#verse. yours from the start

[goldensunset]

O you, who at the world's far-off end dwell,

I know your wish- it is my wish as well.

#ephemer #khux #khml #kingdom hearts #kh #missing link #kingdom hearts union x #kingdom hearts missing link #kh ephemer #thinking about... how among the people in scala he's this legendary figure #but from a personal point of view he was simply someone riddled with grief #he founded a new world but he did so alone when he should have been with all his friends... #mine: kh #my art #so time may or may not have gotten away from me... i started this drawing in July. lol #the caption is part of old verse 2 from pokémon legends arceus #the entirety of which is absolutely perfect for ephemer but would be too long #i'll just write it in tags here: #'o you; who at the world's far-off ends dwell; i know your wish- it is my wish as well. #my own beloved is now gone from me; departed to a place i cannot reach. #my old companions have left me behind; their faces faded into days gone by. #still to my breast i clutch this hopeless dream; a futile wish for us once more to meet. #oh you; who at the world's far-off end dwell; i know your wish- it is my wish as well. #but ours are cold and endless winter days; warmed only by memories locked away.' #[minor edit: fixed the color of the lines on his shirt!] #[i am so proud of this one you don’t understand]

[cassandracain52]

A canon compliant guide of Bruce Wayne’s officially adopted children

I noticed there has been some confusion about who all in the BatFam is actually legally adopted by Bruce Wayne so I thought I’d try and help clear some things up.

(Full disclosure you can of course headcanon whatever you like, I made this is strictly to help newer fans know what is actually canon💕)

Dick Grayson: Adopted

(Batman: Gotham Knights #17 and Batman #600)

Many fans argue over whether or not Dick is officially adopted, many saying it was never official and he is still just his ward.

Though he does admittedly usually spend the majority of his actual childhood as a ward, Bruce ends up officially adopting Dick as his son(as I have explained before here)in multiple timelines

Barbara Gordon: Not Adopted

(Batgirl and the Birds Of Prey Rebirth)

There was never a need for Barbara to be adopted because she still has a Dad. She is however still very much in the BatFamily and has trained under and with Bruce

Jason Todd: Adopted

(The New Titans (1988) #55 and Batman: A Lonely Place of Dying)

Now I couldn’t track down a comic where we actually get to see Bruce adopt Jason, but there are plenty of instances in which his adoption is referenced -including but not limited to these two- throughout several timelines and reboots

Cassandra Cain: Adopted

(Batgirl 2008 #6)

Now this one is a bit more debatable as aside from this one instance, Cass’ adoption is never really mentioned again even after the timeline gets rebooted. Still the general consensus is that Cassandra’s adoption is considered canon.

Tim Drake: Adopted

(Batman #654 and Red Robin #4)

Though Tim declines Bruce’s offer of being adopted at first, we get to see Bruce adopt Tim as his son about a year or so later. His adoption is also referenced across multiple reboots

Stephanie Brown: Not Adopted

(Batgirls #13, Robin (1993) #174, and Robin (1993) #126)

Now the main reason Stephanie is not and probably will not be adopted is because both her parents are alive. While her Dad is a villain and out of the picture, her mother is a nurse and fully capable of taking care of her.

Bruce does however train her during her brief stint as Robin and much like Barbara she is no less apart of the BatFamily, she’s just not in the Wayne Family

Duke Thomas: Not Adopted (technically)

(All Star Batman #1 and Batman & the Signal #3)

Now Duke is never officially adopted because technically his parents are alive just insane due to Joker’s toxin of which there is no cure. However Bruce does take him in and let him stay at the manor and it is heavily implied he becomes Duke’s foster parent so do with that what you will

Damian Wayne: Not Adopted/Biological child

(Batman and Robin (2011) #0)

Damian is Bruce’s one and only biological child -of the main canon- and therefore does not need to be adopted because you don’t need to adopt your own child

And that’s all of Bruce’s official and unofficial children in the main canon!💕🖤

#Don’t even get me started on the whole Meta verse “everything is canon” nonsense because I straight up don’t even know #I’m pretty sure everyone can pick and choose canon at this point and not be entirely wrong #So don’t let this stop you from head canon-ing your heart away #Babs and Steph not being adopted is a good thing because that would make them brother kissers #don’t take this too seriously #I didn’t have time to go track down more sources so hopefully this is sufficient #batfam #dc comics #bruce wayne #A guide for Bruce Wayne’s children #hope this helps #Honestly I don’t care much either way if people make Duke Bruce’s official son #Pop off #let people enjoy things #canon is a suggestion #I left Damian out once cause I was just doing adopted kids and someone told me I “forgot him” #So he’s here this time #But like I hope everyone knows Damian is not adopted #Ignore my aggressive italicizing #I do it a lot

[wildstar25]

The 3rd Sun of the 3rd Umbral Moon - or in other terms, June 3rd - marks the day a very special cat entered the world. Happy Birthday Arsay!

(Opening images in a new tab is recommended for best quality viewing, thank you!)

#ffxiv #ffxiv gpose #ffxiv comic #scions of the seventh dawn #ffxiv wol #Arsay Nun #G'raha tia #y'shtola rhul #wolgraha #wolshtola #alphinaud leveilleur #alisaie leveilleur #krile mayer baldesion #tataru taru #thancred waters #urianger augurelt #estinien varlineau #graharshtola #wolship #I suppose I should elaborate that I consider the bio info you set up in character creation to basically be the passport or guild applicatio #that your character has to hand in to the starting city #hence why a birthday would be on it! #anyways arsay is baby :( #so of course she would cry if the scions threw her a surprise party #shes really overwhelmed and the idea that everyone stopped what they were doing at such short noticed to celebrate her #makes her feel so warm and so so very guilty #and shes immediately trying to back peddle and downplay with a forced smile #shes so happy to know shes loved but she doesnt want people to go out of their way for her specifically #despite the fact shed readily go out of her way for them #thankfully shtola is well versed in arsay and knows how to stop her from spiralling

[vimbry]

jumping off the back of the post about genres of song lyrics, another thing about tmbg's lyrics in particular is that even when they write about pleasant themes, they still manage to frequently do so through a sinister lens:

the experience of having children and looking after them:

a nice little nightlight protecting a child muses on the shortcomings it would have outside its assigned responsibility:

fantasising about getting high in the park with your crush:

#tmbg #AND. I love it. #please feel free to add to this btw. I feel like there's more flansburgh examples but they're dropping out of my head #I've gone on and on about ''sleeping in the flowers'' already. so I won't repeat myself too much in the tags here #but I can also see how it's intended to come across as playful. like. #it's two people in love having a silly exchange between each other #I also like the little interlude from the nightlight's lullaby-of-sorts to the child to describing how it would make a really bad lighthous #''man it's a good thing I'm not one of those. I'm too small. if I did that then people at sea would crash and drown horribly hahaha #anyway good night'' #and actually re: nanobots. it only just occurred to me #I'd gotten 'newborn citizenship of the micronations'' being a verbose way to describe. babies lol #but is the start of verse about the actual birth of a child and getting so distracted by the preparation and stress #that you almost forget oh yeah. I have this kid now :) #and thinking about how even tho your worries around that are now over you'll focus instead on all the future responsibilities you'll have #how does something written in such a detatched way manage to be so sweet

[motleyfam]

So, in the fic where Tim gets his appendix out, Jason tells him that he usually freaks out before he gets put under, not after. Now that Tim knows, how would he comfort Jason? I'm thinking, like, imagine that Jason breaks his leg badly on patrol, so urgent surgery is in order. Would Tim try to prevent him from freaking out? How?

P.s. i said i a thousand rimes bur I love your works!! You're amazing!!

Ooh so I've actually answered a similar question pretty recently (although that was focused more on the needle aspect than the anesthesia/loss of control aspect which I headcanon to be Jason's main issue with being put under)

Honestly? I think Tim would be the worst family member to try to comfort Jason through something like this. Not for anything that Tim is doing right or wrong, just because anesthesia is something that really freaks Jason out, and his response to being freaked out is a) to angry cry, and b) to lash out at people. Because he knows this about himself, and he's also extremely protective of Tim, he tries not to let Tim see him when he's not fully in control of himself. So while Jason would totally be great in a crisis involving Tim, he does terribly when the roles are reversed.

BUT that being said, if Tim was the only one available, I think Tim would end up offering his hand to squeeze, and Jason would hesitate at first but eventually take it. He'd probably also be trying really hard not to cry, which Tim would very intentionally act as through he wasn't noticing because at the end of the day, Jason needs his dignity more than anything.

#settle our bones #might not really be the answer you were hoping for but i think jason gets suuuper cagey when he's feeling vulnerable #and nothing makes him feel vulnerable more than when his inhibitions are being forcibly removed from him #and he loses all agency #like while being put under #Dick in this series has a LOT of practice brushing things off #and meeting Jason where he's at #but Tim isn't nearly as well versed in it so it trips him up a lot more #but he's also growing and learning and making progress the more time he spends with the Waynes #so while in the 'everybody gets the hell flu' fic he was suuuper wigged out by Jason's trauma responses #he gets less and less so as time goes on and he starts to understand his family more #even in the migraine fic i just posted recently he feels comfortable enough to argue with Jason while they're both in a stressful situation #which i see as progress for him #anyway thank you so much for your kind words and I really appreciate the question!!

[villainsidestep]

….. survivor becker hearing the pleas for help from the other two. which means Knowing that the farm got them again??

#gideon shut the hell up challenge #ortega knocked you to the ground hard enough that your head is swimmy and your teeth ache in your mouth and your hand feels so empty #without the gun in it and you can’t move bc they won’t let you and you can’t do anything except lay on the ground #and listen to the tortured cries of your siblings in your head as they scream and plead and pray for you to help save them #starting with being from the pain except twisting into abject terror the second you notice a familiar overwhelming static start bleeding in #being left alone afterward and realizing in a way that makes you sick that you hope they’re dead. that the farm just killed them quick #not bc you want them to be dead but bc you don’t want them back there again you don’t want them to be suffering #going against all orders from the ortegas and chen and ldpd to dig around in the rubble #you need to find your siblings you Need to find your siblings you NEED to find your siblings !!!!! #there are no bodies . but there is still a funeral. #verse: one of you survived the fall (but it wasn’t you) #verse: you are the survivor; you carry the guilt

[soyoudneverguess]

Holy fucking shit

#the silt verses #silt verses #tsv spoilers #tsv 38 #SPOILERS IN TAGS #he tried to kill himself. #holy shit #and #and and and #Sibling Rain heard fucking MUSIC #ITS ALWAYS BEEN HIM #HOLY SHIT ITS ALWAYS BEEN HIM #THE MUSIC COMES FROM HIS DROWNING #HIS DEATH #HIS BROTHER DROWNED AND NEVER HEARD THE SONG BECAUSE THE DROWNING SONG IS FAULKNERS #ITS FOR FAULKNER #ITS HIS START AND HIS END #also. my man’s learned how to pray from the best #threaten your god into doing the bare minimum #because a god must feed and god damn it Faulkner is RIGHT #The Trawlerman CANNOT survive without him #and he doesn’t want to do it #and the Trawlerman won’t let him escape it #I’m so ducking hyped #that episode was insane #his father. his brother. #gods #his brother doesn’t know their father is dead #he’ll just arrive to find an empty and torn house #signs of a struggle between humans and gods

[truly-quirkless]

[@frogsonalotusleaf | From here!]

Yagi nearly flinched at that mention- an awkward half-smile crossing his face. Yeah,- he'd never been one for paperwork, not when it came to Hero business. Even at his agency, there were others under him who filed most of his reports.- But he had slowly been forced to take on more and more files and sortings, until it had become an every-day task, these past few months...

Being a teacher really was something else.

His smile fell, however, at the utterance of him 'trying harder'. That was what he'd done for so many years- but now, when all he could do was follow a doctor's instructions and hope it kept him alive...his old friend wanted him to do more. He exhaled softly. I'm not that strong, anymore.-- It was something he was slowly coming to grips with.

"...I can't." It sounded like an excuse- but it didn't ring any less true. What he had- what was left- was a delicate balance. He was trying to gain back some form of strength...what little remained...but he couldn't gain back some things. I can't be All Might anymore. The strain was too much. Even just looking like the old Hero for more than a second was enough to cause bloody coughing fits...

I can't be the Hero you want me to be, Nighteye.

"A soup doesn't need to have solids, but...if you're sure." He wouldn't push the issue. As much as Yagi wanted to help...he knew that (at least, personally) he would resist the aid of others if it was offered...and he had no doubt Nighteye would resist his.-- He sighed under his breath. The blond didn't have much he could do, and it seemed both of them were dancing the old subject. Maybe...it would just heal, on its own. Over time...those years apart might fade, but he worried.

Even his attempt at bringing it up had failed. It seemed Nighteye was rather intent on his personal life. Been there, he thought. When he'd been hospitalized- and for a long time after- he'd done everything he could to avoid anything down-putting. But the two would have to circle back to the original topic eventually.

"Well...they definitely joke a lot- though I don't think you'd care for their...style..." Toshinori rested his hand on his chin, thumb pressed slightly against his cheek, his fingers splayed out slightly along the other. "...they're scrappy, and can handle themself in a fight. The first night we met, they actually attacked some would-be robbers with a cookie tin..." He chuckled slightly at the memory.

"...they always seem to know how to make their coworkers smile, and I've seen them chatting with some of the ki--- students.-- Young Midoriya actually took a bit of a shining to them." He grinned. It was nice that his successor and his soulmate could get along. "Though they're really anxious when it comes to the general public..."

He wondered if it was okay to be saying that when Fin was on the same floor- but he doubted they wouldn't give him and Nighteye some privacy.

"I actually asked them to come with,...if you want to meet them." More to keep him company, though thinking about it...he probably shouldn't have invited them while he was speaking to Mirai. But, what was done was done.

#frogsonalotusleaf #Through many battles/I have been tested/I’ve never failed/Never have been bested || Toshinori Yagi #injury tw #medical tw #tag TBA | Mirai Sasaki. #long post #When you’re close to breakin’/Let me be your haven tonight || Cracked Facades #//good shit this got away from me- #Taking all my will just to run alone/Until I bring you home || Verse | Main #But I’m still on a mission/And I can’t let nobody stop me now || Thread Start

[freezegirl]

@gwenivere gets frozen

"Have you read Bloodmarked by Tracy Deonn? I figured it'd be right up your alley, considering your minor. Medieval studies with an emphasis on history, right?"

#gwenivere #freeze girl / verse undetermined. #//listen your muse is the reincarnated guinevere; bloodmarked is also about reincarnated characters from the arthuriana stories xD #//how could i not start us off with this? :P #queue.

[rosaacicularis]

which was more culturally significant, the renaissance or hermitgang

#it all started when grian touched my redstone he played himself like a xylophone set on automatic doc monster is a savage with technical #skills and crazy vocal acrobatics i’m a legend of the nho with etho beef and double o docmc is coming for you seven fold i got rendog and #other firemen to douce the flames that you shoot at this leviathan iskall can try again you think i’m in hiding i’m just biding my time #putting pen to paper coming up with rhymes were the star studded group got together just to crush you once we start something you know were #going to see it through i’m the knight the soldier who brings the fight at first light y’all had to incite so now i gotta indict you’re #guilty of getting murdered with words y’all are outgunned go home nerds hermitgangx16 if you think you can stop the symmetry that’s false #gteam is dialling for help but i’m in ignoring their calls and when their bodies dissolve you know that false’s on a killing spree try to #stop my pvp and perish painfully i’m the queen of hearts heads and body parts your diamond armour can’t compare to my martial arts i’ll #send a poison dart to make you breath your final breath gteams name will be the only thing left caffeinated animated redstone innovator my #behaviour’s crazy can’t phase me impulse is never lazy tango why would you betray now my scope is aiming better run from cover from all the #ghast balls that i be taming without a sound without no hesitation my creations are amazing better watch your step or the gteam will end up #blazing whos the better team there is no controversy but before it’s said and done y’all be begging us for mercy hermitgangx16 x gone give #it to ya i’m gone give it to ya x gone give it to ya what lyrical boxing dropping blows on all my foes and the gteam they’re looking #unclean needing some sunscreen burnt by words this herd of nerds it’s ubsurd how my rhymes got them injured danger danger i got lasers to #cut them up like razors it’s flexing season and i got flavour their weak defenses like trenches and fences that these dense heads are #presenting they’re presenting them alright they’re not very good i could walk over them i could jump over them i could use an ender pearl i #could use my elytra come one gteam geez hermitgangx16 now i’m back and i got some things i wanna say what’s the letter that starts the #alphabet a ladies get it line the diggity be on the way cleo don’t know who she freaking with all the signs say to notify her next of kin #this digitty dog be dropping bombs nothing but hits spit that line again brrr cause the message is i could mumble rap and still be the best #there is hermitgangx16 oh you wanted me to do a verse i’ll have to check with gteam i mean i’ll have to check my schedule to see if i can #see if i’m able to do that sort of thing busy guy lots of things to do oh do averse bananas do a verse bananas i just don’t know if it’s a #good idea for me to a part of this song really #i just typed all of that out from memory im a little bit insane i think

[parameddic]

in my head there is some workable verse where military muses end up with tk willingly-or-unwillingly tacked on to who-is-around-to-help/the mission/hanging around camp somewhere/etc etc because he happens to physically have emergency medicine skills and has the physical endurance for it, and he has happened into it and been dragged along in a 'well you've been seen helping us now and if we leave you here you will be killed' way or. ssssomething. I have not thought about it very hard and also military customs are NOT my suit of any shape or size but in my head there is some scenario where he accidentally is recruited because it is safest for everyone, tk included, if he just lets himself be pulled along for a bit

#and he misses his family but it's a 'don't tell your family classified info' sort of a deal and just Being on base is classified info #his family straight up thinks he is Missing #idk idk idk #or he just hasn't been able to contact them and he accidentally while traveling happened into a warzone and won't be able to contact them #until someone lets him use a satellite phone and that won't be until weeks from the thread starting when ur muse trusts him enough-- #'why would he be traveling in a soon to be warzone' just accept at a base premise that he might #verse information #ps not EVERY thing i write w a military-esque muse would be set here but like. in my head. the verse exists. if you want it #i've been Percolating

[milimeters-morales]

i want acau matt to freak out so bad about Miles possibly not surviving something that he starts using his last resort and trying to convince god to let Miles into heaven anyway to reunite with his parents (he still thinks Miles’s parents are dead in this scenario) and he’s panicking so much that he takes a few minutes to realize that he doesn’t know if Miles is even religious and if his parents were. Yknow how Jerma kept saying “HEAVEN. HEAVEN. YOURE GONNA GO TO HEAVEN.” when his sims 1 family kept dying and his seaman was dying? That’s kind of the frantic and spiraling energy i want to have Matt give off as Miles’s heartbeat gets weaker and weaker and the doctors can no longer help

#bc i think something is so interesting when all you have left is your faith and you only despair further because of it #matt: YOURE GONNA GO TO HEAVEN OKAY. BECAUSE YOURE SUPPOSED TO. AND YOULL HUG YOUR MOM AND DAD AGAIN (starts quoting bible verses) #miles about to pass out from blood loss in a hospital bed: damn i’m hungry #which ! is a sign he’s becoming more like peter. isn’t that fun! #matt terrified of this kid going to hell or something when he doesn’t deserve it. it’s not funny it’s heartbreaking #and shows how painfully JUST human Matt is. he can’t do shit besides leave it in the hands of the doctors and god. and he wants to khs+ #over it 👍🏾 #not tagging #actual cryptid au

[oorevitcejda]

There has to be some subsection of students at Visions that firmly believe the school is 100% Haunted.

like their science project is a huge year long ordeal documenting the bathroom doors that open randomly and the weird sound of footsteps on the ceiling or the windows getting opened and shut or things sometimes being swiped from the langauge class desks only to be found on the floor outside the cafeteria

Ganke joins the 'Visions is haunted' [name pending] club after school bc he genuinely was interested in ghosts but after one session he realizes its just Miles when he casually [its not casual! hes careful and makes sure no one actually sees *him*] goes invisible to get to classes/ spider-man business faster caused these kids to think the school is haunted. ganke is a little disappointed there's no actual ghost but he stays to make sure they stay off of Miles trail [and sometimes he gets Miles to do something specific for funsies]

#ti talks #one kid was so skeptically ruining the main kids belief that he asked miles to knock on the door when they tried a 'spirit session' #i do believe in ghosts tbh i just think that its funny to be someone who does but also your best friend turns invisible #like cmon #across the spider verse #watching him go through the school like someone HAS to think the schools haunted before 'oh my classmate is s-m!' #he can be heard when he climbs hes invisible not soundproof #and like yeah crowds of kids are loud but there has to be someone who notices its not from the ground #anyway #visions is haunted club au #miles morales #ganke lee #ganke: they have all these theories and ideas and tech and cameras and stuff but our 'ghost' is you! #miles: *stuck between dying of laughter and being concerned that they'll find out that he is Spider-Man* #they scream at each other for like 10 minutes before they start planning

[misclogarts]

ok im pretty sure i won't work on the side:nova neo (ft lumina) playlist so have the songs here:

Oh No! (MARINA)

It's All So Incredibly Loud (Glass Animals)

Youth (Glass Animals)

The Other Side of Paradise (Glass Animals)

Are You Satisfied? (MARINA)

Brutus (The Buttress)

I Am Not a Robot (MARINA)

#itlogthoughts #these are all the ones i can remember; i had more on my old phone that exploded 😭 #feel free to use these for your own neo playlist idk #there's a narrative stitched together between all of these songs so keep in mind it's mostly spoken from neo's pov #lumina featured here is more for that turning point where sho revealed that her and aria were related and shattered neo's world #oh no! is so her honestly... #i like to think that the last song corresponds to the ending and everything after side nova where neo actually gets better #for 'youth' it's like aria talking to/about neo but it's kind of blurring between her and lumina (feel your mother at your side- #-don't you know you've got my eyes?) #and for the other side of paradise it's kind of jumping between several people's povs #most of the starting lines (verse 1 & 2; chorus 1) are from neo's dad's pov to neo's mom (“he” in this case being aria; “she” in this case- #-being sho). verse 3 after chorus 1 is describing sho ig. all lines afterwards are neo's pov towards lumina #(with the exception of “my thunder shook him down” being lumina to neo). “curled up in a grip when we were us”- #-would be neo and aria being mother-daughter (ignore the meaning of the original lyrics) and the “ghost” in this case being lumina #yeah that's pretty much it

[sharkfinx]

<  @uchihacollector | cont’d >  stages of a break up

What a wonderful night! When the sunrays kiss his blue skin from the gaps of the curtain, Kisame lazily turns on the bed. Yawning, a stretch that moved the sheets from the bed. The morning's cold, the softness of the bed that calls for just another 5 minutes of sleep that almost makes him feel guilty for some reason. What’s wrong with a bit of comfort? He wishes for a little more as he nuzzles the pillow and finally opens his eyes.

He doesn’t pay attention to his surroundings as he gets up and brushes his teeth. His partner always had many secondary tasks whenever they stopped by any village. Just like Kakuzu with his bounties and Sasori with his art, as long as it didn't interfere with their main goal it was harmless. By the end of the day that same annoying dubious smile would show up as if nothing happened, rambling compliments to appease to his good side. Shrimp flavored rice crackers matched with bats of eyelashes are the key to him not get questioned.

"Writing is too bothersome as I thought… Something simpler shall do, Nee." 

His mind was too entertained with that simple date to give a second look on what happened in that place. He has always been a simple minded person, or just innocently excited with planning a simple celebration. 

“One whole year...” He whispers to himself as someone that tried to make a script.

Something simple. I nee something simple.

Kisame is back at their room, a tray filled with food (mostly from the complimentary breakfast.) is by his side on the bed as he sat there with crossed legs. There's three slices of bread, homemade mayonnaise, three boiled eggs and an Omurice.The shinobi picks one of the boiled eggs, peeling the shell; His own fault for doing it once, forgetting Orochimaru's tendencies of being spoiled and now having to do it every single time. Unless he wanted an annoyed gaze for the rest of the day as if had insulted him deeply.

That makes him chuckle as he takes another egg in his hands.

"Kekekekeke. He's such a weird person, my partner, neee. ~ " A joyful smile fills his face in a manner he only remembers from the past. Peeling scales of fishes that his mother caught during a long day of summer. At the last egg, the shining of the ring finally cut the denseness of Kisame's mind. A note? That should explain where he went this time.

"............" 

The glittering curtain that covered his days for the past one year finally drops.

5:00 pm

It 's evening now.

Denial. 

How long has he been staring at the same spot on the wall? Hand still holding on the same note as his face had stuck in the same expressionless gaze as the moment he got tired from rereading it over and over. He's drowned by feelings he doesn't understand and cannot comprehend. Stuck, frozen in place. He wants to puke his own guts; something hurts inside. He is unaware what. For a moment he wondered if he was poisoned or in a genjutsu. 

He finally moves, eyes staring at the breakfast tray. It especially stares at the Omurice which has a simple snake and shark drawn on it with ketchup. 

"What a bummer." His throat is dry as he forces a grin. 

He slowly lays down on the bed, his eyes are tired like his body for some reason. 

Maybe he was really poisoned.

Anger.

The next day his work truly starts; checking every bit of that room for a single clue. His missing note, the scratches on the floor, the clothes missing from his bag.

How could he not see it? It's almost like a yellow scroll in the middle of a green jungle.

Impossible to miss. 

What's wrong with a little comfort? That's his answer right there. He has to pay for the fine for staying longer than he’s supposed to be. 

Bargaining.

A week from that day is where he stands alone in their meeting, he's the only one by himself as the other pairs explained their gains from their last missions. Curious eyes waited for Kisame's turn like vultures. 

" He deserted. Orochimaru fled while I was asleep." There's silence, rude jokes that he doesn't listen well. There's demands and questioning that he also takes a while to process. What more he can explain? He  He got comfortable. It’s his fault.

" It was my fault, but If you wish for I—" Orochimaru wasn't a priority in their plans. Hunting him would only delay their next move, especially someone as Kisame. He can't really say anything about it, can he? 

He loves the comfort of following orders. The way he doesn't need to think or plan his own desires and seek them. 

Doesn't he? He agrees with Pain and quietly accepts his next mission.

Depression.

He's doing little jobs now as others get bigger missions for the time being. 

Eating is bothersome—he doesn't really need to eat everyday. That was a habit developed to be more human. He can go well for weeks with only one big meal. 

He catches himself cutting around the tenderloins again. Suddenly his appetite stops and he leaves the rest of the deer to the animals in the forest.

Kisame just keeps completing missions non stop—sleeping only when his body collapses, usually in a body of water where he stays at the floor until he regains consciousness again. Samehada complains daily in little grumbles of the quality of Kisame's chakra. It's too much but without any taste–But Kisame can't do much about it. He can't get bigger missions without a partner, and being paired with another pair made him want to pull his guts away. 

He tries to reassure Samehada, changing its bandages as an apology.

Acceptance.

"......There's no missions...right now." Zetsu exclaims, having to repeat it a second time. 

That's the first smile Kisame has in a month, with Samehada on his shoulder. " Then I shall spread my wings a little, could you warn the others?" 

As Zetsu nods and disappears, Kisame looks at the horizon. Bearing his fangs as he used to before.

It's time for the hunt to start.

That past year he learned a lot too. Kisame's dislike for long plans and alike wasn't a lack of intelligence but rather because it was boring. Talking, negotiating, bargaining; all of them were qualities the sannin had. He was always beside him, listening and watching. Subconsciously learning too.

He can't solely count with his own hunting skills—maybe if he started three days after he vanished or had any clues perhaps. From zero it would be a little harder.

He shows the note for the first ink's seller he finds.  “Excuse me, where I can buy this Premium Black starline Ink? Nee ~”

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Six times, it was six times where he was close to his goal. 4 entire months. Did he had any sleep at all? The excitement and adrenaline pumped his body every single time that scent turned stronger. Even his tactical plans had become better, no more useless fighting with minor pets. Let them drown between the crumbling walls and their bases. Only then he would then enter inside to check the gains—as long as anything precious would go back to Akatsuki's funds it was an excuse to continue his hunt. 

It's just too exciting to stop now. He feels truly more a beast than a human—driven only by that desire to find and end Orochimaru's life. Is that what desire tastes like? It's a powerful thing. Another thing he learned. He will be sure to thank him when he bites his head off.

Lighting country. 

The sky is clear, there’s no sign of rain soon. There's a distant tremor and a loud crash that scared the birds from the top of the mountains. Cracks on the wall that start slowly to leak water. Light rain starts to fall followed by a strong torrent from the top of the mountains that suddenly seems as if someone broke down a barricade. 

Another louder tremor.

Finally.

A thing jumps from the top, failing down right by the border of the platform. Samehada breaks the floor upon landing. The bigger figure has his face down, the shinobi doesn't need two hands now to do signs. The mist invades their stage and only his shadow can be seen. 

"Found you, neeee. My Cinderella.... Kekekekekekeke. ~" 

He knows better than anyone to sub underestimate one of the sannins; the shadow grows in size as Samehada's silhouette disappears. The monster is five sizes his own figure, on his fours it seems even larger.  Gray skin, claws that tap over the ceramic's floor. Dorsal fin is what can be seen the most in between the thick mist. 

This form had not been used before in that whole year, it was rather something he rarely needed to. However for this execution, everything needed to be special. To clean his mistakes—to end that headache of wrong choices. It's just like in the sea, the Monster of Kirigakure circles and circles. Until he attacks, he pins down the male figure down to the floor.

He lost weight.

His fangs are closer to their cheek, he breathes closer as he drools out of anticipation.

He changed his shampoo. 

Its time. 

Because killing his comrades is his special mission. What a terrible life.

and, The monster drags his tongue over Orochimaru's cheek. 

#| IC #| verse; pre war — Akatsuki #uchihacollector | Orochimaru #// *looking like a raising of how much dried up i got from your reply* i hope uy cry like i did lol #// i think nOW WE CAN FINALLy start from the last part PLPDLFPFLPFD SINCE WE DID ALREADY THE PAST AND SUCH FPLFPL

[villainsidestep]

oh survivor!fawn we are really in it now

#gideon shut the hell up challenge #people keep saying they’re sorry for your loss. Your Loss. that is how they refer to your brothers. how they refer to you. #you have always been one of three. part of the pack. and that has always been fine but now you are alone and you are not You but your loss. #julia says sorry for your loss. ricardo says sorry for your loss. you yell that it should be their loss too. it is everyone’s loss. #they have lost your brothers and now they have lost you too. (fate works in funny ways you think) #at the funeral people offer apologies. offer you flowers. offer you baked goods and stories of how [your loss] saved them or their mom or #their dad’s uncle’s wife’s coworker’s daughter’s friend from childhood or someone else equally unimportant. someone alive. #[I’m sorry for your loss] they all say and you do not say thank you. there is no being thankful for [your loss]. #[I’m sorry] says ricardo. you stop listening. [I’m sorry] says julia. you wonder if she said it to the man she punched. #you do not apologize back. you do not let it be [their loss]. it is yours. they have always been yours. #[I’m sorry] says chen . for river and cyrus. the first to use their names with you. to acknowledge them as your brothers. to make them more #than just the pieces of you that have been broken. and you thank him. #we like writing in tags sorry !!!! also at some point the original idea was that any parts of ‘I’m sorry for your loss’ #would start distorting and then get blacked out to show like. when u hear smth so much and esp w grief that u just block it out #anyway. survivor!fawn but still factoring in that chen is not afraid to just. Say Things. #esp in v3 I think the ortegas would be even more cautious w fawn out of wanting to not upset them and meanwhile chen is like yeah I’m gonna #just straight up acknowledge ur brothers for u bc I can tell that’s what u need #we are also thinking abt v3!au and fawn being heartbreak but. that’s not for this post obvs #verse: you are the survivor; you carry the guilt