oh fuck we haven’t done any this or that’s in agesss i’m going to do some random questions instead
if you were in a room of everything you lost in ur life what would be the first thing you would find (includes objects, people and places)?
would you rather be a minion or a smurf?
if you could change one thing about the world what would you change?
if you then could keep something about the world what would you keep?
do you prefer the idea of us being controlled by a video game or we’re actually illusions?
if we could live on any other planet what planet would you live on?
would you rather have a big house and a small garden or a small house and a big garden?
never listen to music again or never read a book again?
never watch a movie again (includes musicals) or never watch a tv show?
only survive off liquids or only survive off solid foods?
wear a baggy hoodie baggy top and baggy trousers with converse or a tight hoodie tight top and tight trousers with nike airforces?
have a large group of friends or a small group of close friends?
never see your family again or never see your friends again?
move abroad and visit uk every school holiday or live in UK but visit places abroad every school holiday?
only use liquid medicine or tablet form medicine?
hot water bottle or heat up bean bag?
hold hands with friend but never hug or hug but never hold hands?
have cute pet names with your friend or just call each other by ur actual names?
finally only have windows open all the time or only have curtains/blinds open all the time?
anioop- 🫢🫤
girlie if i lost it and i don't remeber yeah, how will 'first thing you would find' if idek what i'm finding???
MINION ATW
i'd change people getting antsy over nothing like the 'it's not that deep chill' mindset
i'd keep those ice coffee things idkk
were illusions, cus at least de lulu me has free will
oh the moon fr boring but <3
small house big garden but not too big
mmm never read?? IDK THAT'S TRICKY
TV TV
mmm liquids
cus fruit smoothies innit soop
baggy, but if i'm wearing a baggy jumper i'll wear a tight t'shirt or a vest also cus it tucks in nice to the baggy trousers
close friends
unsure
oh live in UK
tablet cus i swear it's always gonna be stronger and more effective
BOTH LMAOS
HUGS>>>>
actual name - pet names between friends are so cringe i'm sorry, it might just be the girls at my scl ruining it though
curtains?
now you answer them for my this that 🫢😘
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i like to make fun of murderbot for being all "i hate everyone, i don't care about anything or anyone, fuck off" while simultaneously caring very much about the people around it and the situations it finds itself in. i love how it "accidentally" ends up caring quite a lot about the friends it makes along the way.
but i think something that i tend to forget is that murderbot actively decides to care - at least at some point in its story.
idk, as a person that struggles with depression, this paragraph from artificial condition really resonates with me. prior to all systems red, murderbot had contracts. it had routine and it had protocols. it knew what it had to do to just get by, how to perform so no one would notice it had disabled its governor module. it was deeply depressed, yes, but it was functioning (for lack of a better word).
in artificial condition, murderbot's routine is gone. it cannot go on in that state of numbly going-from-contract-to-contract, putting in as little effort as possible, consuming media to cope. that option is gone because it escaped (and note that escaping the company was not an active choice, it kinda happened to it). murderbot has two options now: it can either gather all its energy; actively do something new and difficult and distressing; change something in its life and try. or it can let the numbness and the emptiness take over and stop trying. if murderbot wants to survive as a rogue secunit, it has to try. no matter how difficult that is.
the wording in that paragraph really hits home for me. the way the non-caring sees an opportunity to slip in and to take over. does murderbot even care? does anything really matter? is anything really worth the hassle? wouldn't it be so much easier to just let your mind slip away a little, to go numb, to be passive, to watch media and wait for things to happen to you? wouldn't it be nice to stop thinking and struggling and feeling complicated things? to stop making an effort? you've been dealing with a lot lately and maybe it's time to just shut down. maybe you'll just take a little break. just slip deeper into this chair and start the show. time flies when you're not paying attention. trying is exhausting. who cares if you don't do the things you wanted to do, you were supposed to do. it'll be fine. let's just ignore those things for now. just let the non-caring take over. just stop thinking. you can deal with the aftermath later. just watch your shows. who cares.
but murderbot cares. it decides to care. it decides to fight with all it has and i think that is so brave. and i think in the later books caring is less of an active decision for murderbot. once you start caring, it's easier to keep going than to stop; and murderbot, for all its "i'm a grumpy rogue secunit, leave me alone" behavior, knows just how important caring is. so it's not that it doesn't know what's happening; rather, it lets itself care.
tl;dr: caring is not the default for murderbot, it's just the more difficult of two options. and it decides not to take the soft option. it decides to struggle. it decides to care. and so it does.
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