #people are fine with dying #but also do y’all hear yourself bed sometimes. the amount of people who claim to be allies but with throw others aside as soon as it #interferes with their comfort #also there have been so many studies and reports and articles on how covid disproportionally affects poc. not to mention inequalities in #healthcare that come into play too when you’re dealing with a pandemic #but as soon as y’all have to stop going to parties or restaurants or isolating for two weeks when exposed or confirmed positive or even if #you suspect you have it. or any of the millions of other things that at this point are important facets of community care and protecting #yourself and others from a disease that has been proven and continues to be proven to do a lot of damage to the body #y’all just balk. you don’t drop your claims but that doesn’t mean you’ve dropped your allyship #I’d love to go back to normal. i’d love to go out without a mask and eat in restaurants and do all the things i did before covid #but i won’t. because i know that isn’t safe for me or my friends/family/community and also quite literally isn’t possible now because we’re #still in a pandemic. if you claim to be an ally to disabled people then prove it and mask #I can’t speak as fully on allyship to other communities who are disproportionately impacted but not masking harms everyone and if anyone #does want to speak on allyship to their communit(y/ies) feel free to go ahead #covid tw #fired up about this because i’m doing radioactive iodine treatment in a few weeks and my mother is taking no precautions. not only am i at #risk if i catch covid but if she gets sick i either have to postpone my treatment to care for her (which risks giving my cancer more time to #metastasise if there are cells left) or i have to figure out another plan for treatment since my current plan hinges on her help since i #have to isolate #im just tired and frustrated. a pandemic doesn’t stop just because you get bored #vent tw #this is not as eloquent as i wish it was and the lack of punctuation and tone can make parts confusing but i think y’all get my point

[unopenablebox]

doing evil behaviors (looking up different methods of engagement ring sourcing to try to identify the most ethical one)

#as far as i can tell it's 'a vintage ring' followed closely by 'a vintage ring you have melted down into a different ring' #but that means i have to find a vintage ring and vintage [anything] hunting rapidly becomes a task of fractal complexity #that exhausts me until i give up #lab gems ... seem ... fine but i'm not sure how the labor conditions are for workers in them and not making a lot of research progress #'ethically sourced' gold seems nice but is hard to verify effectively and 'ethically sourced' silver might... not exist? unclear #now of course my girlfriend is a biosafety level 3 infectious diseases researcher who handwashes and adds and removes #gloves hundreds of times a day #and so this is going to be a not-actually-very-frequently-worn item #which only makes me feel more evil about it all. #we're‚ like‚ engaged in the sense that we have agreed we want to get married and my whole family knows we're planning on it #we're not engaged in the sense that their family doesn't know we're planning on it and we're not making it public or actually #planning a wedding. so. #acquiring a ring is like the least relevant part of this whole exercise and as mentioned will almost never even be used. so im fixating

[mayorofcattown]

me: oh this fic idea is just a short oneshot, not that much even happens in it, I'll totally be able to get it done before Natsume we-

the fic outline alone:

me: oh

#I mean my outlines are p detailed but STILL #so yeah probably not getting this finished in time lol #I'll probably break it into chapters and just post the first part during it and finish the rest later #tbh I was planning on splitting it in half anyway cause it fits a few of the prompts and breaks in half nicely #tho I might have to break it earlier if I don't get that much done. which is fine it just means you'll have a more rude cliff hanger lol

[sleepy-bunbun-ace]

i'm going to be honest, i have no idea for any events in the sekai swapped leaders au other than tsukasa being forced to actually go to school in person because a student hacked the online school website/program/whatever and now it's down until the situation is resolved.

since kanade is in wonderlands x showtime in this au, she would be going to school in person since she doesn't have the need to compose 24/7. tsukasa on the other hand....

oh well, at least he can finally meet amia (or well, mizuki) in person since kamiyama was the closest school to him. the event would focus around him and his struggles about adjusting to in person school again and what happens in there after being online for so long. also having to adjust to not composing 24/7 or eating cup noodles for every meal. he can cook but it takes his time from composing.

he does meet rui, nene, kanade, and emu personally though. i'm still deciding if kanade goes to miya with emu or kamiyama. maybe he can reconnect with an old friend while he's there...

at least the lie he tells saki about going to school isn't a lie now.

#ace rambles about aus #sekai swapped leaders au #sekai swap au #project sekai #tsukasa tenma #i swear i will post more about the other leaders i'm just biased towards wxs in general #anyways i still haven't decided if he should stay in school but it's partially online or full online school again #first idea means he attends some classes in the classroom and the rest are online #which would be funny on days he doesn't come in uniform bc online students wouldn't be required to wear them #anyways kanade and emu are immediately adopted because tsukasa will always collect siblings like pokemon cards #this event is filled with angst since tsukasa is not the extroverted star we know and love but he does find a support system in wxs #would this take place before the doll festival event where i plan to have tsukasa tell saki the truth? probably not! #this seems more like a later event #this event would feature dissociation sensory overload and tsukasa ignoring his chronic pain #that last part would be explained in another event that would be niigo focused instead of mixed unit #this was brought to you by me freaking out that the kalicocoa liked my ss!ichika post

[hoardlikegoldenirises]

in an effort to rest my left hand from typing and also my usual exercises in doing random shit I don't have a lot of experience with, I have exported some .bmps and used the auto-tracer in inkscape (which i have done before for other things) so that i can turn this logo into an svg file with consistent angles and, you know, resizeability and sleekness.

The main thing I'm doing here is cleaning it up (fixing the angles in particular) and then I have to figure out how I want to do the shapes for the flame colors, which I'll probably do manually cause the color quantization tracing mode doesn't quite do what I need it to do lol

I don't even know if Seth is going to definitely be called Scratch (have been spitballing a variety of vigilante-friendly names in my notes) so I probably shouldn't be putting the effort into this on the off chance they end up called something like Aetherflame instead (lol) (like actually that's one of the names in my list) but this is the logo I have, so, you know.

anyway, practice, right? :P

#my cyst is actually not really any worse than usual but it seems i've been typing so much that my wrist has started to hurt occasionally #i can't imagine my typing setup (a large full-sized keyboard sitting on top of my laptop) is helping #i mean it's angled up which is inconvenient for other reasons but there's only so much i can do here ergonomically LOL #wipnadiart #arghdesign #scratchverse #scratch #FUN FACT: I was originally planning to go into graphic design in college! I Did Not Do That and i didn't learn anything about it at all #so this is me uhhh learning by doing which is my usual technique (cough spider-man modding) #(i ended up with a language studies focus and an art history subfocus after transferring to a different school and graduating there) #(this was less out of the blue than it seems; my original-original plan was in fact to major in Japanese and iirc minor in graphic design) #(neither of those things happened in part because they cut the number of japanese language programs at my first college lol) #(which led to me taking ancient greek and linguistics 101) #(which then led to me taking more linguistics classes and mandarin and arabic lol)

[gamebunny-advance]

*Exhale*

Alright, I've been teasing it long enough. Anyone that's been paying attention has probably figured out what my oh-so secret project has been (not that it's going to stop me from vague-posting about it), and he really is close to being finished.

Face-up. Done. (Though I would like to touch-up where the paint has chipped)

Clothes. Painted.

Wig. Styled.

I literally just need to put the fringe on his scarf, but for whatever reason, I've just been hit with this wave of fatigue since about the time I wrote the last confessions post (frankly, if you ever see me writing/posting long-ass posts, it's because I've lost the energy to use my hands to make things).

I guess I just burned myself out from making both him and Kun3h0 at the same time, that when Kun3h0 got finished, my whole body shut down having felt relief from "completing" the project. To be fair, this has been going on since at least mid-Janurary, so I am more than ready to close the book on this one.

I'll try to finish him within the month, but there are also a lot of other things going on with me ATM, so I wouldn't hold me to it.

#i'm thinking that part of it is that he honestly turned out *worse* than kun3h0 #so i may be subconsciously trying to avoid having to post him #the plan was that he was supposed to be the first one finished #because his construction is a lot simpler #i didn't need to sew any clothes for him aside from the scarf fringe which is holding me up #so the idea was that I would take what I learned from making him to apply to kun3h0 #but the way things worked out i wound up working on them simultaneously #which split my attention so i made a lot of mistakes on him #and since he's an already established character it's easier to notice the design errors #whereas kun3h0 (despite more or less completing her pngtuber model) still occupies a vague space in my brain #so it's not a big deal if I don't add every white stripe to kun3h0's outfit or if her eye is a little wider than it is tall #but it does bug me when I can't get his face to look exactly as it does in-game #frankly. he's too *cute* right now #i have never considered him (in his original appearance) to be 'cute' #i don't even think he's particularly handsome. he just hits a lot of my bias points #but the base doll was designed to be *very* handsome and i can't do much about that without making it a total mess #i just don't feel like i've captured his 'essence' as well as i captured kun3h0's #but i'd rather he be inaccurate than ruin it entirely trying to do something beyond my means

[22degreehalo]

Me: Ahhhh, I love slow burny type romances so much, where you can just Feel every tiny little incremental bit of growth in their relationship from strangers to closer than anyone...!

Also me, trying to write the earlier stages: okay so this is when they become desperately attracted to each other, right

#ahhhhhhhhhh #my fic plan is almost worked out #minus little details #but im not super super satisfied with an early part #I almost wanna take it out and just add to the rest around it #but I feel like I need more for a like. feelings just starting to develop scene. #but I just. keep wanting to Foreshadow #which means I end up going way too hard on the shippy suggestiveness and making it too obvious #when what I need to do is establish the groundwork #I love reading this stuff... but I get impatient writing I guess hahh

[aroaceleovaldez]

one of the interesting things about having run a pjo askblog for 7 years is because i started it before TOA was even announced but after HoO, when TOA started coming out with each book i then had to start balancing the weird combos of pre-existing blog canon from before TOA, addressing new TOA canon/storylines as they were being published, the weird coincidences of askblog canon lining up perfectly with TOA canon, and the TOA canon decisions that I’m looking at and just saying “no, we’re not doing that”

so it ends up really weird, which i guess is fun because it means i get to tell a new unique story instead of just following TOA verbatim. and it also means i’ve had 6 years to plan out the plot of weird TOA canon-divergence but in a visual format, which is also weird and fun

#pjo #trials of apollo #toa #deadangelos #it also means i get to cut out the parts that i think are stupid /hj #its my askblog and i get to choose the headcanons/plot #everyone in the deadangelos discord squinting at the wip channel trying to figure out how my new bs will fit into the plot. i respect u. #ive been crafting jason's backstory specifically for like 3 years #not an exaggeration at all for the record #and im very excited for how it's gonna pay off #also planning everything out is kinda fun in general cause im writing it all from a p@gan perspective #< (censoring to hopefully avoid crosstagging) #which also if people are interested in hearing about that i will more than happily discuss what that's like #cause i find it really interesting! #given that's. more or less the basis of the entire series despite the series also Not At All Being About It #and putting that back does so much for the series imo #but yeah feel free yall to ask me questions about my askblog here i guess #i love yapping about detail stuff or behind-the-scenes

[lisbonsteresa]

spiraling again

#OOOOH it's just #part of her has just been flat out avoiding telling him; having that conversation with him because she doesn't know where it would go #'you know damn well why i couldn't tell you...it's hard' TERESA PLEASE #and part of her might have honestly assumed he DID know - he's always seemed to know everything about everyone; about her #and if she can assume (pretend) that he knows and he's just not bringing it up then he must not really care all that much #he must be ok with the idea of her leaving and that makes her decision just a little bit easier #that takes the burden of having the conversation off her; she doesn't have to worry about what he'd say #because she can pretend she already knows #(which is just crazy but my girl is going through a lot right now i'm more than ok with giving her all of the benefit of the doubt) #and now she's got to deal with the reality that him not knowing adds a massive wrinkle to any of her planning #if she tells him and he says don't go what does she do with that; what does that mean; how does she respond #and on the other hand if he says go....would he really say that; would he just be ok with letting her go after he just got her back #which possibility is better; which is worse; which way is the one she should take when both are terrifying #i'm going just as crazy as the first time send help #tm

[daydreamerdrew]

Whiz Comics (1940) #2

#I surprisingly really liked this story #it had a lot more moving parts than most detective comics I’ve read which made it more intriguing #I liked that Dan makes the realization that the murder victim was killed because he saw something he wasn’t supposed to #when he went swimming #from that he was inexplicably found in swimming clothes #and so goes swimming in that pool himself to figure out what’s going on #but that that realization wasn’t explained until the end of the story when he’s tying everything together #so him going swimming in that pool initially feels kind of random #also I liked the use of his assistant Carol #when they first get to the town for the case he sends her to the hotel ahead of him so that they won’t be seen together #meaning that he was already planning on having her do some detective work on his behalf #though it also feels kind of crummy that he would tell her to get a date with a man to figure out what he knows #without telling her that he knows who that man is because he was pointed out to him as a likely suspect in the murder case #fawcett comics #dan dare #my posts #comic panels

[toastsnaffler]

my flatmate asking me the day before "do u want to hang out w me and [old friend] everyone else cancelled so I can invite u now" is not the heartfelt offer she thinks it is :^/

#what am i sloppy seconds. fuck off man #i like them both but im not in the place to socialise rn + also it just feels kinda mean. theyve had these plans for weeks #and i wasnt invited bc some of their other friends (who ive never met) didnt want me there which is fair enough ig #even tho their friends complained abt someone else bringing her bf but they both blocked the veto for that. pretty sure ik them- #better than some guy but whatever. i dont rly like their friends anyway bc they only ever have bad things to say abt them #like damn they sound like they have the emotional range of toddlers plus theyre all into shit like genshin. so i wasnt fazed abt it #hope they have a nice time etc but wow sure now theyve cancelled the day before u can invite me as a replacement. yeah thatll do wonders #for the social and self esteem issues i have around being single use and disposable and always on the outside etc yippee #the thing is if i go theyll just talk to each other anyway and leave me to be the fly on the wall like they always do. they dont want #me there they just want an audience i literally have nothing else to contribute i dont think they even like me that much so! #anyway complaint over. genuinely i hope they have a nice time im just annoyed at being treated like that + probably projecting a bit too #its not like i could go if i wanted to anyway bc i have shit to sort out + mail to wait for. maybe next time invite me from the start huh #we had another old friend visit last weekend but those plans were really made without me too and i was just added bc i Live Here so its #kind of unavoidable. but oh well whatever it was nice to see them either way #im too depressed rn to fix my social life or even rely on existing coping strategies in social situations so im having to temporarily #cut it back bc i get too trigger sensitive + dont want to hurt myself or others bc of an arbitrary emotional overreaction #its usually one of the first things to go when im Going Thru It not in a self isolating way but more bc its one of the hardest things #for me to maintain + im pretty self sufficient so its not absolutely crucial. like of course i love my friends but socialising is a #want not a need yknow. eating/sleeping/exercising/hygiene are all more fundamental parts of the engine so i gotta prioritise them #and it sucks but ill survive. anyway sorry for venting on everyones dash so early in the morning i woke up grumpy 👎 #i need to get breakfast and then go out. ughhhhhhh okay. #.vent

[tgirljoker]

bold theory but im like 80% sure that the spiderman 2 story was a little lackluster because the dlc is going to be doing a lot more of the heavy lifting this time around

#i mean theyve definitely got dlc planned already… they had no idea how well the first games dlc would sell but this time around they do #i mean. okay heres my thought process here #1. #we know that norman is going to become the green goblin soon. the ‘’g-serum’’ he talked about was for harrys cure after the symbiote failed #but norman is probably the one who becomes the green goblin. how? idk yet maybe he tests it on himself first or something #i think thats going to be one of the storylines in the dlc #2. in this game they introduced ally teamups for the crimes in the overworld #two for the spidermen respectively and one for wraith. but during the period where harry is agent venom he has an ally teamup as well #his own animations and voice lines and everything. and thats a very short part of the game #so im actually convinced that harry will wake up from his coma in one of the waves of dlc and fight with the symbiote again #black cat had special finisher animations with miles too so maybe shes an ally teamup too? 👀 #maybe wishful thinking but tbh i could see it happening considering the black cat threads from this game havent been entirely wrapped up yet #and also theres a severe lack of ally teamups LOL so im p sure harry at the very least is coming back #maybe to help fight norman somehow for when he turns into the goblin ? #idk. anyways #3. we still have the rest of kravens family to worry about and since they were tracking felecia maybe thats where she comes back ? #4. obviously theres going to be a dlc about the flame/cletus cassidy + carnage. #the flame even has a cult in this adaptation and their gatherings would make great bases which this game DESPERATELY needs more of #also going back to the ally teamup thing yuri still has one post game #and theyre definitely continuing her story given how open ended that questline was #im like. pretty confident in this even though i know its kind of iffy #if they save harry + the goblin for spiderman 3 i wouldnt be surprised but i think it has a solid chance of being addressed in the dlc #tldr there were WAY more lose ends than the first game

[gingerbreadmonsters]

ginger, cracking an eyelid and thinking about opening requests for a little bit? its more likely than you think 👀👀

#redacted asmr #i never say it in as many words but my askbox is almost always open 🥳🥳 #to be honest i am rubbish at actually filling reqs so its probably not a good idea #im so fucking picky about what to write and the kinds of things that appeal to me #plus like....... most reqs that come in tend to be for things that im either not great at and/or dont particularly vibe with yk #its nobodys fault that writing david feels like pulling teeth its just the way it is you get me #hence why in my pinned it makes it clear that i take Suggestions rather than Requests #thing is i could do reqs or we could do like another ask game or smth #yeah another issue w me and reqs is that my little goblin brain just CANNOT stay on track and it fucks me up Every Time 😭😭 #the prompt will be like 'uhhhh elliott sunshine beach day fluff uwu' and i will get 100 words in and #think 'wait what if they were actually dead/imprisoned/doomed the whole time that would be so fun' and then thats all i can write #i mean i started what was SUPPOSED to be DAMN crew cute halloween fluffy stuff and all of a sudden they're all dead so #not a great track record on my part #i cant stand a close plan there has to be room for improvisation #which is awkward when someone has asked for smth specific 🫣🫣 #ginger rambles #oh also anon is off bc i am not putting up with any more ridiculous horseplay in my inbox no sir #fuck around in my askbox and..... actually don't find out bc surprise! i deleted it already sorry who are you again