#which is apparently my default

[that-nerd-who-writes-fanfiction]

I swear I was only going to write a few notes of ideas that I could come back to later.

5 hours and 4 thousand words later, I’ve got 3 chapters (fully edited and complete, I really wish I knew how so I could do it again) of a chronic pain take on Werewolf!Merlin with a healthy dose of Merthur hurt/comfort

#bbc merlin #merlin #I was supposed to finish a chapter of my wip while I had time #i had a plan but the hamsters in my brain said no #i'm procrastinating #werewolves #merlin emrys #werewolf merlin #merthur #arthur pendragon #ao3 fanfic #i’m bad at tagging #i’m too tired for this #merlin bbc #ao3 writer #merlin fanfic #angst and hurt/comfort #which is apparently my default #i need sleep #and a day off so I can actually finish this chapter of Leon’s accidental treason

[yki-dolls]

... Sportsball... Yes.

#Raph and Casey were confused and suspicious when Leo asked to come with them on their bro night #i wish gay people were real #tmnt #tmnt raphael #tmnt fanart #tmnt leonardo #tmnt 2k3 #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2003 #tmnt casey jones #tmnt art #tmnt fan art #Leo: 🏳️‍🌈 #Happy pride month #gay gay homosexual gay #Leo is a pathetic loser #Yeah that's like my default tag whenever I draw Leo #Which I apparently do a lot considering Don is my favourite

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[cephalog0d]

Me writing Batkids usually: *extremely neutral on TimSteph, no particular desire to write that specifically, usually defaults to vaguely Not Dating*

Me writing the Steph-as-Selina's-sidekick AU, apparently: ALL FLIRTING ALL THE TIME. TURN THAT SHIT TO 11.

#tbf the flirting in this AU involves a lot of “Steph mildly bullying Tim” which IS my default for writing them #(he's not NOT into it. because it's tim and he's a weirdo.) #(she hit him in the face with a brick and he immediately developed a crush) #also yes i'm writing more for this AU apparently whoops sorry other current WIPs #(fuck i have to name the series then don't i) #ceph rambles

[whumpacabra]

Hmm saw a post about ‘lady whump’ that got me thinking about a weird pattern in my own writing. As in most of my fandom whump (which I publish on ao3 unrelated to this blog) is ‘lady whump.’ Like yeah actually all of my fanfic does focus on a character who uses she/her pronouns in canon getting whumped (stranded on an ice planet, cut off from her team and on the run, spies and torture stuff, etc.). But when it comes to my original writing I mainly write whump of masculine characters, with only a few exceptions. Maybe I’m more comfortable projecting onto my ocs when they’re masculine? Maybe established feminine characters are more interesting to me for whumping because of the lack of care given to their characterization and growth in their original media? Idk this is just a bit of a personal post.

#whump #personal #beans speaks #it actually really bugs me when I read thru a whump prompt and he/him pronouns are explicitly used #for whumpee/caretaker/whumper whatever it’s just like right. this community generally defaults to male characters. #which is what /I/ also do UNLESS it’s fandom related? apparently? #idk no point to this post just examining my internal biases and saying ‘huh. wonder what’s going on in there.’

[omegasmileyface]

dreams are so awesome. had a totk dream last night where i did side quests and shit it was awesome. it was also very explicit about the fact that the botw games are, canonically and explicitly and deliberately, set in the fallout universe

#i dont know if thats right actually. #there were button presses and everything it was shockingly in-depth game design for a dream #we were on a boat preparing for a voyage— let it be known i was not particularly link. i think my brain mixed up my Special Protagonists #into a slurry to represent the player character. but anyway so i had to assist with like 3 tasks preparing the ship for launch #carting a big piece of ice around with a dude in it. with a timer challenge not to melt it since the boat had lava sub-floors. #AS BOATS DO. #a rope pulling sequence involving... esentially mashing but with joysticks. nobody use this irl it sucks. #and some shit involving a malfunctioning cannon where i had to freeze the bad launches in the air (reaction time) which would apparently #let the cannoneer fix the mechanism .. anound the floating balls ? i dont get that part. #and then after that the cannoneer (who was the sort of default leader of the ship bc everybody loved her and also she was the sister of the #captain and also butch.) sent me off to join some teenagers doing everyones favorite boat activity: getting in the little platform at the #bottom of the prow creating a sort of underwater stage and swordfighting whatever comes through the water. obviously. #now like i said this was a totk dream so obviously i took care of this one through my usual botw swordfighting techniques #(standing there and mashing y and just kinda taking damage until im done) #yeah. this of course was after like 3 other dreams— THOUGH they were mostly gentle and forgettable and not drains on my sleep #so i think the citalopram is starting to wear off

[aeide-thea]

#i was trying to think the other night what the piece had been that Baby Sister and i did for her flute recital in high school #and could not for the life of me remember #but i accidentally opened apple music just now (downloaded an mp3 and apparently that's still the default player bc i mostly stream /o\) #and noticed a recording of this piece was in my library there! creepy but convenient #anyway the version i (apparently) listened to back in the day when we were preparing this was by else paaske #which has its own merits! #but there's something very light and restful abt the countertenor here #just like. rippling burbling flow of melody. #(admittedly debatable how much that suits the actual lyrics! but whatevs‚ we were already ignoring those: bit too much jesus.) #music #johann sebastian bach #daniel taylor #past lives #Youtube

[wolfcat-hybrid]

Digital artist friends what size canvas do you use when you start a drawing

#Wolfy Speaks #digital art #i use 10x16 inches which is a bit bigger than a regular sheet of paper iirc #asking because i just found out my friend's iPad apparently defaults to just under 30x30 inches which is just Too Big imo #but maybe i am the fool. so what about yall what do u use. am I insane or are they #if you wanna specify what program/tool you use go ahead. i use csp and a laptop w a touchscreen #i feel like folks who draw super detailed landscapes are probably gonna pitch upwards in terms of canvas size

[an-asuryampasya]

obsessed with the ugadi tag that's filled with brands.

I opened it out of curiosity but man, who even IS your target audience here on tumblr.

#I'm assuming they might be just automated posts they're pulling from an insta feed or whatever #but still #why go through all that effort and for WHAT #on that note hap new year to meeeeee (it's the telugu new year) #apparently my year ahead is going to be salty as fuck and I already have my suspicions I know why that is #oh and since /numbering/ years is for the weak (/lh) we NAME our years #this year's name is sobhakrut #sobhakrut be nice to me challenge etc etc #placeholder tag #also just realised I did not explain: Ugadi is the name of the festival #tis our new year's thingy #also i had to fight the urge to say sobhakrut be nice to me challenge 2k23 which makes zero sense #but english is very much my default clearly heh

[lesbianstarlightglimmer]

Tired of my crunchy lungs

#meows #got a whole bag of chips in there #doesn’t help that we went from high 60s to suddenly #30s and it snowed last night (barely covered the grass kind of snow) #and even tho *i* don’t get cold my lungs #don’t handle cold well. also I apparently don’t have any warm clothes here #and so I had to default and wear leggings and a #LONG SLEEVED SHIRT. leggings are fine long sleeved bad #plus now I don’t have pockets which means I either gotta wear my jacket the whole #time we’re out for errands or wear a purse #which is not good for my issues rn

[annalyticall]

Just learned the Hawke family's appearance changes depending on the head shape preset and skin tone of your Hawke which explains why all the fan art I've seen of Carver gives him the default blue eyes and pale skin while I distinctly remembered him having brown eyes and olive-tone skin and I thought I was going crazy

#apparently if i went any darker on the skin tone or chose a different head the family all looks wildly different from their default #why do they have different hairstyles? doesn't make a lot of sense but okay #no they changed just enough for me to think there was something wrong with my memory #i thought every other Carver and Bethany variation I've seen in gifs were mods but apparently that's just in the game #which i think is super cool! just wish it let me know that lol #anna plays dragon age

[nature-played-a-trick-on-me]

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#feel free to skip the rest of these tags lol i just want to vent #im just so uncomfortable in my own skin like idek how to explain it #i feel like i am apparently doing something that invites things like the watch touchy etc and like what is it and how do i stop. #it didn't necessarily make me uncomfortable in the moment but i fear i somehow invite of that sort thing? unintentionally. #which is really not what i want. #and fear that the Not Being Very Readable plays into these things happening :/ #like works against me. bc i default to nice polite etc etc etc which is not recommended btw. #and idk. i had one csa experience with a stranger (literally at my therapy office 🤡) and immediately told my psychologist #and she like vaguely investigated and 'he denied so idk i cant do anything sorry!' and that was it #and during that time period i was already in a bad place and didn't have anyone else to talk about it with? #and due to circumstances it had just such an impact on me :( #like looking back i think that incident triggered more anxiety and fear on top of what i had. like the straw that broke the camels back. #and BECAUSE I seem to inspire the Helping and Interest in people around me im paranoid im unknowingly leading myself into things :( #like that incident has caused me so much hell and when something happens now I'll spiral #into like near 'pure-o' territory which is obviously shit #major fear: someone helping me out and then wanting something unmentionable in return #which is obviously not an easy topic to discuss 🤡🤡 #+ my mountains of internalised shame from other abuse 🤡🤡🤡🤡

[katamarei]

health insurance makes me want to kill myself for real

#paying like 200 a month but the deductible is like 4k so it has an HSA but then that has a 4 dollar monthly fee just to fucking. have it #and there's a 2 dollar fee for paper statements which of course is the default but I can't go in and switch to paperless bc apparently #none of this is even fucking set up yet even though I have all the cards and info in my fucking hands #I try to make my online account and it's like no account found! OK so do I have insurance or not. wtf am I paying for. #and I don't make enough to qualify for the tax credit on the marketplace so 🙃

[jcbmcdrmtt]

Sorry if I am not as good about tagging stuff for the foreseeable future. I shattered the screen of my tablet (to the point where there are chunks missing and glass dust coming off under your fingers and you can see the electronics under the screen), and I normally use that + a keyboard case to browse tumblr. I’m using my phone now which means a.) no physical keyboard, and b.) I don’t have as much battery life so my time is more limited. I do not see a point where I can replace the tablet or get it fixed anytime soon either.

All that coupled with the fact that I normally use tumblr in a browser, not the mobile app, means it’s a lot harder to tag things now, especially if I can’t just tap to apply OP’s/the reblogger’s tags because they didn’t add any or i don’t like what they used etc.. Tumblr mobile is honestly tiny and kind of crap on my phone browser - the keyboard makes the screen elements squish together and some things like tag rearranging are broken.

TL;DR: You may possibly see more untagged posts from me in the coming weeks. I apologize, understand if you unfollow, and just. Yeah. I guess I just wanted to explain myself as I normally pride myself on my tagging etiquette.

#i was so sad when it happened #it actually fell like 10 ft because I dropped it while going down the stairs #right in front of my sister and brother in law too #we all froze and they audibly gasped when i picked it up and the glass chips fell on the floor #i walked back to the kitchen to begin making my lunch and i could tell they were horrified because they just stood there in the doorway #in silence #they know how much i use/depend on/love my tablet i’m on it so much and i use it as my primary computing device #so they just stood there in horrified silence while i walked away and my BIL asked if i needed anything and i said no i’m good #and i sounded so normal???? which i hated because i was very much NOT okay like after they left i say in the living room petting their dog #and crying a bit #idk why my default response to situations like this is to pretend everything’s fine?? #i know HOW i can do- being in the closet for a decade will make you a great actor #but i’ve been out for ANOTHER decade now #i thought i had worked past that instinct #apparently not #fuck that took forever to type on my tiny ass keyboard AND i lost 2% battery while i did it #fuck this #i don’t even need the tablet that badly i can fall back to my ancient laptop for most things #but now i have to sit in my room alone to do all my tumbling instead of introvert socializing on the couch with my sister and BIL #i think i cried mostly because life just keeps kicking me #i quit my awful awful job on the verge of a mental breakdown and then proceeded to take a full fucking year to realize the trauma from that #was WAY worse than i had originally thought and i was straight up mentally no longer able to work in IT/computer programming anymore #i lost my apartment and i literally would have been living in my car until that got repossessed too and then been homeless #if it wasn’t for my family offering me financial support and a place to live #and i am SO privileged to have a support network that is both willing and able to help me out like that #but sometimes i have a panic spiral when i think about the fact that i could have EASILY become another statistic #another person who became unhoused because of mental health struggles at the perfectly wrong time #without my family i would have been living in a bus stop enclosure by now #it terrifies me how close i came to that. a homeless person came up to me and asked for money the other day and i almost started crying #both because of how scared i was that that could have been (and still could eventually be) me

[theboxfort]

[Image Description: A white text box: "Accounts created after May 8th, 2023 have the 'For You' tab as the default dashboard tab. Other existing users' dashboard tabs are not changed. We are also working on making dashboard tabs even more customizable, including adding the ability to choose which tab appears first." End ID.]

From the latest update (June 2nd, 2023)

Oh, fuck this. If you're a new user, don't forget to set your dashboard to Following and turn "Based on your likes" and "Best stuff first" off

EDIT: A few corrections

For new users, you can't change the default back to Following. This means that whenever you open up your app/go to your dash, the first tab you'll see is the For You tab

Note for the previous point, I can't confirm this since my account is rather old, if anybody has an examples, I'd appreciate it

Yes, some people mentioned that you don't have to turn off Based on your likes and Best stuff first, but that's mostly my preference since (to me at least) it does not work, it just shows me random shit that is absolutely not based on my likes

My main problem with this update is that it strips the user from being able to choose what they wanted to see. It's totally cool if you use the For You tab, but it shouldn't be the default option

Additional points from the tags and reblogs:

You can turn off public likes and followings, again, not mandatory, but it's an option

Make sure to turn off Tumblr Live (pretty sure it's only available to US users, which I am not one) since it apparently drains mobile data

There are (browser) addons and extensions that allows you to block elements or make your tumblr experience better, like uBlock Origin (an adblocker which can be used to block certain elements from showing up) and the XKit Control Panel/New XKit

#pink posts #what the fuck is this update hello??? #one week later edit: yeah a few corrections #also why the fuck did this explode

[naiadnb]

pro tip guys if u ever want to win like Most matches of rock paper scissors just make a habit of throwing rock first

#idk why and maybe it's just the effects of probability on a single human experience #but i've found that Most ppl will default to scissors if they can't decide which move to make #tips that are only helpful to middle schoolers idk why i was in so many rock paper scissors tournaments when i was a kid #although that was in hawaii so more often than not it was jan ken po not rock paper scissors lmao #which i just had to look up to make sure i was spelling it right & uh #apparently that is entirely specific to japanese immigrants to hawaii #which. is like half the population of hawaii. so it was rather prevalent. but apparently it's just Not A Thing anywhere else dkljf #buckwild. jan ken po was a staple of my childhood