#using my time really wisely these days

[wirtsauce4020]

This is so stupid but it came to me in a dream

#I'm not gonna say I'm sorry #cause I'm not #using my time really wisely these days #might do some others in Cat Gear for fun #what should I even tag this #cat goku #cat outfit #goku #son goku #dbz #dragon ball z #fanart #my art #wirt's sauces #sorry toriyama #business is business

[dredshirtroberts]

it is not slacking off to write or create it is not slacking off to do things that are fun i am not slacking off or procrastinating right now i'm allowed to do things i enjoy doing for fun including playing games and writing and such

#if i say it enough i will remember it's true #can you guess which aspect of capitalism i'm struggling with today? #it does not help my bones are somehow WORSE than yesterday even after all of the rest i took so that's Super Fun:tm: #so i've got that on in the back of my head #ugh #i... am putting off calling my grandma - i meant to do it last week but i got too in my head about it #and uno reversed myself into forgetting to do it at all until the Worst Times Possible #(generally around Normal Fuckin Meal Times) #i want to call to wish her a belated mother's day and check in re: grandpa but also... #also i don't want to have to do a phone call i don't want to talk to them about anything at all #they stress me out to talk to and it makes me super uncomfortable to be on the phone in general let alone with a Heavy Topic over our heads #like.... i'm comfortable with where i'm at acceptance-wise with Grandpa's whole situation #and i know i am late for a better relationship with the pair of them in general #like i'm not going to repair a relationship that wasn't built to collapse down to this point this is as far as it got built up to #i'm not building more relationship between me and someone who i know is passing soon when they didn't take the opportunity either #like they had just as much chance as me to improve our relationship after i became an adult and they chose to use my mother as #an intermediary which has stunted their connection to me and that's not my fault #i admittedly did not reach out but i was not taught i could safely do that to anyone #because my parents badmouth literally any person they know for one reason or another #i regularly fuck up in conversations with my grandparents because i'll say somethign that is a holdover from my understanding of them #through my parents and it's like. kind of really insulting! and i've been doing it my whole life and i know as soon as i get their reaction #and i can't recover because i don't actually know them at all #so i can't be like ''oh my god i know that's inaccurate i have no idea why i said that'' because i *don't* know until after i've done it #every goddamn time it happened the last time i got a call from them too #like... my bio fam/family of origin is just not good at keeping in touch and i know i'm a product of that #and i know theoretically how to adjust for it but it does require work on the other end of the line too #and unfortunately i know my bio family too well and know they won't do their part #i grew up in the group project everyone hates #and i'm on my way to deciding they can show up to the presentation day without me #i've started a new family project over here with blackjack and hookers

[lesbiansanemi]

We’ve officially hit the point where I can’t fucking sleep because of this shit and on top of everything the AC went out I literally want to cry I’m so stressed I physically feel like shit like I need to throw up I’m so tired but between my stomach hurting, the stress, and the heat I can’t

#today he told me it ‘wasn’t fair’ that I expected him and his bf to move #just because I refused to get rid of my ‘disgusting cats’ and they would be ‘happier’ in a shelter #his reasonings for why they would be happier in a shelter were all things that they did not do/did not happen until he started this shit #‘they’re always hiding and you never spend time with them’ #they hide from YOU #early morning and late at night when you’re in your room they’re fine #im out here rn just sitting with them giving them attention #also yeah I used to give them attention for AT LEAST several hours of the day #but after I essentially got chased out of all the common areas no obviously that wasn’t happening #man FUCK YOU #also sorry I don’t want to spend literal THOUSANDS more than I would other wise to fucking move #esp when YOU moving means no changes in your finances #you make over 50k a year I make barely 20k AND already have more bills to pay than you #why the FUCK should I be getting stuck with the far worse financial decision #and then to try and frame it like you’re getting treated ‘unfairly’ just because I won’t get rid of my cats for you?????? #I genuinely hope the stupid fucking car your mom gave you explodes tomorrow idc idc idccccc #ESPECIALLY WHEN HE BOTH THREATENED AND SAID HE DIDNT CARE TO MOVE OUT #and when I said ‘great. do that’ he starts throwing this fucking fit #I hate him so much it is so goddamn UNREAL #I am dealing with a giant man baby who has never been told no in his life before now #and it’s really fucking showing #this is what happens when parents give their kids everything they want #and you have normie cis white man privilege and have also gotten every job/into every program you’ve ever wanted with minimal effort #so when someone finally says ‘no you don’t get whatever you want at my expense’ #he has the most immature meltdowns fucking imaginable #kaz rambles

[mattodore]

best part of having ocs is that i can just write them doing whatever i want. like i can just do anything with them and it's like oh yeah. that's happening. and no one can be like hang on you can't do that bc actually i can since they're mine <3

#river dipping #like hell yeah brother of course i make aus for my ocs and daydream about them as like. vampires or whatever #anyway hello :) i really meant it when i said the suck session finale would put me out of commission for a few days #there's a ton to catch up on i bet but i'll take my time with it... tho i will be checking on kmik and valentine gen. 3 EXPEDITIOUSLY #i'm actually busy in google docs atm tho!! i'm using oc questionnaires to further flesh out mattodore. i 100% yoinked these questions #from an ask game i saw. there's like... sixty of them? theo's doc is already like 2k long and i still have ten more questions to answer... #matthias's questionnaire is finished but now i feel bad that his is only 1.8k so i might go back and add more... #sorry matthias </3 maybe be a little more nuanced as a character next time #i'll probably be posting these here actually so i can put them in my oc extras tag... tho idk how well the formatting will carry over #what else... oh i finally started working on editing the photos i took of mattodore back in march (and showed a bit of before) #i don't think i'm going to edit them as intensely as i did my pinned post bc that was... very time consuming... but we'll see #i wound up selecting just eight photos but that's still eight photos to edit so... hm. idk when i'll post 'em #oh and it's pride month!! so i'm determined to at least try to make the two final characters from echthroi this month... #i think i'm kind of getting an image of jackson going now but everett still alludes me... i'm also thinking abt changing her name #these two have gone through so many changes in the last seven months character-wise... fdgfhjkfgh #dutchie too tbf like his name originally was EDWIN... smh #OH....... and i see i have messages i need to reply to i'm sawrry </3 i will get to them........... i swear................................

[thehardkandy]

Travelling back home tomorrow hoping for a smooth groove

#i did have a really nice week last week but now im back to everything feeling busy #(its not really that busy) #and oh i miss being slow like idk ever since i was a literal child doing ONE excursion weekly #for an hour #always felt like such s draining burden #and tbh i would like to know why thst is because while it's easy to see as poor habit as an adult reinforcing itself #as a kid i was always made to do things. see people. #i did a summer camp every year at least during the day #i did sports i went hiking in forests #but i remember so distinctly like an age where i stopped asking my parents to try new things #because i would get so excited!!!! but then every week it would become this overwhelming presence #despite being something that i actively enjoyed #and it eventually felt so awful i was like okay no more wanting things you dont use them wisely #like ouch yeah actually that's a big one. wanting things usually wraps back #around to shame or guilt just about always #anyway how is this relevant to travelling? #it's just that i have to travel tomorrow and i have a doctors appointment Friday i have to go to in person #ive changed beds ive slept in 3 times in 5 days #and all i can say at the end of it is that even these little things are JUST enough to be on edge #to feel like im putting my hands over my ears and closing my eyes and pretend nothing bad is gonna happen #even thougu DEFINITELY something bad is going to happen #but of course it doesnt because this is all benign stuff ive done a trillion times before of no note #crazy how complicated it can be to be a person #it is why i dream of living in a small village where i am an apprentice tradesperson and i live simple house #and the house you can walk to anywhere you need to anywhere you need in an your #but no one is that urgent about anything anyway. #beautiful little place that has never actually ever existed for anyone in anytime #but i am still wanting to scream and pull my hair out just asking why why cant everything slow down and be smaller

[drawnecromancy]

Sometimes my dad's friends are kind to me and it beats up the imposter syndrome in my brain a little bit

#like. #i showed some art i'm working on. #and apparently it's obvious i'm trying to tell a story in One Picture #and im glad it shows through!!!!!! because i'm just winging this!!!!!!! i'm mostly self taught in art!!!!!!!!! #i will always always vividly remember all these talks i had with my dad and his artist friends #either just about what we like in art #or that one time. that his friend was like 'oh yeah values and lighting are REALLY IMPORTANT' and he proceeded to explain why #and how a lot of people don't always consider this first ? #and this has been living in my mind rent free for almost a decade i think #i am only STARTING to get to the level where i want to be drawing wise #and the next step i want to figure out is how to use lighting and values to make shit super readable and cool #but also on good days i love my art so much because i have my characters all here!!!! #and i can look at them !!!!! #drawing is fun and good #and i love drawing for me and ai also love drawing for other people

[s0fter-sin]

Your reblogs are making me consider playing cod... what would you say you like about it? And which cod game has this ghost team on it?

friend, you’ve opened a door i don’t think can be closed 😭

so, ghost team is from the new rebooted modern warfare trilogy, specifically the 2nd and 3rd game. it mainly refers to the four main guys who are sas soldiers known as task force 141: price, gaz, soap and the titular ghost aka the one with the skull mask (but can also mean their allies in the games, specifically alejandro and rudy known as los vaqueros). price and gaz are in the first game, mw 2019, but soap and ghost are only introduced in mw2 2022

ghost team itself comes from mw2 2022 when price and gaz meet up with soap, ghost, alejandro and rudy and they do an unsanctioned, illegal mission together. as price says: “we are not 141 and los vaqueros on this. we’re a team. ghost team.”

as to what i like about it… whew boy

so, there’s three parts of the game: the campaign, multiplayer mode and zombies mode and i’m all about the campaigns. they don’t have the tightest plots in the world but the characters and their relationships more than make up for them

mw2 is my main game and in it, soap teams up with ghost to hunt down a terrorist and find missiles he’s stolen. ghost is a lieutenant and soap’s superior and he’s scarily professional; he will get the job done no matter what and that makes him seem cold and harsh and distant (one of his most well known lines is “choices have consequences” after soap pushed him to help their allies instead of continuing to pursue their target). soap is a steadfast sergeant, a soldier through and through but he will buck - not reject, just push back - against orders he’s unsure of. if you saw my soap meta post, i have a lot to say about him lmao

they end up in mexico working with a mercenary group and mexican special forces (alejandro and rudy) and one thing leads to another and soap and ghost end up separated; soap’s injured without any weapons and they’re being hunted throughout the town of las almas. since ghost is, well, ghost, you expect him to leave soap behind; soap probably won’t make it and the mission is time sensitive. but ghost stays; he hunkers down and waits and guides soap through the town on their comms. he teaches him guerrilla warfare, how to make weapons out of random objects, keeps his head on straight with dark jokes when he starts to falter (“what has two legs and bleeds?” “don’t tell me.” “half a dog.” “i asked you not to tell me.”)

ghost keeps him going and when they finally get back together (“alright, johnny; you made it.” “we made it, lt.”) and get to a safehouse, rudy asks where they were. soap says, “i was on the run; ghost waited for me.” rudy then says, “of course, no?” soap immediately says no just for ghost to cut him off and say, “yes. we’re a team, all of us. this happened on my watch and i’ll need help to fix it. no one fights alone.”

like are you kidding me??

and that’s just soap and ghost and that’s just one mission. price and gaz and their relationship to each other is just as complex and rich and all of it makes me want to dig into them and know more

#the characters arent as explored as id like bc it is a mainstream first person shooter they dont really think of things like growth #but its there and its rich and theres so much subtext to be gleaned from it #i love the original modern warfare games as well but this was already getting Long #but the original price ghost and soap? completely different characters completely different vibes and i love them so much it hurts #i just know im forgetting things but if youve seen my reblogs then you know i could gush about these guys all day #a lot of their backstory and inner thoughts are a blend of interpretation the og games and the ghost comics that came out with the og games #so theres a lot for you to decide and play with and explore #also the way ghost goes from ‘fucking hell’ the first time he sees soap to exclusively using a nickname he gives him and being so concerned #for him?? i about lose my mind every time it happens #the growth… the growth kills me #game wise i cant really give you much bc im that guy who hasnt played lmao #i just watch commentary free gameplay videos on loop #i didnt talk about price again bc of Length but god i love price #the flawed morally grey and knows it captain? fuck i love him #but yeah long post longer the characters are everything to me lmao #mailbox #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #cod #soap cod #ghost cod

[spielzeugkaiser]

Flowers for you, I hope you’re feeling better these days!

Thank you, ahhhh, this is sooo sweet that you thought of me 🥺🥺 It means a lot! Also I love those flowers, they are so nice, and I'm just a sucker for everything pastel pink 💖 I had this in my askbox for quite a while, just looking at it and being-

THANK YOU STINA. That's so lovely!!

#spielzeugkaiser talks #to be completely honest - there is not much difference #my body is deteriorating #migraine is baddd #but so far I'm handling it! #I'm a bit worried because I'll be working full time again from next week on and that means drastically less time to rest #as long as I'm always one step ahead (organization wise) I'm still capable of acting and don't go into simple reaction mode #like doing prep now writing papers now getting stuff now done so I can pull them out of my desk in autum and winter when I need them #but I also need good grades and think about if I want to do a doctorate and study and publish and start to design a study #and decide on a topic and finish the things that are already running and go on congresses and juggle all three jobs without dropping one #and why is it all so expensiveee I'm a fool #but also do the MAIN job right #uff uff #also I really should do more sport to help with the migraines and the overall pain level #oh well #so far I'm doing good! stressed but I'm currently managing it #I would enjoy a break - I fought for it on all fronts and got one in October but maybe I can take three days off in August to go hiking #or something like that! that would be nice #sorry for the rant 😅 #I used this to organize my thoughts for a moment; now that it's written down it's better and out of the head! #my body is bad overall but my mood not - I do believe that I can do it :) It just won't be nice at times 😂😅🙈

[sixofravens-reads]

Comic Expo haul!

As usual I went in with a whole list of recs and tbr books to find and found basically zero of them. The expo was smaller again this year, due to our convention hall being under renovations, which meant fewer booths and fewer book options (alas!). Ah well, I improvised and found a bunch of cool new stuff anyway! Mostly manga this year, bc the manga booth by far had the best selection. There were tons of comics booths, but as usual older Marvel/DC stuff dominated and I couldn't really find anything that interested me.

Anyway, I found:

1. whole bunch of manga! Box of Light was a cover buy (it's gorgeous), Blue Morning looks interesting and was selling like hotcakes so I nabbed the first 3 volumes while I could. Peach Girl and Hyper Dolls were at a random booth for 5 for $20 so I couldn't resist them lol. Princess Jellyfish I finally picked up after years of going "hmmm maybe..." and it's an absolute delight (it's the only one I've read so far), my only regret is not grabbing a couple more volumes. And finally Evangelion vol 1, which I owned years ago, but for some reason got rid of when I moved. I do want to finish the series someday, though!

2. DEATH NOTE BOX SEEEEEEET AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH. I'm SO excited, i always wanted to read the whole series but I'm very bad at keeping up with manga and didn't buy all the volumes before they went out of print. My hometown library had it when I was a teenager, but someone (presumably an extremely religious, scandalized parent of some other unfortunate emo teen) had ripped out all the pages with violence, sexuality, or satanic/goth imagery....so yeah, I didn't get to read very much of them after all. I'm sooooo excited to have my own copies with ALL the pages that NO ONE can deface!!!!

3. The only comic I actually bought at the comic expo lol: Sex Criminals vol 4. been lowkey meaning to finish that series for a while, though this was kind of a pity buy bc I spent 45 mins hiding from the crowds in the Redd Skull Comics booth (they put down nice plush carpet, and have tall bookshelves, so it makes it a good booth to decompress in) and felt like I should buy something in return for the hiding spot.

4. DRAGONLANCE ART BOOK!!!! YES, A BOOK FULL OF MY FAVOURITE 80s BOOK COVER PAINTINGS!!!! I love it so much. So, so much. It was expensive as hell, but WORTH IT. I usually don't bother with art books bc I never remember to look at them, but I've opened this multiple times to stare at the gorgeous paintings of Raistlin, so it was a good buy. (also I know WOTC is in hot water again, so disclaimer: I bought this from a secondhand comics booth, it's just in extraordinary condition. WOTC got 0 of my dollars this weekend).

#book haul #sorry for the long post #i felt the need to Explain and also preserve my memories #this was a pretty great expo book-wise. at least bc of the death note and dragonlance books #which is good bc a couple of the guests i really wanted to see cancelled so SOMETHING really good had to happen #i hope the construction is done next year bc its a total clusterfuck tho. like the layout is fucked. the main stage area is too small. #and while there's still tons of vendors you can't get completely irredeemably lost like you used to #anyway. it was a decent time. well worth taking 2 days off work and taking soooo much cough syrup. i HATE cough syrup #(I wasn't contagious by the time i went i promise. my fever was broken but my cold + allergies were just dragging on and being a pain)

[southislandwren]

ohohoho boy update. today at work it was just us doing cheese while everyone else pulled an ice cream order, and i was like hey if youre not busy saturday would you want to roadtrip with me? and i fully expected him to say no, but we are roadtripping to nebraska on saturday <3 <3 anyway what playlist do i put on in the car. do we trust him enough for get loose get looser

#music wise. i think maybe take a walk in the sun or normal music. not sure about glgl yet #i will probably put him on aux for at least half of the trip #(and when i say trip i mean like. 6-7 hours round trip. like we're not going very far for very long) #we're leaving at like 2:45-3pm and i get sleepy around 10 so not like a super good road trip for me #i told him that the way i plan trips was usually a long drive based purely off vibes but i would try to have an actual plan this time #and i asked him what time he would want to be home for work the next day since he works at 6am #and god he was so cute he was like 'i'll call off work on sunday so you can do one of your usual trips' #and yeah. sighh i am down so bad #and i HAVE to promise to be normal on this trip. i always get weird in cars late at night. #but theres Implications of him being in my car like 100 miles from home. so i cant do or say anything weird #like could you imagine being in a car with someone you dont like and they start being weird. like what the fuck do you even do. #but anyway yeah good day. he was very talkative today. and he is so cute sometimes i cant stand it #work is really fun when theres 6 of us and i can stand there while the underclassmen do all the work #boy post #oh and he said he was going to message that he was streaming skyrim but it ended up being boring #so that revealed some info. 1) twitch streamer 2) did think about texting me at least once last week 3) trusts me to know about his twitch #ugh. i would love to just hurry all this up but i have to be patient i have toooo #okay! off to take a disease quiz and then study some ice cream #talk to you later tumblrinas

[elegyofthemoon]

it's wild thinking about how it's been a whole decade since i actually got into/discovered fragile dreams and it still sits as a game pretty important to me because of how much it inspired me to write

i won't say it's the best game ever. there's moments where the game itself lulls while you're exploring the empty post apocalyptic world. sometimes you'll find yourself wandering without any other music but the sounds of your footsteps, drifting aimlessly through the area, but i think that's what makes discovering the memory items even more endearing. in the empty world where you are a lone survivor, you try and seek out the contact of another human, but all you have are the memories left behind by one

memory items are probably my fave/best thing in fragile dreams, but that could also be because that specific thing is what inspired me to get back into writing. all these little mundane items, yet they each hold a lot of sentiment - a lot of story to them. the ones that were part of a series is honestly really nice when you think about the connections between each human individuals.

if the glass cage project's goal was to bind everyone together, it was pointless because there have always been connections between humans. just not ones as explicit as being able to read another person's thoughts and feelings. it was in the little mundane items. it was in the little moments shared between each other.

#anyways you should play fragile dreams #i wouldnt recommend playing an emulator because the game relies heavily on the use of the wii remote speaker x - x #so idk if itll go through #uhhh #i also miss playing it #the game itself is really beautiful and stresses a lot on the idea of sharing moments together with another person #its such a lonely but very beautiful game #I HONESTLY DONT REMEMBER WHY I STARTED THINKING ABOUT FRAGILE DREAMS TBH .... #oh wait #'love for the mundane' -> thought about specifically the monologue that chiyo gives about missing specific mundane moments in life #-> searched fragile dreams tag -> proceeded to write this long long ramble about why i love fragile dreams #btw i say it might be boring/dull #and thats because ik my sisters got bored with it #and it was tough because i was so hyperfixated on the game i think i played 3 times in a row in two days LAKSJDFLADSKJFHLH #its a pretty short game so its possible lmao #but yeah they were like 'this is getting kinda boring...' #i figure its just because sound wise they hardly play anything in the background #unless youre fighting ghosts/robots #i just!!! i wish i could share the specific moments in fragile dreams but i feel like its just an experience on its own #so so much of the narration and the dialogue within fragile dreams is the inspiration for my writing tbh #i wish i could share some of the narrations... #but tbh i think its also just the music itself #i THINK ALSO THATS WHY THE MUSIC IS SO BEAUTIFUL TO ME #its mostly just lone piano #but because of how empty the sound is in the world... when the music plays it creates such a beautiful and memorable scene within the game #tri crescendo games still own my soul it doesn't matter how much i've grown since but holy fuck LMAO #anyways good morning we're sobbing over video gamesLMAO #buddy last night i was just a sobbing mess but ill save that ramble for another time lmao #snow speaks #fragile dreams

[moe-broey]

Hmmmm.....

#i've been at my sister's for like? four days? three? idk i have no sense of time #decided to just stay once she got back/weather was real bad anyway. unexpected snowstorm #power's been out for like? two days? at my place? and a bunch of our friends places too lmfao #i think it'll come back soon people are working on it. but. hhhhhh #i actually have A Lot of trouble focusing deeply if i'm not in my own space and ESP if i'm around others #idk why i'm built like that. i brought all my art stuff but i am so aimless....... head empty......... #and then there's my thoughts that just unceremoniously got cut off LMFAO sorry #was gonna do an in-depth look at thrasir/veronica through an aromantic lense #i've been meaning to do that for a while but like. for certain things the vibe has to be Just Right #like if i'm not actively going insane about it it's just not happening LMFAOO #same for my bigger project too........ my comic............ please come back to me........ #i really don't know what to do though. i'm not discontent i'm just bothered i'm not making use of my time #LIKE. ESP. when you take meds to be A Functioning Human. you feel a deep need to make the most of it. #not even like capitalist productivity propaganda wise. but honestly the fact that i do have to pay to live 'normally' #is a side effect of that tbh. capitalism is the problem. as always. we should destroy america #hhhhh.... i will. attemtp to draw. 🫡

[sodrippy]

what i SHOULD be doing is learning gizmos and particle setups and all the shit i have no idea how to do so i can actually be a competent artist. or maybe even get a feel for houdini or something useful. unfortunately i am, on an atomic level, incapable of using free time to Better Myself

#i always feel so bad bc i SHOULD i really really should be using this time well and wisely #esp since its such a big insecurity of mine that i dont know complex techniques and tools very well and i feel very behind everyone else #and its genuinely like. gonna stop me from advancing in the field and stuff but...i dont wanna do that i wanna rot :/ #ok whatever. ill read about st maps and that can be my good deed of the day

[unusualshrimp]

hey sorry i can't come to work today im thinking about the various implications of zombie horror and the way it affects people

#saw the post the other day about horror movies reflecting the greatest fears of society at the current time #..... it was so ouuugh #anyway zombie movies. fear of infection and pandemic type situations obviously #but also. a running thread in all Zombie Media ™ since forever has been like. someone you love got bitten and now u have to kill them etc #i think that's really interesting because it also ties into another thing about zombies: fear of being changed‚ involuntary #does the zombie know what it used to be? is the hunger filling an otherwise blank mind? #or is it just strong enough to override everything else? #what would that feel like though. both possibilities are unsettling because in case 1 you Die by most definitions #and something else looks like you and pilots your body around #actually that is very similar to imposter horror innit. ''guy in the team who got bitten but doesn't tell anyone until its too late'' #and in case 2.... ooooihhhhhhh that's so much worse <3 you're alive you just can't do anything about it. just hungry #and now onto the third fear associated with zombie horror (and my favourite): the fear of being hunted‚ on a wide scale #think abt it. it's unclear whether humans actually count as apex predators. but population-wise we don't actually have A Specific Animal #- that hunts us #and that's not because we are fast or have sharp teeth or are adapted hunters. that's just because we're great at living in a society #and zombies are A Predator on a significant scale and we are NOT prepared for it #beecaaauusee--- [dramatic crescendo] they will exploit the *very* thing that made us so invincible in the first place!! 💞 #one of the first signs of civilization is healed bones. cured sickness. #a human seeing another human looking sick/injured and immediately rushing to help. is a big part of why we've made it this far #zombies have our faces!!! they know how to walk and unlock doors and climb the stairs to our buildings #AND. AND. they're people you think you know. back again to the killing a loved one thing #that's so BRILLIANT as a tactic because the societal tactics that make people group together will now make them reluctant to kill zombies #WHICH IS WHY most media tries to dehumanize zombies in some way to make it easier. ohhhh they grunt and can't talk. they're slow. #they don't feel anything. they are not the person they look like. they're not even people. the alternative is much much worse #and i need it explored. what if they can run. what if they beg and plead that they're still the same person. what if they scream. #what if they say ''sorry i love you so much im sorry'' at the end. etc

[dbphantom]

Do you think these 4 people know that at this point I've pack bonded with them and would kill and die for them if they asked

#Every day I refresh my tabs and every day I scream internally #Right now I'm betting on us either getting a trailer for the new episodes or a movie/game with It as the main draw OR #Or we are getting a first look at the new opening #I don't know what else could be a special announcement because I would think premiering an episode early would be a mess schedule-wise #So a trailer for a movie/game/the next few episodes would make sense #But also the new opening has been in the works for months at this point. So this would be the perfect time to show it #Cruddy rambles #I'm trying to maintain my expectations to 'I will be disappointed if I expect the best scenario' #But also being realistic in what this special announcement is and what they're gonna show #I really think it will be a trailer or the new opening. I think that'd be perfect while not showing the full episode it'd still build hype #And just show people what they're there to see and what they're promoting (G5) #Like come on don't tell me we wouldn't all lose our minds over a teaser trailer featuring G5 showing us it fully animated for the first time #Because in Film Red we just got static G5 Luffy. Which was dope BUT I want to see how he's gonna move. #And even if it isn't relating to the upcoming episodes seeing a game/movie get announced with G5 as the main draw would be so fucking hype #I loved film red don't get me wrong but I think they're gonna announce another movie soon #And what perfect time to do it!! G5 is gonna be in the anime soon so a whole movie based on rubberhose antics would be so fucking fun #And hey I'm in the minority here but I do love the one piece games despite them being super simplistic #And I would kill for a game where you can play as Nika. I would KILL FOR IT #I will say tho my worst fear is what G5 will have CGI components #They've been using them a LOT in Wano and it's so obvious every time and well 🤢 they don't look good... #It's too smooth and obvious and sure that *could* lend to the whole unnatural rubberman vibe Nika gives off but like... #You have a whole genre of non-CGI animation to be inspired by!!!! If they forgo rubberhose and make it even partly CG I *will* cry

[toytulini]

can i access the tunglr on work wifi but not discord. insane

#toy txt post #apologies in advance. nonzero chance this means i liveblog The Horrors. of slogging thru work #and or also liveblog. my own going insane over tryimg to remake character playlists now that the characters have evolved enough #that i look at their og playlists like.......what was i thinking #mostly. mostly Bytte #its just #hard to find things that match Bytte or Headloose or both of them and their. fucked up little dynamic both tonally and lyrically? #like in theory i Want to put Shakiras She Wolf on Bytte's playlist. its so iconic and In Theory. it could match. i could force it #in practice........god i dont even know how to expkain how it does not fit Bytte like....tonally and probably not even lyrically #i love bridge city sinners sound and a lot of their lyrics and would love to put them on both playlists but like lyrically and subject wise #theres just.....not much that fits? #i might be willing to try to explain Why It Doesnt Fit if i had more time ? and wasnt just typing in between printing labels..idk #and defining what doesnt work and why might in turn help me find more stuff that Does #i think i need to listen to a little more uhhhhhh. megan thee stallion? is that how u spell her name? for bytte. unsure. its so tricky #like half the shit on her playlist like only a couple lines in the song Really vibe w me idk #i actually just. remade her playlist completely the other day and im less mad at it now but it still could use a lot of improvement #theres not a good like.....flow between the songs? ig? #need to. figure out headloose now also.i think in fairness when i made Bytte's playlist i still hadnt really developed her as a character #much at all yet? idk #im not As Mad at either of Headloose's playlists theres just a bunch i need to add and reorganize and prolly need to trim? and tbh i prolly #need to just honestly make multiple separate playlists for all of them like i did for Suki.... #that will be similar and have plenty of overlap but have different nuances for the different eras of their lives #like. idk maybe Bytte needs to just have a Separate playlist for how her approach to and relationship w her sexuality evolves between #how she is as a human and. warlord. and then ig after she is w headloose which #is after she decides to become a demon but before shes fully transformed cos shes not dead yet so the evolution there is still #more subtle until she turns fully. and headloose gets 1) better at controlling the shapeshifting and healing factors and #2) Headloose getting more fucked up kinks. i guess. or learning more of his own fucked up kinks. or whatever #and the influence that has on her as well AND ALSO her like. lowkey toxicity in any attempts at long term rships #due to being a woman in a weird position in a point in history where we probably didnt have a word for aromanticism #...im out of tags. how does this happen everytime