#wheres the commentary?

[inkskinned]

you have to go to work so you can pay for your doctor, who is not taking your insurance right now, and if you say i can't afford the doctor's you are told - get a better job. it is very sad that you are unwell, yes, but maybe you should have thought about that before not having a better job.

(where is the better job? who is giving out these better jobs? you are sick, you are hurting - how the hell are you supposed to be well enough for this better job?)

but you go to the doctor because you had the nerve to be hurt or sick or whatever else. and they tell you that it is because you have anxiety. you try your best. you are a self-advocate. you've done the reading (which sometimes pisses them off worse, honestly). you say it is actually adding to my anxiety, it is effecting my quality of life. so they say that you are fat. they say that all young people have this happen to them, isn't it a medical marvel! they say that you should eat more vegetables. they say that you probably just need to lose a little more weight, and that you are faking it for attention.

(what attention could this doctor possibly give? what validation? that's their fucking job, isn't it?)

there is always a hypochondriac, right. someone always tells you about a hypochondriac. or someone who is unnecessarily aggressive during the worst days of their life. or someone looking "for a quick fix". or some idiot who wasn't educated about how to properly care for themselves who just abandons their treatment. and again, the hypochondriac, the overly-cautious hysteric. these people don't deserve to be treated like humans (right), and since you might be one of these people, you also don't get treated like a human. because those people can really fuck with the system, you now have to pay for it. and besides. you're actually probably faking it.

(more often than not, you find a 2:1 ratio of these stories. for every "hypochondriac", there are 2 people who knew something was wrong, and yet nobody could fucking find it. the story often ends with pointless suffering. the story often ends with and now it's too late, and it's going to kill me.)

you are actually just making excuses. someone else got that procedure or that diagnosis and he's fine, you should be fine too. someone else said they watched a documentary about other inspirational people with your exact same condition, maybe you should be inspirational, too. you're just too morbid. your pain and your experience is probably just not statistically concerning. it is all self-reported anyway, and you're just being a baby.

(once, while sitting down in the middle of making coffee, you had the sudden, horrible thought - i could kill myself to make the pain stop. you had to call your best friend after that. had to pet your dog. had to cry about it in the shower. you won't, but that moment - god, fuck. the pain just goes on and on.)

you know someone who went in for routine surgery and said i still feel everything. they told her to just relax. it took her kicking and screaming before they figured out she wasn't lying - the anesthetic drip hadn't been working. you know someone who went in for severe migraines who was told drink water and lose weight. you know someone who was actively bleeding out and throwing up in the ER and was told you're just having a bad period.

in the ER there are always these little posters saying things like "don't wait! get checked today!" and you think about how often you do wait. how often the days spool out. you once waited a full week before seeing the doctor for what you thought was a sprained wrist. it had actually been broken - they had to rebreak it to set it.

but you go into the doctor. the problem you're having is immediate. the person behind the counter frowns and says we're not taking your insurance. you will be paying for this out-of-pocket.

they send you home with tylenol and a little health packet about weight loss or anxiety or attention deficit. on the front it has your birthday and diagnosis. you think about crying, and the words swim. it might as well say go fuck yourself. it might as well say you're a fucking idiot. it might as well say light your money on fire and lie down in it. and the entire fucking time - the problem persists.

it's okay. it's okay, it's just another thing, you think. it's just another thing i have to learn to live with.

#spilled ink #warm up #can you tell what i'm mad about today specifically #i will say that there are a LOT of things that go into this. like a lot. this is ungendered and unspecific for a reason #it isn't just sexism. it's also racism. and ableism. and honestly classism. #and before a healthcare professional reads this as a personal attack: i understand ur burnt out #we are ALSO burnt out. your situation is also dire. this is not an attack on you. #this is a commentary on the incredible amounts of bigotry that lie at the heart of capitalism #where people have to pay money out of pocket to be told to fuck off. #your job is important. so is our humanity. and if you cannot accept that people are fucking mad as hell #at the industry - you are probably not listening . #anyway at some point im gonna write a piece about sexism specifically in medical shit #but i don't want terfs clowning in it bc they can't understand nuance #> it is true that ppl w/a uterus are more likely to experience medical malpractice & dismissal globally #> it is also true that trans people experience an equally fucked up and bad time in the medical field #> great news! the medical industrial complex is an equal opportunity life ruiner :) #(if you find it necessary to go into a debate about biology while discussing medical malpractice #i want to warn you that you're misunderstanding the issue. because guess what. #cis MEN might experience this. particularly black men. particularly disabled men. #so YES having a uterus can lead to more trouble for you. but this happens a LOT. #instead of fighting those ALSO experiencing your pain.... try working WITH them. #which btw. is like. actual feminism.)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 4.5: Morning Period.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #mdzs au #Yunmeng Jiang training arc AU #This is 4.5 because it was originally all supposed to be part of the same comic #This part wasn't as punchy and I was close to scrapping it but I figured I'd at least give it a chance. #Despite the fact I already had it in pencils...cleaning it up took a very long time. Still hate it. Sunken cost fallacy enacted: It lives. #Okay quick commentary (I'm very late to post today) #While this is supposed to be a 'snapshot' of routine - Wei Wuxian slept in. Normally he is up earlier. #Meaning he delayed the dueling part of the day. Hence LWJ's hand gesture. #I also imagine that LWJ and JC have a bit more of a friendship in this AU since they spend a few hours in the morning sans WWX #I always enjoyed how JC and LWJ on paper seem like they would get along but Do Not in canon. Let me have a world where they do.

[milkbreadtoast]

idk how i want to draw him yet and not ready to make a srs attempt but here's a bad kdj phone doodle lol🚶🏻

#orv #kim dokja #omniscient reader's viewpoint #my art #oh yeah i didnt have ref for this fkdnfn was going off memory of the last (first) time i drew him #i cant do a serious attempt tho bc i havent read the novel so i dont have a clear image of him in my head yet... #(dont want to just copy the webtoon design hastily... if it matches my image thats fine but... idk yet) #my main opinion on the webtoon design is he's too hot/ikemen tho KFJDKDJ (this is what i thought since the beginning) #its like BONES mp100 anime reigen.... kdj is like manga reigen to me /j #but who knows maybe if i catch kdj brainrot i too will start drawing him like a kpop idol out of affection...🤷🏻‍♂️ #like the webtoon artist prob draws kdj pretty bc they love him sm #just like how i draw jys pretty bc of my brainrot... #so who knows maybe that will happen to me too🤷🏻‍♂️ time will tell #my main opinion on webtoon yjh (no one asked): CUTE BUT WHERES THE T1TTY BEL- *voice muffled as i get dragged away* #(copied most of these tags from twit too lazy to retype the commentary) #EDIT: i call him reigen jokingly bc theyre abt the same age but #kdj is also mob core to me.... #in that theyre both protags that dont look flashy and look more like extras/'mob charas' #yet r irrevocably unequivocably the protags of their respective stories #(just as everyone is the protag of your own life! sieze ur narrative! etcetc🖤) #also. both black haired bowlcut havers KJDJS #kdj is reigen coded (derogatory) and mob coded (POS) #hes also a 'con man like reigen..... yep hes def still reigen coded

[gigamuffin]

MASTER AND COMMANDER IS 20 TODAY!!

#excuse me? where is my 4K remaster and commander extended cut? with commentary by peter weir and/or russell crowe? #aubreyad

[non-un-topo]

hot guard summer

#tog #the old guard #andromache of scythia #nile freeman #nicolo di genova #yusuf al kaysani #kaysanova #that's right!!! i might have kicked my art block!! hopefully!! let's not jinx it!! #siggy draws #alternatively titled: WHERE IS THE TRAILER #happy almost-summer! #director's commentary as always: #it's probably too small to see but the vespa has a little engraved name 'Destino' on it #not sure how i feel about joe's look but the poor guy is so hidden behind his husband's shoulders anyway #joe does have a poofy ponytail but it's hard to see #they're probably all chilling in italy between missions and that weird safehouse we have yet to see #nile is absolutely reaching for a gun tucked into the back of her shorts btw. not sure what the girls are looking at #andy is wearing nile's pants and nile is wearing nicky's 90s jacket (which is totally not my actual real life jacket) #you know that man would wear it ok #if the lighting seems a little loud or sloppy it's because i am inexperienced dsfgfds. also my first time attempting bi lighting sort of #i am sad that the lighting erased nicky's sunburned nose dfgfds. just know that it was very pink before #shoutout to my lovely friends who helped me figure out lighting/shadow stuff -- apple and wingodex and captainshakespeare #*damn it accidentally added an e on the end there #thank you for helping me navigate the digital art world beloveds <3 #this took my entire day and all of ABBA Gold at least 10 times

[blacktobackmesa]

popular flanderized HLVRAI characterizations: Bubby is tsundere, Benrey uses modern gamer lingo

my personal HLVRAI flanderization: gman always gets the title of movies he likes just slightly wrong. Like small enough that it's not worth correcting him. It's not on purpose

#hlvrai #g-man coolatta #from the commentary stream where he says he saw Babe 2 Pig in the Big City

[dragonnnfly]

Why I love how the first movie dealt with Hiccstrid

Early on in the first movie, it becomes clear that Hiccup has feelings for Astrid, although he never directly says so. His actions and the way he looks at her speaks for itself.

Hiccup also says that he hopes that by hunting dragons, he might find himself a girlfriend, but he never specifies that it is Astrid he’s interested in.

Still, Hiccup's crush on Astrid is not the main focus of the story, in fact, romance is brought up very little. While he attempts to impress her and the others during training and flirts with her once, he never becomes blinded by his feelings for her, not even after their romantic flight which leads to his feelings for her being requited.

He doesn’t do this

This

Or even this

To impress her.

Even though Hiccup initially had a crush on Astrid and later developed deep feelings for her, his motivation to become a hero was never driven by his feelings for her, and that’s not something you can say about all protagonist in movies.

#one too many times have I watched movies or shows where the hero only becomes the hero to get the girl #httyd #how to train your dragon #httyd 1 #analysis #commentary #screen caps #Hiccstrid #hiccup #Astrid #toothless #red death #1k notes

[paper-mario-wiki]

alright look i know my following is not the target audience for this kind of post but i wanna at least point something out about a scene in the Fallout show that i haven't actually heard a single person point out or comment on.

spoilers ahead.

in the scene where the ghoul is rewatching his old movie, specifically the scene where he originally protested about killing the villain.

the first layer is the obvious one: he is talking directly to himself. "you were strong, ugly, and you had dignity. i'll give you two out of those three." he remembers what happened at that shoot just as clearly as we did, and after he literally tells himself to his face "you're strong, ugly, and have no dignity" followed by him killing the man he originally wanted his character to save. this, of course, coming DIRECTLY after the person he sold into slavery earlier that day sparing him with life saving medicine while he's on the ground and telling him to his face that he only lives on because someone stuck to their humanity. very heavy! i bet he feels like shit, which he probably should because he's kind of a jerkoff! (but in a cool way that i like to watch)

the SECOND layer is the one i find way more interesting. the phrasing of his final line we didn't hear before was so dripping with importance that it felt like i was reading RPG dialogue and story relevant words were highlighted. "i hope you like the taste of lead you commie son of a bitch". as we'd already seen in episode 3, he despises vault-tec for everything he knows they are responsible for while he was their face. moreover, it's made clear that he doesn't just resent himself for being used for their image, but he resents the fact that he was the face of the propaganda which drove the war fever that caused the end of the world. the wild west ideal caricature of masculine wisdom from the movies as the spokesperson of the company who stood to profit from the purposeful decimation of the human race. he became The Ultimate Jingo.

and i really enjoyed how brief yet informative that detail was! i really enjoyed how the directors tell you what the characters are thinking intuitively and effectively through the camerawork and those little details make the whole thing a lot more fun to mull over and consider as a part of the whole of Fallout! i think it's neat.

#text #fallout show #im not joking when i say ive considered recording a podcast that's just a rifftrax over the episodes of fallout #but instead of making jokes i just do like. a reverse directors commentary. #i do an audience commentary where i point out what all the shit means and how cool it is

[post-it-notes7]

ghost sighting (?)

#pikmin #pikmin fanart #post's art gallery #manifesting the wild scenario where the pikmin that didn't get to the onion before sundown instead #get thrown into a ghost hunting (real) ((not clickbait)) adventure while surviving the night #is this because I lost three pikmin at sunset and didn't have the heart to rewind everything I did that day? that answers itself doesn't it #all of my wacky pikmin commentary is getting poured in the tags hiya folks

[abovetherainandroses]

Pete & Patrick + Grand Theft Autumn/Where Is Your Boy, through the years

2007 / 2008 / 2009 / 2013 / 2014 / 2015 / 2016 / 2017 / 2018 / 2019 / 2021 / 2022 / 2023

bonus: so much for (tour) dust staging ver. (2023)

(1) my video / (2) x

#peterick #pete wentz #patrick stump #fall out boy #where is your boy #storm gifs #commentary time #that was the ONLY vid i could find for 2008 lol #as far as i can tell they did not do this prior to 2007 #latest vid i found of them not doing it was a show from oct 2006 #earliest vid i found of them doing it was a show from sep 2007 #they played the song ONCE in 2019 and i found ONE vid of it #kinda wish i'd started the 2013 gif later and ended it later bc the way pete just stares after patrick really gets me #but alas i'm too lazy to redo it so just watch the vid #also not to be biased but the way patrick looks intensely at pete in the gif from my show is SO good #WHY did i decide to do every year. however it is too late for regrets #anyway they make me smile to look at so it's fine #“more than an hour” gifs next? maybe? but prob only 4-6 bc i've learned my damn lesson

[kwillow]

Started this back in February when it was more topical but... I suppose no time is a good time for romance as far as Theo is concerned.

#doing a meme like the old deviantart days #good for the soul #theo #my draws #amaranthine #technically #i could ramble on about some of the choices here but perhaps it'd be best to let it speak for itself #also i think that's supposed to say “physical touch” but i couldn't find a font that matches to correct it #so my neurotic self had to leave the author's typo for the sake of aesthetic coherency #ok one piece of commentary: brain problems + highly repressed upbringing = where i put theo on the kinky slider. it had to be there #you should think less '50 shades' and more '50 year old guys waxing poetic about quicksand scenes in old adventure films' for that one #he's not a quicksand guy. but that's the vibe.

[s0fter-sin]

you ever think about how it’s been over a year since we last saw aizawa, mic and their dead high school boyfriend

#bnha manga spoilers #like we finally got an aizawa panel but it was a flashback so it doesnt really count #but horikoshi really threw them into a teleporting abyss then went lol bye #we still dont know where they are or how much of shirakumo is present through kurogiri #also!! the gun!! that just never got mentioned again #mic probably still has it!! which means he could still be the one that has to kill kurogiri to free shirakumo #bc you know aizawa wont be able to do it #and he wont be able to use erasure to get through to him #am i putting off re watching the sports fest arc to figure out how to write mics commentary? maybe so #go beyond plus ultra #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #aizawa #eraserhead #present mic #kurogiri #oboro shirakumo #erasermic #erasercloudmic #mha #bnha

[whatimdoing-here]

WARRIOR NUN S2 | Ava and Beatrice small Moments.

#warrior nun #avatrice #ava silva #sister beatrice #would you like my commentary? that's too bad they're my tags #i tried to go with smaller less gif-fed moments #like after beatrice calls ava her best friend and that looks they give each other before ava relents #beatrice being more of a grownup and swallowing her pride and being healthy in a relationship which is something i STILL struggle with #how ava knows bea'd been watching her and michael and just looks at her and the GLARE beatrice gives lmao #their general concern and reading each other's minds #the look beatrice has AFTER ava walks away when she says she's fine and she's not #the hot second where beatrice almost gives into ava's alps invitation #after the forehead kiss the slight lean in by ava #how ava is 100000% not okay after going down to meet michael #how ava just collapses into beatrice's neck when they think they're safe #then how mad and how close ava gets to beatrice when she thinks they both bout to die #THEIR FACES WERE SO CLOSE #anyway #mine #mine: warrior nun

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Aw! XL cooking reminded me of when I was working with children and they'd get nightmares/scared of monsters, so was go to the garden and make Monster Soup! Anything that looked good would go into the nearest source of water (often a bird bath) so that the monsters would know we are kind people and stay outside and not come inside. Also the monsters would think of us as friends and protect us instead of scaring us. Now I'm hoping that I have turned any of these kids into bad cooks bc I was like that flower looks good! Toss it in! 😅😄😄😄

Thank you for reminding me of this memory!

I'm-In-Love-With-The-Monster Soup.

#tgcf #xie lian #hua cheng #ask #This story was extremely sweet thank you so much for sharing B'*) #I also used to work with kids and I really miss it!! This brought back lovely memories for me as well. #I am sure you helped a lot of kids through rough feelings by taking them seriously and letting them grow by confronting their fears. #Monster soup is something I am going to be thinking about for a long time.... #If anything; experimenting in the kitchen and feeling the permission of freedom to cook helps encourage kids to learn! #even if its a pretend kitchen. A birdbath is just as valid as a soup pot! #Comic-commentary time: I am so sorry to people who didn't know or forgot that this is how I draw the TGCF pair. #Xie Lian actually tried to make a sandwich but it got to wet so he had to put it in a bowl. #no one knows where the green colour came from. #One more comic on this coming tomorrow (what have WWX and HC been up to?)

[emblazons]

So I already pointed out that the Aerith "No Promises to Keep" song was emulating The Greatest Showman for the performance and high affection!Clerith aspect (likely because Loren Allred sings both)—

but what I didn't realize until I watched the TGS scene is that they pulled both romance options from it...only the high affection!Cloti scene handhold was inspired by Zac Efron & Zendaya's characters.

...honestly I'm not surprised, just amused they used so much from one place. This feels like finding all the parallels to Game of Thrones shots in FFXVI lmaooo

#there is no ship commentary going on here! I just love that you can CLEARLY see where inspo was drawn with games same as TV/film #also imagine thinking I spent 2 years doing parallel analysis for stranger things & it would stop when I moved to other fandoms on main LOL #clerith #cloti #cloud strife #tifa lockhart #aerith gainsborough #ffvii #ffvii analysis #ffvii spoilers #final fantasy #the me tag

[pecquacti]

it's saw season tag a friend to totally see them

#amanda young #saw 2 #saw 3 #saw fanart #lynn denlon #john kramer #according to the saw 2 dvd commentary she had a sickle at some point. whered it go. i need this