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inkxolotl · 8 months

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wow it’s hatsune miku from um danganronpa

#project sekai #hatsune miku #what the hell am i doing with my life #danganronpa

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drunkenskunk · 5 days

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Welcome to another Drunk Skunk™ rant!

So.

I've had some time to sit and stew on the Fallout show, and I think I've finally figured out exactly what I want to say. Because kids? I got Opinions™ about this fucking series. I sincerely wish I didn't have all these Opinions™, because that would almost certainly cause me significantly less stress.

But here we are.

The Fallout show annoys me, but not for the reasons you think.

Let's get the good out of the way first. And by "good" I mean "damning with faint praise."

The Fallout show, as a piece of entertainment and experienced in a vacuum with no prior knowledge or context of the rest of the series or any of the other video games, is... fine. It's an entertaining television show. It's not great, but it's not terrible. It's okay.

The best part of the show is, unquestionably, Walton Goggins. Which is probably the coldest take here, everyone agrees that he's fantastic in this. And it's true! Granted, he doesn't look nearly as gnarly as he should, as the makeup is really giving Ryan Reynolds Deadpool Hugo Weaving Red Skull vibes, but I can honestly give that a pass. He steals every single scene he's in. He has all the best lines. Plus, all the pre-war flashbacks with him are excellent. That first scene when the bombs drop is fucking harrowing.

SPEAKING OF THE BOMBS!

The big reveal that Vault Tec were the ones to kickstart the apocalypse. My initial gut reaction to that was... Not Great. I didn't like it. In fact, I kinda hated it. I thought it was an answer to a question that nobody asked, because nobody cared, because it was never supposed to matter who shot first. The original point was that the end of the world was the inevitable outcome after so many years of war, so many years of stockpiling nuclear weapons, and so many bad decisions from everyone in positions of power on all sides of the conflict.

But the more I think about Vault Tec being the ones to destroy the world... I dunno, the more I... kinda like it? In a fashion. Sort of. As you can see by the remaining length of this fucking rant, I have Complicated Feelings about this!

See, Fallout has never exactly been subtle with its themes, but the show drops all pretense, and openly embraces a staunchly (and honestly, extremely surprising) anti-capitalist narrative.

The Fallout show pulls a Garth Marenghi unironically, and it honestly... kinda works?

Vault Tec were the ones to drop the bombs because they wanted to recreate the world in their image of a capitalist "paradise" free of any and all government regulation. The inevitable end result of the "great game" of capitalism is the literal end of the world, and the capitalists will do everything they can to destroy any attempts to rebuild any civilization not explicitly under their direct control. Because that's what capitalists do: they pursue an ultimately self-destructive goal that is not, and never was, sustainable, and will destroy everything else in their pursuit of endless, infinite, exponential growth, forever. Nothing else matters except Make Number Line Go Up.

Side note: it is extremely funny to me that Bethesda - a hollow shell of greed and excess who have been releasing the same game with different wallpapers over and over again since Oblivion - and Amazon - which is fucking Amazon - bankrolled a show where the villains are greedy capitalists who explicitly destroyed the world because of fiduciary duty to the shareholders. Like... guys, you do realize you two are Vault Tec in this scenario, right?

Ah well. That's capitalist realism for ya.

Anyway, the more I think about it, the more sense it makes that Vault Tec were the ones to drop the bombs.

HOWEVER.

Maybe this is just me being a cynical, drunken asshole here, but... it feels like this was a decision that was made, not because it was the best way to take the narrative, but instead as a means of enforcing the Status Quo of Bethesda Fallout.

See, the thing I liked about the west coast Fallout games was that it showed a world ravaged by the apocalypse, but it also showed that world beginning to heal. 200 years after The End, and civilization was returning. It was a natural evolution of things, emphasizing the post part of "post-apocalypse." It showed us a world that really sucked a lot of the time... but also gave us a small sliver of hope that, no matter what nightmares existed after The End, things could - and would - get better, so long as we put in the work to make it better. It was a world that showed us that nothing was ever so broken that it couldn't be repaired. We just had to fucking EARN that happy ending.

Bethesda Fallout, on the other hand, is just Wacky Wasteland Adventure Time. They are not interested in showing a world evolving or changing or growing, they just want a blasted hellscape that looks like it was freshly nuked yesterday. Why? Because that's the surface-level Aesthetic of Fallout. That is what is recognizable. And Aesthetic is all they know how to do. That's the mother fucking Brand.

Doing something different would risk changing the Brand, and if that kind of change happens, then it's no longer easily marketable. So they just keep with what's familiar: freshly irradiated hellscapes, caps as currency, makeshift weapons, psychotic raiders with no purpose or goals beyond Fuck You, and more of the fucking Brotherhood of Steel. It's all the stuff we remember, so we can point at the screen and go "I recognize that!" instead of allowing the setting to evolve and creating something new.

And that's what annoys me the most. Because even though Vault Tec destroying the world in 2077 makes a certain amount of sense, it also feels like it only exists as a means of artificially enforcing the status quo of the setting. Which means that nothing will ever matter in Fallout ever again. It doesn't matter what happens, or what changes in the future, or who wins the next ideological conflict between the same factions that keep reappearing over and over again like radroaches. Because whenever something strays too far from the established setting, Vault Tec (or, more accurately, Bethesda) is just going to nuke it again, like what happened to Shady Sands.

And, y'know, Shady Sands getting nuked like that really does rankle. Not because I ever had any attachment to the NCR, but because destroying it in the way that they did just felt so fucking lazy. If they wanted to get rid of the NCR, there were easily half a dozen other things they could've done that would've made far more sense. The NCR was a fantastically corrupt government, making the same mistakes as the same governments that (up until the show) were responsible for destroying the world. California was running out of food and clean drinking water because of gross negligence and mismanagement, public unrest was high because of excessive taxation and the "stop tolls" of corrupt border guards shaking down people, and both the military and bureaucracy of the NCR was spread fucking paper-thin, due to their policies of violent imperialist expansionism trying to take far more territory than they could reasonably hold, far more quickly than they could ever manage.

And did any of that matter? No. Not at all. Pursuing any of those plot threads would've required the writers to actually come up with some new ideas. So, instead, it was destroyed because of a cryogenically frozen Vault Tec middle manager with family problems. It was such a fucking lazy solution to a problem that should never have existed in the first place. It felt like the Fallout equivalent of "Somehow, Palpatine has returned."

That's why this show annoys me so much. Because this show that exists without subtlety or subtext, is telling us, to our face:

Don't hope for a better future, because it will never come. The world of Fallout is a destroyed, irradiated hellscape, entirely devoid of hope, and it will never, ever change, ever again.

Because that's the Fallout Brand, and that's what fucking sells.

#drunk skunk rant #Fallout #fallout show #fallout tv show #fallout show spoilers #it took me three hours to write this #what the hell am I doing with my life

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gone-fish-mode · 4 months

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grrrRRAGRA RA RA CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP GRRR

#blub blub #otherkin #fishkin #merkin #selkiekin #alterhuman #therian #fishmankin #monsterkin #what the hell am i doing with my life

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christinas-memes · 5 months

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#funny #funny memes #funny stuff #meme #memes #good omens shitpost #good omens #david tennant #crowley #what the hell am i doing with my life #ineffable spouses #relatable

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crying-in-converse · 10 months

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i want to cry because on only the second day of my coding class its too hard and im never gonna be able to do it

#like aghhh why does this not make sense?#once we get to return types and shit #like what does a return type do #why is it different than a user input #i have so many questions #but if i ask i will look too stupid #what the hell am i doing with my life #noromo35 talks #coding #game dev #java #java coding #game development #coding classes #coder

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kemahz · 6 months

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Have you ever been weirdly proud of a drawing you made? I don't know. I just feel really proud drawing this. Also, it was inspired by another artist, so if you see this same position, can you tell me who their tumblr name was? Anyway, it's going on tumblr. Hope yall enjoy.

#art #sketch #lol I'm bord #did a pretty good job #when i was a yong boy my father took me into the city to see a marching band #what the hell am I doing with my life #have a good day

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brightwaterjuniper · 1 year

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Shskdjd I should be asleep

But I remembered I’m trying to post more here

So have sketches I made on a receipt with zero reference because my phone needed to back up, plus a meme that I made while working today

#slapstick #slapstick marvel #Steve harmon #what the hell am I doing with my life #someday I’ll have a tablet #and the drawings will be good again

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apathetic-theme-song · 9 months

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Theft & Sorcery

Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Monsters (Anime & Manga), Final Fantasy X Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Bakura Ryou/Thief King Bakura Characters: Thief King Bakura, Bakura Ryou, Mutou Yuugi, Mazaki Anzu | Tea Gardner, Jounouchi Katsuya | Joey Wheeler, Honda Hiroto | Tristan Taylor, Marik Ishtar, Ishizu Ishtar, Rishid Ishtar | Odion Ishtar Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Fantasy, Crossovers & Fandom Fusions, Action/Adventure, Adventure & Romance, Amnesia, Friendship, Thief King Bakura is called Iah, Gemshipping, Canon-Typical Racism, Fictional Religion & Theology, for the canon-blind: strap the hell in, lots of mentions of death and sacrifice, Tags May Change Summary:

Iah is an amnesiac thief living in the city of Luca. Ryou is a fledgling summoner starting on his pilgrimage to defeat Sin. Their paths cross one fateful day, and Iah soon finds himself as one of Ryou's guardians, pledging to protect him as they travel across the entire world. It will be a long, perilous journey full of twists, turns, and tears.

On the bright side, at least Ryou's cute.

This story takes place in the world of Final Fantasy X, taking place parallel to the main plot of the game.

#what the hell am i doing with my life #moth writes #yugioh #ffx #gemshipping

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fengqiwus · 7 months

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im ngl fellas after everything this week i have a strong urge to make a career change…

#just absolutelt sitting hwre thinking #what am *i* doing #what the hell am i doing with my life #my work will not help these people ij any meaningful way #i have got to do something #this is kindof silly and maybe impulsive of me i know

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dibbs-n-scribbs · 1 year

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Something i made cause i was making an actual kin list on twt before this

#bugs life #kin list #what the hell am i doing with my life

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throughhazeleyesofgreen · 8 months

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Buffyverse Thoughts

So my pending fic verse of Sam being sent to the Hellmouth preseries in the buffyverse and the various ways it affects the SPN cannon is going well. One of the fics is now well over 30,000 words.

I do have a few OCs added in the mix for flavor but I swear the fics will primarily focus on Sam and/or Dean in the various situations I put them through.

That said, this video perfectly encapsulates the dynamic between Sam and the twins that he befriends in college. Sam would be Matthew Mercer in the middle. Only slight difference is I see Sam being a much more reserved than Matthew Mercer is in this video. That said, I totally see Harry and Anita breaking at the urge to sing and dance to the music.