#we’ve talked it out and we’re good

[bethesdaglitch]

Since my mom gave away some of my shit without asking (some of which was VERY valuable and I’d been planning to sell) I decided not to store my stuff at their house anymore. On the one hand, this means my room is now full of boxes of stuff I don’t have room for. On the other hand, I got all my old video games from my childhood back and oml am I gonna go down memory lane this weekend

#I know I sound mad at my mom #and I guess I am #but don’t think I have a bad mom she’s honestly amazing #she has flaws as do we all #and this REALLY pissed me off #but she’s a wonderful mom and we’re very close #I didn’t do this out of spite I just figured it was time to stop storing stuff at my parents’ house anyway #we’ve talked it out and we’re good #(although if I left my stuff there I’m 100% sure she’d do it again lmao she’s just like that) #so I’m a little mad. but I’ll get over it 😊 #anyway I’m gonna play the shit out of Pokémon Channel

[cant-get-no-worse]

Your writing is always great, I need you to write something to either making us optimistic about the future of the club or to make us realize how much in deep shit we actually are please 😭

Babe, just browse through my La Liga 2022/2023 tag and mourn with me. 💕

#funnily enough I’d say this: we’ve been in deep shit since FOREVER. #the way Barcelona works (ie deep issues within structure and management) goes back DECADES. #we are spectacularly mismanaged and unprofessional on top of having a victim hood complex. #the environment - whether mediatic or politic - surrounding the club is an utter and disfunctional nightmare. #in every club’s environnement there has existed corruption and favouring friends in positions you want them in #but it is especially the case for this club. #needless to say I am not saying all of fcb’s issues stem solely from itself and no exterior factors have ever influenced it. #a historically left wing club / figure head for a region/independentism movement / opposing centralism which controls the league/refs etc. #however as culers we tend to majorly - and rightfully - highlight the latest part without ever daring to question our precious multimil club #both factors (internal and external) have to be taken into account to understand ‘the deep shit’. #that said now. as I’ve said this *is not new*. we’ve had those issues for DECADES and yet this club became what it is today. #we’ve reached highest of highs and lowest of lows while dealing with aforementioned factors. #so my very tired take this evening is to chill out; nothing we can do but watch unfold. #perhaps once again La Masia youngsters and lucky choices of coach will drag us up. perhaps new political president conflict still battling #over cruyff’s heritage or against it will bring forth a good one; perhaps not. #overall a very Chill to us all. #we’re facing greatness and decadence and been on both sides of the coin; and there’s reassurance in knowing in both case we still did great. #this club has been rotting since mid 50s and you just have to roll with it and wait for the cycles to come and go. #anon ask #sorry it doesn’t make much sense rn I’ll talk about it more later. or NOT

[emodennis]

i really hope i’m experiencing the start of something new. this is just like high school musical

#i went on a really good date last week and we’ve been texting all day for 5 days straight #and last night i got drunk and told them i wanted to kiss them and he said he wanted to kiss me too and we’ve been super flirty and- #-it’s been making my days so much better #just smiling at my phone the whole time #we’re going out again on wednesday and it can’t come fast enough! #phoenix talks

[sailforvalinor]

…well, turns out changing to a Jo pfp is fitting in more ways than one.

#yeah turns out I’m going to be having a Jo and Laurie on the Hill moment. hopefully not to such a dramatic degree but #I went out with The Boy yesterday and I was dreading it so much #and it was fine but then at the end he asked if we could make it official that we were dating #and I asked him to give me a little bit of time to think (which he was super sweet about he did literally nothing wrong) #but yeah I just came to the conclusion within ten seconds of leaving the restaurant that it wasn’t going to work. like I felt nothing when #he asked me that question. and I wanted this to work so bad! it makes so much sense on paper but I’m just not feeling it #and I talked to my dad about it and he said that because the part of the brain that processes emotions is not connected to the part that #processes language aren’t connected that people who are married struggle to put into words why they married their spouse #so if I can’t put into words why I don’t want to date this guy it’s perfectly valid #and I suppose he’s right I just feel terrible about it. like how often do you find a guy this courteous and genuinely good? and like I #think maybe part of what’s bothering me was that there was almost no romance to this. like never at any point did he tell me that he even #liked me. it was just ‘hey we’ve hung out a few times now should we say we’re dating?’ and I’m not trying to rag on him he’s probably just #shy but it rang a little like a business proposition to me #but ugh. now I have to call (because I’m not going to do it over text) and break this poor boy’s heart #it’s a really good thing I have the play and my novel to distract me otherwise I’d be a mess #anyway prayers would be appreciated

[clownaura]

it’s kind of crazy how the mind and disability works..before i realized i had issues, i was able to do so much. i could work really hard while going to school and having a social life. now i can barely work 35 hours a week without having to compromise something else in order to get shit done.

on the other hand, my manager, who does have issues but hasn’t looked into them, can work at another store for the week and still come in and check in on us everyday. she can’t be still. but it manifests in her mood and how she treats us for sure…

#this turned into a rant in the tags #lots of tags #personal #negative #work tales #luke texted me as i was writing this and said she yelled at them for something… #i’m glad i drove him to work bc i’m certain he would’ve walked out #this shit is difficult man… #like she is constantly looking for something we’ve fucked up #she doesn’t really comment on the good things we’ve done #she tells us to quit CONSTANTLY #she talks to us like we’re the world’s worst employees #i’d love to walk out on her ass but it’s so hard to find jobs #it took me the entire summer to find this one #i’m just… #i haven’t been asst manager for long but maybe that’ll improve my chances somewhere else

[mvnces]

the ‘what a kaleidoscope? I’m not five’ bit with decker when u give him something

#( * / out of character ; personal. ) #decker .2 seconds later: shapes and colors the likes of which we’ve never seen #also . if we’re talking woof verses . then his senses are heightened #so any lil trinket that makes noise or . like a kaleidoscope . is visual based ?? he’s having a good time

[comfortfrogblog]

wow i really just. i really dislike it so much when my dad tells me to. just get over my anxiety. like in those exact words. i thought we’d made progress teaching him that it doesn’t work like that but then he says stuff like that again and i just🫠🫠🫠🫠

#my close friend who is basically the same person as me is out of town so we cant go into youth group together #we’re both terrified so we are there for each other #but she aint here😭😭 #so i was like ok dad im just gonna go to big church instead because i dont think i can handle youth group without my anchor—at least for now #i know that eventually i want to make more friends but right now it’s just. difficult!!!!! especially considering the only other two friends #i have there know Everybody but have never introduced me (or my friend) to a single person #so we just. are there. awkwardly. and dont know how to say hi bc at this point it’s been weeks or months or years and we’ve just been lurkin #ANYWAYS. but yeah then my dad started the lecture Again😁😁and told me how im just going to have to eventually Get Over It😁😁 #goodness i know he has pure intentions but he is just so brash sometimes and it really makes me not want to talk to him #IM SORRY THIS IS SUCH A LONG RANT AHAHHJH pls i hope noone read this lmao #cathy says words #rant post

[ranger-kellyn]

It’s been. So long. Since I last felt that “emotionally vibrating high on life” feeling and it’s all bc me and my massage therapist talked the ENTIRE 90 minutes of my session. Back and forth. Like???? ME!!!!

#I think we’ve basically been feeling one another out for the last year lmao #turns out we’re both bi on the spectrum and don’t understand the religion thing alshdg #90 whole minutes of talking and a massage #I haven’t felt this good physically and mentally in so long #talking tag

[munamania]

dad pointed out the vodka on my dresser on ft ‘you a big drinker now?’

#my bad… #can talk my way out of anything i was like i didn’t even go to the thing my roommate was doing i’m so good in my classes don’t even worry #abt it. he didn’t seem mad even like he was teasing me #but it’s so weird. my mom knows i drink sometimes. doesn’t love it but we’ve drank together. but my dad… i pretend he doesn’t know… #he prob knows i’m a dyke too we’re just not gonna talk abt it #abby talks

[shuckstruck]

hello sorry if u saw my tags fit earlier

#it’s Not very representative of my views it’s just sometimes u gotta get it out u kno #and i think it’d be a lot easier to handle and react appropriately to if like #all the rhetoric wasn’t so goddamn intent on making u feel like a Bad Person #like. besties we’ve proven time and time again that this is a shit method to changing ppls minds #i saw someone retweet smthn the other day that was like #‘i kno it’s hard but plz keep trying’ and it made me like ‘god. they’re right i should.’ #AND THE PERSON WHO REBLOGGED IT #WHO I KNO AND WHO KNOWS ME #WAS LIKE ‘if ur not masking with an n95 24/7 i’m blocking u #like BRO THIS IS NOT! HELPFUL!!!! #IT MAKES ME HURT AND MAD AND REACT IN WAYS THAT IS NEITHER HELPFUL OR REFLECTIVE OF MY IDEALS!! #and i’m pretty good about those things!! typically!! #but it rly gets under ur skin. when it’s the only rhetoric ur seeing. and nobody is taking the time to hear u out and talk to u #IDK. SORRY TO THROW A PITY PARTY FOR MYSELF #WE’RE ONLY HUMAN. ALSO ITS MY BLOG. SOMETIMES IM ALLOWED A PITY PARTY #spoke to my more sensible roommate tho. feeling better. #not because she agrees with me. to be clear. just cause we were having a normal fucking level headed conversation about it. jesus christ #rumbles

[universalsatan]

can’t tell if i’m confusing wanting to look like almost stereotypically macho men or just being wildly attracted to them. or both i guess

#i mean i always used to say bi dilemma but im realizing this is mostly just gay now godbless. trans rights #for context. im thinking like. young harrison ford (i Know.; the reason im saying this is i remember Both my mom and dad acknowledging him #as the og Macho Man™️) and because it crossed my dash. jackles. but not really young jackles like s1 dean but matured jackles like more rece #it’s funny cause in practice. the person ive been pursuing (while Also an idiot. maybe i should just accept myself as morosexual at this #point) is actually. very effeminate HAHAHDHAHSJDHSJ #to the extent that my mom has thought he was gay in the past. i was talking about him to my sister and she asked if he was gay LMAO #which is hilarious because as far as i know (and ive known him for… almost 6 years ig? pined for almost 5). i’m Only aware that hes had a #crush on a girl ages ago. but this was also thru a secondhand source we’ve never actually talked about that #we probably should but we’re both idiots i have no idea how it’d be brought up #but in terms of effeminate. hm. he’s actually Really tall maybe over 6ft? and he Can have a deep voice. i think he can sing bass? but he #actually speaks in a higher register. god i wonder if he’s doing the opposite of me. who’s always consciously deepend my voice LMAO #he’s a HUGE plant enthusiast. HUGE. i dont Think he’s ND (or at least he doesn’t from what i can tell. I get vibes) but he straight up has a #plant fixation. knows so much about care. when he worked in greenhouses he learned the latin names for a good portion of them. i know this #isnt exactly ‘effeminate’ but he does all the gardening. oh and to add to it ig. i dont know HOW. he was NOT. irked by gore and blood??? #when i explained to him what my potential job as a crime scene cleaner could entail??? but he cannot STAND bugs. he FREAJED OUT (over text) #at the mention of a spider. so of course. me being the 8yo boy with a playground crush. proceeded to tell him all my Fun Spider Encounters #lets see i think he also really loves to bake? ive seen these elaborate cakes (tp roll for covid. a fish) he’s made on insta. and there was #that one time he brought me those three most MOIST chocolate cupcakes with raspberry buttercream icing. i deadass ASCENDED to heaven. #food IS the way to a man’s heart btw. #oh yeah and the fact that i met him in the first place — well. i play oboe in ensembles. and he’s flute/piccolo. yeaHAHSHAHSHH #LMAO remembering that while he doesnt keysmash (i’ve started to around him. it’s mostly emojis bless his heart) he deadass called me ‘hun’ #oh and the best part? i couldnt think kf what to watch. and he’s over here saying he doesnt watch ANYTHING. like bro how do u NOT. listen to #any music past 1900. OR OPERA EITHER. and NOT have any favorite movies/shows??? wh??? like. he deadass was like ‘unless [gardening channel #on youtube] counts’ like girl i am so in love #but yeah i was literally sitting there sounding like a pretentious film nerd bro i cant fuckin believe it. but i FINALLY wriggle it out of #him. because apparently he cant concentrate on most movies (valid.). the ones he CAN are cheesy chick flick comedies #saying that he can recite 90% of mean girls. thats his favorite movie #and he also mentioned like. legally blonde #and i have a feeling he almost was avoiding it in case i would judge him or whatever but ngl i honestly fell harder HAHSHSJAJDJAJ #fuck 30 tags but let’s just say. very effeminate compared to me. a full on Dad

[legendary-alliance-stance]

fjdjdj sorry for the sudden quiet here! nick and I have been playing through gw1: factions since yesterday lmao

#i was literally just like. look. we gotta go play factions #i need to scrounge up any fucking info I can on my gay ghosts #we’ve been having a good time with it too!! we’re like level… 18?? 19?? something like that #and we’re in kaineng #so we’re making like. Progress™️ #we did die a lot early on tho lmao #it took us a bit to get like. decent at fighting things #I’m playing an assassin/warrior and nick’s playing a ritualist/necro #at some point we’ll probably talk about our gw1 ocs #we still need to hash out our duo for nightfall 🤔

[onedirecton]

No fr when the actual hell are my neighbours leaving……….

#okay so a few weeks ago my landlord came to talk them and there was lots of angry yelling in the hallway and me and my roommate could hear #some of it and apparently they have not been paying rent/smoking indoors/stealing other people’s parking spots or somethjng? #anwyway we heard May 1st being mentioned as the dsy they have to move out by but they are 100% still here 🤡 #so we’re thinking maybe they have until the end of the month to vacate OR they promised to get it together and so they get to stay? #idk I feel we’ve heard furniture being moved around a lot since then and I saw them load some big #items of furniture into a moving truck a few days ago #maybe we misheard and it was false hope 😔 but that conversation/argument was still loud so idk #anyway I NEED to stop being bothered by them and live my life #it’s really hard when they’re irritating and I’m still hurt from how disrespectful they were when they moved in #like I’m bitter lmao #but holding onto all of that doesn’t do me any good 😭

[buriesitsteeth]

:)

#had a good day yesterday and now today we’ve found out that step-dad has been hiding shit #and we’re looking at being dragged to the courts for bankruptcy by some solicitors :| #which will mean bailiffs #which means I need to get shit like my laptop out of here and to my dad’s #and means I will be terrified of being here alone with everyone else at work #but if I’m not here and the landlord lets them in (and she would) #the cat could get outside and be hurt or killed by all the cars or foxes or dogs #I just #why is there always such bullshit istg #money problems are like the worst stressor for me too bc I grew up under the poverty line but we didn’t get government assistance for #anything #so I just #yeah I hate money I hate discussing money I hate talking about bills or credit cards or loans or anything #it immediately makes me feel physically ill #and now tonight I know will be horrible bc mum’s basically got to go hey what the fuck are you doing

[lilgynt]

my friends like invite him to go clubbing with us! i’m gonna club my brain in.

#personal #one i invited someone else already so im not gonna be like hey single friend lemme go off with whatever this dude is and leave you with #my friend you don’t know with her boyfriend #then that’s such a weird driving situation #like do we stick with the original game plan of having friends bf drive and then have that dude meet up or #do i have him pick me up and go pick up friend which insane to ask second hang out #ah!!! #and then it’s like well you’re only considering the second possibility bc you enjoy his company and wouldn’t mind him driving you home #which leads into like well. what is this. #cause yes we’ve been talking for like a few weeks #had a very nice date #talked about getting TESTED #is it like. are we. just talking are we hitting and quitting are we gonna be 🫣 #which is like what do *i* want #which crazy enough! i actually really like this dude so i wouldn’t mind a relationship #but then it’s like okay. what if he doesn’t like me. or only wants sex. hnnnn #and now i’m embarrassed about everything like damn he fr saw me spam my insta im gonna kill my self #what’s the appropriate amount of time to respond to a message- not what’s the appropriate #to ignore than respond but what makes it seem like i’m not waiting by the phone #which novel experience outside of friendship #and i’m trying to logic myself out of it like hey. good experience whichever way this goes #you got some talking practice went on a proper date that wasn’t dennys that you half paid for after they explained their whole books plots #I CAN TALK MY LEGITMENT POLITICS AND BELIEFS. #experience. which great. doesn’t do anything the whole im fumbling feeling like at alll #this is mortifying and i hate it. like i cannot exaggerate it’s a little disgusting #oh and then okay he has the time and does go clubbing #I CSNT FUCKING DANCE. #and the WORST bit. is im kicking my feet and giggling when we’re talking like die!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i’m getting butterfly’s listening to the playlist he made me #regardless how this goes i am not doing this again this is way too stressful

[brightsout]

i think i may really like this guy fr

#we’ve been talking for 3 days lmao but so far i haven’t panicked so ig that’s good #had a spontaneous late night 2 hr walk yesterday with a friend #i was a little high and talking out my feelings was actually good who would’ve thought #im still scared of going out w him ofc but i dont think im gonna avoid it for fear of whatever 🫡 #its so weird i had a crush on him like 4 years ago and now we’re talking jjzjzj