#well i keep having dreams about him

[magnusbae]

On the rare occasions when Hob is actually mad at Dream— he refuses to sleep. Coffee, energy drinks and the God forsaken awakeness pills? All fair game. If he has to inject caffeine directly into his vein, he would. Hob doesn't often get mad, but when he does, he likes to make a point. Dream and Hob match in more than one ways, really, they do. And so it is that the Dream Lord must come out of his realm personally to sprinkle sand into his lover's eyes because he'd be damned if Hob refuses his gift for more than two nights in a row. Not speaking for 100 years? Easy. Hob refusing sleep? Unacceptable.

#Dreamling #Fixed tags: #Dream creating Hob an entire GALAXY in the Dreaming to placate him but Hob has none of this— he refuses to enjoy it. #Dream getting offended that his lover does not appreciates his good graces is like— Well I can also give you a nightmare :| #And Hob just: #'Maybe just don't say that I will eventually stop loving you 🙄🙄🙄 Hob about that- huh.' #Dream: I meant not to insult you— it is merely how humans /are/. Most entities cannot stay with me for long. (The will not is unsaid) #Hob: You're such an idiot. #Hob would cross his arms and try to stay mad with him but he simply CANNOT. #Dream is being genuine— perhaps a genuine idiot— but genuine nevertheless. #He would sigh and finally come over to Dream and he'd take his hands into his and pull him close to himself. #He has to stand up taller— because here in the Dreaming his lover is taller than in the waking. #It's nearly at his tiptoes that he lands a soft kiss at Dream's lips. #Hob: Just because you had /shitty/ exes doesn't mean /I/ have to be #For the matter— I rather not be your ex at all. #Dream attempts denying all his exes being bad but Hob just keeps on kissing him insistently #Like hell he's allowing his lover dwell in the feeling that no one stays— EVEN IF HE DID SPIKE HIS ANGER METER LIKE HELLA #Dream: You will leave me because you're human Hob's anger: 📈📈📈📈 #But he's not really mad he just wishes Dream to trust him is all. #I mean Dream is JUST the center of his entire world #but you know #anyways those tags are meant to be read separately I was just having some crack fun #the original tags gotten horribly out of order and were an absolute mess so I had to rewrite it for it to make any sense at all #so some of the chaotic insanity been lost XDDD #anyways yes XD #buns.hc

[urproblematicfav-arsonk]

Once again, I am back on my bullshit.

Welcome to my "Angel is asexual because Michael Kovach is ace and also i say so" and "Val is actually aromantic but just thinks his inability to feel love is cuz he's a psycho and not that he just has a queer identity" corner. There's no one else here but me

#and the vees are t4t4t #is this anything #al: *monologs about how being ace in the 30s was very difficult and gave him a lot of long lasting trauma* #al: the point being that im not attracted to people but i can under very specific circumstances be attracted to aesthetics(usually blood) #angel: well yea thats just how that works ur not abnormal #al: what #angel: no one actually wants to do it with a specific person lol thats why u do scenes and have toys and all that extra stuff #al: angel no #alastor and all his many wives is very important to me #thats the dream all men have right?? a bunch of girls surrounding u??? and he likes them so he must 'want' to 'keep' them #yes charlie is one of his girlfriends #val's type is fridget and generally disinterest in him #val thinks all social interacts are games that he has to win #which is why he has vox and angie #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel valentino #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel angel dust #radiodust #valastor #alastor x valentino #asexual #queer #memes #my memes #proship

[nilesmoon]

infinite wealth if sawashiro said "who gives a shit about ebina im going to hawaii with ichi" and then the rest of the game is a family vacation

#Ok so here's my dream scenario. It starts w kicking kiryu out of the narrative bc girl. I love the guy but he does not need to be here!! #kicking him out of the narrative also banishes the ebina stuff. I'm still keeping him around but #he'll be basically built up to be the main antagonist of 9. We're ONLY focusing on the cult stuff for 8 #the way 8 closes him off is already sequel bait so give him a proper focus game w 9 #Anyways now that that's out of the way. My worstie sawashiro does indeed become a party member. #His moveset is mostly blade damage w some blunt damage mixed in. YES I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT GAME MECHANICS #His singular elemental move is him flicking a cigarette at the enemy. Yes this is based off of that one scene w ichi in 7 #ANYWAYS I HAVE MANY IDEAS I CANT TYPE THEM ALL OUT RN BUT. FAMILY VACATION ARC. PLEASE #ITS INSANE TO ME HOW KASUGA 'I LOVE MY FAMILY' ICHIBAN WAS NOT ALLOWED TO PROPERLY INTERACT W HIS FAMILY??? #AND THE MAJORITY OF SAWASHIROS CONFLICT INCLUDED CAST MEMBERS WHO DIDNT GIVE A SINGLE SHIT ABOUT HIM???? #I keep thinking back on that scene where ebina shows him passed out on that chair and THE INTENDED AUDIENCE FOR #THAT SCENE WAS AN OCEAN AWAY LIKE GIRL. WHAT WAS THE POINT??? #well another perspective of that scene would be that sawashiro would be glad that ichi wasn't the one that came to rescue. which is. Misery #me when characters are defined by their guilt 💥💥💥💥😵💥💥💥😵‍💫💥💥💥😱💥💥💥💥😫💥💥💥 #Well. If y'all read all these tags. thanks. If anyone is curious about this self indulgent au that I've created feel free to hit me up #(Please hit me up I'm desperate to talk abt the arakawa family misery and I deeply wish this game was even more miserable) #rgg #nile talks

[soldier-poet-king]

WAILS

#it certainly is a monday..... #worried about [redacted] #brain keeps giving me the softest kindest dreams only to wake up and be like. well. time for work #its dark and cold and rainy #usual family bullshit. careee bullshit. etc #im MAYBE getting sick which cant happen i have tattoo work scheduled for Saturday #bro1 (aged 23) is getting his ears pierced and i was giving him advice #and he straight up was like oh im getting both done because just one ear is gay #He said that. to my face. im. #i need to move out. i need to get a s/o. i need to hold hands and go on cutesy little dates SO BAD #i love romance ok. im tired of pretending i dont #i don't really care abt the sex bits like sure itd be nice #but i dont yearn and pine for it like i do the casual romantic intimacy of it all im. im. #WHY IS IT NOT SOFT AND KIND. LIFE SHOULD BE SOFT AND KIND TO ME OK. I WOULD BE SO GOOD AT ROMANCE-FRIENDSHIP #just like. the gentleness. the kindness. the fun. im. going to be SICK #im also sosososo sleepy and sad. #oh the national on repeat for hours we're really in it now #wish we could invent a way to be lonely and wanting that isnt completely cringe!!! #and guilt inducing bc there's bigger problems and i should be helping and doing and not navel gazing about love #and yet!!!!!!!!!!

[tobi-smp]

right now, I think my current problem with the crimeboys ending is it being presented as a Happy ending, in the fandom now and the potential of that being the case in canon in the future.

the problem isn’t Just that it wasn’t earned in the arc as a whole, but that it wasn’t earned from the Tone Of The Stream Itself.

I can’t stomach seeing people talk about how Now, Now tommy’s secure in his relationship with wilbur and he feels wanted and loved and safe when the Only thing we have that’s supposed to give that us that answer is a book that wilbur wrote for him that we never get to read.

and front loading That is tommy being violently upset, crying and lashing out, because he thinks wilbur is going to kill himself again. something that he has every right to believe considering the last time he saw wilbur months ago Wilbur Was Threatening To Kill Himself.

wilbur only told tommy the truth, that he was leaving, after tommy pried it out of him. and then he Left, and Immediately after he admitted that he was avoiding tommy Deliberately because the idea of talking to him was Too Hard.

after it was stressed time and time again that all tommy wanted was honesty, all he wanted was the chance to be there with wilbur. and he got neither. their ending gave him neither.

so we headcanon that wilbur is sending tommy letters, how is tommy ever supposed to trust that wilbur is telling the truth in them. he certainly had no problem lying to phil in the lead up to the 16th. he certainly had no problem lying to tommy over and over again, until the truth came out to bite both of them.

tommy is chronically loved from the other room, and this is That taken to an extreme.

even if you read this as a soft ending, even if you ignore that dream is for sure going to try to murder and or torture tommy now that he’s alone, I cannot for the life of me understand how anybody could read this as an ending where tommy is Happy.

where he gets to be content and comfortable and feel secure in his relationships. when he opens up to someone for the first time in his entire life about the trauma he experienced and then they ghost him and leave.

wilbur Chose to leave this time, he Chose to leave tommy where it wasn’t safe, and he didn’t trust in tommy enough, have the faith in him Enough to be honest about that. to let him prepare for it emotionally. to even spend time with him in the space between the exile stream and him leaving.

wilbur has every right to leave if that’s what he has to do for himself, I’m not gonna deny that. but the idea that tommy could have Faith or Trust in their relationship going forwards is so.

“Now tommy is secure in this relationship, Now tommy knows that he is loved” does he? and if he does, what does being loved mean if nobody will ever stay?

#dream smp #tommyinnit #wilbur soot #rambling because I saw a post that hurt my feelings again #universally this ending just hurts my feelings and not in the good way #if it was on purpose that'd be one thing #but I have to sit through people writing meta about how Great this is for them #how Well tommy must be doing now that he's hurt traumatized and alone #he was forced to sail away from all of his loved ones #and now he's trapped on that shore watching the one he loves sail away from him Willingly #why isn't he worth staying for #why does nobody want him enough to keep him #what is he doing wrong that even when people love him that's not Enough

[selkiecoded]

okay thats interesting! in the SF try-outs during the song "legally blonde" she sings about how she cant be legally blonde, while in the official version AND THE DEMO she sings about letting her be legally blonde. which means that at some point they changed the lyrics around, and then changed them back! laurence o'keefe.... nell benjamin.... what occurs in your twisted minds

#covers mouth sorry so sorry guys #im a huge fan of beacon of positivity + good boy (elle puts a leash on emmett confirmed) + love and war (not in the demo but part of SF) #+ i liked some of the lyrics in the demo version of so much better (it called back to beacon of positivity!!! (i am insane)) such as: #I dream of your name next to my own but mine's looking fine up there alone #but i greatly prefer all the official songs we got. well. maybe good boy over ireland wouldve been fun (i think ireland is boring) #but itd play into the 'all men are dogs hurr hurr' joke that im glad they avoided. anyways. what was i saying. #right i havent listened to every version of everything yet (for example theres a SF version of chip on my shoulder i need to watch) #(and just the SF vers in general. shes hidden from me... why was emmett there before the remix... let me see their conversation) #but from what i have heard they made a lot of changes that were sorely needed. in take it like a man demo shes so much meaner?? #it made me sad. it wasnt a duet + they wrung out the romantic tension (no subtext by calvin klein... sigh) + shes meaner!!!! #in the bway vers hes baffled but enjoys going along w it + she genuinely likes him even when hes wearing his regular clothes #but in the demo vers she keeps calling him stuff like ugly duckling and talking about how the geek is gone :( but she likes that geek.. #the lines 'how much do you think i earn??' and 'kindly shut up :)' are funny but speak to a dynamic between the two that makes me sad... #follow me for more beautiful opinions on a fifteen year old musical #(heaves. do you know weird it is to see comments from 15yrs ago when this was actually showing. my brother is fifteen.) #god im so sorry i should be put down like a dog #lgb bootleggers are intense. i swear they got a bootleg every night or smth bc we got her shoe flying off + SF + kyle as understudy etc #go watch a so much better compilation sometime how did they take so many bootlegs?? how did you find them?? #and its awesome cause these were filmed on 2007/2008 tech which means they have 15 pixels maximum #SORRRRYYYYYYYYYY

[novelconcepts]

you may have already answered something like this but, as a fan of the comics from before the show, I’m curious what your thoughts on the changes were. personally i really enjoyed it as an adaptation and my only real issues were aesthetic (it needed more bright color)

idk if I mentioned I was talking about paper girls in the previous ask or not whoops 😅

I really don't mind most of the changes! Paper Girls is such an expansive, explosive story on paper; the comic versions of these children are ping-pong balls firing off from one insane, splashy situation to the next in a heartbeat. A world made of ink and paper can afford to have crazy dinosaurs and hockey sticks sticking out of thin air and bombastic scene-scapes in past, super-past, super-future, etc. The show...in order to be feasible, kind of can't? If they'd done a one-to-one execution, 1) it would have cost a truly insane amount (or looked absolutely awful with VFX teams being run ragged lately) and 2) I don't think it would be accessible for non-comic readers. I think they did an excellent job of toning the whole thing down without losing the heart of what's happening, grounding the world so the viewer doesn't feel as though their face is being blown off with every shot.

I also think this really benefits the girls in terms of character building. KJ in the comics figures out she's gay because she gets some flash-bang images dumped into her head, and one of them is kissing Mac. That's great for that medium--but you get SO much more out of that journey onscreen by actively seeing her adult self be relaxed and happy with a girlfriend. Getting to watch KJ have that quiet mental breakdown (which, in 1988, she absolutely would do; finding out at 12 that you're destined to be queer, especially coming from a family that "cares what everyone else thinks" like hers does, would be incredibly jarring) and then slowly come to terms with what it all means is much more effective on a grounded level. Same with Mac finding out she dies, not from some random lady telling her the family moved afterward, but from the older brother she's revered her whole life--and then building on that relationship to help her on this journey of understanding she's always had value. Erin getting time to discover her adult self is way cooler than she gave her credit for gives adult!Erin's final scene so much more punch than if it they'd gone the clone!Erin route, and gives her room to learn that maybe there's more to life than just being the caretaker.

None of these story beats are better or worse, per se; they just exist more cleanly in the tone of this world. The comic beats are perfect for a comic world, and the television ones are easier to digest as viewers who watch these actors make choices to flesh out the characters scene-to-scene.

Even the colors, I understand. Like. The comics have some of my favorite art, hands down. Paper Girls and Wicked and the Divine are probably my top-tier comics for just how gorgeous they are--but, as with the languages of the future teens and the Old Timers, I wonder if having the palette that extreme would have been alienating to the eyeballs. The whole final episode is kind of rough to watch simply because they've cast that magenta filter over it all; imagine a whole show with such vibrancy. It's possible to do, but I don't think it would have fit the tone as well. I think they found a middle ground that works really well for a first season, and if they get a second, I would think that is where they might start to play with expanding the imagery.

#ask #paper girls #paper girls spoilers #honestly the only two things i wasn't nuts about them changing was tiff not knowing she was adopted #and having that really influence her whole adult life #although i DO like her instantly idolizing adult!her and then finding bit by bit that she's not everything she dreamed #as a foil of sorts to erin that works really well #and then the whole larry thing was a bit much. like he's fine. they needed an adult character with knowledge of traveling to help them #since they haven't done the clone thing #but i very much do skip his whole intro sequence because outside of him interacting with the kids i really don't care #though again i do know why he's there. he fits the bill of teaching the kids not to trust blindly. so like. it's fine? #but yeah. overall the changes can be chalked up to the medium and i think they're doing fine #it's just a matter of keeping consistent. the comics are consistently Wild and the show is consistently Grounded #while both telling the same story #i love both quite a lot

[shima-draws]

How do you feel about Ash Ketchum (aka World Champion) retiring from the anime soon?

Very bittersweet :’) On one hand it’s really difficult letting go of a core piece of my childhood, on the other I think we’ve seen p much everything there is to see from Ash’s journey and it’s at a very good stopping point now, so I’m comfortable with his story ending here.

I’m actually very excited to see which direction they go in with the SV anime, and since I absolutely adore SV’s story I really hope they adapt all of that in the new season. It sucks we won’t be able to experience that with Ash but that boy’s been carrying us long enough, I think it’s time he finally gets some rest

#Shima answers questions #I know a lot of people who have wanted a new protag for YEARS so I’m sure they’re pleased about it #There’s only so much you can do with a character before the formula gets repetitive and boring. You know? #Ash has fulfilled all his goals and we’ve seen him in every situation imaginable #So instead of beating the horse even after it’s dead. I’m glad they’re letting him go here #His journey ended on a really high note and that’s all I could ask from them #I don’t want to see this become a ‘Well the show is popular so we’ll keep making episodes with the same characters’ thing so #Journeys was Ash’s last hurrah. His final go at being a main character #And they did such a good job with him #I really think his ‘maturity’ arc happened throughout Kalos and Alola #So by the time Journeys happened we’d already seen him fully developed as a character #So it was a good way to end his journey. Wrap up all the loose ends. You know? #Pokemon #Pokeani #Ash Ketchum #Satoshi #dream-eater-iceguin

[letstrywritingmaybe]

I ramble way too much but also not nearly enough to write long fics. The June prompts are almost at 2k now and I really thought I would be done before that? Silly me, I forget I get on tangents and just keep going when I plan out my fics. Why am I like this. But I swear I’m almost done then we can move on. But I made the mistake of going into my fic ideas doc and now I’m like oh I want to know more about this verse, but I have so many things that I should prioritize! I’m also watching another kdrama and wondering how shinshi would fit into this and the answer is they don’t but my brain is trying to make it work and I don’t like it. I don’t need more ideas I won’t write

#cynful babbles #I’m also overworked but it’s fine cause I get to go home for my birthday. that’s all I’m looking forward to #but anyways I was thinking about a fic where shinichi tries to use Shiho to get rid of the org #but the problem with this is I can’t see Shiho not knowing she’s involved with bad people. like she’s not oblivious she’s too smart #so then she knows she’s being played? but thinks it’s entertaining and is okay with him using her cause he’s cute? #it’s just annoying cause the drama is a childhood friends to lover ship which automatically makes me not ship it #I have issues with the drama and I’m annoyed but I’m gonna finish it cause I don’t like quitting #plus I can focus on the other stuff Aka more fic ideas that I don’t need #anyways idk how to make it end well in my head for them #look I love a good cliché but I’m just not feeling the whole he falls for her and she accepts him for real #obviously he loves her cause this is my fic but I’m like must my queen keep suffering? #okay it’s time for bed. I can dream about this and sort it out or maybe plot the rest of my WIPs

[lee-hakhyun]

the heavenly beggar's only desire was to fight kyrgios again, after having lost to him before. he vowed revenge, but he never got to meet kyrgios. their paths split, with kyrgios transcending and the heavenly beggar becoming a constellation. lee hakhyun simply fulfilled his wish.

the heavenly beggar notices the constellation's indirect messages, and again chastises the constellations for being the only one to risk it all and join the scenarios. but he didn't really risk it all. instead of choosing to be reborn as an ordinary incarnation, he chose to possess another human instead. he's still a constellation, he's just temporarily come down to participate in the story directly. he hasn't really risked everything, he still gave himself a chance to escape.

and then it's revealed that there's a meteorite right nearby. :(

now, lhh could call the constellation a coward, could have called him pathetic for deluding himself from reality, but doesn't everyone dream? instead, lhh asks if he can see the story clearly now. he asks for the medicine and the flag. the constellation asks if he would be able to take care of everyone in the station, and even if lee hakhyun isn't confident, this is something he will have to do. lhh asks the constellation to return to the sky, even if loses everything here, his story still remains.

the constellation agrees, and starts to speak-

but something's wrong. above seoul station, there's a great hall. the meteor was from another world. probability sparks everywhere, and a disjointed messages comes out, "don't interrupt a predetermined story," "foolish writer of this world." <- these are spaced out in the text. the gods of another world.

they face off, and lhh runs forward lee hakhyun's skill hasn't activated, so he's not in danger. the outer god, controlling the incarnation body, goes to protect the meteor. but that wasn't what lhh was aiming for. he picks up the flag, and gains control over seoul station. with a thought on whether the outer gods outside the scenarios or the system from the scenarios are stronger, he invokes punishment.

#'kneel‚ you damn son of a bitch' what if i exploded? #side story lb #orv side story #orv spoilers #took a bit to figure out how to summarize this #i felt like typing more than usual today #jung heewon running forward as lhh goes against the outer gods :( i can only wonder what her thoughts are. #i'm so sorry you have to put up with a guy like him heewon #i actually did cut out a lot here but i think when i get around to translating this episode i will have a lot to say #goddd the side story is REALLY pushing all of orv's themes to the forefront. not to keep harping about my theory but come on. #lhh is really pushing this message directly in your face #everyone dreams. everyone uses others' stories. it's not pathetic. it does not make you cowardly #i don't want to keep repeating myself!! but how can i stop when i still feel these words need to be said #lhh is a character that loves so so much and i hope things will end well for him

[ofallthingsnasty]

Therapist Doffy has lived rent-free in my head for some time now. Poor little reader pulling up to a house on the outskirts of the city that you couldn’t even dream of affording in three lifetimes, but he said over the phone that he’d gladly work with you on the cost, and can offer a sliding fee scale.

He’s the only therapist with open appointments less than six months away, so you eagerly accept, though the tone in his voice and the way he laughs low and dark on the other end of the line suggests that your fees aren’t subsidized by his wealthier clients, and he’ll expect some sort of payment from you one at or another. 😌 And he barely even has to lift a finger to get you dependent on him, convincing you that he’s the only one you can trust, the only one that matters, the only one who can fix whatever’s broken in your silly little brain, even as he unravels you more and more every session.

＿ﾉ乙(､ﾝ､)_ Ah... That's it I'm dead for good now...

Oh my god, that thought is just so dark and desperate and makes me want to crawl up a wall. It just hits so close to home, you know? Many of us would take whatever appointment gets thrown our way - just please, please, anything, just a little relief or at least the illusion of hope. And to stumble right into the arms of someone who has the very opposite of our best interest in mind, who'll actually make us suffer more than we did before, who'll turn us so utterly dependent on them we won't even be able to see those tricks and mind games for what they are - oh god.

#i know therapists can't prescribe meds BUT this makes me think about him pushing you to keep (and not switch) the meds you're having #trouble with. i remember one of my sleep meds had me dreaming very realistic horrible shit and it exhausted me. made me so damn tired bc my #brain was genuinely burning at night. well. things like that would be awfully convenient for him no? #so why don't you try to take it just a little longer? maybe it still needs some time to work? maybe the side effects #aren't really side effects but stem from somewhere else? hm? #thus-spoke-lo #/doflamingo #tw.medical malpractice

[thedeadthree]

ok ok FINEE ill make a g*ojo girlie anything for pookie i GUESS!! <3

#leg.txt #*personal #said with pure love of course hehe <3 anyway!! guess who is FINALLY watching j*jk !!!!!!!! #IM SLOW AS SNAILS BUT MY SIB AND I BINGE WATCHED FIVE OR SIX EPS STRAIGHT (when i left off i was on ep2??) #i think it was like 2ish and then i went to my room to sleep and like GOOOJOO i would give my kidney for him im so serious #minako my t*oji girlie your brother is so important to MEE #anyway onto the g*ojo girlie mins future sister in law NDHNKJHDN #trying to think of her thing i mean f*lemeth/m*orrigan d*ragon age's abilities but make it j*jk would be fun? #or biomancy maybe? i was playing r*ogue trader and the p*syker powers would be a neat concept? #that or technomancy?? could be fun?????? #if i went the flem/mori route making her mom be sort of like flem where she takes the bodies of her daughters to keep her immortality HMM #anyway all this to say besties I SEE THE VISION NOW i did before but i am PERCEIVING for realsies this time!!!!!!! #i am thinkin that whatever i dont choose i may give to a possible n*anami girlie and minako becomes a full time t*oji girlie <3 #t*oji AND ch*oso for minako <3 VERY excited to develop her and her relationships with her men!! peachy keen dream babiee!!!! 🌸💕 #sorry besties about all of the asterisks jnsahd i was like YEESH on having this in the tags :') anyway i hope yall are well !!!!!!!! #off to the r*ogue trader brainworms bc HEHHEHE my girlie finally met love of her life h*einrix and HES SO!!!!!!!! #ill do a whole worms for brains yelling sesh about him later bc AHHHHHHH i would also give my kidney for him im so serious *wheeze* #hes known her for five minutes hes giggling twirling hair and giving her gifts yesterday i was SHRIEKING AT FOUR AM!!!!!!!!! #its been fun giving my brain a break from the w*itcher braiworms to prevent my burnout while i brainstorm the ye olde fic <3

[convoloutedinjoke]

Currently writing swap AU where Kim is just himself on hard mode. Like he wakes up in a clean, normal room, puts on the same outfit as always and doesn't tell anyone he's forgotten everything until Harry wheedles it out of him by badgering him for One Singe Secret (he cant remember any).

He then goes outside and points a gun at a civilian over a perceived threat.

#also he has a preexisting speed problem but because of the way he has a speed problem #(keeps a set number of pills in a little days of the week pill caddy with his ptsd medication) #he assumes they're like antidepressants or something #and just. keeps taking them? and it doesn't come up till after the tribunal? #also all the political alignments are variations on him going “no... that's too extreme... give me something reasonable” #and then going to a Fantasy Labour Party debate on how to reach across the isle to revacholean nationalists #or meeting with a group of small business owners to share finance tips and deductible loopholes. all of it feels hollow. #He also doesn't put on glasses for the first six to eight in-game hours #until Garte (who is cool with him because he pays his bills on time and hasn't caused a fuss) finally cracks and asks where they went #anyway its not going anywhere but im having fun #(pushes his career slider backwards)(raises the unfair treatment bar) #(tweaks the dials on his workaholic and repression meters to “worse”)(drives “need for control” display into the red) #(flips harry switch from “most fucked up man alive” to “somewhat better but still not doing well by any stretch of the imagination”) #ive done it ive made a version of this that I would enjoy #one of his thought projects is trying to write a facts and logic debunking of the insulindian phasmid #the solution is “it isn't real because its silly. im going to stop thinking about this now because I am solving a murder.” #+physique: no longer expending energy on debating dream logic #-morale: couldn't come up with a comprehensive refutation for giant stick bugs #harry hasn't gone full Tequila Sunset drives-my-car-into-the-sea but he has gotten pissed and told everyone to fuck off for three days

[bitchfitch]

I've had to make a spreadsheet to keep track of the vignettes. and I'm pretty certain over half this book isn't going to be about Conall and Arlo. This format really gives me room to play with the whole time fuckery that happens around Arlo so the connections between sections are going to be more about themes vibes and flow than linear story progression. Like I'll make a key that sorts all 7 ish timelines linearly within themselves and another that sorts them all into one timeline. Because a good portion of these happen concurrently.

Like, A scene might play from Arlo's pov and ten sections later you'll get it from Conall's. and while that's happening the two different versions of Asena are both doing their own thing at that same moment.

Also there's 2 Asena's now. one of them isn't happy about it but the other doesn't know that other version of herself exists.

#the one who isnt happy about it isnt happy because she knows she kinda doesn't exist. Shes a dream manifested by Arlo on accident. #Since he never stops thinking of her as his daughter he kinda breaks time and makes an alternate line where he just kills Conall #and raises Asena himself. #tbh the point of making it non linear is to let ther be explanations for a lot of things without someone having to say the explanation #Like why do werewolves love Arlo? well heres the scene where his mommy makes them for him and his brothers #also Haze gets to have a section in the Anger portion of the book to explain Why he told Rhiannon a prophecy he knew would cause #so much pain. #The king also gets a section but i dont think hes getting a name. #Its there more to be a show of what would have happened between Conall and Arlo if Conall was an enabler instead of a paragon #i think the whole. like Challenge with this exercise is making every single section work on its own and as part of a larger story #like i want people to be able to track the plots as the story goes on but not Need to. #like you could open up to a random section read it and grok it 100% #or read a few then put the book down for a few weeks and be able to continue from where you left off without too much confusion #thats probably the only way to keep this whole thing from being Obnoxious as hell.

[burger-goblin]

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#girl help i'm romanticizing a relationship that i was in over a decade ago that left me emotionally bruised and stunted #a very toxic relationship in which i was abused in every way a person can be abused #i always would tell myself that i wouldn't take him back after he would cheat on my and i would be tricked into it because i really thought #that i could change him and he could be better #but i realized much later that the reason i was so easy to win back wasn't just because i was in love with him‚ but also because #i really loved his family. i loved the love they gave me‚ and how-- despite how poor our relationship was-- they were on my side #and always cared for me. even when we weren't together‚ his mom was always checking in on me #he and i reconciled years after our very‚ very messy final breakup and maintained a good friendship #however he started getting radicalized and was leaning further and further right‚ so i distanced myself and removed him from my socials #last year‚ around this time‚ i started having dreams about him over and over‚ so i took it as a sign to reach out to him and check in #turned out that his mom had been hospitalized and it wasnt looking good. i reached out to her as well. thankfully‚ she went home #and he asked me how i was‚ like he wanted to keep in touch‚ and i never replied. i wanted to keep that distance between us #but i would still be near if they needed me‚ and for some reason‚ i just assumed the family knew that #fast forward to now. his mom is gone and it's weighing heavily on me. he's told me he never wants to talk to me again #and that's also weighing on me. i wish i just knew the direct reason why he feels that way #like if it's specifically something i said‚ if it's that i remind him of all the wonderful times we spent together with his mom‚ or #is it because of his new wife #i don't think i was that much on an influence on his life considering how often he used me and cheated on me-- i'm not a threat #like to their marriage. so i'm inclined to think it's because i remind him of his mom #but not knowing for sure is the worst part of this‚ i think. i know he's hurting‚ and he knows i know what it's like to lose a parent #i want to give back to the family that gave me so much‚ but now that he's shut me out‚ i'm not sure how to do that anymore #ah‚ flea. you'd know what to say. i wish you were here to tell me.

[fantasiavii]

No see here’s the thing: can Morpheus be a good friend/lover/parent? Maybe. Can he let himself be? Not really.

#sorry i’m just thinking about how weird orpheus’s childhood must have been #i mean y’all saw how long it took him to call hob his friend #and when he needed to apologize to lucienne he barely did it. like. he just said she was right which is not the same thing #but that was like a Big Step for him lol #the sandman #this is why i have trouble with ship stuff involving him i think #he is just immensely unshippable to me because *gestures to all of him* #tom sturridge actually described him so well #when he talks about how dream holds the entire world’s collective unconscious and how that makes him incredibly incredibly empathetic #bc he feels it ALL but he needs his rules to hold it all together and keep it repressed bc can you imagine holding the #collective unconscious of the entire world all the time? which is why he is so rigid #but sandman kind of starts at this point when he starts bending. or changing. idk #tom sturridge said it better lol