#uh... so how's school going?

[skrunksthatwunk]

something he can't put into words.

#ANOTHER DAIGO POST!!!! <333 #also sorry for being like teehee yaoi dojima anyway daigo can't/probably shouldn't be close to his bio dad and latched onto this random #20 year old but Doesnt Quite recognize what is so wrong about sohei and so right about kiryu and how he should feel about either #meaning he cant fulfill his true desire (baby duck around kamurocho with his babysitter who's probably got better things to do bc people #always have better things to do than take care of him but at least kiryu pretends he enjoys it #for hours and hours and hours. some of the others ask him how he is or what he's up to at school but they don't really reach him like kiryu #does. he wants to impress him soooo bad. aughhh baby daigo you're annoying but you're also so emotionally neglected #haha latching onto mentors bc they're more involved/easier to connect to than parents haha who would do that not me ahem uh anyway #(skrunks be normal about and not project onto a kiryu + child dynamic challenge: impossible) #anyway he can't just say sohei's his father bc he's a big crime daddy but he hasn't really.. accepted? whats going on with kiryu yet either #i dont think he knows kiryu's his dad is my point #rgg #ryu ga gotoku #yakuza #dojima daigo #like a dragon #daigo dojima #ykz #i accidentally saved over soo many versions of this so i had to be like fuck it we ball. thats the final version of that panel now #gonna schedule this for later today bc i dont wanna stifle the kazumi posts but i also uh. am impatient #anyway more little daigo content he's such an ass but it makes so much sense why he's like that and he deserves a whole lotta love #also i just realized i used different name orders for kiryu and yayoi... sorry idk im just incapable of writing kazuma kiryu #uhOOPS POSTED IT EARLY NVM #yer gettin a loootta skrunk content today ig #skrunkart

[anxiously-sidequesting]

Not to keep beating dead horses like I so much love to do but I am still completely Flabbergasted and Astonished at how you (Merle Ambrose) could discover the most terrifying fact that a child that is essentially under your care has been indoctrinated into a cult (which, by the way, a process that has taken over the course of years) ((by an agent that has been stationed in a direct position to make it easier to access and manipulate children, that has easily escaped your notice for such a long time)) that worships a nihilistic entity whose ultimate goal is the absolute and total destruction of Everything and Everyone around you, and your one, single, simple-sentenced response to that is to say "Oh, that's a shame. He (Duncan) always was pretty terrible. Hope he gets better someday." And then to move on from those extremely worrying and dangerous bundle of issues permanently without taking any sort of action to protect the vulnerable and make sure nothing like this ever happens again

#i love ambrose as a character but the things he does makes me clench my fists so hard blood circulation gets cut off #the absolute.... lack of care ambrose has for certain things literally render me speechless #and like okay in his uh. in his uh “defense”. there was like. other stuff going on at the time. i get that #like the end of the world for the 7th time yeah there were other things on ambrose's plate #but i dont know how many different ways to put “your children are being manipulated and kidnapped into a cult that means them harm under- #-your nose and it can absolutely happen again“ and make that stick #you... i #that is a horrifying fact to learn and the response is dismissive at BEST #like im not saying ambrose should adopt all 800 children that go to his school or whatever #but like... DO SOMETHING #you have COMPLETE AND UTTER INFLUENCE OVER THE NATIONAL GUARD. DO YOU REMEMBER THAT? USE THAT #send out watch parties! hold stranger danger assemblies! have adults regularly check in with kids! install a curfew! ANY OF THOSE THINGS? #like even if ambrose couldnt single-handedly stop a powerful cult he could at least make an effort.... AN EFFORT #ONE ATTEMPT. TO MAKE SURE ****HIS**** SCHOOL AND STUDENTS ARE SAFE........ #and the fact that he says something along the lines of “well duncan was always fucked up” ☹️☹️☹️☹️ #this shouldt surprise me fir the man who for 1. some reason refuses to fix the death school #2. does not care about dworgyn or mortis in the least #3. keeps trying to pressure necromancers to change schools #4. kidnapped US from earth and used us. #it really shouldnt but........ but #im gonna say it and idc (/lh) if its unpopular. ambrose should not be in power #he is incompetent at best. he is harmful at worst. #he does NOTHING 99.9% of the time and the one Tuesday where he takes action it makes something worse. he should not be in power #this post is /lh but idk. im a little angry #NOT SERIOUSLY ANGRY BUT CMON MAN. CMON BRO #if the game utilized ambrose's potential more and pointed out how useless/paranoid/rash he can be i would ascend to heaven #i would like literally one person (who isnt a villain) in the game to look at ambrose and say “wow hes kinda fucked up” #THATS THE BARE MINIMUM BUT I WILL ACCEPT THAT I WILL. #kind of unrelated but im kinda mad that the only person to correctly point out how weird ambrose is is morganthe #the murderous tyrant. the person we're not supposed to listen to. because she's evil. she couldnt POSSIBLY be right about Good Guy Ambrose!

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

headcanon that scorpius was a sick child and was in and out of hospital constantly, perhaps related to astoria's blood curse but not directly. his immune system isnt very strong, and everytime he gets sick they're terrified that it's the blood curse but also whatever else it could be, because it's always so sudden and so intense and they call healers over to the house who recommend this delirious feverish 4 year old is hospitalised immediately, and you'd think it'd get easier to some extent because they'd be used to it, but everytime they feel like this is it, this is the time he'll walk in to the hospital and not walk out again

#this headcanon has no purpose im just thinking of scorpius in bed like a sickly victorian child with scarlet fever or something #asking if he'll make it to sunrise lmfao #so then he hates hospitals with a passion #my friend from school was in them constantly he was even a make a wish kid and he can not fucking stand the places so #headcanon scorpius becomes a healer anyway lmao #im sick and this is how im coping by putting baby scorp in hospital lmfao #it just made draco that little bit more protective #lucius made an insensitive comment about it once and draco was ready to throw hands #this headcanon doesnt really go anywhere ive just decided scorpius was a sick child #he has sick child energy lmfao #he still knows some of his doctors/healers because he was there so frequently #just imaging lil scorp in a hospital bed and draco and astoria are sleeping in the room on like uncomfortable chairs and the fever finally #breaks and hes like uh daddy im hungry and its like 4am but draco couldnt care less cause scorp hasnt been able to eat anything for days #let alone ask for food directly and baby scorp is wondering why his parents are acting so damn weird just cause he asked for some toast #but once hes grown up whenever he gets sick its on such a lower level than what it used to be when he was a kid because his immune system #got better that he struggles to gauge when other people would usually stop trying to do daily activities and albus has to start wrestling #scorpius back to bed instead of going to class cause scorpius really youre practically dying and hes like pfff you wanna see dying? use tha #timeturner one more time and go back to see me at literally any point between 2 and 10 i am FINE #(he absolutely was not fine) #scorpius malfoy #albus potter #draco malfoy #hpcc #scorbus #this is so many tags im so sorry

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Hey, so for the Human Au, how do think Julie would go about her life? Considering her personality in the website, I would think that he takes up different part-time jobs, but mainly likes working at the community center, mainly for the summer/after school programs where they can come up with and host fun activities for the kids!

no yeah that's pretty much what i was thinking! she bounces from job to job - she probably has a roster of seasonal ones that she rotates between. Julie really does seem like an every-gal yk? doing just one thing all the time would be soooo boring

i like the idea of summer / after school programs a lot actually! since canon Julie is big on games and fun, i'm sure she'd be a great choice for those sorts of things. i bet she works a seasonal summer camp in their county!

#also it would be a cute frank-julie bestie thing #cause frank is a university professor #so then julie being in the education system as a camp counselor / school programs person whatever brains not braining rn #I Just Think It Would Be Sweet! and Fitting! #part of me wants to change Frank from university professor to like a uhhh elementary school teacher #but nah. but lets just say the local schools will have field trips and uh. idk a 'bug day' #yk how kindergartens and elementary schools would sometimes have a giant snake brought in or whatever #well i imagine that in this au frank keeps insects as 'pets' #(not pets as in companion animal but. he has a lot of arthropod tanks in his house lol) #so maybe a couple times a year he gets to interact with kids and julie's probably there too! #ohhhh maybe sometimes he'll go to the summer camp for like. education day or whatever #to talk about insects and animal safety or somethn #he's out there with a tarantula chilling on his head... #most of the kids are disinterested but one or two are so Intrigued and its. adorable. anyway this is about julie #rambles from the bog #wh modern human au #i like to think that both julie and barnaby have seasonal jobs at the county fair #it just lasts a few weeks but they have a good time! barnaby can put his clowning degree to Use! #but im having a great time picturing julie coming up with games and stuff and putting it to good use! #i bet she'd be great at finding compromises and solutions to those Schoolyard Problems yk #i said schoolyard problems and flashbacked to the multiple bad injuries at my elementary. & the seizure in hs... #hm. i saw a lot of serious shit. anyhow not the point #i bet julie is that one guy where whenever someone brings up an odd job she's like 'yeah ive done that' #slingin ice cream? catering? florist delivery? doughnut baker? budtender? running bingo night? Yes To It All! #i bet that in a way... howdy is jealous...

[luck-of-the-drawings]

I LOOOVE LOVE ALL THE NPCS IN PRIME DEFENDERS!! THEYRE EACH SO UNIQUE AND COOL, WITH THE GREATEST THING YOU CAN POSSIBLY GIVE TO SUPER HEROS IN A SUPER HERO UNIVERSE: WAAACKY FUCKIN SUPER POWERS!! (MADE WITH ONLY PEN AND COLORED PENCILES, MISTAKES CORRECTED WITH PAPER N GLUE)

#jrwi prime defenders #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #QUIIIICK TAKE IT BEFORE I NOTICE MORE PROBLAMS!! THIS TOOK TOOOO LONG TO MAKE #I STRUGGLED WITH THE COLORS BECAUSE you see. i had ONLY red pens and orange pens but NO pencils of the color #ALSO no brown pencil so i HAD TO COLOR MIX FOR THE SHADES. It was only today that i got a brown pencil (not even a good one) #i scribbled on a paper with the red n oranges to put it on lightly and it was HARD but i think it worked okay #NOT BAD FOR MY STUPID SEt up where i only use what i can steals from left over things at the school i work at #ANYWYAY SO PRIME DEFENDERS HUH #SIUDDENLY GOT OBBSESSED WITH IT AGAIN OUTA NOWHERE AUUGHHH THE BRAIN ROOOOTTTTM #I REALLY LOVE HOW THE NEW EPISODES HAVE BEEN GOING TEHEHEHEEE #I LOOVE THAT ALASTYR CROSS IS HERE MY BABY BOOYYY LOOK AT HIM ALL GROWN UP #HES SO STRANGE AND ODD AND SILLY AND POSSIBLY DANGEROUS #I ALSO LOVE FLOW!! IVE ONLY KNOWN HER A DAY AND UHH I WOULD UHH I WOULDD WAVE AT HER N SAY HAIIIII :333 #OH ALSO UH #SO THE UH #SO LE FROG AND WORDSMITH HUH #YOU HAD ME AT 'but i LOVE youu' #LIKE IMAGINE RIGHT? LIKE JUST THINK ABOUT IT? JUST PONDER IT FORA SEC #IMAGINE THOSE TWO ON A COFFEE DATE WITH LEFROG IN FULL COSTUME AND WORDSMITH ACTIVELY TRYING TO LEAVE #I SHIP EM NOT BC THEY WORK WELL TOGETHER IM SHIPPIN EM BC ITS SOOOOO FUNNY #BUT REMEMBER. THE SLIPPERY SLOPE OF CRACKSHIPS. CRACKS CAN LEAD TO CAVERNS. AND 40 TO 50 PEOPLE GET LOST IN CAVES PER YEAR #ANYWAY THAT S MY RAMBLE I AHVE TO GO TO WORK TOMORROW #BAIII THANKS FOR READIN MY RAMBLES

[lunarharp]

tsukigumi..

#takarazuka #just getting out something meek while the feelings are still pure... idk how to go about drawing real people any more lol #why was the show called that. well whatever #the like..Magic theme bamboozled me. i was fully crying with laughter at the school skit thing what in the goddamn. i just........... #everything reiko says and does is everything to me. i haven't thought about zuka for months but she still has me. #MUSUMEYAKU LIFT??? LIFT OF GIRL BY GIRLY GIRL?? #uh..what else..everything reiko says and does is everything to me. <- repeat of what i just said #her laughter like “ku ku ku” at one point. SHE IS SO FUNNY. I LOVE HER. I LOVE HER. #the way she loosened her tie and umi took off her glove in the duedan......i truly treasure the gentle unspoken sensuality in takarazuka... #umi was shimmering with joy and splendour.......AND MY MAN POCKY. MY MAN POCKY #never forget i am the world's number 1 pocky and pockyheart fan no matter how much time has passed #my whole personality has been witch hat atelier and takarazuka for several years. it makes sense i can only be obsessed with one at a time #from 2014 to 2022 it was entirely zuka. i've earnt my unhingedly emotional witch hat era

[loving-jack-kelly]

jack would be a stem kid because he loves doing experiments the scientific method is his best friend he loves being hands on and getting to be like I was wrong but the right answer is way cooler than I thought it would be and he loves the connections between art and science, like the way chemical reactions are responsible for why pottery glaze looks so cool and how talented at art you have to be to be good at any kind of diagramming or bio illustration

and davey would be a stem kid because people are more impressed by good grades in science and math classes than english classes so he works harder at them even though he really loves language more than numbers and when he ends up in a class with jack who seems to be goofing off all the time he's annoyed by how little work he seems to put in until he realizes actually jack is really smart but completely unaware of it because he thinks he's goofing off when he's actually running pretty well-designed experiments for fun (unsanctioned by the instructor) in between steps of the lab.

#can't decide if this is funnier in high school or college #i think college bc i think. jack is an art major chem minor and everyone is like why would u do that and he's like I like mixing things up #and davey is a biochem major whos like this guy is a nightmare the first class they share #and then is his assigned lab partner the next semester and is like good grief this is going to be miserable #until they do their first lab and jack is Really good at it. he's chattering away abt his sculpture class and how hard it is #while achieving results with Way less deviation from the perfect result than anyone else bc he's genuinely obsessed with chemistry and love #loves it so much. #anyway. i love this for them ive decided <3 #jack would be besties with the chem professor everyone else is soooo intimidated by #bc he has No fear of authority and he's so passionate abt chem #he's like hey. can i use the lab during your office hours to do experiments for fun. and the prof is like #uh. sure? and then spends an hour or so a week supervising jack having fun in the lab #but jack is also obsessed with the way numbers works so its always a very well designed and calculated experiment #he even does lab reports for his random experiments and is like look :) I made a new color. do you think I can use this as a pigment?

[icejello]

Okay svsss fandom give me your thoughts

So i was thinking about that scene where sqq jokingly asks the system if it ever worked with the harry potter franchise before and got inspired to write a harry potter au for svsss. The characters that would be involved are bingqiu and moshang but i can't figure out what Hogwarts house they would be in so do tell me your ideas.

How the story would go?

Basically the system malfunctions and suddenly transmigrated the 4 of them into the Harry Potter world. They can only escape if they help protect Harry and figure out who's the evil person trying to kill him (it's going to be centered in book 1). The problem? None of them knows about Harry Potter and so they're in a panic trying to solve who the evil person is without realizing Harry practically could not be killed because of the prophecy.

#svsss #bingqiu #moshang #harry Potter au #does this makes sense? i hope it does #will i be able to finish it fast? probably not seeing as i have 2 other wips that are still uh in progress #but i want to write them panicking in Hogwarts so bad #binghe and mobei would be the confused ones like what just happened??? what is this system??? #while qinghua and qingqiu are losing their mind yelling at the system #cue a very confused binghe going 'shizun? what just happened? do yk what this system is???' #cue mobei just staring at qinghua hard bcs he can see that qinghua seems to know what the system is and wants explanation #cue cumplane panicking about two things #1) how tf are they gonna figure out and save the kid by the end of the school term #2) how tf are they gonna explain to lbh and mbj about the system without outing themselves #they won't be part of the first years there #I'm gonna make them get isekai'd into some random made up senior students bcs i think it would be funnier #bcs then we also see them trying to figure out how to fit in their new character #also cue a confused lbh and mbj questioning the language that they're hearing for the first time #but for some reason understand it #does lbh stop calling sqq shizun? no and it complicates matters for sqq to explain to ppl who thought it was his nickname and calls him that #would sqq and sqh ever read harry potter? idk tbh but i think of them as someone who mainly reads only webnovels here so take that

[worldsquietestjojosfan]

Mingjue's gaze softens.

"Didi. You are confused. You are misinterpreting brotherly love for romantic interest."

Huaisang clenches his firsts and stares down at the floorboards. His expression morphs into one of pain. He draws in a deep breath.

"Da-ge, please sleep with me." Mingjue's body jerks back at his little brother's words. "If I sleep with you, then I'll know for sure what I'm feeling."

#bro doing anything but organizing her code #my brother says i write like i wasnt allowed to go to school #recently my brother had to do a project for school where he had to pick up a new hobby #he didnt do the assignment and at the last day he was like brother im so fucked help me #so i let him use one of my fanfics for the before and told him to use his own fanfic as an after and present that #his professor told him his improvement was incredible #thats all i have to say #theres something so cringe about when i write #ill write it and be like yeah. and then i read over it and die #unironically i actually run away from my fics. i have never once read them again after finishing #like when i draw. i look at it. im like yeah that part is good that part is bad. pretty mid but its ok. #writing? i turn red and hide from the monster i have created #i think my writing could be lethal. like if i read all my fics one after the other id die from cringe poisoning #i regularly look at my old drawings and cry how much ive regressed. but i can look at them. #one time my friend wanted to torture me so he called me to read my fics out loud. i endorse this as an execution method #shit gets me sweating. i have to get normal about this #some words #wip #the second wip actually #the first one is the saber spirit takes over nmj and he fucks nhs on the training grounds infront of everyone. #second one is nmj is like brother you have to stop being a freak this is getting out of hand and nhs is like nuh-uh. but also how'd you kno #on a side note remember my former student that confessed? yeah well #he proposed marriage

[nicoandthepoets]

GUYS THE NEW BILLIE EILISH ALBUM IS SO SO FUCKING GOOD

#HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW #IM SUPPOSED TO BE GOING BACK TOMORROW UH OH #IM DEAD #im feeling a bit better now tho #billie eilish #hit me hard and soft #AND BIRDS OF A FEATHER IS SO HEARTSTOPPER CODED I WANT TO CRY #AND BLUE #UGH I REMEMBER LISTENING TO THOSE UNRELEASED SONGS WHEN I WAS LIKE 13 14 #AND BLUE WAS ONE OF THEM #I WAS SO DIFFERENT BUT ALSO IM STILL THE SAME #and I made it to this and that is so fucking crazy actually

[skrunksthatwunk]

yusuke's big ol doe eyes

bonus (SICKENING!!!!!):

#he's not even kuwabara's height in them but he's closer #also yusuke's outfit here is like. exactly what i wore for the last two years of high school basically every day #he permanently altered my fashion sense and now it's looping around to me altering his. oh how the turn tables. woe platforms be upon ye #also if you think the anime-realism jumpscare panel looks bad it's part of the bit and if you like it it's bc i tried so so very hard #anyway yusuke *I* think you look very scary in your big clonky platforms ok. there there buddy shhhh #they're stupid. :) #yyh #yu yu hakusho #kuwameshi #yusuke urameshi #kazuma kuwabara #kuwabara kazuma #urameshi yusuke #also i gave him piercings bc uhhhhh uh um uhhhhh i think they look cool sorry. gender envy yusuke #skrunkart #joji kazama voice: [Beautiful Eyes.] now THATS for the rgg audience there we go i haven't forgotten y'all #yet another instance of me trying to make just like a regular kuwameshi sketch page and getting derailed #it's happened like 3 times which means i probably have enough for a sketch dump on accident lol #so that'll happen soonish probably #maybe in like. 2 hours idk. maybe not for years who knows #forces them to be mushy JUST A LITTLE BIT #they're cute to me... and i had to draw them actually together bc i realized i never make stuff of them Actually together :( #so they getta kiss god bless

[thenamessparkplug]

shoutout to my old 4th grade teacher for being more supportive of me one time 6 months ago than my own mother's ever been< 3333

#it was like such a tiny interaction but i also never forgot #it was during some kind of family party thing for kids parents (and siblings) to come and eat pizza and some other stuff i dont remember #and anyways my brother(who currently goes to this school) wanted to go so my whole family went #and while i was there my mom saw my old 4th grade teacher and was like “omg you should go talk to her” #and i was like yeah i should she was a really cool lady actually #so i nervously was like “hi” and didnt think shed recognize me at all #but she IMMEDIETLY was like “ITS YOU! /pos” #she then points to my shirt and asks me “hey are those your pronouns now?” #and this was back when i still wore pronoun/pride pins in general #and i was like “yeah actually!” because no adult had ever asked me about it before and i was so happy to like be recognized as a person #and she gave me a hug and told me she was proud of me and how much id grown and i /maybe/ got a little close to tears but ignore that #and my mom just stood there the whole time #she didnt say anything #she didnt smile #and this was not my first time wearing my pronoun pin my TRANS FLAG pin even #never once did she acknowledge it #also like a month later she made fun of me for it and i havent worn one since #uh yeah anyways #sorry for ranting lmao #or ig venting?? this was not my intention mb mb #trans #transgender #lgbt #lgtbq #lgbtqia #(to be clear my mom has made it very clear she will never support me on numerous occasions it wasnt like a one time thing lmao) #tw vent?? #tw vent

[that-was-anticlimactic]

time stops, but still your heart is beating

Ten minutes later, Megumi felt a soft thunk on his shoulder. He instinctively froze, fingers twitching, but relaxed when he saw that it was just Yuuji’s head.

Wait—

Megumi tensed again, perhaps even more than before, and slowly looked down at his shoulder.

Yuuji’s head was on his shoulder and he was dead asleep.

Well, Megumi wasn’t very tired anymore. Shit.

[or, megumi is gay and yuuji is pretty and gosh darn it megumi wants to lay his head on yuuji's shoulder so badly he's gonna explode]

💥6,471 words | itafushi💥

based off of this art by @arinavah <3 bestie i hope you know that i think about this art a lot... they bonk...

#corey writes:) #FINALLY #besties when i tell you that this has been in my google docs for like... oVER A MONTH because i had to rewrite the first page because i #hated it and also i didn't want to edit it- #this is kind of a disaster and it's not very good but it's like whatever i've got a Lot going on right now with school so imma take what i #can get from writing iuytfdtguijohuygtfdcghjio #anyways hope this doesn't suck👍🏻 #i am actually really happy with how it turned out v how it started tho tbh... this was also supposed to be 1.2k words and uh. it is Not lol #jjk #itafushi #fushiguro megumi #itadori yuuji #fushiita #fushiguro x itadori #itadori x megumi #jjk fanfic #they bonk... #we all knew that it was a matter of time before i wrote a bonk fic lol

[skitskatdacat63]

Lmfao my mom was getting on me abt not having enough to do this upcoming semester so I decided ah okay I'll add another class. And that's perfectly fine. But the one I picked results in the majority of my schedule being generally unaffected and still lax, but my Thursday being absolutely fucked.

For reference, on every other day I'd spend like less than four hours in class/commuting(anywhere from zero hours to almost four), but Thursday, its almost 9 hours combined 😭 which is like fine with me, but I think ill despise thursdays after this, AND MY BIRTHDAY IS ON A THURSDAY :(

#she doesnt like the fact that im practically free on Fridays #<- online class that doesnt meet on that day #so ah i hope this balances out sjkfkflg #the way scheduling in my school works has such a weird affect #my mon/wens/fri are gonna be so chill and then tues/thurs is just....something #it makes it worse bcs one of my classes only takes place for a section of the semester #and that class is mon/wens so im only gonna be online after that #though i still think ill have to meet w that professor bcs there is in fact reasoning for that class to be so short lasting #but tues and thurs is just stuff that ill never get any reprieve from lol #four classes in one day. we'll see how it goes 🥰🥰 #also thurs will be interesting bcs i will have two classes just abt middle eastern politics #i came across a class on the arab-israeli conflict and wanted to take it bcs its obv very relevant rn #and then the one i just scheduled is also abt middle eastern politics so i really am going to be thru the ringer #not that its a bad thing at all!! i just mean its interesting how relevant this semester will be and how im just getting intensely informed #anyways i think the way i schedule would be a nightmare to anyone else #i try to schedule every class after 12(or 11 at least) so then all of them are crammed right after one another #and i wake up an hour before class and leave myself that meager time to get ready and commute lmfao #my friend asked me when i eat lunch. and im like uh ;;; never? 🥰 #lol dw i do eat but like i treat my time on campus like how can i pack this as densely as possible #i dont like sitting around by my lonesome it makes me depressed dhfkkg #also i think i will actually kms with all the writing im goong to have to do this semester #that is my reasoning to my mom abt why she shouldn't be pissed at my supposed lack of activity #like im taking so much thats emphasized with writing. dont worry i will be in fact budy #*busy #catie.rambling.txt

[whump-it-like-its-hot]

Fellas, it finally happened, my art block has loosened up a little and given way to THIS GUY

(Character Levi from the interactive fiction game Signalhill, both belong to @signalhill-if!)

#not whump #my art #signalhill #Levi signalhill #signalhill-if #holy shit it finally happened #my art block has decided to let me actually DRAW #or like. finish a drawing #it’s been going on for MONTHS now and turns out sometimes you just need a bit of spice to get things rolling #and with spice I mean a funky little character with issues and tattoos #i am NOT going to admit how long I spent on this while procrastinating school work. nu uh not happening #BUT. HE’S FINISHED #halfway through I lost connection and therefore my reference so I was just kinda winging it but I think he turned out fine #I mean. he already is fine but ANYWAY i am not going to fill those tags with my simping #this is NOT the place for that ahem ahem #but. yes. Levi my beloved #i also drew my mc recently but he’s not finished yet. i gotta give him some touch ups and then I might post him as well hehe :p #hmmmmmm. i wonder. if it’s obvious who my favorite little blorbo from this game is #hmmmmmmmmmmmm #actually i love all of them but Levi man. just. *Levi* #yes I’ll stop rambling now and actually hit post #nyoooooom

[anaalnathrakhs]

btw my mom said it. she said it to me looking me in the eyes. i told her about how difficult it was for me to get through those family reunions, and she admitted it was very important to her, important enough that she was just going to do it anyway.

#i know there are compromises out there #and i'm not going to live w them my whole life so i'll be out fairly soon all things considered #and i'm trying to be understanding when people's priorities aren't the same as mine #but i uh. would be lying if i said it doesn't hurt a little wittle bit. #i'm gonna keep handling it because i've been an asshole to my parents for long enough #i largely owe them that. cooperating and spending time with them and engaging in what matters to them. #but then she's says things like ''but whenever you move out you'll still be part of the family and invited if you want uwu'' #it's just ?????? okay thanks ???? perhaps you could also try seeing things from my point of view perhaps???? #it's all circling back to that. they have a very weird way to ''help'' me #throwback to them trying to cure my depression with amusement parks #when i would have liked a little less of that and a little more help and understanding #it feels like they're trying to put bandaids on a cancer #''you don't ask for help'' okay no help is coming. i am not being helped. #the system can't help me cause there's no damn beds no damn professionals no damn time to help everyone #the people around me can't help me because it's not their job or within their wheelhouse to help me #and they've got their own shit to deal with #on that note #i was discussing stuff with my mom #and i mentionned it was indeed pretty difficult to manage your time when you had to deal with school and friends and your parents #and she was like ''deal with your parents???? what do you have to deal with????'' #oh i don't KNOW maybe that i'm officially an associate of my dad and i have to help out w events and some accounting #or maybe i have to pay back the fucking years i spent being an ungrateful child now i do everything you expect me to and it's exhausting #maybe that you constantly remind me i am living in YOUR house by touching my shit instead of letting me deal with shit at my own pace #maybe the fact that despite everything i care about you and i want us to have a good relationship and that takes WORK and i'm exhausted #maybe the fact that you keep giving me advice that is unproductive misguided misunderstanding etc etc #and cold comfort after you did something you knew to be difficult for me #how you keep encouraging shit that i don't want and am unhappy with because it's the ''normal'' way #how you raised me from childhood to be an empty shell in a family of empty shells #broadcasting my misery #vent