#when everyone first started dying

[beardedhandstoadshark]

Random Etrian Odyssey post incoming- I‘m currently playing though Nexus again (…slowly)

This is what my team looked like fighting against the giant evil bird lady for like 6 turns before I finally managed to defeat her

And before that my whole team was exclusively my Sovereign spamming that passive healing order with those last tp and my Farmer desperately chucking items and revive skills at everyone since I got evil bird lady down to 1/16th of health - and they both died the very next turn after reviving Red, final sacrifice style. Who also happens to be of the Hero class, which - if that isn’t fitting for the imaginary narrative idk what is

TLDR passive healing my BELOVED and also go play Etrian Odyssey it’s a great way of getting inspo for epic battles, apparently

#etrian odyssey nexus #etrian odyssey #toastshark lore #*and* it was a turn she casts Harsh Cry on #aka a turn that can potentially immobilize everyone in the party #like the confusion status in po/kemon #^it hit itself in confusion^ THAT ONE #that can last like 5 turns apparently #and if you have status ailments or binds another skill of giant bird lady does so much damage it’s basically an instakill #(RIP Mage. Died 7 turns in and I could never get him up again) #zodiacs (the magic attack class) are incredibly squishy oof #which is. *accurate* for this character. but still ouch #got him up once for exactly 1 turn at 1 hp to do 1 final round of lighting #when everyone first started dying #it did hit the afterimage tho. who then naturally proceeded to hit Red #also is it just me or does trickery just NOT work on this boss #you’d think almost fully upgraded it‘d make her miss at least some attacks but nope #anyways my team compo is horrible. I‘m aware. That’s the point #tbh this post is mostly for making notes cuz I can already feel my brain trying to get a drawing out of it #which is not that great cuz I still got other stuff to draw-

[peachyutdr]

i finished it, was kicked out of the game, and then spent the next 10 minutes drawing this. i will now go take a shower, most likely cry, and then go through the emotional turmoil of convincing myself to reset so i can do a geno run. i hate it here :D

#undertale yellow #uty #my art #<- ifg #spoilers under these tags beware. although it is mostly just me being very very sad #that entire thing was heart wrenching. anyways #CEROBAS FIGHT??? HELLO??? #i had to exit out of it the first time (i got to the last phase) to get better items but i came back and won pretty quickly #but THE CUTSCENES?!?!? #JFC NO WONDER THIS WOMANS SO MESSED UP. HER HUSBAND PRACTICALLY DIED IN HER ARMS AND THE LAST THING HE LEFT HER WITH- HIS DYING WISH- COULD #ONLY BE FULFILLED BY PUTTING THEIR ONLY CHILD IN DEATHS WAY. AND THEN WHEN SHE TOOK THAT RISK THE WORST THING HAPPENED AND SHE NOW HAS TO #LIVE WITH THE GUILT OF BEING THE ONE TO. MOST LIKELY. KILL HER ONE AND ONLY DAUGHTER #ALL THE WHILE SHE WAS PUSHING AWAY HER CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND AND CONVINCING HERSELF THAT SHE WAS IN THE RIGHT TO SACRIFICE CLOVER WHO HAD #BEEN ONLY KIND MERCIFUL AND JUST THIS WHOLE TIME. EVEN TO THOSE WHO WERE TRYING TO KILL THEM. FUCK. #AAND WHEN CLOVER HUGGED HER I DOUBLED OVER IRL BC *THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO DO IN THAT MOMENT* I HATE IT (read: love it) HERE #n dont even get me STARTED on after that. when clover started moving on their own and the gd white screen came up and we got flashbacks of #everyone's words. thats when the tears rlly started coming bc it clicked for me. 'oh. this is it. isn't it?' and IT WAS #WHEN THEY GAVE THEIR FUCKIGN HAT AND GUN AWAY TO MARTLET AND STARLO WELL THATS WHEN I REALLY STARTED CRYING #AAND THE GROUP HUGG #I WAS SOBBING WHENEVER I HAD TO WATCH THEM CRAWL UP AGAINST THE WALL AND DIE AND HAVE FLOWEYS WORDS PLAY OVERHEAD #AND THE FUCKOGN #THE F U C K I N G #AFTEWRCREDITS SCENE WHERE WE GOT THE 'You heard someone calling for help. You answered.' I GOT CHILLS SO BAD #to think that all the other souls have stories just as expansive and emotional as clover n frisks. how fucked up is that. in a good way tho #and finally the last scene where we got all 4 of our main friends sending us off in waterfall and we see clovers items end up in the dump #just waiting to be found by bratty and catty. fucken hell man this was a masterpiece #anyways time to reset and obliterate everyone and never emotionally recover from that ever!! really is feeling like 2016-17 again w the way #this game has me sobbing my eyes out and feeling the guilt of knowing that i dont HAVE to kill them all but im too curious not to #oh well. at least i have the balls to do it this time around instead of letting a youtuber do it for me ig

[wayward-sherlock]

thinking abt how someone’s gonna die next season but all of the characters have such complex relationships with each other that no matter what it’s going to hurt real fucking bad.

#steve dies : dustin and robin and nancy fucking lose it #max dies : lucas is a shell of himself. el has no strong female friends in her life anymore. steve loses a sister. erica loses her brother. #dustin dies : og party is gone. steve loses his little brother. robin gets left with whatever steve still has after grieving #will dies : not even going there. he’s not dying. #el dies : she’s not dying. she’s not #mike dies : where do i even start. where do i even start. nancy thinks she’s not good enough to keep anyone important to her alive. - #- jonathan loses pieces of nancy and will. will loses…he loses a huge fucking part of himself. el loses her first love and a friend. lucas.. #nancy. jonathan. lucas. robin. erica. even argyle. #any of them die and everyone else is gonna go insane with grief. #plus the grief of losing something that defined their early years? that shit’s hard #feeling like they lost their entire childhood to this realm of monsters but missing it when it’s gone because they don’t know how to live - #- normal lives anymore. how do they move on? how do they continue in a world that’s indifferent and ignorant to their sacrifice? #sigh. #stranger things #st5 #wayli goes insane #wayli’s feeling sad today. sorry guys. #🫧🪴 #🚲

[willowfey]

starting to think maybe waking up with an anxiety stomachache every single morning and then needing to spend the entire day trying to get rid of said anxiety just to maybe have a few minutes in the evening of feeling relaxed before going to bed is perhaps not normal

#the first thing i do when i become conscious is check my phone to make sure nothing terrible happened to anyone i love while i slept #i never ever ever have plans and if anyone Else has plans i feel sick with anxiety until they’re back from them #if i have smth planned that week i feel completely tense and on edge until it happens #i didn’t used to be like this i hate hate hate it #i used to feel safe in my little house in the forest where i knew everyone in town and knew my way around with my eyes shut #it’s still the only place in the world i feel safe. that’s so unfair #my separation anxiety is ridiculous. if my mom goes to the store and doesn’t answer a text right away i start panicking #if my sister goes to a class or smth idk what to do with myself until she gets back #if i’m in the shower or have the fan on or headphones in suddenly i’ll think i hear someone shouting and i’ll have to quickly turn it off #ever since i moved here it’s been getting worse. i don’t feel safe here to begin with i feel so out of place it’s unreal #but then covid and trauma with my mother’s health and my uncle dying and multiple relatives getting sick and things happening to my friends #i know i have ptsd from very specific things that happened and i live on a hospital path so every day i hear sirens #and every time i do it fully triggers an anxiety attack in me for at least an hour. and my mom too #since being here my hometown burned and friends i thought would never grow apart did and my brother moved out #i know a lot of that is just Being In Your Low Twenties but also some of my worst trauma has happened in the last handful of years and now #now i’m just always scared. always uneasy. always worried. never fully relaxed. never feel fully safe. & idk how to be myself through that #i’m always paranoid and i never trust people irl anymore. ppl my mom or sister meet. i am so suspicious of them constantly. #if anything small changes at all i can’t handle it. my ability to deal with change has gone so downhill #in the last 5 years of being here i realised i was autistic which led to me unmasking a bit and that. comes with pros & cons doesn’t it #my own health has declined. my body changed a lot in ways i wasn’t prepared for and i had to get rid of most of my comfort clothes #sometimes i just wanna sit on the ground and cry about it and not have to also be the one that picks myself back up. y’know??? #but at the very least i’d love to just wake up One Day w/o feeling sick with anxiety already. just one day i want to wake up feeling rested #i want to be myself again but can i start with not being scared? not being tired? i don’t know what to do anymore #i just watch my comfort videos and read my comfort fics and stay in my daydream world

[egglygreg]

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#Furby died and I'm devistated #what was wrong was even worse than her dying from spider bite or snake #we figured out it was my young cousin and my friend's 7 year old playing outside and running around like mad #and he accidentally swung the door and it slammed her #I went back to bed that morning despite feeling the nudge to get up and join everyone #and it feels like if I'd been up I would have been out with them and could have prevented it #I miss her so much and she was so into everything and underfoot I keep seeing her everywhere #I spent most of the day at the vet #she was still alive this morning so I started having hope that she could make it #I've lost 5 pets in the last year and a bit to all different things and I'm so tired #I try so hard to take good care of them and it just keeps happening #why do my pets keep dying? #I didn't want Furby when she first came and I thought I was just taming her for a week to go to a new home #I'd only really just started thinking of her as specifically my cat and imagining having her for 15 more years #and now she's dead at 5 months #I'm so full of grief and so tired

[bakatenshii]

ok not to get more deeplore and i know i just said i wasnt gonna take this seriously oopsies (I’M NOT I PROMISE) but

#baka bants #im a liar im a pussyi only feel safe in the tags still #so here i am in the tags #anyways Ive brainvommed this all to rae already but to be like. bcos this is basically my glorified (extrahorny) diary #i think i was just suffering from fomo and wanting to make sure i was posting when everyone else was because it was so active #and it was the height of all activity and like i didnt wanna miss out on the new wave of the new fandom or WHATEVER #or wanting to constantly be involved in everything/have a head start #and then i was dreading the inevitable deathof tumblr again once quarantine lifted and everyone went on with their lives #(which it did happen obvi) but i guess coming back and seeing that #people are still here? like the fandom still exists albeit the majorit tof people moving on or out of tumblr #and it feels?? like just(???? home??? in a calm chill way like #my friends are still here and even tho its not like a million things happening every day #its calm and chilled and i gues all im teying to say is #i was scared of being left still here when everyone moved on so i moved on first but people r still here so #it makes me feel?? secure #i ??? DOES ANY OF THAT MAKE SENDE #IM JUST EXTRA VULNERABLE ON A WEDNESDAY AFTERNOON I GUESS #BASICALLY WHAT IM SAYING IS SOMETIMES I THINK ABT HOW SAUSAGE PARTY HAS A VERY REAL AND ACTUALLY ACTIVE FANDOM #AND IM NO LONGER WORRIED ABT MY ANIME FANDOM DYING OUT #(but in all actuality like;; the hp fandom and evedy superwholock fandom is still VERY much alive and well) #(so im just being a pussy tbh and emotional for no reason) #(ifbuou have resd this im so sorry for this moaning and being emosh for no reason HAHAHA I LOVE U THANK U FOR PUTTING UP WITH THIS) #EX OH EX OH #!!!! <3333

[ashorterurl]

wow so great to be on a train and be afraid for your life

#unironically #idk if anyone remembers that time i posted about two of our long distance trains being on the same track from opposite directions which #resulted in 50 people most of whom were 20 year olds dying #alongside my friend's girlfriend #so ive been taking the bus instead which takes about 3h more than the train #one bc i didnt want to give them money two bc. i wanna live. #so anyway today i had to take the train bc i had to leave after work and i dont wanna get at my destination at like midnight #and accidentally i had bought the first class ticket in the first coach #for context when the clash happened last year everyone who was in the first two coaches died. in a very bad way. #i sat in the second coach tho and at some point i got up and walked around and the first two coaches are like. empty. total of 5 people. #and i was like huh the train is pretty empty anyway #and i moved down to like coach 6 and actually the train is p full just no one wants to sit in the first two coaches #and theyre right #had full on panic attack when the train started

[dimsilver]

y’all I’m having so much fun this week I went from being an extra to assistant stage manager (and extra) in our theater group’s production of The Scarlet Pimpernel because I moved a lot of furniture night 1 of dress rehearsals :) I love feeling needed (and wearing the headset) and also I get to dance at a ball and drink lots of apple juice at a tavern so I am Living

#first performance tomorrow!!! #I am going to be so sad when it’s over #I’m also dying a bit bc I have to start work at 7:30 am every day this week so I can be done early #but it’s worth it #everyone is doing SO good

[twpsyn-who]

Soulmates AU in which when your soulmate is in a situation that can result in their death you get to see through their eyes. Like, I don't know how to explain this- it kind of flashes between what you see and what your soulmate sees. You know those edits where there's a scene going on and there's another one faded in the background happening at the same time? Similar to that. The idea is that you get to see what your soulmate sees too, on top of what you're seeing.

Now, this AU but JeanMarco. With Marco asking the others where's Jean, just for him to start seeing a corpse right in front of his eyes not even a second after asking. Seeing through Jean's eyes as he's trying to get hold of that gear and stuff. And once Jean's safe, once it clicks that you know his best friend is his soulmate Marco can't wait for them to graduate so he can you know tell him that.

Then, you know. That happens. And Jean is so fucking confused because he keeps seeing Annie crying, looking down on him. Only when Annie starts getting off the gear, when his soulmate starts moving around trying to get away he starts panicking, starts moving around faster than before. And maybe he's too late. Or maybe he shows up in time and kills the titan. I don't know. That's not where I'm trying to get, but to the second option AKA Marco pulling an UNO reverse on Annie because he's a smart sneaky bastard like that and being like 'Hey you can't kill me, my soulmate will know it was you' which makes her stop trying to take off his gear. Reiner keeps telling her to do it, Bertholdt keeps yelling about that titan coming closer, but Annie... she has seen things, at some point. Flashes of moments that weren't hers, happening right in Trost- right in that moment. And she didn't give them too much thought until that moment, until it got confirmed that it has nothing to do with her titan powers.

'What do you mean by that?' she asks, because she needs to know more. Because she wants to know more. And Marco starts explaining how it works. Tells them that he has found his soulmate, that they will put all the blame on them for his death. Reiner doesn't believe him, keeps insisting that he's playing them around - he, and anyone born and raised on Marley, has never heard of something like that before, it doesn't exist - but Annie tells him to shut up and to let Marco go. Cue to the plot of any fic in which Marco doesn't straight up die after finding up their secret.

Anyway I don't know man, just,,, We need more soulmate aus for JeanMarco. That's an order.

#When I wrote this my mind was to Mina x Annie like straight up I was like 'Yeah Mina's Annie's soulmate and she saw her dying' but my brain #liked to remind me that you know Armin has a nerd death experience too. So it can go either way guys the idea is that Annie's soulmate l #either died in Trost or was close to dying #Some little things I daydreamed about while waiting to get home to finish this post (more like little details for the au than anything #else) : Only Eldians can have a soulmate aka only subjects of Ymir. Marley being the racist motherfucker they are aren't aware of the whole #soulmate thing. That's why Reiner Berthold and Annie has no clue something like that exists they didn't get taught about that. Meanwhile #everyone on Paradis knows about soulmates kind of hard not to when many SC die on a basic lol. Is something normalized for them #Also another little detail would be that a Titan Shifter can't see during their shift. Aka Eren didn't see through Mikasa's eyes during #Trost despite her being near death at some point(s) (I'm thinking about when Titan Eren punched that Titan coming for Mikasa but honestly? #She was in danger when Eren lost control too). So yeah that's all I have for now #I think it also make sense a little for some soulmate thing to occur on top of the titan powers given the whole 'love story' between Ymir #and King Friz (or whatever his name fuck that guy- in a nonsexual way). So yeah we should totally play around with the concept of soulmates #more #This post is a mess but I started it at like 11 pm and finished it at 6 pm let me be man. My sleep deprived mind came out with this one #I make no promises to actually write something with this - I'll have to re-watch the first two season and kind of update as I watch the #other seasons so yk. Low chances. But feel free to use this as you please haha. Go wild guys. It doesn't even need to be JeanMarco yk #Like Annie seeing Mina die with her own eyes??? And her thoughts process for the whole time once she finds out she was her soulmate #Or ykyk Historia Witnessing Ymir's death??? Nicolo losing his shit over seeing that little girl shoot his soulmate??? LEVI SEEING FLASHES #OF BIG ASS STONES THROWN AROUND #Man actually you can play around with Levi so much like we have Petra too and Hange and- #Regardless #aot jean #aot marco #aot #jeanmarco #Aot JeanMarco #jean kirstein #jean kirschstein #marco bodt #marco bott

[milf-harrington]

i love finding old fanfic ideas in my notes app

#old like i think i wrote this one around this time last year #it's basically EMT!Robin doing a first aid demonstration at a high school #and there's a bit where everyone can ask questions about being an EMT and all that #and robin talks about how her actual dream was to study linguistics and maybe go into translating or teaching #so someone asks what made her change her mind and she talks about how her best friend (steve obvs) saved a life once #and after that realised /that/ was what he was good at and they made all these plans and he started going to school for it #and then he died. and for awhile it was the only thing that made her feel close to him again so she went into the course for him #and years later it's something she actually weirdly enjoys - if only for the routine of it all #she likes that her background in linguistics means that she can make all sorts of people more comfortable just by talking to them #she still doesnt have the stomach for it the way steve always had though - it's supposed to be a buckingham fic sorta #so eventually she was going to meet chrissy and they were going to get close and chrissy was gonna like. inspire robin to follow her dream #idk i have a couple 'robin lives' fics where she has to deal with the fallout of steve dying when vecna comes back

[ohlookitsmorgan]

i found out that you can make your alt accompany you so i made a little level 39 paladin so i can farm for roga drops 🥺

#when i first started playing my friend group and i all teamed up and farmed roga to get everyone k coats #we would then sit there and spend ages getting that dye that drops from lavarca and dying all of our coats the same blue #im so. im so emo. rn. #toram online

[camscendants]

Had a bad day at work yesterday

#honestly first half was so good #I was in a really good mood we were all chatting #it was a manageable busy I was happy #and I was training a new person #theres this team lead and when regular chatting she’s really nice but when it comes to anything work related she’s horrible #one of my favorite coworkers quit because of her #idk she’s like extra ‘bossy’ like we Have to constantly be doing something. not waste a second. #she acts like she knows better than me SHE EXPLAINS TO ME HOW TO DO SHIT LIKE I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO MY JOB AS IF I HAVENT BEEN HERE #TEN TIMES LONGER THAN HER #the day took a turn for the worse when she said ‘we’re gonna need ice.’ I was waiting at a register with new girl cause customers were #literally walking in and approaching and she raised her voice at us basically yelling at us to go get ice. like what #that triggered me and blahblahblah a few tiny annoyances later I’m in the back having a panic attack. and the manager catches me at first #told me off for not being in the front to help with the line but when she noticed I was crying she let me have a minute to calm down #then closing I had to do dishes. I’m always slow at them I warned everyone. but I was in a really bad mood at that point #I rushed them. I did a meh job I skipped steps I cut my finger I wasn’t being slow I was soaking wet I did them as fast as I possibly could #cause I was so done. we have two freezers in the back I have all the wet dishes on one and I’m dying them on the other. team lead comes to #the back says I’m the last one cleaning. we need to get overran from that freezer for the front. I ask if they can get it when I’m done #(literally like four things left to dry) she says no she has to clock out at midnight and basically started going off on me and my coworker #about how basically were doing a bad job cause we’re supposed to be Done by 11:30??? so we’re late and now it’s affecting her and it’s our #fault?? #WE ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO BE DONE BY 11:30 NONE OF THE MANAGERS EXPECT US TO BE DONE BY THEN YES WE ARE SCHEDULED TO THEN BUT ITS BASICALLY #IMPOSSIBLE TO BE DONE BY THEN IVE BEEN HERE NEARLY A YEAR AND IVE GOTTEN OUT BEFORE MIDNIGHT MAYBE TWICE. #I DID THOSE DISHES AS FAST AS I POSSIBLY COULD #she is a grown ass adult talking to teens like this. we all also had school that day we were tired #and honestly we were so fucking fast that night. nearly done and not even midnight? damn. she clocked out and left before we finished #I tried to give her the benefit of the doubt cause she was nice when having a normal chat but no she’s a jackass #made me cry twice yesterday #I’m so close to messaging the old coworker who quit because of her about this cause she’s also older. she was like the mom of the theater #she loves us and if she heart team lead was making me cry she would come in and tell her tf off #I’m not good at confrontation. I just grabbed the shit and put it out front and paced around a lot. felt like shit.

[toastsnaffler]

actually ive been thinking abt this a lot lately like basically for years i assumed i was very (cis)het passing and only recently ive become aware that i am in fact. very obviously perhaps almost comically gay to other queer ppl. like lmaoooo ok then

#i think its bc a) when i came out at like 15 everyone was super surprised so i assumed ppl still found it unexpected even now #+ b) im not super aware of social cues generally (autism) so dont tend to pick up on stuff like that unless its explicitly said #+ also c) ive never felt like i physically appear very conspicuous bc i dont have any piercings/tattoos/never dyed my hair etc #i only cut my hair short relatively recently too..... so idk i just assumed i blended into the background for everyone #but now im interacting with ppl outside of my tighter social circle more often ive become more aware- #of how ppl might perceive me. or rather ive become aware of just how UNaware i am of how ppl might perceive me #and its really funny how many odd interactions ive had in the past suddenly make sense if u assume the other person clocked me as gay #like strangers that have gotten flustered around me that might be bc i was giving off strong dyke vibes etc #the other day i was in a bookstore and the guy behind the counter was very stiff + quiet until i replied to smth he said and suddenly he- #became way more animated + started talking to me more casually + that was the first time i realised i probably sound gay as fuck #like i think i kinda have a stereotypical gay mannerism/lilt to the way i talk... no wonder i used to get called a fag so often lmfao #or like i remember trying to find a lab partner in 3rd yr of my degree + i had to do it on call only bc of covid + there were a bunch- #of us with similar lab interests but it got sorted SO fast bc this one other student seemed to gravitate immediately towards me #and i remember thinking afterward that it was odd how quickly we resolved that. esp bc we didnt even meet it was just voice call #anyway yeah i found out she was a dyke much later but i think maybe she clocked me straight away bc of how i sound....? #and that was why she warmed to me so quickly... but god i remember debating for ages with my ex abt whether she was gay or not #like my gaydar is truly terrible i suck balls at picking up on cues so its funny that to some people im reeking signals #also i met up with an ollldddd old friend last week + 30 secs in she was like oh fuck you must use different pronouns now #gesturing to Me. like oh..... im visibly gnc......? or maybe behaviourally???? idk. also shes v femme which made me realise that- #i rly do come across kinda masc/butch nowadays. even tho ive never really thought abt it that deeply before or made an effort to #i mean yeah i do identify along those lines but ive never directly considered how to flag that to other people etc im just doing me baby #ANYWAY this has been a rly long ramble idr what point i was getting at but just find it fascinating to think abt how im read in public #bc im just genuinely so unaware of it. its weirdly rly validating to find out that im automatically recognised as dykey + a little masc #boosted my confidence a lot as well tbh ive felt rly comfortable in myself lately. partly also cuz im getting a little muscular ;^) #ANYWAYYYYYY enough of all that i need to go sleep if youre reading this ily goodnighttt xoxo #.diaries

[apathyfairy]

christmas is officially over which means i have 364 days to get a life and get too busy to go to family christmas or come up with a really good excuse to never see these people again

#gee how was everyones christmas #my uncle tried to convince everyone that that story r*publicans tell about the furry kid getting to use a litter box #at the school bathroom was true. bc he heard it on j*e r*gan. so of course it’s true #then an entire conversation about pronouns ensued. #they leave tomorrow i literally don’t know if i’ll make it. i’ve been hiding in my room all day bc i have a pounding headache #and also i have my period then i have to listen to that on top of it all. if 2023 isnt looking drastically different by february #i’m killing myself for real #on top of all that too there are 6 of us sharing 1 bathroom and one of my cousins doesn’t wash his hands or flush the toilet so everytime #someone goes in there /i/ have to go in after and sanitize everything like. i’ve never been so happy christmas is over. #also that same cousin is sick bc he’s been coughing for the last 2 days and also leaves his snot tissues uncovered in the trash can and yes #it’s green tmi i know but that means bacteria if i’m not mistaken and anyway i’m so tired of it i am so tired of them i’m just laying low #until they leave. i hate it. #oh! and then i had two computer monitors that my mom gave me bc her job let her keep them when they gave her new ones #and i was like sweet now when i move and finally have space i can have a setup with two monitors bc she. gave. them. to me. #anyway last night my cousin started using her monitor. without asking. and she was like oh ok. .. but u can use these and also u can #take one of them with you when you leave! like what the fuck fr when u gave them to me #and yeah that completely sounds like first world problems i know but it’s like. don’t give things to people…and then…give them….. #away…….. #anyway. going back ot my original life plan of marrying rich and dying young and never seeing these people again.

[roseworth]

do you like to buy physical comics? are there any you’re proud that you’ve gotten a hold of or any you really want to get?

sometimes!! i have very few single issues of comics, im pretty sure the only ones i have are rose's first appearance and two titans 99 issues that rose is in lol

but i have a few paperbacks that i rly like, i enjoy going to comic shops n just looking around hehe and i usually try to buy something every time i go bc i like supporting local businesses and also. might as well give dc a little bit of money since i pirate 99% of what i read.

i once got a copy of batgirl 2009 volume 2 for $5 bc one of the comic shops near me has a $5 shelf and the first time i ever went i looked at the shelf and batgirl was there <3 <3 <3 <3 literally my single greatest find bc i LOVE that book and i always like to see steph batgirl issues when im shopping so finding the whole paperback was so exciting <3

some other favs i have are archers quest, under the red hood, and archers quest volume 2 <3 i like having physical copies of my favs so whenever i find a copy something i like i usually end up buying it hfdjfdsaksjfd

i dont really go out of my way to buy anything though so if i dont find it at a comic store i wont like buy it online or anything, i think that the only one ive considered buying online is ravager fresh hell bc thats like THE rose book to me and i want to have a physical copy </3 i prob wont order it for myself but i will always dream about finding it somewhere in the wild

anyways there are a few more paperbacks i have but the ones i listed are my favs <33 i also have some that i bought with every intention of reading then. i forgor. so now the long halloween haunts me. i swear ill get to it someday i feel bad bc its like a quintessential batman story and i STILL havent read it but. someday.

as far as single issues go i never buy them weekly fhdkjfhasdkf oops. i had every intention of buying green arrow #1 a few weeks ago but it was sold out at every store near me by the time i went to get it </3 but i will continue to go to store intending to buy it to boost sales. and i swear on my life i will be buying at least 1 copy (probably more honestly) of ravager night terrors to make SURE it sells well and i encourage all of you to do the same

#i may be forgetting some of the ones i own bc i dont have them with me rn </3 </3 #i dont think im forgetting any favs but. i may be. #on a completely separate tangent though #i feel like when i first started reading comics i would sometimes see people say that it was wrong to pirate comics #bc its a dying medium and you should let the company know you like a comic so they can keep making them or something #and i guess thats kind of true #but obviously i ignored it bc i have a passion for pirating nearly every comic i read #so now im wondering if anyone actually believes that or if i just saw a few people with bad opinions a while ago #bc obviously for like indie comics its good to buy them instead of pirating them #but i am more than willing to take money from dc #and i think everyone pirates comics. like who has the money to buy every comic they want to read! that shit can get pricey

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thinking about that one haytham character study/au i wrote where it, to this day, feels like i got possessed by the spirit of this fictional man while writing it

#i usually dont claim to know a character better than everyone else but i know haytham kenway better than anything else #basically its an au where shay stayed and they saved ziio's village bc fuck you ubisoft for killing off ziio #but yeah he meets young connor. #and i took SO MUCH of the introspection from the forsaken novel #the thing with haytham is that its a thin line between overly angsty and not enough?? #he recognizes the injustices done to him. comes so close to admitting hes on the wrong side of history. but he does believe in the templars #granted its been half a year so i dont remember THAT clearly #but just. all about him is so #his mother was so horrified by what he did. his father died when he was so young all those 'when youre older' promises dying with him #HIM BEING THE ONE WHO SAVES CONNOR FROM BEING HANGED BECAUSE THE ASSASSINS FAILED #INDIRECTLY CAUSING HTE DOWNFALL OF THE AMERICAN RITE AND HIS OWN FUCKINGERDGFJ DEATH #god remember when assassins creed characters were still interesting #it took me well over a minute to remember the valhalla antagonists #mostly because they were A. completely irrelevant for 90% of the game or B. fucking annoying and nothing else #personally the only reason i stuck around in valhalla for that long was because it let me have gay sex #was the story engaging? rarely! was the side content good? sometimes! #im not even a nostalgia rose tinted glasses loser my first ac was odyssey #honestly i think haytham might be where the morally questionable mentally ill dads who love their kids but suck at parenting thing started #like for me. my affection for those specific characters #haytham is the blueprint. for better or for worse