#which i refuse to do today

[small-strong-bookish-butch]

I’m tired

#personal #did 6 loads of laundry over the past 2 days counting the ones in the dryer right now #just 2 left #which i refuse to do today #getting all of our dirty laundry in the whole house done #because there was laundry everywhere in the bedroom #thumbs tired from playing video games with n where you press lots of buttons #doing dinner with my mom and her bf tonight because he moved #will need to pick up more insulin from the pharmacy probably tomorrow after work #i need Something™️ but idk what it is #probably stimming or just to have my body/back/muscles relax #update #however #i am still playing a game with them that is less button pressing #also i made a very good coffee earlier so that’s nice #if you’re trying to talk to me and i’m not talking much. all of this is why

[welcometogrouchland]

I understand that literature nerd Jason Todd is kind of overblown in fanon compared to it's actual presence in canon (a few issues during his pre (and post?)crisis Robin tenure that highlight it) BUT consider that I think it's hilarious if the unhinged gun toting criminal has strong opinions on poetry

#ramblings of a lunatic #dc comics #Jason Todd #batfamily #it's just a fun quirk! it's a fun lil detail and I simply cannot slight ppl for enjoying and incorporating it into works #like obviously jason isn't the only one. I'm a big believer in the batfam having over lapping interests they refuse to bond over #i know dick canonically used the robin hood stories (which are pretty flowery in their language far as i can tell) as inspo for Robin #and i know babs was a librarian and even tho her area of nerddom is characterized as more computery she probably knows quite a lot- #-about literature as well #duke is a hobbyist writer i believe? i saw a fan mention that- which if so is great and I hope he's also a nerd #(i mean he is canonically. i remember him being a puzzle nerd in his introduction. but i mean specifically a lit nerd) #damian called Shakespeare boring but also took acting classes so i think he's more of a theatre kid. #Tim's a dropout and i don't think he's ever shown distinct interest in english lit and i can't remember for Steph? #I'm ngl my brain hyperfocused on musician Steph i forget some of her other interests I'm sorry (minus softball and gymnastics!) #and then Cass had her whole (non linear but it's whatevs) arc about literacy and learning to read #went from struggling to read in batgirl 00 to memorizing Shakespeare in 'tec and is now an avid read in batgirls! #she's shown reading edgar allen poe but we don't know if it's his short stories or his poems #point to all of the above being: i know Jason's not the only lit nerd in the batfam #but also i do need him to be writing poetry in his spare time and reading and reviewing it #jason at the next dead robins society meeting: evening folks today I'll be assigning all of us poems based on laika the space dog #damian and steph who have been kidnapped and brought to jasons warehouse to hangout: LET US GO BITCH #speaking of^ random poem i think jason would like: space dog by alan shapiro #wake up one morning in an unfamiliar more mature body with a profound sense of abandonment. the last four lines. mmm tasty

[why-the-heck-not]

a productive all-nighter starts by making a clear to do list & getting to work spending an hour or so searching for the music that hits the vibe just right

#it’s important #for the morale #but I found a new band I rly rly like so it wasn’t time wasted (best thing for morale) #tho they have only 4 songs so far so can’t fill the whole night with just that #but it can fill The Void so it's a start #(love finding bands that are like somewhat new instead of my usual ''omg I love this band'' 'only to find out they disbanded years ago) #(after deleting other social media apps I've been spending way too long times browsing Spotify but at least it's bringing me joy) #(except why THE FUCK are they trying to bring short-form content there also?? I refuse that's the worst way to find music) #also don't ask me why I'm doing an all-nighter ik I do these way too often it's great (sarcasm) #i'm dumb and been too anxious the past days so haven't done shit and now am in deep trouble #but luckily for me the anxiety turned today to the ''I'll never sleep so time goes by slower''-mode #instead the usual ''will have billion naps as a form of escapism'' which sucks ass #april 2024 #2024

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[chiropteracupola]

The Fool :)

MOTH and PERRY and their 2003 SUBARU OUTBACK

[moth and compass is a collaboration with @natdrinkstea!]

#em draws stuff #oc time again hehe #moth and compass #the fool: moth worley #this ask was from an ask game about ocs by archetype which I am only getting around to uhhhhh a month later #and there really was not anyone else to choose for this one but moth! it's literally even their tag-organizing epithet! #the main difference between me and moth is that moth can drive and I cannot (which is something of a shame since I love Trip In Car) #lyrics are from 'i own a car' by ninja sex party altho' I spent the entire drawing session listening to carly rae jepsen :) #been having a lot of fun with photocollage lately - someday I will learn to draw this my favorite car in the world but Not Today! #more carposting soon (she has Lore) #this one is that rare picture that I've shown to my parents and well we are back to Not doing that again! #mom is losing her eyesight so I will forgive her for asking 'is that santa' and also she did have nice things to say after I explained more #but dear old dad refuses to stop saying that that isn't a cat but a chinchilla - thus he has lost knowing-what-his-son-is-drawing privilege #go back to drawing gnomes pops

[a-very-fond-farewell]

it’s 5am, today I get to do something that happens only once every two years in my household, I am currently craving poke but haven’t had one in 8 months, never had boba in my life, I’m eating crackers wishing it was something else, and I look like this:

seems like the perfect time to write 💅🏻

#silky niki #sneaky niki #lamb loose liveblogging #so the vibes are very confusing today as u can see but mostly they revolve around food #I really want HDS to bring SDY some jajangmyeon ;-; #but I think it would be terrible for SDY’s health as it is #which is probably exactly why HDS would bring it to him #also SDY is still in his ‘I may be a failed athlete but I’m still one at heart and my body is a temple’ mentality #(his body is in ruins tho) #so maybe he would refuse to eat it #bc it’s greasy #god that sounds delicious #ok no these crackers aren’t doing it for me apparently #I can’t project to this point now can I #can I 👀 #ok writing session starts in 15 mins #first I need some soda to get this migraine to fuck off #tendinitis is flaring up since yesterday too #what a mess

[llitchilitchi]

:/

#vent incoming #id really appreciate it if my ex uhhh respected my boundaries #like its nothing groundbreaking #but she likes to go out with people drinking and whenever she does shes very unfocused when responding to my messages #(we have lengthy conversations about stuff and she keeps them going despite hanging out with people which no comment there) #and I always get overwhelmed and anxious when it goes on for a long while because I cant make sense of the conversation n stuff #so i tried to push the conversations into a lull whenever she was out #and last weekend i kinda lost my patience with it and told her directly that i dont fuck with this anymore and i refuse to do this #we can have a few 'hi how are you where you at how you doing whats up' kinda stuff going but never the in depth stuff we talk about #she was whiny but eventually just let me have my way because i wouldnt entertain the rest #and today she was responding kinda funny and i wondered if its just me being bad at talking again or if shes busy with stuff #no :) she went out and didnt tell me :) and she just slipped up because she was frustrated about her friend getting drunk :) #i shouldnt even be posting this but ugh I am just. so tired #i get it she missed me cause i was away for most of the day and wouldnt even respond cause i dont use data when im out #but pulling this is just not it

[beautifel]

i. hate that i cant ignore any longer how fucked up i am

#ask 2 tag idk what to tag this but its negative. idk if i’m hormonal or whatever. it’s just that i’m so extremely emotional lately #like i always havebeen but it’s insane lately and i know some of the reasons but i have no idea what to do abt it. which is bad #i wish i knew how to confront …it all. im so avoidant it is genuinely pathetic #and even if i wanted to confront anything iwouldnt know how… n how to tell ppl around me #the pains ive taken to ignore my issues over the yrs n by that i mean suppress the knowledge that they even exist Lmao it is so pathetic #let alone the pains ive taken to hide from other ppl that which im suppressing. and to hide how badly i cope with anything #like any problem at all not just things that have anything to do with The Thing #i finally told my girlfriend about something i never thought id ever say out loud to anyone n it was so hard #the whole convo was so hard bc shes dealing with so much too and shes been getting help for 3 yrs n i know #with her baggage of trauma a relationship is one of the hardest things #n ive never ever regretted our relationship but with the things we are both dealing wtih. or rather not dealing with in my case #it is so . hard.. and i feel like ive been so unfair bc i havent been getting help even tho i need it. and she has. #the sheer irony of me refusing to get help or even admit 2 myself i need it even tho im literally about to be the person who helps others #this cannot go on lmao. the only thing im sure about is that i wanna spend my life with her but with everything tht we have on our plate #its so.. unsure i feel so powerless . i cannot change the past i cant change either of our previous experiences #its so unfair how we risk losing the best thing that ever happened bc of things out of our control #ive genuinely never been more scared of anything than i am of the idea of losing this relationship #we had such a deep conversation today and it was necessary and good but god we’re fucked up people #so i .contacted the uni psych today finally but im so fucking scared and idk what to even say when i get there #ive never until today said it out loud ive never even written it down anywhere

[euelios]

booing and hissing at the concept of not immediately being good/better at stuff when i want them to be fixed Right Now Immediately

#auden yammers #vent #yes yes things are getting better at work but they’re not getting better fast enough for people not to notice them being bad #me internally: my productivity is improving :) #my boss: hey i noticed your productivity is rlly bad #me: :(( i realize. #yes yes mitigate the shitty things ur brain is doing to other ppl but also I’m Not Fixing It Fast Enough!!! wails #I Used To Be Worse is NOT a good thing to say #surprise! i thought i was rlly good at deadlines but it turns out. i’m only good at deadlines when i would have finished them #BEFORE the deadline anyway. actual deadlines? fucked. #surprise! meds aren’t going to fix my habit of dragging my feet on shit i don’t like to do #i have to Do That Myself. which will take real time and real effort and it’s going to be shitty but it has to work #funny that i resigned myself to drudgery forever when i refuse to even look at the semi-boring stuff i have to do Today

[killa-trav]

listen ferrari failed seb but the love seb will always have for ferrari is stronger than anything

#oh i’ve been procrastinating today which is why i’ve been active lol #there will be days when i do this lol #but anyways yeh i’ve been thinking about this since this morning #like yeh rb gave him everything #but i’m sure if ferrari had a proper junior team like rb did #he would’ve gone w ferrari #at the time from what i’ve read re junior teams #rb was really the only option #and if rb really meant that much to him he wouldn’t have #allegedly triggered the release clause by purposely doing shit #like he would’ve seen his contract out n then joined ferrari #oh and just the way he talks w ferrari w so much love #after everything and still even after ppl who worked at ferrari whilst seb was there #have said yeh ferrari’s fault #he still refuses to say it’s their fault #like i’ve never not once despite everything heard seb #talk badly about ferrari #bc he truly bleeds ferrari #sebastian vettel

[coloursofaparadox]

im. nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

#i have been informed today that me and the one other remaining member of our department #are now cut down to 22.5 hours a week. again. #also. on the same day learned that the money from my grandma is getting distributed. #and its 43 thousand dollars. #my brother also put out the idea of both of us going in together on a place when he moves to edmonton #which. i mean. honestly fuck edmonton. #but its close enough to calgary i can see friends #and UofA is there for me to continue with computer science for more job security and options #and I would love to live with my brother for a while #its more practical than immediately being able to afford a rural farmhouse somewhere outside of calgary #and would be an amazing middle step to being able to make that happen in a couple years given that id actually be in province while looking #and. fuck. im so tired of having to do everything on my own because im single. #its been a fucking day. im going to have to go back to living on like $100 food budget a month again #while staring at 43k sitting in a savings account and fucking refusing to touch it #bc its the only chance i will have at owning a place for decades #ugh. its been a lot. im so god damn tired.

[godofsmallthings]

this is just going to be a stream of consciousness ramble but the idea of being a "good person" is so strange to me. or, not strange, because the aim to be one is understandable, but just fundamentally flawed. like i'm listening to this podcast and the lautner's are reaffirming what everyone who has met taylor says (that she's incredibly kind, generous, humble, funny, sweet, etc.) and i think in the person-to-person interaction sense she is a "good person." but then it's like. how can you say someone hoarding that much wealth or contributing a tangible amount to climate change is good? what is "good"? it's impossible to go through life without hurting others and she has obviously done that on an individual level in her own life too, but anyone in her income bracket is going to leave their time on the earth with a wake of destruction. the game of pitting celebrities against each other to find the "least problematic" one just doesn't make sense. the least problematic version of the ultra wealthy fundamentally can't exist. idk what my specific point is but the way people spend lifetimes picking apart the smallest minutiae of the ethics of these people's lives on an individual level just feels like time wasted and an excuse not to think about real problems, frankly.

#obligatory disclaimer that i'm being incredibly hypocritical saying this bc i obvs do care/get swept up in celeb drama #i just think there is a line between entertainment and like actual life altering involvement that ppl don't notice sometimes? #idk what i'm saying #anyway my other pet peeve about this though is when people refuse to acknowledge the systemic probelms #and instead just want to cancel one celebrity for playing into them #like bro be so serious #idk #wow taylor cubed rlly brought it out of me today dkjfhdkjfhdskjfhs #edit: maybe my point is wondering if it still matters to be a good person in the day to day. which i obviously believe it does. #but idk how much #vi is typing...

[oculusxcaro]

Khare doesn't laugh like a normal person. On very rare occasions when something humorous has happened, she may lose control and let slip a very quick, quiet 'Hah!' but it's so quick and quiet you may not actually hear it or mistake it for a completely different sound. The reason for this is because Khare was told she had an obnoxious laugh as a child and subsequently decided she would never laugh again.

#🌈 || musings #🌈 || headcanons #Just childhood things #Because it just occured to me that she hardly ever laughs even when something is hilarious #And that's odd even with the whole 'getting locked up for months and horribly experimented on while watching people die' type deal situatio #I got some writing done today which was very nice! #Motivation is there but also fickle #It just occured to write this down because of a response to the-rorschach-mask #It's been YEARS since she's laughed and the kicker? Rorschach told her a corny joke #So that's something to know #I also think it's funny that Khare can be told something and take it so personally she would refuse to laugh for years #Happy Wednesday everyone! #I hope you are all doing well! #I feel better this evening getting some drafts done albeit slowly

[welcometogrouchland]

Also in the replies of the Steph concept art on twitter announcing she was gonna be in a new project at DC (posted by Travis Mercer), there were at least 3 comments saying "will Tim be there?" I don't care how hard you ship timsteph I'm exploding you with my eyeballs if you do that on my girls post again

#ramblings of a lunatic #taking a step back to acknowledge that my stanning may be getting overzealous #but then again I'm not in ppls quotes or replies I'm vagueing on an entirely different website with no relevant tags. it could be worse #anyway I know tims had it rough these past couple of months ever since zdarsky shifted focus of the batman title to have less tim #but it still feels. idk. just a wee bit uninspired to act like steph can't go two steps without tim being behind her #im ngl i like timsteph when they're cute but timsteph twitter has been. pissing me off a tad lately #the refusal to acknowledge the sexism in dixons robin run and how it impacts stephs writing and their relationships writing #the refusal to acknowledge tims occasional condescension and hypocrisy when it comes to stephs vigilantism #seemingly only wanting her to be spoiler when he wants her around and telling her to give it up most of the time #also the constant disrespect of stephs batgirl era on there weirdly enough? #I've harped on about this on main and in drafts but despite it's flaws it's a good turn for stephs character #she's the focus she gets development (an upward trajectory! which had previously been unheard of for her! bc she did have flaws as spoiler- #-its just that both writers and characters alike seemed to arbitrarily decide she didn't have the capacity to grow past them! but she did!) #hell i saw a BIZARRE take today i just have to bitch about #which was them saying that Batgirl was a ''heteronormative mask'' steph put on #with spoiler being her more authentic self (and this being paralleled to gender expression with stephs isolation from the batfam as spoiler- #-showing how she ''wasnt like them'') #which. I'm not denying you the view that spoiler has a certain genderific swag to her but the needless dragging of her batgirl persona #steph got treated badly as spoiler bc she was A Girl. it's genuinely that simple dixon felt batman and robin would never stand for a girl- #-running around doing the things they did and would need to chivalrously stop her. he's gone on record saying this #she's constantly getting belittled by mostly men (cass also dismisses her but it feels distinctly less gendered) #and in the end it's barbara who learns to give steph a second chance despite her mistakes and they have a positive relationship #something ppl are quick to dismiss as being in and of itself sexist bc they're pairing the two girls off together #as if batgirl isn't a legacy and as if babs and steph don't have parallels in their resilience and refusal to accept when ppl tell them no #for better and for worse!! #like. idk how you took the strongest feminist element in that comic (bc there are elements of sexism here and there! 2009 n all) #and somehow turn it into ''heteronormativity'' YOU PPL ARE JUST SAYING WORDS AT THIS POINT!!! #anyway. someone take away my internet access

[essektheylyss]

My unpopular PNW opinion is that it's ridiculous that people consider it weak to use an umbrella around here instead of just relying on a rain jacket, for several reasons.

First, the rain in these parts, on average, is not actually that bad, and half the time I don't need an umbrella or a rain jacket, so why would I not keep a compact umbrella in my bag instead of lugging around a bulky jacket all the time.

Second, a rain jacket does not cover my backpack, and I have books and a laptop in there, which I do not want to get wet, for obvious reasons. And if I do not have at least three methods of entertaining myself with me at all times, I will keel over and die. Like a shark.

And third, and most importantly, rain jackets are the fucking ugliest item of clothing on the planet, and they do not go with anything except athletic gear, and I have a very carefully curated aesthetic to maintain here that I will not be compromising on because God decided to spit upon me today. I will not be sacrificing my cozy, chic outerwear for a little bit of goddamn rain.

In conclusion, what is in fact weak is letting the weather ruin your style and wreck your shit instead of carrying a fucking umbrella.

#for the record i did just go buy a very bright purple umbrella specifically cuz i refused to wear my rain jacket today #cuz im in a turtleneck and a very large cardigan and I do look cute and cozy as fuck. #also to be clear this is all very much a joke lmao #tbt when i was saying this to my boss last spring and she was like 'well you dont seem like the type who cares what people think!' #and i was like ah. see you have fallen for my trick. #which is that i very much care what people think because i need to appear cool and collected at all times. #fucking marty mcfly ass bitch over here 😔 #and like. look. i also do not want to be sacrificing a hand to carry an umbrella but i have another hand for my phone or a coffee #and notably. that means my phone or coffee aren't GETTING FUCKING WET

[sam-the-pancake]

I'm a teacher and this summer I'm working afternoon summer school at a building that's known for not having enough parking. People will park along the side of the driveway or in other non-spots that aren't in the way when the proper parking spots fill up. There's also ample street parking behind the school.

There are 3 disabled spots and I believe a total 2 loading zones between the spots. For the past two weeks someone has either parked in the loading zone, or 2 of the 3 spots have been taken by someone without a placard or disabled plates. We have at least 3 people working in the building who are disabled and have parking placards but we don't get to park in those spots because they're constantly taken.

I get that you might not want to park farther away or whatever. But that spot is reserved for people who need it. And yes I know not everyone can get a placard or plates and these people might be disabled. I only recently was able to get mine despite being disabled for years. But never once did I park in the disabled spots that I didn't have a placard for. Never did I dream of parking in the loading zone that might be necessary for someone to get in or out of their car.

Today I drove in and saw that once again the three spots were taken, and I recognized two of the cars as the repeat offenders who don't have placards. I stopped in front of the spots to reevaluate where to park, when an older Black man got out of his truck in the third spot and came over to ask if I wanted his spot. When he recognized that I'm the person with the cane he immediately was like "I'll move it's no problem" even though he did have a parking placard. I'm so grateful that he did that. And I hope I see him again today so I can properly express that to him. But he shouldn't have had to do that. We should have both been able to park in the accessible spots. This isn't an instance of lack of accessibility but of (almost certainly) ablebodied people being inconsiderate and ableist and taking up a limited resource set aside to help disabled people.

Don't park in the disabled spots if you don't have a parking placard/plates (or whatever it is outside the US). DONT park in the loading zones! If I had brought my wheelchair to work and someone was parked in the loading zone I wouldn't have been able to get it out of my car. I don't care if no one ever parks there and they're always empty and you think you aren't harming anyone. I don't care if you don't understand why we need them or need so many or need loading zones or whatever. Its common fucking courtesy to not be an ableist asshole.

#host #disabled #cripple punk #cripplepunk #disability #vent #rant #for those who are going to tell me i should do XYZ i already have #i told administrators and theyve apparently made announcements #i left a note on one of the cars and they actually didnt park there today #so many that actually helped #i refuse to call the cops to report them #this community and the staff who work here are majority POC and working class people #i dont want to endanger anyone by forcing them to interact with cops #even if that wasn't the case ACAB #i just want them to stop parking there so myself and this guy dont have to pick which one of us has to suffer each day