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geniusbuilttm · 5 years

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BMC 4/6/2019 2 PM Show

Soooo I saw BMC yesterday with @awkwardpersontm and it was an amazing day so I have a lot of notes from the show..... a L O T

This is all me copy+pasting from a note I made on my phone so sorry it’s so long

ALSO SPOILERS!!! LOTS OF SPOILERS SO SCROLL IF U DONT WANNA GET SPOILED

Also signatures (those who came to the signing): George, both Jason’s, Gerard, and Anthony

Pre-Show

Talked to Zachary so much and he was signing a little while talking

He is so excited about giving everyone their custom pins and talking to them

The pin this month is ‘I ❤️ Play Rehearsal’, last month was a SQUIP pill (green and white), and February was a Michael Mell pin

Here is a pic (also Zachary is amazing I adore him and love him sm):

He geeked out about my pants and told me I need to show my pics of them to George Salazar

Jake’s understudy went today and Anthony ROCKED IT!!!

Act 1

Jeremy’s mom went to Long Island with her prom king bf

Jake’s whole character starts to change since he first talks to Christine

The book Christine is reading is a worn book about Barbara Streisand

He loves Sbarro bc his parents used to take him there (he tells her about it during the mall)

Wolverine is v creepy and swallows a lot

They have a mailbox

Mr heeres table was full of newspapers and cereal

During TPG George didn’t catch the controller so they scrambled so it wouldn’t fall off the side and did the part until after Mr. Heere on the floor

Jeremy when he first sees rich is like I’m not in the mood I had a bad daaaaaay then proceeds to get swirlied in the toilet

Outfit changes per day

Michael has a vest over his hoodie the second day

Squips countdown before Christine says ‘guess there’s a part of me that wants to’

Upgrade got replaced and completely revamped

George wasn’t apart of the ensemble of SQUIp song

Jenna has an adorable pineapple bag

Jeremy and Brooke made out in the bleachers at the football field

The wombat mascot of the school changed to an elephant

The SQUIp pill was huuuuge

Michael’s explanation of what exto cooler tastes like: *deadpan voice* ghosts

Brooke and Jeremy both hate being the player two

Chloe kicking Christine’s backpack aaaaaaall the way stage left and it hit the wall

Me and Mikaela (awkwardpersonTM) in second row got hit with confetti that Squip tossed

He doesn’t squirt out the lotion to masturbate anymore

Squip solo before Be More Chill Part 1

Karl has lots of sequins

Mall cop Jake is replaced with bedazzled af dude

Lots of Michael references when he is ONB’d and props and stage stuff covers him and apparently headphones aren’t allowed in the halls

Chloe is scared of losing attention

Jeremy is halo’d like a king with light when looking down at Michael at the football field

New patches on Michael’s hoodie back: Atari, floppy disk, and one other I don’t remember rn

Jeremy smiled and was proud of being a masturbator

The kids in the new song all had a way to connect to Jeremy and we got bg info on them a bit more that way so it makes more sense why Jeremy says yes and is ‘suddenly popular’

Act 2

I got too caught up after with hurrying for stage door but

Jeremy isn’t late for the Halloween party this time

Christine is a princess still but instead of having her old Juliet costume, she tried to be someone she wasn’t by dressing as a slutty princess (it also had a hoop skirt that was short)

Halloween has an extra bit st the end

Do you wanna hang is a lot better with no awk lap dance

Jake unfortunately no longer hops in through the window

The entire time of the Halloween party yoy see rich getting more and more panicked and in pain with his squip

He takes a jack o lantern and starts the fire with that

The army stuff is still there in pants song

Before pants song they have an actual news broadcast on the tv on the table they recorded

Michael tries to awkwardly do military stuff back and Mr. Heere does it in return to make him feel better

Smoking effect and the mells have a lawn chair up front, garden gnomes, and a plastic pink flamingo

Jeremy tells Jenna about what the squips are before she drinks the beaker

Jeremy ends up hitting Michael and punching him in the nose and I think breaking it?

Jenna says that she refuses to not be connected and has the squiped kids grab him and she knocks him out

Michael wakes up as Jeremy is confronted with Christine and no fake out kiss attempt is made

He explains that one destroys them all before they all go

SQUIp actually wants to take over the world

SQUIp: you helped me realized what I was meant to do (context: take over the word); Jeremy: ... ah SHIT

He gets angry at Jeremy after he originally is upset and sad that he was shut off

Jeremy explains that he wanted to save Christine and that he didn’t knowing shutting one off shut them all off and Michael says that Jeremy’s less of an asshole than he thought

Rich has realistic burn makeup on the side of his face (not really real but i gasped)

Jenna/Brooke/Chloe/Jake call themselves Jeremy’s Squad

They have actual closure for the issues, even if very brief, for what happens during the show

Squip still faceplants onto the bed

Jeremy’s voice is glitching out as he insults Michael

On Squip’s anime villain look his lit up chest piece reacts and freaks tf out when Michael shows the Mt Dew Red (which is literally printed out paper around a bottle)

Jake clings to the bottle during most of it and dumps most out into the sink

Brooke wants to be seen and Chloe wants to be liked (they say they see/like each other)

Basically everyone is creepy hugging each other after being Squipped like they’re blissed out happy

#bmc #be more chill #be more chill broadway #michael mell #jeremy heere #squip #rich goranski #christine canigula #jenna rolan #chloe valentine #brooke lohst #jake dillinger

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zella-starr · 4 years

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Cassandra is its hero: a girl that can see bad news or predict the end of the world- but no one ever listens so its stuck in a perpetual state of existing and emotional terror: zella finally figured out what 12 monkeys is about and it wrote this absurt literal wtf short story that only makes sense to those who look deeply there are some spoilers in #s but if anyone does read it and it doesnt get it kicked the f out then just tell it what you think of the ending - if you understand it at all lol

it prays, to pic related that tumblr has more femine creatures than ones who do not understand metaphors or cannot see between white and black every shade of grey

it presents: The Cassandra Effect don’t read it tho its insanity personified

DO NOT READ THIS YALL!

The Casandra effect short story by something called zella or ezla or something idk it aplogizes for spelling errors but it freaked out and though it lost its masterpiece via saudi princes banning it from twitter

"my name is Casaandea" my name is Casandra - she repeated after the cubes. something about tit felt--different- a sinister evil the cube felt different today But she had learned to not listen to such thoughts- the kind of thing that would tear a weaker specimen to pieces but cas- (arrogance my darling)

Zella01/11/2020 "a horse, of course, my darling" ` as far as Cassie could tell, the cube thought this was amusing- cute even- she smiled- kind of. and but her little black boots on for a flickering moment she wondered what day it was then scoffed- "days" the cube has replaced any need for such distinctions

Zella01/11/2020 the first thing the cube had said to the population of Wintersville upon its gran unveiling via the tribesman, was "every day is exact;u the same,!" like the great Adema themselves said! " stupid vicky, who is no long with us began to correct the cube . "That's Nine Inch Nails haha" but the look the tribesman- the one who was always beside the cube, well i sure wouldn't want to see that peak in the window at night such as on Thursdays when the servants of tribesman would do so- there were strict rules regarding sexual activity it goes without saying that after the great collapse everyone was sterilized- no children period. they were rounded up and shipped off to.. Cassiei always forgets just where but since the tribesman had brought in his spiritual leader Augustness. sexual pleasure had become limited for men- and more so for women. a man without a wife was most scrutinized and often was sent to another sector. One man was caught, welll Cassie was supposed to keep heer mind off of such things as she had been scolded since mistaking the tribesman wife for well not a woman Cassie stopped for a moment and looked around she felt the fear. this means they could to,. but why was the memory so frightful? it was a simple truth he had told her there are men, and there are women Cassies little black boots were almost at the entrance of the factory when her favorite sound on earth came screeching through the air and crashed into her eardrums like the silly old tale of the 2 became 1 buildings nonsense It was Kathy- Cassie's coworker and Nemesis- her voice was always happy-sounding- often at awkward times- but none would beat this "Cracker John Joe got hit my a truck!" "excuse me?" "yep, his head came plum off his neck too!" "what he's.. dead?" "ok well it did not come plum off his head it wad i think about half of it the tire just smashed his head and it crumbled but lots of the crumblings were far away so it was almost his." Cassie had to make sure her stress did not rise- or as the Tribesman called it her Gorita acting amuck " this would require intervention from the cubes she decided to take a peek anyway, despite kathy (what kind of fucking name is that anyway-ok Cassie stop it) and she wa.. well it was actually not such a great idea it was not that they were close,. they did not go to prom together. they did not kiss each other on the cheek after a run-in on the one single street in wintersville. but she did work with him, he was a bubbly guy, thats what the tribesman said of him- and obviously the tribesman had him killed sometimes though she wondered which was in control, him or the cubes- this thought was followed my a very sharp pain and headache that would last for day at a time (this was how the subjects of the satanic mind-control experiment that was wintersville, were trained- imagine a dog being shocked every time it bites someone) It was not the worst one she had felt, no, that was easy to pin point: one day at work- an outsider was brought in. A girl- of 16 or 17 years old. Tribesman had another man with him that day- no one spoke his name- but he decided it would be best for Casandra and the new girl (Cassie called her flower as her name was never known) Flower had an outrageous hick accent- one that cassie would normally have been disgusted by, but flower was different. she had a light shining from her eyes. a softness to her lips and to her touch. one that cassie did not forget later that evening when she was alone., this was before she learned she was never alone when the cubes were anywhere near by. she tried not to remember - because if she remembered she felt It had been several years since Cassies husband dissipated. quite literally in front of her eyes. he was gone. the depression was so great, she hadn't played with herself in - there she goes again- as if there is any such thing as years or months or days or seconds. no past. no future but still, it was worth a little bit of that pain- fuck even at the time the piercing razorblade feeling, starting with her clit up to her eye balls was worth it. She touched herself- quite a bit. she rubbing her clit and moaning- at the previous images of Flower , her soft lips and perky tits- but then Cassie still didn't know that the slicing, the burning pain she could still feel - started the second the man with no name- after his henchmen had kidnapped and beaten Flower - a pain Cassie mistook for pleasure (are they not the same) set flowers body on fire and what little life there was inside of her soon was no more what would cassie have done HAD she known? should we find out? we control this. we control this experiment. would she revolt? haha against whom? what if we ended the experiment early - the knife she just tabbed int the "tribesman" was, in fact, her mother? we are not sure yet. but surely a woman who wears the same black boots every day after being given a new name she is sure she has always had- to go to work where she does n not know what she does. something something. could her infatuation with Flower show us new and exciting ways to break her down? because this will en no other way every controlled subject still must die its one of our favorite tricks- to instill into the psych of the truly helpless- that surely ifshe had suffered THIS much, then there would be no more one day>? I mean that IS how it works is it not? we suffer- then karma picks us up. what do you think fellahs? fuck it. why not. she must be broken- lets break her slower than most- lets take that hope- and stretch it lets create a future for her - one she will only think of, we can build her up give her what she wants for a day- we can bring flower back and kill her again or maybe something new? something not romantic. often the cold hearted clutches onto something- or someone that oppresses others. lets make enemies for her, shadows she can jump when she sees. others. the town is all white? lets increase paranoia of an oncoming slew of blacks or Mexicans. of course we will choose the kindest ones we know, those ho speak Spanish will frighten her the most- we dont let her learn things here. not anything useful yes even greater than the destruction of flower- will be the terror of the others. lets bring in tansgender people. lets legalize gay marriage. lets let others have children but only once she is to old to have them herself but thats not enough- now we needa hero and we all know how this story ends -The end

for real if you made it this far thank you for reading a single word ive ever written its all i want in this world- well not quite but close <3

the worst thing you can do to someone is make them the enemy theyve always hated via some tyrant taking over their minds and souls and spitting out a perverse vile version of them- no point to go to its funeral it died long ago..

#horror #scifi #mind control #mind corruption #mind conditioning #trump #maga2020 #psychos #3 letter demon monsters

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asianjeremyheere · 5 years

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the bmc timeline: a study (aka Joes Please Give Us A Timeline)

more than survive -> be more chill, pt 2

okay, so we can assume this all takes place over one day. this is easy. everyone wears the same thing, it works chronologically wrt jeremy getting ready for school in mts and going to bed im bmc pt 2. judging by the fact that drama club sign-ups are JUST starting, i’m gonna guess that it’s PROBABLY sometime in september? mid-september, maybe, because people already seem to have fallen into routine and it’s obviously been long enough since school started that jeremy is getting annoyed at his dad presumably always breaking his promise of driving him to school. i dont know how drama club works in terms of when sign-ups happen though, since we dont have one and the last time i was in a school play, the situation was a little weird and we didnt TECHNICALLY have a drama club, it was just a mishmash of kids from various blocks of mandatory middle school drama class

sync up -> loser geek whatever

day 2! again, this is just one day because they all stay in the same costume, jeremy is getting used to his squip, chloe is interrogating christine for being seen with jake at the mall “last night”. there really isnt anything else to say here lmao

intermission!!

this is like. a month? a month and a half? however long it takes for them to get to halloween from mid/late september. its definitely over a few weeks, though. michael says jeremy “ignored [him] for weeks”

halloween -> agtikbi reprise

its halloween!!!!

the smartphone hour

this is the day after halloween, but i want to say that its a different day than pitiful children/the pants song?

the pants song -> the play

this is a day AFTER the smartphone hour! imo, at least. november 2 if u want to be specific. mr heere says the fire was all over the news and jenna mentions having been on tv (right before the pitiful children starts) but depending on what time the fire started, im just not 100% sure all of that could have happened in one night. also, jake is back to school and on crutches. i would hope that he at least took ONE day off/staying in the hospital for one full day before going back to school.

its a little weird though because like…. it leads so fluidly into the play and i would be convinced that the play took place way later if not for the fact that a) jeremy stays in costume and b) it just leads in so well. i feel like maybe the pitiful children should have been uhhh like dress rehearsal night/tech week and the play should have been a couple days later? but its not because jeremy just fills the beaker and everyone gets squipped that night so i guess it IS just over the course of one night. no wonder michael is so surprised that it was going well. what high school can successfully put together a good show in like maximum two months?

voices in my head

okay THIS is spread over a few days. its not immediately after the play because michael has clearly been in-and-out of the hospital room and rich is. actually conscious. also, there HAS to be time between the start of the song and when jeremy gets back to school (let him rest!!!) and the end of the song (because rich is NOT getting out of the hospital that quickly)

tl;dr the whole thing basically takes place in a little under one semester but the bulk of it is during september to november, a whole month/month and a half of which passes by during intermission. which is kind of unrealistic to me wrt the time needed to put on a play but like w/e it makes sense narratively i guessand its not like the play was going to be GOOD

#bmc #be more chill #this has also been in my drafts for ages bc ive been too lazy to go on desktop and add the readmore but its long So.#anyway take this i still have no clue if it makes sense #queue put your pants on

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t-underneaththeradardancing · 5 years

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was watching earlier - george of the jungle at least parts of - may b more inane than usual if thats possible - could b wurse like 3 stooges no iggy but maybe mott the hoople - they hadda song i used to sing the words wrong - violins violins - the only thing that makes any sense - it wuz violence tho if u lissen u can undastand the reason - if there wuz a topic we r so far off it but imma roll w it like a muddy water tumbling - u ever all night and party every day my brother loved kiss for a while i like detroit rock city tho dr the movie wuz kinda lame despite dan akroyd - we did the pome bout the kitty awready right and its nowhere near midnight patsy - the moon i see soon i hope

imma better - muchly - headfonz however on life support - not up to going out to replace - today at least - like a bad dub mix random what imma hear - interesting for a while then wtf - they insured i told them im hedfone death and they $ - cheep throw away onez dying also

a little more than fuck all done but not enough to crow about tho a fed a couple i did indeed

kitty a bit under weather also - tummy - on the mend - she an angel

wish i wuz playing - vita wuz available tonight and maybe liam - was tempted but new better -will face relentless reality and the music if im forced to - sometimes - kava tues maybe - channeled my inner cowboy to come w an arrangement of im so lonesome hank sr if u please - believe it or dont it aint coming out a blues dirge ( give it time t give it time - im laffing) - i even memorize the words i think but wat happen onstage another matter - now laffing harder - duz riting drivel count as something - an accomplish or a time suck waste i wonder but not too often

wanna heer a guilty pleasure ( besides kiss )

when imma sick - unable to do much but lay down and try sleep - i putz on action/adventure / explosions - bond will do fer instance - awready know the thin plot so no need to pay attention - volume down

ok that tuckered me plain out

love

laterz

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elegantshapeshifter · 6 years

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Hellequin: leader of the Wild Hunt and Fairy King

The “familia Herlequini” or “la mesnie Hellequin” is a term which, as Claude Lecouteux has shown in “Phantom Armies of the Night”, might encompass a wide variety of disparate phenomena, such as the wild hunt (die wilde Jagt) and the wild horde (das wilde Heer). The familia Herlequini represented a troop of the dead: the earliest explicit reference to the familia Herlequini is in Orderic Vitalis’s Ecclesiastical History (1130s).

Orderic told the story of a Norman priest called Walchelin, who describes his encounter on New Year’s night in 1091 with a mysterious procession of knights, ladies, priests, monks, and commoners, “like the movement of a great army,” among whom he recognized “many of his neighbours who had recently died.” At one point Walchelin says to himself, “Haec sine dubio familia Herlechini est” [Without a doubt this is Herlequin’s household]. At one point Walchelin grabs one of their horses by the reins and experiences an intense burning, and at another, one of the knights seizes him by the throat, leaving a scar which he carries to the grave. All the members of the procession suffer penitential torments for their former sins: one of the knights, for instance, tells Walchelin: “The arms which we bear are red-hot, and offend us with an appalling stench, weighing us down with intolerable weight, and burning with everlasting fire”.

In this description, Herlechinus appears as a giant who raise a huge club.

The other early description of Herlequin’s ride, written some fifty years later, is from Walter Map’s "De Nugis Curialium". Here a Welsh king called Herla encounters a diminutive Pan-like creature who predicts his future marriage and then strikes a bargain with him: he will attend Herla’s wedding on condition that the king help him celebrate his own wedding a year later. This creature, who is never named, turns out to be royal and shows up at Herla’s wedding with a splendid retinue bearing lavish gifts. The return visit, which involves passing through “a cave in a high cliff”, is equally successful, but when the time comes for him to leave, Herla’s host presents him with a small dog, with the instruction that none of his retinue is to dismount until the dog jumps down to the ground. He returns to his kingdom only to discover that hundreds of years have passed. Inevitably, some of his company dismount before the dog jumps down and are promptly turned to dust: “The King, comprehending the reason of their dissolution, warned the rest under pain of a like death not to touch the earth before the alighting of the dog. The dog has not yet alighted. And the story says that King Herla still holds on his mad course [circuitus vesanos] with his band in eternal wanderings, without stop or stay”. Later, Map refers to this band as “phalanges noctivage quas Herlethingi dicebant” [night-wandering battalions which they say are Herlething’s] or simply the “Herlethingi familia” [Herlething’s household].

Moreover, in a late thirteenth-century poem on confession, the priest is instructed to ask, “Creïs tu . . . / Ne [le luiton] ne la masnée / Herllequin, ne genes ne fees?” [Do you not believe . . . in the goblin, in the household of Herlequin, in witches, and fairies?], and an early fourteenth-century Dominican redaction of the Elucidarium, known as the Second Lucidaire, makes a similar association when it speaks (in the early sixteenth-century English translation) of “elues, gobelyns, & helquins þe whiche men se by nyght, as men of armes trottynge on horsebacke with grete assembles.” Another fourteenth-century author, Raoul de Presles, commenting on Augustine’s discussion of incubi demones in The City of God, recommends that his readers consult William of Auvergne on the topic, “and also he speaks in that place of Hellekin’s household and of Dame Habonde and of the spirits that they call fairies, which appear in stables and woods”. Finally, when the author of Richard the Redeless, referring no doubt to the duketti created by Richard II in 1397, writes, “Oþer hobbis Ϟe hadden / of Hurlewaynis kynne,” he explicitly associates Herlequin with hobs or fairies.

In Adam de la Halle’s brilliant farce “Le Jeu de la feuillée” (ca. 1255), the action of the play takes place in Arras on a feast day (perhaps May Day or possibly Midsummer’s Eve) and concerns a banquet held in honor of the fairies. The sound of bells leads a character called Gillot to anticipate the imminent arrival of “le maisnie Hellekin,” and when another character asks, “will the fairies be following him?” [venront dont les fees après], Gillot assures her that they will. In the event, Hellequin himself does not appear but later sends a messenger to Morgan (one of the three fairies who do) with a love letter; at first she spurns his offer, but after learning that her current beau, the Arrageois Robert Sommeillons, has been cheating on her, she regrets having rejected so peremptorily “the greatest prince in fairyland” [le graigneur / Prinche ki soit en faerie]. He is described, therefore, as a king and shown to be in some sense the leader of a fairy troupe.

How to start worshipping Hellequin?

See:

- https://elegantshapeshifter.tumblr.com/post/170758896566/historically-attested-offerings-for-the-major

- https://elegantshapeshifter.tumblr.com/post/171876985371/how-to-make-offerings-to-the-major-spirits-ie

- https://elegantshapeshifter.tumblr.com/post/171332375001/the-sabbath-or-ludus-bonae-societatis#notes

Sources:

- Richard Firth Green’s “Elf Queens and Holy Friars: Fairy Beliefs and the Medieval Church”

- Carlo Ginzburg’s “Ecstasies: Deciphering the Witches’ Sabbath” and “Night Battles: Witchcraft and Agrarian Cults in the Sixteenth and Seventeenth Centuries” - Jacob Grimm’s “Teutonic Mythology” - Claude Lecouteux’s “Phantom Armies of the Night: The Wild Hunt and the Ghostly Processions of the Undead” - Karl Meisen’s “Die Sagen vom wüttenden Heer und wilden Jäger” (paradoxically there is a translation in Italian but not in English) - Wolfgang Behringer’s “Shaman of Oberstdorf: Chonrad Stoeckhlin and the Phantoms of the Night” - Emma Wilby’s “Burchard’s strigae, the Witches’ Sabbath, and Shamanistic Cannibalism in Early Modern Europe”, “Cunning-Folk and Familiar Spirits” and “The Visions of Isobel Gowdie” - Eva Pocs’s “Between the Living and the Dead”, “Fairies and Witches at the Boundary of South-Eastern and Central Europe” and “Traces of Indo-European Shamanism in South East Europe”.

#hellequin #arlecchino #reconstructionist traditional witchcraft #wild hunt

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actualbird · 7 years

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been a while since ive recced some fics but here are some new stuff ive read and LOVED lately (previous fic rec lists | bmc fic rec page)

boyfs

Protector by DivineProjectZero

With Michael, he feels safe.

(wherein Jeremy Heere is scared of girls and Michael Mell is his last line of defense.)

okay this entire rec list is jenny’s fault because she just finished protector and i wanted to yell about it more than i already have. i know ive recced this before but now it’s COMPLETE AND YOU SHOULD ALL GO READ IT, FUUUUUUCCK.

ive been screaming about this fic ever since it started. it’s a fantastic, well written, hilarious, GUT WRENCHING masterpiece with all the fun things that makes a fake dating fic a joy to read + 10000 more incredible things. i have laughed out loud reading this fic. i have shed real fucking tears reading this fic. i nearly threw my phone out the window of a moving car, one memorable moment. please. just. if on the off chance you havent read this fic yet, please do. it’s a long, lovely journey that’s wonderfully written with fantastic characterization and chapters that have u clawing for MORE. im tryna stay vague about describing this fic bc i f i went into detail, this post would be too long.

read this fic. please. you will thank me, but u gotta thank jenny first for creating all of it.

It Don’t Mean a Thing (Cause He Ain’t Got That Swing) by AMRV_5

Jeremy loves jazz, but really, really, really can't play it. After a disastrous recital, he swears off jazz forever and gives up his dreams of performing to major in music education... until a fateful scheduling issue forces him into a jazz and improv class. There he meets Michael Mell, an insufferably cool bassist who doesn't know how talented he really is. Together, they have the potential to create something incredible. That is, if they can get along for even half a second.

okay so it takes A Lot for me to get into a WIP but holy SHIT im fucking obsessed with this fic!!!! it is exactly what is says on the cover and so much more. this fic is PHENOMENAL. i know nothing about music, but the way it’s written makes me not just understand whats going on but feel just how charged that scene is too. I DIDNT KNOW DUETS/QUARTETS COULD HAVE THIS MUCH FUCKING TENSION, BUT THIS FIC DOES IT, and i dont even know what any of the technical shit means!! just. it’s execution is done so so well, im fucking floored. like. this entire fic is very well written, but the music scenes are dripping with skill. if im not making sense, i guess youll just have to read the fic to get what im talking about //eyes emoji

another thing among Many Things that knocks it out of the ballpark in this fic is the characterization. jeremy. oh god, jeremy. i wont spoil, but this version of jeremy is by far one of the most interesting interpretations ive ever seen and it’s pulled off fantastically. our boy has a lot more bite in this fic and i love it. it’s so good. god. everybody in this fic is so good. god. looks like you’ll have to read the fic to get what im talking about //eyes emoji but more intense

JUST!! READ THIS FIC!! START FOLLOWING THIS FIC!!! it’s got Pining and Slowburn and Misunderstandings and some of The Most engaging scenes ive read in a long time. this whole fic is so clever and so crisp and each update has me fucking screaming.

a little unsteady by starlithorizons

Michael's hidden domain has always been the rollerskating rink - a home away from home. Jeremy isn't so suited for the environment.

Maybe he can fix that.

OHHHH gosh this. this fic is so good?? it’s like the ideal fluff imo??? like, it’s not all Perfect and happy but that little conflict that happens just kinda emphasizes how these boys can always work to make things Better and Happy and it just warms my heart lots. the pov here is so lovely to read because it’s michael “hearteyes” mell and it’s Beautiful. the jokes r in this fic are hilarious and land so well. this is such a prime feel-good fic i Love It Lots.

flash point by Kalopsia

you know what they say, jeremy heere. those who play with fire are bound to get burned.

(Jeremy kisses Michael on a worn red leather couch the summer before their junior year. Then he takes the Squip, and it’s all ablaze from there.)

i HONESTLY do not have words to either praise this in the way it deserves to be praised which seems to be a mcfcuking trademark for emma’s writing hksjfdshh. but god. this fic is a breathtaking read with fantastic imagery and beautiful overarching metaphor hhhh!!! the emotions are so clear and!!! //aggressive gesturing!! just read it!!!!

a crimson headache, aching blush [series] by pondify

He supposes that it began, as it always does, with Michael.

a series of short yet HEARTBREAKING fics. every fic is a study of jeremy’s pining while he’s in a fwb relationship with michael and. jesus. this series is a testament to how much punch you can pull in short scenes. fucking incredible writing right here.

meremine

Gewissensbisse by Nymm_At_Night

Old rumors get a new lease on life, high school is shit, and Jeremy, Christine and Michael learn to make it a three player game.

AAAAGGGHHH GOD THIS FIC WAS SO FUCKING GOOD. this fic does not shy away from so many issues and consequences that happen post-musical, and reading it hurts so much at times but it all comes together and it’s ridiculously satisfying. this fic is super well rounded cuz it’s got so much and it’s all done AMAZINGLY?? characterization and writing are INCREDIBLE here. the humor in this fic is so well done i was clutching my sides wheezing at times. and overall, just watching jeremy go through everything +++ being in love with TWO people is such a ride. such a fantastic ride.

pinkberry

sweet like vanilla is by loveinamaltshop

Brooke didn’t deserve to love someone like her. She deserved the complete opposite of Chloe—kind and maybe a little shy and nerdy but was constantly and needlessly good to her. Someone constantly smiling like she is, too. Someone like Jeremy.

She looks at Michael, who’s so close to passing out and wonders if she looks exactly like he does right now. Tired and pathetic. Rubbing at her face, she decides she definitely does.

— In which Chloe and Brooke are both insecure in ways they'll never admit to the other.

THIS FIC HURTS BUT GOD, IT’S SO DONE WELL. multipov with phenomenal characterizations for every character, this fic is a heartbreaking peek into tiny tragedies. the scenes in this fic are simple yet brutal and yet so undeniably real and human. this fic is beautifully written, and if you can handle unrequited feelings pain, you definitely need to fucking read this.

when i'm close to you (we blend into my favourite colour) by sulfuric

statistically, most people don't take more than five seconds to say something to their soulmate after realizing the universe has paired them together. brooke and chloe take approximately six years, but better late than never, right?

soulmate au!! this fic quite literally one of the most gorgeous pieces ive ever read. the writing is incredible and the imagery is so vivid at the soulmate universe, something im not usually a fan of, is turned into an incredible setting for a riveting love story. the character povs are incredible and every emotion is conveyed so well. sometimes too well bc hjhksdfhshh pain but really, this fic is a masterpiece, jesus. JESUS!!

happy reading everybody! leave comments and kudos on fics u liked!! fic writers are So Good and we’re So Lucky

#bmc #bmc fic rec #will add these to my ficrec page shortly!!#jhkjdfhhh i only managed to pull comments out of my brain for protector and aint got that swing and the pinkberrys but i will Return #in the mean time //banging pots and pans at followers. HEY!!!

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Fanfic MST: ITS MY LIFE!, a Portal fanfic [part 12]

Oh yes, friends, it’s back! It’s been entirely too long (two years too long, to be exact) and I hope you’re all ready for some more vaguely Portal-flavored nonsense.

No real warnings for this chapter, just typical MarissaTheWriter ridiculousness. And canon character death, maybe, depending on whether or not you take the events of this chapter at face value (and, if I remember this story correctly, you probably shouldn’t).

Recap: Chell and GLaDOS have fused into one entity, P-body is pregnant, and Marissa for some reason decided that Rattman is the only one who can prevent disaster even though dude is strictly a non-action guy. She located him and now the two of them are planning on taking down the Chell/GLaDOS fusion.

Chapter 1

Previous chapter

AN YOU GUYSARE ALL SO WEIRD! YOU WERE GIVIN ME GOOD REVIEWS THEN YOU SAY IM A TROLL AN THAT YUR GONNA KILL ME AN PUT SALT IN MY THINGS?

That is pretty weird, yeah.

(I’m not even sure what she’s referencing. Maybe a play on “assault”?)

IF IT WERENT FOR THE PEPOLE HOO REALLY LICK MY STORY LIKE THE BUZINESS GUY AN SEPHRAL AN CAT NOT BOUNCY ID STOP IT RITE NOW!

I dunno who Sephral is, but “the buziness guy” is user ASBusinessMagnet (later a recurring character in MarissaTheWriter’s stories; I’m pretty sure we got married at one point), and “Cat Not Bouncy” is Tumblr user catbountry, who was going by “Not Cat Bountry” on Fanfiction dot net and who did a dramatic reading.

PS - I NO THAT GLADOS IS SPELLED GLADOS I CALLED HER FUSION CHELLGADOS BECOS CHELL ALREADY HAS THE LS AN IT SOUNDED MORE COOLER!

See, I told you she’d explain that. All makes sense now, right? Perfectly logical writing decision.

ITS MY LIFE!

CHAPTER TWELF: THE FINAL BATTLE

Bit of a misnomer, since this is not, in fact, the final chapter.

(Actually, if I remember correctly, MarissaTheWriter may have been writing by the seat of her pants; it’s possible she initially intended this as the True and Honest Final Battle.)

Ratman an I were goin thru the air ducks to get to CHELLGADOSs layer were the final show down wold be.

Oh my god, she means her lair, not her layer. That literally took me years to figure out. Holy fuck.

Wheatly was growlin an tryin to be scarry becos he didant have weapons so he was lick are cheer leader.

Considering what happens when Wheatley actually tries to be the bad guy, I think this is preferable.

We intered the layer an saw CHELLGADOS buildin turrents but these ones was speshal becos they cold walk a round an shoot an stuff!

Hey, I played Portal 2, I saw the turret assembly line. It’s pretty much autonomous. She doesn’t have to build them herself, and honestly I think she’d find it beneath her.

But maybe things have changed since I left the building.

"INTURDER!" One of the turrents called to CHELLGADOS. CHELLGADOS looked at me with all the angry she ever had.

That’s a phenomenal amount of anger. Surprised Marissa didn’t combust on the spot.

"Marrissa Roberts you have interfeared with my plans for the last time becos now I will kill you."

All right! Time for some murder!

Then she seed Ratman an got more angry. "RATMAN IS A LIFE? NOW YOU WILL BOTH DYE!"

I doubt she cares about killing Rattman, considering that she didn’t do so before and that he poses basically no threat on his own. Like I said… non-action guy.

CHELLGADOS taked out her portal gun wich was modified to shoot bullets lick a reel gun but cold shoot portals to just in case.

Okay, but does it really shoot bullets? I ask because the turrets use spring-loaded action in order to fire the entire bullet, which is obviously a hell of a lot less effective despite delivering more bullet per bullet. Explains why Chell can take so many hits without dying.

Point being, there’s no evidence Aperture Science knows how guns are supposed to work.

She fired the portal gun an it hit Ratman with a boom an I thot he was dead for sure.

But Ratman gotted up!

What? Is he still alive?

"Silly CHELLGADOS you cannt hurt me becos..." He pulled down his pants an I saw that he had replased his man thingys with... the space an rick cores!

…I know we’re leading up to a “balls of steel” joke, and I shan’t comment on that, but this raises so many goddamn questions. How do you replace your testicles with personality cores? A personality core is a hell of a lot bigger, and heavier, than a human testicle. Also, Space Core is in space, so how did Rattman get ahold of him? Did he shrink the cores somehow? How did this make him immune to bullets? How did he fit two personality cores in his pants? Why did he need to flash everybody?

My brain is hurting over this and I know it’s only in the story because the author wanted to make a stupid pun. Moving the hell on.

"IVE GOT BALLS OF STEEL!" (Thats from a game called Duke Nukum Forever its funny) The space core was still thing he was in space but Rick was mad at been one off Ratmans tentacles.

One of his tentacles? Are we in a hentai now?

"Well then ill just portal you into space like Wheatly an see how you like it you wont!" CHELLGADOS shooted a nother portal unner Ratmans feet an he was sucked into s space. "No dont you are my dotter Chell!" Ratman yelled as he got sucked in.

Uh… what? How? I thought Marissa and Chell were both Cave and Caroline’s kids in this story. Wasn’t that established several chapters ago?

"OMG HOW?" CHELLGADOS an me said at the same time to gether. "It all storted a long time ago..." Ratman gave us the down lo as he was just barely hanging on to the portal. "I used to work for Gabe Jonson affer he changed his name to Cave in onor of his dead brother. Caroline was got shot as you no Marrissa an was put in a robot body that was called... GLaDOS!"

Right, we know. How is he hanging on to the portal? Can you do that? I don’t think you can do that.

CHELLGADOS o-mouthed at his shockin words.

Did she forget she spent the beginning of this story being a goth emo over the revelation that she used to be human? Like… this isn’t news anymore.

"Gabe new he wold have to dotters named Marrissa an Chell but since GLaDOS was a prototip she an Cave coldnt make baby normal way an instead used the artificial enseamanation an grew test toob babys.

Hey, what the fuck is the “normal way” to have sex with a giant robot? Seriously, please inbox me if you know. It’s for a friend. I swear.

But there was a miksup an my dna got used instead of Gabes for one of the toobs that toob was... CHELL!" Then Rutman coldnt hold on any longer an fell into space an died.

Why did Aperture Science have a sperm sample from Rattman on file? How did they get DNA from Caroline, since her physical human body no longer exists? How does Rattman know about the mixup? Who carried the baby to term? How did two white people birth a woman of color? How did two white people birth a woman of color? I don’t know if I brought this up earlier in the MST, but I am directing that question at every “Chell is Cave and Caroline’s daughter” theorist too. You’re not off the fucking hook.

Then CHELLGADOS started shackin an looked funny. Chell was fightin back a gainst GLaDOSs control! "Marrissa there is not much time left you must kill me to stopped GLaDOS once and four all!"

Okay, but we know what happens when Marissa kills Chell — thanks to having consumed the “zombie taters,” Chell will just turn into a zombie. You don’t want the most tenacious woman in the world after your brains, but especially not when she’s fused with the most massive collection of wisdom to ever exist, who also hates you.

I o-mouthed becos Chells brane damage was cured so now I coldnt put her out of MISERY lol.

That’s actually not the concern I expected Marissa to have. She has no problem killing disabled people, but being fused with a homicidal AI who is using your body as her puppet is A-OK, even when the victim is begging for death?

Man, this girl could use some new priorities.

"But I cannt kill you Chell yur my sister there must be a nother way! Chell got sad "Hurry GLaDOS is takin control!" An she started lollin with evil. There was no way I cold kill Chell an then I rembered that GLaDOS used to be Carlion an that made me not want to kill herr neither.

Yeah, and remember how she used to be a well-written and complex character who cannot be reduced to a mere villain and who actually likes Chell so much she keeps writing songs about it?

Sorry, there I go talking about canon again.

"Bloody hell Marrissa shes powerin up!" Wheatly screemed from inside my jump soot an I looked up an saw CHELLGADOS was floatin in air an electric stuff was comin out off her. "THANKS MARRISSA YUO REMINDED ME THAT I USED TO BE CARALIN SO I REMBERED THAT I HAVE POWERS TOO!"

Hey, uh, what the fuck?

I o-mouthed, that dumb ingineer forgot to make it so only I gotted the powers! I didant no what to do now an it seemed hope less when a herd a sound. "Hey b**** were heer for backup!" It was... ATLAS AN P-BODY!

Who are they here to back up?

"OMG why are you jersk helpin me?" I asked while o-mouthin from the shock. "Becos CHELLGADOS is half yur sister an we dont lick you so we dont lick Chell neither!" Atlas eksplained. "An I rembered that you gave us the drugs an beer in the first place so if it wasnt for you we woldnt have drugs an beer!" P-Body added an Atlas nodded like yeah!

I guess that’s reasonable. I, too, feel indebted to those who give me drugs and beer.

We started ti fire are portal guns at CHELLGADOS an the portals combined to make a big portal black hole.

Co-op mode would benefit from the inclusion of this feature, I think.

"OH SH**!" CHELLGADOS screamed as the GLaDOS parts were all sucked out off Chell.

Should have attached them better, I guess.

Ones all of GLadOS was gone we closed the portal an Chell falled down on the ground. "Chell I safed you!" I rant to my sister an gave her hug. "Marrissa Im sorry, but the damaje from GLaDOS was to much..."

“…not to mention, having my butt sliced off after someone used their powers a little too recklessly…”

An she dyed in my arms. "Nooooo Chell my sister you are died!" I cried soooo much an Whealty cried to becos they was frends even Atlas an P-Body looked kinna sad.

Isn’t Chell gonna turn into a zombie now or are we not doing the zombie stuff anymore? Was that only because she was brain-damaged? This fic is confusing.

I put down Chells body an stand up when there was a clikclak nose be hind me.

Oh no! Not a clikclak nose!

"LOL we tricked you to get yur guard down Marrissa! Now die b****!" An Atlas an P-Body lolled an shot me in head.

I’ve probably mentioned it before, but I love that the author of this mess has no problem writing over-the-top violence but feels the need to censor the word “bitch.”

"Marrissa!" Wheatly screamed an ever thing got really black an I died.

Love the prose.

TO BE CONTINUED?

Yes, indeed, we’re not done with this fic yet!

OH NO MARRISSA IS DIED!

Oh, yes.

CAN WHEATLY SAFE HER?

Well, seeing as she’s dead, I think it may be a bit late for that.

FIND OUT IN THE NEXT ONE PS IM THINKIN OF MAYBE WRITIN A SPINNOFF A BOUT TEEN FORTRESS 2 AN GABE JONSON AN CARALION LIVIN IN PORTAL HIGH SCHOOL WHAT DO YOU GUYS THIN?

She actually did write that spinoff, by the way. I’ll put my MST of it up on this blog at some point.

Next chapter

#itsmylife.mst #fandom:portal #halfworld.mst

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eathealthylivefree · 6 years

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Take Time for Mental Health

When did you last take a vacation day?

I’m not asking when you last took a vacation; instead, when did you take a day off for yourself?

Sadly, over half of Americans end the year with unused vacation days, collectively sacrificing 662 million days off. The Project Time Off report found that compared to employees who use all of their vacation time, employees who end the year with unused vacation time are lower performers: they are less likely to have been promoted within the last year and less likely to have received a raise or bonus in the last three years. Furthermore, those who fail to use their vacation time report feeling more stressed than those who use all of their vacation time.

While I don’t always take vacations, about once a month I take a vacation day to spend time with my nephew. I call these days my mental health days. They provide me with a mental break from my work and allow me to spend time in a low stress environment. My nephew and I almost always spend time together outside, and we sometimes do activities together like coloring or reading story books. I find great joy in watching this little man explore the world around him!

Playing “house” with my nephew

For me, these days are pre-planned. I believe that it’s important to take time for yourself to do activities that you enjoy to help prevent and cope with stress, and I try to practice that in my personal life. If this is a new concept to you, identify a few stress coping strategies you might use to take time for yourself when you need it, such as:

Spending time in nature

Working on a project in your home or yard

Doing yoga, tai chi or another physical activity

Pursuing a craft or hobby

Practicing mindfulness, gratitude or meditation

Additionally, you might find that you have days when it makes sense to use a sick day as a mental health day. Just as there are days when you find it better to call in sick to work than attempt to power through the day because you feel lousy physically, we all have days when anxiety and stress are too distracting to perform our best. When this is the case, go ahead and call off – and don’t feel guilty about doing so! If you had the flu, no one would blame you for calling off sick. Learn to prioritize your mental health as much as your physical health, and do what you need to do to take care of yourself.

Sources:

Heer, C. & Rini, J. (2016). Stress Coping Methods. Ohioline. https://ohioline.osu.edu/factsheet/hyg-5242

Morin, A. (2017). How to know when to take a mental health day. Psychology Today. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/what-mentally-strong-people-dont-do/201707/how-know-when-take-mental-health-day

Zillman, C. (2017) Americans are still terrible at taking vacations. Fortune. http://fortune.com/2017/05/23/vacation-time-americans-unused/

Written by: Jenny Lobb, Family and Consumer Sciences Educator, Ohio State University Extension, Franklin County, [email protected]

Reviewed by: Misty Harmon, Family and Consumer Sciences Educator, Ohio State University Extension, Perry County, [email protected]

from Live Healthy Live Well https://ift.tt/2KHcMjb

#Live Healthy Live Well

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ao3feed-bemorechill · 4 years

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mending things

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2ScFtdT

by winchestered_again

Jeremy heere was a liar.

He lied about what the squip did to him to his best friend.

Who knew that the truth would come to haunt him?

-or-

Jeremy can't stay away from Michael for long, and he definitely can't keep his problems bottled up

The prompt: "Angsty post-squip Michael with short Michael and tall Jeremy. Also hurt/comfort. Thank you! And they're Boyf Riends of course. "

Words: 1293, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 18 of One Shots

Fandoms: Be More Chill - Iconis/Tracz

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Jeremy Heere, Michael Mell, Rich Goranski (mentioned)

Relationships: Jeremy Heere/Michael Mell, Jeremy Heere & Michael Mell

Additional Tags: Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, more hurt than comfort tho cause thats how we roll here, but the comfort is there, Stars, Anxiety, Jeremy thinks too much, but thats expected bc im horrible at dialogue, and thats a part of how i see his character, also the height differences are more implied than shown but, anyways jeremy is an anxious mess, its rated T because of (1) curse word towards the end, Post-Canon, post squip, they mostly patch things up off-screen, but it starts on-screen, if that makes sense, michael is shorter than jeremy btw, Established Relationship, but jeremy doesnt know if they're still together, im here to tell you they are, also i dont think the summary makes sense but oh well, and everything turns out okay

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2ScFtdT

#IFTTT #ao3feed #fanfic #bmc #be more chill #boyf riends

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ao3feed-yurionice · 5 years

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Wonderland Crossover AU

by Weary13

"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct the other way — in short, the period was so far like the present period, that some of its noisiest authorities insisted on its being received, for good or for evil, in the superlative degree of comparison only." — A Tale of Two Cities, by Charles Dickens

Words: 140, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!, 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia, Soul Eater, Yuri!!! on Ice (Anime), Be More Chill - Iconis/Tracz, Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson, ナンバカ | Nanbaka, Wakfu, Original Work

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Characters: Kageyama Tobio, Jeremy Heere, Nakatsukasa Tsubaki, everyone else, from every fandom, Olive - Character, Apple - Character, Ixo - Character, Sparky - Character, Kiwi - Character

Relationships: Relationship Tags May Be Added

Additional Tags: Wonderland AU, My First AO3 Post, this'll probably be shit but let's go for it yall, you dont have to know the fandoms for this, nothing makes sense anyway, throw ur logic out the window kiDs its time for a story, title will change

source http://archiveofourown.org/works/17422784

#IFTTT #ao3feed #fanfic #yuri on ice

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ao3feed-haikyuu · 5 years

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Wonderland Crossover AU

read it on the AO3 at http://bit.ly/2TK9Aao

by Weary13

Words: , Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Characters: Kageyama Tobio, Jeremy Heere, Nakatsukasa Tsubaki, everyone else, from every fandom, Olive - Character, Apple - Character, Ixo - Character, Sparky - Character, Kiwi - Character

Relationships: Relationship Tags May Be Added

read it on the AO3 at http://bit.ly/2TK9Aao

#haikyuu!!#haikyuu #hq #ao3feed #fanfic #haikyu #ハイキュー!!

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morningpages-louise · 6 years

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August 07, 2018

just tryna keep my cool amidst the last 3 weeks of school wew omg how to keep sane po. taking everything one step at a time and making sure my schedule is aligned and wont stress the fuck out of me. we got this. we got this. so what ive been doing these past few hours is pretty much sorting my life out. cleaning, rearranging, organizing and the usual. im feeling quite tired. i t was a relatively chill day in school today since i had 2 subjects lang and they were both minors and the workload was relatively chill i managed to get out of both classes quite early. i also managed to watch around 3-4 episodes of terrace house lol and im now in season 2 i mean season 1 but part 2 shet dude its addicting as hell. right now i am just admiring the cleanliness of my condo lol im such a sucker for clean places talaga im sorry im such a neat freak sometimes i feel like a robot with all these things i must complete. sometimes i forget to put my heart in the stuff i do which was why i established these morning habits ("morning" lol) in the first place dba? i must never forget that the purpose of these morning routines and habits were to become a better person overall. whats the point if im literally just doing it just for the sake of doing it you know. so yeah its nice to stop and contemplate before i rush off to do school work. the other things on my agenda are to do yoga and to take a bath. kaya this. this shall be the motto to get me past these 3 weeks. the end is evident. it is near. omg wait lang garbage boy is heere and the garbage is gone so yeah how am i feeling hmmmm well i feel very wired. to be honest while i actually do have a lot of school work to do it is very kaya so i dont know why it is that im so stressed or overhyping this stress i feel. i dont know why im riddled with anxiety and sense of urgency. i just need to calm the fuck down and meditate. i feel like if i meditate now im gonna fall asleep tho lol or do some yoga quite tired i could definitely use a nap lol i actually got like 9 hours of sleep today tho which is great and im probably gonna get the same amount of sleep tomorrow since my class still starts at 12:45 huhu pero ill push myself to finish the task i ntended to do today which is to complete my introph so i dont have it in the back of my head the whole time. the end is imminent. itis imminent indeed. just slow down, relax and happiness will come your way. im tryingnot to look at the screen and damn am i good at typing, hardly and typos which is pretty damn cool. we are the generation that more or less grew up with the laptop underneath our fingers imagine what it would be like for the next generations noh.. so yeah ive been falling back on myself lately because i feel very anxious i dont know and ive been stalking my ex a lot recently which is horrible it all started kasi with looking at his likes, seeing him like a tweet that could be for me i dont know so yeah kaya to. i just need to relax and let this week flow through me. not try so hard to control everything and be a mess at the end. the goal of myself this week is to not freakout lol i got this. kaya to. god am i sleey i think i shall take a nap after this.. kristine is leaving tomrorrow which is kinda sad. i will miss having one more roomate in this condo pero shes literally coming back in like a week so i guess it isnt all bad. she'll be accompanying me during the long weekend. lol im just thinking of last terms break and how i loved the fact that we both ended school at the same time. it felt very fun because our schedules matched up for once. i am literally closing my eyes as i type this, this is how tired i feel. so yeah woah im starting to dream lol im gonna go now goodbye talk to you tomorrow and hopefully in the morning!

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actualbird · 7 years

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BIRD BIRD BIRD I JUST THOUGHT OF AN AU IDEA ok ok mind reader michael. jeremy is in class one day, thinkin dirty thoughts as per the usual, and he suddenly gets paranoid like we all do when we do that shit and he thinks "if anyone in here is a mind reader, cough if you can hear me." and he. he hears a cough. and jeremy freezes and turns around to face michael mell, this kid he's had a crush on for a while but never talked to, and he thinks "cough if you can hear me," again. (cont)

EDIT: anon is @transtarks!!!! this au baby was created first and foremost in his wonderful brain

oh my GOD!!! wow so im very in love with mind reader!michael. before tackling that hilarious scenario, theres like. so much to explore here

MICHAEL who can READ MINDS. in ur sitch, you imply that he cant talk back into minds, which is just so lonely, i think. he’ll learn pretty early that what he’s got isn’t Normal after many instances of him answering questions that werent asked or him knowing things he shouldnt. his mom needs to sit him down and tell him that they’re a little different. not bad. just different. but that other people dont like this and you have to be quiet about it.

which michael find endlessly unfair. he has to be the quiet one when he has to deal with the constant chatter of minds all around him that never stops? it sucks, but he’s read enough xmen to understand why.

but it is NOISY. his headphones are godsend and music does a lot to help, but those can only go so far in drowning out the noise.

some thoughts are quiet and michael needs to strain to hear the words past the soft murmurs. things like his mom making a grocery list in her head or some kid he passed by on the sidewalk counting red cars as they drove by. mundane things are quiet, but the more emotional they get, the louder they become. happy thoughts are loud thoughts, but so are angry ones and terrified ones.

and it doesnt just equate to sound. to a certain degree, michael can feel thoughts, if they are strong enough. which is pretty much hell on michael’s senses. happy thoughts feel nice, but too much is overwhelming. dont even get him started on negative thoughts. those feel like bile and nails against a chalkboard.

against all odds, michael gets used to it. he finds his own ways to cope with the side effects of being plugged in to everybody else’s mind, but the one thing he couldnt deal with was the loneliness.

constantly, he feels like he’s intruding. while mind reading comes with so many cons, michael sees himself at an unfair advantage concerning everybody else. after all, he knows things about people before they say it. sometimes he knows things about people that they maybe didnt want anybody to know. it’s hard to make friends in that kind of situation.

and it’s really hard not being able to tell anybody at all.

ENTER JEREMY “SEX THOUGHTS IN CLASS” HEERE

oh boy okay so. michael probably knows jeremy. not knows-him-as-a-friend, but he’s heard his mind before. jeremy’s head is…a bit of a mess.

(see, michael has come across a lot of minds in his life. some minds are more organized than others. some are bustling with energy while others a bit more subdued. some are bright and others are so dark michael has to stop himself from crying in public. often, he wonders what his mind looks like, but he cant really trust his mom when she only says nice things because she’s his mom. )

anyway, jeremy’s mind is like being inside a washing machine. things tumbling everywhere. jeremy’s head does not shut up. ever. the kid is always thinking about stuff like “oh, im walking pretty weird, i gotta fix that” or “she’s looking at me. what did i do? is there something on my face? is it my face?” or, and this one pops up a lot it makes michael’s heart hurt, “i wish i wasnt like this”

(so many times, michael almost speaks to jeremy out of nowhere to just. compliment the guy. he’s really not as bad as he thinks himself out to be. jeremy’s head might be self destructing 24/7, but he’s a good person. and he’s cute too WHATEVER. but michael is pretty sure that if he tells jeremy that his hair is nice, jeremy will spiral into paranoia where he’ll think michael is fucking with him. so michael doesnt say anything. he just silently hopes that maybe jeremy gets a day or two where his mind can stop beating himself up over every tiny thing)

michael gets to know jeremy’s anxiety before he gets to know jeremy, and thats mostly because in addition to never shutting up, jeremy’s brain is also very loud. maybe it has something to do with how jeremy is always on edge, but michael doesnt know. what he does know is that jeremy heere, professional anxious teenager, decides to spend this math class just thinking about sex. LOUDLY.

it starts with a stray thought about the porn jeremy watched last night then it spirals into various random fantasies and michael wants to jump out the window. not because any of it is weird!!! but just because this is WAY TOO PERSONAL. michael tries his best to concentrate on parabolas, but jeremy throws up an image of GAHHH!! he tries to concentrate on trisha in the front row who’s got a bad case of song-stuck-in-head, which is the next best thing to real music but then jeremy goddamn heere derails him with LOUD MOANING. (which might??? be his????)

record scratch. jeremy’s head goes eerily quiet. then, very deliberately, he thinks “ if anyone in here is a mind reader, cough if you can hear me.”

it’s RIDICULOUS but it’s also the first time he’s ever been addressed in this way. it’s kind of incredible, and all the “dont tell anybody” momentarily disappears in the face of jeremy “sex thoughts” heere talking to him using his head.

so he coughs. and jeremy turns his head. they make eye contact and michael very deliberately starts coughing.

jeremy’s head is quiet for a tense few seconds

then jeremy thinks, “well fuck”

and thus starts the very awkward beginning of michael and jeremy’s friendship. the possibilities for this are endless but this answer is already too long khfkjdfh

#bmc #mind reader au #ANON THANK U FOR THIS IT'S A FANTASTIC CONCEPT WITH SO MANY POSSIBILITIES #asks

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is there anyway you'd consider adding the "I wanna cut to the feeling" fic on your fic recs list so we can read it over and over again cause lord it was pu r e

you are COMPLETELY RIGHT, ANON. tho tbh i will also use this oppurtunity to make an entire fic rec list because so many good fics have happened since i made my last list

here are all the previous bmc fic recs ive made and here (FINALLY) is my bmc fic rec page. which has, in my opinion, some rlly useful pixel legends. without further ado, heres som GOOD STUFF

i wanna cut to the feeling by sulfuric/ @playertwojer

jeremy can sing but he won’t let michael hear him. michael decides to embark on a Mission to change that and finds out that carly rae jepsen just might save the world, after all.

THE MAIN CULPRIT IN QUESTION. god this fic is SO FUN AND SO SWEET AND SO DORKY AND BEAUTIFUL. i read this while in class and this was a mistake because i could NOT STOP SMILING??? reading this fic just makes you fucking happy GOD

how to repress your every emotion (and why you maybe sometimes shouldn’t): a guide by jeremy heere by sulfuric/ @playertwojer

michael and jeremy go on a camping trip. jeremy isn’t good at outdoors or feelings, but he ends up diving headfirst into both, anyways.

while we’re at it, pls read this fic too because it’s quite honestly the cutest yet most in character jeremy pov thing ive ever read?? like the voice here is so spot on. it’s awkward but beautiful and is that not jeremy heere in a nutshell. love yourself. read this fic

Temporal Vertigo [series] by Micheofftrash

It was a Thursday when Michael Mell went missing.

[A story of dimension-splitting video games, a dozen roses, and a boss fight to remember.]

okay so those past two recs have been fluff so to add contrast, read this series (two fics, totaling 10k) if you wanna fucking CRY. because i CRIED. god, these fics were gorgeous and painful. the first is an almost heartbreaking study in what the absence of a person can do, and the second is the consequences of being that person. im not making sense, but if youre in the mood for something that will hurt, read this. it’s fucking incredible

M.A.S.H. by @hurricanesunny

Jake and Jeremy pass the time trying to tell the future.

fuk u sunny i’ll rec u all i want. jake and jeremy play mash and it’s BEAUTIFUL. i havent read any other jake pov fics but i guess im going to have to use this one as my basis because it knocked it outta the ballpark. hilarious. sweet. sincere. reading this fic feels like holding hands. READ THIS U COWARDS!!!!

Engagement Sequence by Kalopsia/ @danisnotofire

“You shot my fucking client,” Michael growls. The phone, on speaker a few inches away, practically rattles with Michael’s vaguely concealed anger.

“No,” Jeremy says, his voice calm as he carefully folds his one good suit and places it into his bag. He has no idea who he’s talking about, but it doesn’t matter. “I shot my fucking mark.”

There’s silence on the other end, and for a moment Jeremy thinks he’s hung up. But then he speaks again. “I’m going to shoot you.”

“Find me first,” Jeremy challenges, because this is who the Squip has made him, this is who he is, and clicks the red button to end the call.

Jeremy and Michael are both assassins. They’re not looking, but they find each other anyway.

NOTHING i say will do this piece justice AT ALL. this fic KILLED ME. brutal and poetic writing style. reverse chronology interspersed between vignettes done so well. a goddamn compelling story. fuck!!! stop reading me rambling about this fic and just read the fic itself, u wont regret!! getting killed by it!!!!

you say you’re okay (I’m gonna heal you anyway) by DivineProjectZero/ @listentotheshityousay

The thing is, they’re both broken.

SPEAKING OF FICS THAT WILL KILL YOU, WOW!!!!! i dont want to say a goddamn thing about this fic because spoilers but just. magical realism to die for. a painful, complicated relationship. a writing style that grabs u by the THROAT and does not let go. jesus goddamn CHRIST. read…this fic…..

Protector by DivineProjectZero/ @listentotheshityousay

With Michael, he feels safe.

(wherein Jeremy Heere is scared of girls and Michael Mell is his last line of defense.)

i cant fucking believe i havent recced this before holy SHT!! anyway fake dating but completely real feelings??? HERE IT IS. this piece is HILARIOUS but also HURTS SO MUCH. will u laugh or cry?? the answer is yes.

SO TADAA!!! HAPPY READING EVERYBODY. dont forget to kudos and comment on fics u like!!!!

#im tagging u if i kno u so u will just have to DEAL with my love whatever!!!#i havent actually been reading too many fics lately :((( thats why most of the fics here are by the buds omg #bmc fic rec #asks

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i LOVE ur bmc fics omg i cried while reading them and also you make me actually laugh while reading them which is just... ugh amazing

aaaaa thank you!! i very much cherish both ur tears and laughs :^D

as for recs, well i havent actually read that much, but here r some of my faves in my ao3 history (theyre all boyf riends shfkjdfskjfh).

Straight guy worries he’s homophobic to gay roommate by Abbigaynerd

Jeremy is being homophobic, and has no idea how to stop it.

probably the first bmc fic i read? HILARIOUS. POOR OBTUSE JEREMY.

A newer, cooler version by Abbigaynerd

Jeremy’s squip looks like the person he trusts most

a collection of scenes wherein the squip looks like Michael. it’s short and sweet but by far my favorite take on this concept. explores the very real consequence of such a possibility GOSH.

The Risk I Took Was Calculated, but Man, Am I Bad at Math by generally

When you’ve run out of options like Michael Mell has, paying $400 to be the world’s biggest hypocrite doesn’t seem so bad. Until it is.

WIP!! summary and tags show the setup p clearly: Michael gets a squip. it’s only 2 chapters in but theres just something incredible about the tension in the writing, not to mention the character motivations. im on the EDGE OF MY SEAT for updates!

We survived after all by Ultimate_Bitch

Jenna Rolan decides it’s a good idea to add all of her friends into a group chat.

Somehow, she ends up being sort of right.

WIP! I LOVE CHATFICS and i p much follow every chatfic on the bmc tag like a hawk but this one is my favorite. the humor in this one is just so good, plus the addition of narrative scenes rlly brings the whole piece together.

Rich and Michael are BFFs [series] by somethingcleverimsure

After the SQUIP everyone became close friends, it makes sense for Michael and Rich to be friends now as well, Jeremy just doesn’t know why it seems to matter so much that they have, or why it bothers him so much.

a series with 3 fics so far!! all of them are 5+1 exploring what it says on the tin. SO GOOD!

On the Cusp by left_uncovered

It should be weird, for his best friend to be jerking him off because a super computer made him sexually dysfunctional, but it isn’t. It’s just – Michael, who he trusts more than anyone in the world. And this is just another thing they do together, like video games or paintball or rollerblading.

Jeremy hasn’t touched himself since the SQUIP conditioned him not to. Michael finds out and lends a hand.

EXPLICIT!! ohhhhhh my godf i havent stopped thinking about this fic since i read it it’s so goodhsdfkdsfh,,,,jer wants to bust a nut,,,,in the background,,,michael wants to bust his feelings,,,,what more could you WANT

Multitasking by the_impardis

oh look another unnecessary page 80 referencing fic because Jeremy Heere is horny trash who can’t keep it in his pants even over the phone.

EXPLICIT!! jhfkjsverubd there are a billion fics based on the notorious Page 80 but this one is my personal FAVE.

apart from these, im sure there are like TONS of great bmc fic on the ao3 tag, which is still p easy to navigate given theres only roughly 400ish fics on the tag. dont forget to leave kudos and comments for fics u like! happy reading!!!

#asks #bmc #fic rec #i dont get much reading done bc im busy writing chz HAHA #anon

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