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weapon13whitefang · 10 months
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You like Undertale too? 🤩 I think I almost love your page. You’re nice. You’ve been in so many fandoms and aren’t toxic. You’re creative. You’re so cool! Thank you for being so nice and introducing me to so many ships and fandoms I’ve never seen. Also for getting me into Bethyl and Merth (I don’t like calling it the other thing).
I'm sorry it took me so long to reply back to this! You are so very sweet. My health has been absolutely horrible so this really made me smile like I can't explain. Thank you!
Also yes! I love Undertale. Recently fell back into it, funny enough. Someone sent me a link to a fic and welp! Down the old shipping rabbit hole I went hehe. It's such a fun and unique game. And the soundtrack is the best :D So yeah! Love me some Undertale.
I don't consider myself that creative but that's sweet of you to call me so. Honestly I have an overload of stuff in my head that I gotta go through and it's always hard to pick what to work on. I feel more disorganized that creative lol.
Being toxic is too much energy. It's being hateful for no reason. I don't get it honestly. Yeah I know what it's like to not like something or not be a fan of something but it's called a block button or the good old ignore and scroll on. Don't gotta be so hostile. Laaame.
Also yaaay! Welcome to the Meth and Bethyl fandom :D There's so many other creators for it I could suggest if you would like. I'll just tag all the peeps for Meth and Bethyl goods :D the Bethyl community has its moments but overall it's usually very full of kind people. So I know they would agree when I say we are so happy to have you! Also even though are ship name is hilarious, the Meth shippers are awesome folks! They'd say Hell yeah to having you aboard the ship ^_^
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lab-gr0wn-lambs · 4 months
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When the Levee Breaks (pt. 5)
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Daryl Dixon x OFC
Story Summary: The one in which a stripper that used to know Merle and Daryl shows up at the Atlanta camp. Daryl’s feelings are complicated but mostly he hates her, right?
Chapt Setting: The Farm/Woods
Chapt Warnings: pretty explicit drug use (meth), season 2 Daryl, degrading/sexist language (he’s starting to get better lol), SOPHIA CHAPTER (I think that deserves a warning)
Word Count: 2.7k
A/N: Daryl’s POV story. Daryl’s starting to be less of a dick, trying really hard to make it feel organic/make it make sense in the story. Idk. This chapter was really rough to write because… it made me sad. Also have no idea if it even makes sense (the hallucination bit, really hope it does) lol ALSO; I looked up some timeline stuff and i just?? Really thought Daryl was out there for days on his own? But apparently he wasn’t? We’re just gonna say that he is in this story. 🤷🏼‍♀️ I can only do so much when the timeline of TWD is fucking stupid sometimes. (I mean it. Come for me. Idc. Rick was in a coma for 59 days without food or water???!?!!!? Bye)
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17+ mdni (no smut in this one tho sorry)
Like fiberglass in my veins, it tears through me. Mellow, at first, almost think I should rail more before I can feel myself sweatin’. Different kinda sweat, comin’ from my fuckin’ soul. 
Haven’t felt like I was doin’ something ‘wrong’ since I was little. That feeling that ch’ya get when you’re doin’ somethin’ ya know you’re not s’possed to. This ain’t the first time I done spazz, but maybe it’ll be the last. The anxiety about doin’ it goes away the second I feel the devil kick me through my nose to the back of my brain. Even though I know it’s comin’, it always feels like gettin’ skullfucked by satan. 
Been out here for a day. I brought Merle’s shit with me because I decided to finally get rid of it somewhere. But I got somethin’ that needs doin’. And anyway, I got years of experience with ice. Not doin’ it. Sometimes doin’ it. Never let Merle know, he’d’ve made some big whoop ‘bout it. And everytime he’d gone and done more than he remembered, he woulda blamed me. Shit though, sometimes it was. 
M’not like Merle and Beatle. Ain’t an addict. Can do shit and put it down. Always been able to put it down. Figured other people could too, that they just didn’t wanna. ‘m not sure, but still kinda think that. 
Never felt fuckin’ guilty about it before, though. Fuckin’ Beatle. I’unno if it’s cuz I’d be done with her if she did the same shit, or if it’s cuz I know if she knew that I was - she’d be mad at me. Mad I didn’t invite ‘er. 
But this shit ain’t for fuckin’ playtime. Only reason ‘m even doin’ it i’so I can find Sophia. So I can stay awake, focus, and get ‘er back. They use ta use this shit in war. War’s the reason methamphetamines even exist. Nazi’s? Hell, every single one of ‘em in WWII. Kamikazi’s loaded up, totally fuckin’ wasted outta their minds on crystal while they bolted ‘em in. Kept ‘em awake, kept ‘em happy, kept ‘em focused on the mission. Tha’s what I gotta do. 
I can’t stop lookin’ til I find ‘er. Sophia. ‘m the only one that can, only one that knows how. And anymore, ‘m the only one that seems to give a shit. ‘Sides Carol. And Beatle. She wanted ta come. Told her she’d only slow me down. Distract me. Drawn more geeks. She woulda. Told her I didn’t need food either but she packed me some anyway. Knew I wasn’t gonna be hungry. Knew I was gonna use this dumb shit to help. But whatever. 
Doesn’t matter what happens to me, right? My life’s not worth nothin’, not compared to that little girl. Now that her old man’s outta the picture she actually got a chance. Maybe not mucha one, not the way shit is these days. But she got ‘er mom. And ‘er mom can actually be ‘er mom now. Not scared of some piece’a shit prick that finally got what was comin’ to ‘im. 
Man fuck that guy.
The trail I’m followin’ disappears so I backtrack to the mangroves where I found her doll and try to find another one. 
I start to wonder what kinda old man Beatle had. What kinda mom? Startin’ ta realize I don’t know a damn thing about Beatle. I know she likes drinkin’, she likes laughin’, she likes fuckin’ with me. But… 
Beatle keeps surprisin’ me. Not just because she let me hump her face a few days ago, the fact that she liked it, shit I haven’t even had a second to process that. Nah, more cuz she hasn’t brought it up. Hasn’t tried to hold my hand again. Hasn’t been annoyin’ me nearly as much. Not even at all, if ‘m honest. 
My brain’s goin’ a million miles a fuckin’ second over Beatle and what happened between us. Not just the other night, but back then. Got questions that need answerin’ but she ain’t here. Try to keep myself occupied with trackin’ but it ain’t like trackin’ takes much thinkin’. Follow every trail I pick up, but none of ‘em lead me to Sophia. 
I’d prob’ly start gettin’ really frustrated about this, but that’s what crystals good for. All the dopamine I need, and nothin’s annoyin’. Focus.
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Bent branches, wilted leaves, mud impressions, walker guts. Trees and rocks and blood and mud and dirt and greens and browns and reds and blacks. And it’s dark and it’s light and it’s dark. And it smells fuckin’ rotten. Bent branches, wilted leaves, another trail, another dead end, another undead shithead. Bent branches, wilted leaves, mud impressions, Beatle. 
How many times did I go into Merle’s bag and take the devils dick up my nose? Cuz Beatle’s standin’ here right in front of me. ‘Cept she’s all done up in makeup and glitter and her pupils are the size of dimes. Little pink crop top, tiniest pair’a daisy dukes I ever seen. ‘n she’s in my face sayin’ the shit I been thinkin’ about her sayin’ since that day she said it. 
“I like you, Dar.” 
“You like bein’ fucked up more.” I say it like I said it the last time. 
“That’s not true! I mean - I like you, Daryl.” She steps closer, tries to put her hand on my cheek before I brush her off. She slumps back a little, turning away. “You like me, too. You said it.” 
My hearts in my fuckin’ throat and I’m standin’ there, this can’t be fuckin’ happening. I know is’not but doesn’t make it feel any less real. “Tha’ was before I really knew ya, Beatle.” 
Hate that I said that to ‘er. Did I really say that? Cuz maybe that’s how I felt. Hell, maybe that’s how I felt last week. But it ain’t fair. I don’t know her. Still. Now. Don’t know ‘er at all. Thought I did. Thought I understood what kinda girl did those kindsa things. Is that really what I said? Fuck.
She’s still turned away from me, but I walk the half circle around to look at her face. And she’s sobbing. Silently, trying to stay as still as possible. I… I don’t remember this part. Maybe I didn’t see it? Nah, I saw it. Just didn’t care. Didn’t wanna look at ‘er. Didn’t want to hear her lame ass confession. Especially after she’d brought up that I told ‘er I liked ‘er. She sniffles and wipes her face before she pulls a bubble pipe out of the waistband of her shorts and lights the bottom, starts smokin’ it. She asks if I want a hit, like last time. 
I go to say no, but the words don’t come out. Instead my hand reaches for it. I look back up and Beatle’s dressed all different. Baggy jeans and a bikini top. That night. Fuck. Shit. I don’t want to relive that night. 
“I promise, I won’t tell Merle.” She says, handing me her lighter. And I smoke it. Inhaling the vapor slowly like she had. “You gotta sip at it, like it’s a coffee and you’re drinking the air to see if it’s still too hot. Roll the bowl or it will burn.” I do it the way she says. She’s like ten years younger than me, but she looks at me - talks to me like it don’t matter. Like she don’t see it that way. Guess I don’t either, never really did. 
I’d never wanted to smoke it before. But that night I wanted to. With her. Woulda done anything she’d asked that night ‘fore she ruined it. I ruined it. Til it got all fucked up an’ it was never the same again. Not the way I saw her, not the way she looked at me. 
I’m goin’ through memories like they’re happening all over again. Feelin’ fuckin’ sick. I don’t wanna remember this. 
I hand the pipe back to her and she asks, “How do you feel?” 
“Fine.” 
“Just fine?” She smiles. 
“Good.” I clarify. 
“Good.” 
Don’t say it. Don’t say it. Don’t say it. “I think I like you, Beatle.” 
She laughs too hard, “you think?” I feel myself getting sicker and angry again all at once. 
I split in half. One half feelin’ those same feelings I felt. That this conceited fuckin’ bitch really acts like everyone likes her. I hear her words and it sounds like she’s sayin’ ‘well obviously’ - but the other halfa me hears it like a real question. Like she wanted ta know what I meant. I don’t remember how I responded then, but I can hear myself say it, “Self-obsessed cunt.” 
Beatle laughs, “Is that what you like about me?” 
My misunderstanding continues; Thought she was pickin’ on me. Makin’ funna me. All these years. All this time. Thought she was fuckin’ laughin’ at me. Never told a girl I liked her. Not that I never did like one, just never told ‘em. Not like some teenage fuckin’ confessional. And I do and what?  she just laughs.  
Shit. 
Cuz inside ‘m screaming. Screamin’ at myself ta say somethin’ different. To jus’ tell her. She’s special, she’s exciting, and when she smiles at the shit I say it makes me feel like I’m the only one in the fuckin’ world to her. Tha’s what she wants ta here. Tha’s why she’s askin’. 
“Nah. Forget it.” She nods, and I thought she did forget it.  She forgot until she brings it up again in the memory I already re-lived. 
Tha’s how I was so damn sure she didn’t give a single shit about if I liked her or not. Didn’t bring it up again for months. Didn’t give a single shit about me at all. Felt stupid for ever thinkin’ she might. Just a dumb crush on a dumb girl, and I forgot everything about it. An’ every little thing she did that made me like ‘er ended up as somethin’ else I hated.  And every time I saw her after that she was fucked up on somethin’. Meth or booze or weed. Usually all three. 
It comes at me like a fuckin’ freight train, her lips crashing into mine, but this time I want it. Don’t wanna stop kissin’ ‘er. Instead my arms move and I push her down to the ground. She’s wearing the crop top again, can tell she’d been cryin’. She’s layin’ there in the rocks lookin’ up at me and I flash back to the living room where this happened, where she’d told me she liked me back. I wanna beat the shit outta myself for makin’ her look like that. 
How didn’t I see it? 
I did see it. I just didn’t care. Thought I knew what kinda girl did those kinds’a things. 
Wonderin’ what kind of old man she had. What kinda boyfriends before she met me. How maybe she’s just as fuckin’ scared’a feelin’ stuff as I am. How maybe it took her months to even get up the courage to tell me after I’d told ‘er never mind and slowly started to hate her. How many’a those drinks were for courage? How many’a those hits were cuz she was nervous?
Shit. 
And she’s runnin’ away like she did then. Away from me an’ outta my life until a few weeks ago. I know it ain’t real but I run after her anyway. Screamin’ her name into the open air like maybe somehow I can change it if I can get her to come back. But she’s gone and ‘m still running tryin’ to find her. Screaming for her ‘til my throats hoarse. 
‘Til the walkers hear me. 
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Andrea fuckin’ shot me. What is wrong with this fuckin’ group?
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Beatle’s in the bedroom with me but I can’t look at ‘er. Don’t wanna. Feels like she knows what I was doin’ out in them woods without ‘er. Like she can see the dirty shit in my soul and for some reason it makes me ill. Can’t look at ‘er. Knowin’ I hurt ‘er like that all that time ago. Knowin’ it now like I ain’t ever known anything else. 
It’s just me ‘n her and she doesn’t try to talk to me. Just lets me lay there hatin’ myself for all of it. Didn’t even find Sophia. 
Spent a lot of my days in my life hatin’ myself. Thinkin’ I was good for nothin’. Now ‘m sure of it. 
I feel the bed move under the weight of her. She hugs herself around me, and like some pathetic kid I fuckin’ cry. Don’t know if she can tell or not but she tries comforting me anyway. “It’s okay, Dar. You did your best.” Her voice… how could I have ever thought it was annoying? Her bein’ so nice just makes me hate myself more. 
“Lea‘me alone, Beatle.” Shakin’ her arm out from around me. She gets off the bed and sits back in the chair she’d been in. God, I fuckin’ hate myself. Wanna scream No, come back. I didn’t mean it. 
Still got question’s that need answerin’. This time Beatles right here, and I ain’t got nothin’ to lose. “Why were you naked in Merle’s room?” Grateful that she’s sittin’ behind me. Don’t think I could talk to ‘er ‘bout this stuff if she was lookin’ at me. Right now? If I saw her face? Don’t think I could talk at all. 
She laughs. Fuck her stupid fuckin’ laugh. “I still can’t believe you think I fucked around with Merle.” 
“Why not? Y’all hung out every other day.” My voice is sharp, feels like she’s laughin’ at me again. Always feels like everyone’s laughin’ at me. 
“We all hung out every other day, Dar.” 
“Stop callin’ me tha’.” 
“I was carpet surfing. Your dumbass brother spilled all the schkag all over the damn place.” 
Oh…. But, “Ya didn’t have any clothes on.” 
“I never had any clothes on, Daryl. You sure I wasn’t just wearing something ‘slutty’? You know, like you always said I was? Cuz I don’t remember, but I’ve never been naked with Merle. Ever. Sounds fuckin’ gross.”
Oh. 
It made sense. Makes so much sense, ‘specially now. She keeps talkin’ an’ ‘m grateful cuz if I tried to say anything else I’d start fuckin’ cryin’ again. “I liked you, man. I…” she stops herself. Wanna beg her to keep goin’ but I can’t. 
Instead I ask ‘er the only question I got left, “Why’d ya leave, then? Ya left ‘n ya never came back.” 
She’s silent for a long time. “When you and Merle moved, where’d you go?” 
She did come back. 
“Why’d ya leave, Beatle?” Doesn’t matter where Merle and I went. She’s avoidin’ the question. 
“Got sober. After that night… with you. Wanted to get sober. Wanted to…” she don’t say the rest but she don’t need to. I got it. Fuck, my heart can’t take it. 
“Cuz I said ya liked gettin’ fucked up more than ya liked me.” It ain’t a question. I know. 
“Think it was more the other thing you said.” 
Tha’ was before I really knew ya, Beatle. I can still taste the words. “Shouldn’t’a said that to ya.” My voice is barely a whisper. 
She gets back up on the bed and puts her arm around me again, this time I don’t shake her away. Her voice, so close to my ear, “I didn’t want to tell you that I came back. I didn’t want you to know that I got sober for you.” 
What? “Why not?” 
“Wasn’t sure you’d care. And if you did… I didn’t want you to have all the what-ifs in your head that I have in mine.” 
She hugs herself into me so tight it’s hard to breathe, and she tells me, “It doesn’t matter anymore.” 
I feel guilty, can’t take any of that back. Can’t make any of it better. I don’t deserve this. Her. After all the nasty shit I ever thought about her. After what I did to her the other night. I can’t bring myself to tell her to leave cuz I know she wants to be here. Don’t wanna make her cry again. 
So I let her hold me. Even though I don’t fuckin’ deserve it. 
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rubberglove · 2 years
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i hate rick grimes so much and the fact that he got the treatment of every other male AMC protagonist just amazes me because he's literally the worst protagonist ever. being on the internet while twd was really blowing up was amazing because you'd think rick was this paragon of masculine badassery but he's literally just some dumb cunt who only goes 🤨 and 😮. at least walter did something cool like cook meth but rick only talks in a southern accent and also shoots a gun sometimes
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bethylmethbrick · 3 years
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MERLE DIXON FanFiction LET ME HELP Merle Dixon and Beth Greene AU
He reaches out, taking a chance and taking her hand in his. It's not much, but it's a first step and he's grateful she doesn't pull away. Not yet anyway, but he's waiting for that. Merle and Beth
Read on FF: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/13859286/5/Let-Me-Help
Read on AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/30241953/chapters/76812239
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belladcmum · 5 years
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This is weird, but my absolute favorite fic ever is one where one of them leave for a while and then comes back after like a year or two and it’s all horrifically angsts and sometimes they’re dating other people. Like the angstier the better. I love that so much. So like, fic recs? Ya know? Please with sugar on top?
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texasbelle91 · 6 years
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Bethyl, Brick, and Meth fandom, I could really use some help from y'all. My dad passed away on Tuesday, September 11, 2018 and his funeral expenses are left up to my mom and I. We set up a GoFundMe to help us pay for his funeral. If y'all can give a donation or at least share this post, it would be greatly appreciated. I love you all!
Here's where you can find the GoFundMe account:
https://www.gofundme.com/funeral-expenses-for-bennie-mathews
@gneebee @jazznsmoke @doeroseq @weapon13whitefang @bethgreenewarriorprincess @bethgreeneishopeunseen @bethylmoonshinecafe @twdmusicboxmystery @ultimatebethylficlist
Everyone that is tagged, I hope y'all don't mind that I tagged y'all but I did so so maybe more people can see this.
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janddrawn · 4 years
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Epic Rap Battle of History: Rick Grimes VS Walter White  Too epic not to re-create. 
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karazrel · 5 years
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men will say a female character is a crazy bitch who ruined the show/movie and then you go watch it and she’s literally the only one w a brain
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lwyrsdghtr-a · 5 years
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tonight i’m thinking about how brba and twd might exist in the same universe
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twdmusicboxmystery · 2 years
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Daryl has aid Fuck on the show before. He said it to Rick in S9e5 When he and Rick are trapped in that hole. Did people just forget that? He says "And you sure as fuck wouldn't have found any of us." to Rick while they're fighting about Rick still keeping Negan alive and letting the Savior's stay with them.
No, I didn't forget it. I remembered that, but they didn't air the audio of it. They bleaped out the actual word. Even in the subtitles it said [no audio] over when he said it. So, you're right that they've definitely hinted at it before.
And I know they've filmed scenes with it that simply didn't air on television. For example, I know back in S4, there was an alternate final scene to 4x16 where Rick said, "they're f***ing with the wrong people" rather than screwing. But again, they wouldn't let that air on TV. It was just a DVD extra.
So, this is the first time they actually allowed the word into the show when it aired on television, didn't mute it, and even put it in the closed captioning.
See, the thing is, back in the day, AMC always gave Breaking Bad one f-bomb per season. So, the fans have wanted them to do the same with TWD. But I think the difference is that Breaking Bad aired at like 11 pm anyway (because it was about meth production) so the network didn't mind more adult language. But TWD is still on at 7, when lots of kids will be watching. So, they've been more careful with it.
It's really just a footnote. Not that big a deal or terribly important. Just something I know a lot of fans were happy to see. Er, hear. Xoxo! ☔️💞
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weapon13whitefang · 1 year
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Choice — A Meth AU
Beth Greene - having woken up in a small clinic after a car crash that left her comatose during the attack on Atlanta - awakens to a world where the dead walk the earth and has a choice to make when she hears the cries of one Merle Dixon in trouble; help get him free and risk her life… or leave him to die.
Idea number 367801 that I’ll probably never write but figured I’d share.
This is an old old old edit I’ve had sitting around and a half chapter left in my WIP folder lol
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thaliasandy · 5 years
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Carol taking pills is not a reason why Caryl wouldn't go canon. It's the opposite to be honest.
It is dangerous and I'm worried about Carol not sleeping/self medicating&And taking way more pills than necessary by the looks of it/hallucinating BUT the moment Daryl finds out what's happening with her, he'll support her and help her get better.
It will only bring them closer together. Of course him hugging her isn't going to magically cure her (even though this is TWD and Rick's hallucinations in s3 were pretty much cured by having a nice talk with Hershel and Sasha's PTSD just dissapeared after 1 episode🙄) but Daryl being there for her and comforting her could definitely help her.
Abcds acting like Daryl is going to jugde Carol for taking pills is simply stupid. He loved his brother who was a meth addict, Carol is taking pills because she probably thinks they'll help her somehow, it's not quite the same. And he loves her either way...in sickness or in health.
Caryl is coming!
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twdeadfanfic · 5 years
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It’s a dog’s life Pt.10
*Summary: The reader is new and alone at the quarry’s camp, the only one she has is her dog, who seems to be best friends with Daryl Dixon, a not so friendly man, but that friendship will bring the reader closer to Daryl, finding that there’s more to Daryl than what you can see at first glance…besides, he’s pretty hot at first glance, isn’t him?
*Slow burn, both reader and Daryl’s pov, violence and language twd style.Follows the events of season 1 and 2.
*4112 words
*Pairing: Daryl Dixon x Reader
Chapters: 10/14
*Link to my masterlist with my other works can be found on the description of this blog. I’m sorry for the inconvenience, but tumblr doesn’t show posts with links in the tags
Last chapter Daryl got hurt looking for Sophia and the reader has alternated between keeping an eye on him and going looking for Sophia. but she hasn’t had much luck at it...
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In just a day, Hershel declared Daryl good enough to leave the house, though he still had to rest on his tent and shouldn’t move too much or he might pop a stitch. Daryl was recovering fast, sure, but you also knew Hershel didn’t like to have your people in his house. Carl was on his feet too and running around already, to everyone’s relief.
You were cleaning the stables and tending to the horses, all of you were working around the farm to try and gain Hershel to your side, and you were trying to make up for having taken the horses too. As soon as you finished, you intended to go check on Daryl. Cole had been with you for a while, but now he had disappeared and you had a feeling of where he might be.
Your guess had been right, you saw him running away from Daryl’s tent to catch a small stick that had landed not too far from the tent and which probably Daryl had thrown him from inside. Cole took the stick and walked into the tent, you behind him.
“Hi, there.” You greeted, kneeling down inside the tent. Daryl gave you a nod and a hum, taking the stick and scratching Cole’s head, who just seemed to realize you were there, barking as a greeting and licking your hand. You noticed a book on the ground next to Daryl and you picked it up. “What you got there?”
“Andrea gave it to me earlier.”
You read the summary, it seemed to be some sort of detectives and crimes thing. You were pretty sure you had read through all of Dale’s books but it seemed you had missed that one. It seemed like a good way to pass the time.
“Want me to read it to you?”
“I can read it myself.” Daryl snapped.
“I know.” You rolled your eyes and nudged his leg with your foot. “I just thought it could be fun. But whatever.”
Daryl glanced at you for a split of a second, fidgeting with the stick he had been throwing to Cole, before lying down on his sleeping bag.
“Okay…read it if you want…” He said quietly. You opened the book and started reading it aloud.
You didn’t stop until it was time for dinner, almost having gone through the whole book.
“We’ll finish it tomorrow, alright?”
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Next morning you were all having breakfast outside your tents, Daryl included. He looked so much better than a couple of days ago, though you knew his wound was still bothering him. Breakfast was delicious, a scramble made by Carol with fresh eggs, and you tried to enjoy it despite the tense and silent atmosphere around you. Whatever was going in on in the group, you didn’t really feel like getting involved, you just wanted to stay focused on Sophia’s search.
“Guys…” You hadn’t finished your scramble when Glenn began to speak, looking nervous. “So…there are walkers in the barn.”
You couldn’t believe it until you saw it, but it was true, you could see a group of walkers locked inside the barn and you couldn’t figure out why in the world would Hershel keep them there, and you had the feeling that asking him wouldn’t end up good. Apparently, according to Dale who somehow knew it, Hershel thought those walkers were his sick family and friends and therefore he wouldn’t kill them. You already had told Maggie about the CDC and Rick had done the same to Hershel, waiting for a cure was delusional, yet it didn’t seem like it would change the Greene’s mind.
A fight broke between Shane and Rick, since one wanted to clear the barn while Rick thought that would only make Hershel kick you out of the farm. You agreed with Rick, you were already on thin ice with Hershel, but living next to a barn full of walkers didn’t sound like the safest thing.
You could leave the farm, but you hated the idea of going back to the road without a destination, probably only to find that Fort Benning and everything else were gone forever, you couldn’t be sure you would find another heaven like that farm. Besides, you couldn’t leave without Sophia.
Turned out it seemed Shane could, as he thought there was no way you would find Sophia by now, much less alive. You knew how many days had passed, you knew how dangerous the world was, and if you had been less enraged at Shane for saying something like that in front of Carol and seeing tears coming to her eyes, you might have thought he had a point.
“Shut your mouth!” You snapped at Shane.
“I’m close to finding this girl. I just found her damn doll two days ago!” Daryl came from behind you to get on Shane’s face.
“You found her doll, Daryl. That’s what you did. You found a doll.” Shane snapped back. “I’m just saying what needs to be said. You get a good lead, it’s in the first 48 hours.”
Both men were glaring at each other and you were sure a fight was going to break between them so you stepped between them to try and stop them even though you wanted to punch Shane yourself, you didn’t want Daryl getting hurt and worsening his injuries, and if those two started fighting probably the situation would escalate too much. Rick came to stand at your side, trying to calm them down too.
“Let me tell you something else, man. If she was alive out there and saw you coming all methed out with your buck knife and geek ears around your neck, she would run in the other direction.”
Daryl tried to throw himself at Shane at that but the others rushed to try and pull both men apart. You couldn’t believe Shane would say something like that after all Daryl had done trying to find Sophia. You saw red, anger rising inside you, and you went for Shane, pushing him as hard as you could.
“Y/N!” Lori, who had been dragging Shane away from Daryl, looked at you wide-eyed but you didn’t even hear her.
“What the hell did you just say?!” You yelled at Shane, pushing him again. He was looking at you seeming too surprised to do anything. “You haven’t done shit to try and find Sophia, Daryl’s been there every day and organizing everything, so shut your mouth or I’ll make you shut it!”
“Why don’t we all calm down?” Andrea dragged you away from Shane and you didn’t resist, you could hear the walkers banging the doors of the barn, excited by the commotion going outside.
The discussion kept going about what to do, Dale seemed sure Hershel would never let you clear the barn, but Rick told everybody he would talk to Hershel. It wasn’t like you could do much else, if you cleared those walkers you would not only be kicked out of the farm but also couldn’t keep looking for Sophia from a safe place.
You saw Daryl storming away and you followed him. “Hey, hey wait.” Daryl didn’t stop, heading to his tent, and you tried to keep his pace. “Shane was talking bullshit.”
“Leave me alone, Y/N.” Daryl snapped and you tried not to take it to heart, knowing he was upset. Maybe he needed to be alone and so you stopped following him.
There were people on watch on the barn while Rick tried to sort things out with Hershel. Shane was one of them and you didn’t feel like facing him again so you walked away. You looked for Maggie, wanting to confront her about the barn. You tried to think about what to say so your temper wouldn’t get the best of you and you ended up lashing at her instead of just trying to have an actual talk.
“Maggie, hey, hum…let’s talk.” You maybe sounded more demanding than you had intended, but you didn’t think it was a bad start, you weren’t snapping or anything.
“You all know about the barn.” Maggie rolled her eyes before glaring at you. “I knew that idiot couldn’t have his mouth shut!”
“What did you expect him to do, we sleep there! We could be walkers dinner at any moment!” Your resolution to try to stay calm was soon gone. “How insane is to keep walkers in the barn?!”
“You know nothing!” Maggie snapped.
“No, you know nothing!” You snapped back. “You haven’t seen the things I’ve seen! I told you about the CDC already, your father is delusional thinking they’re sick people waiting for a cure…there’s no cure, there’s nothing, they’re dead!”
“You don’t understand it!” By know you knew Maggie’s temper was usually at par with yours, she’d stood her ground in your previous arguments, so you were shocked to notice her eyes watering. “Those you call monsters are my family!”
“They are people no more, they are dead…think about it and I know you’ll see it.” Your voice had softened, you didn’t have the heart to yell at her anymore. “It’s dangerous. We all have lost people…they’re gone, those are just bodies. And they aren’t coming back.”
Maggie said nothing, just shook her head and you didn’t see a point on keep pushing it. You could just hope Rick could make Hershel understand it, but you weren’t hopeful at all.
“Hey…Glenn did what he did to protect us, but he’s all head over heels with you.” You said softly. “Don’t go hard on him.”
“We’ll see about that…”
*
You were throwing sticks at Cole, not knowing what to do with yourself, when you saw Carol approaching you. She seemed upset and like she had been crying so you rushed to her, your head full of the worst scenarios about Sophia.
“What’s wrong?!”
“It’s Daryl…” Carol said and you blinked in surprise at that. “I found him on the stables, trying to get a horse ready to go looking for Sophia, but you know he’s not good enough, he’s still hurt.” You shook your head at his stubbornness. “And I’m grateful he’s looking but he already got hurt, I didn’t want him getting worse…he didn’t like it when I told him…”
You could imagine and you reached out to take Carol’s hand. “Don’t be upset, he’s an idiot sometimes.”
“I know.” Carol gave you a sad smile. “But he’s a good man and I don’t want him hurting himself…can you check on him so he doesn’t try to go again? Maybe you’ll have better luck than me.”
You let out a sigh. Babysitting Daryl when he was upset and angered didn’t sound like the best plan, but you were concerned Carol was right and Daryl might try again to go looking for Sophia when he was still recovering.
“Alright…maybe my dog will have better luck than I.”
You found Daryl inside his tent, fidgeting with an arrow, stabbing it in an out of one of the tent’s nets…it didn’t seem he was in the best mood, and he glared at you when he noticed you approaching but you kept going anyway, crouching down and getting inside the tent.
“Get out!” Daryl didn’t lose time to snap at you.
“Tell me that at least the horse you were trying to take wasn’t the one who threw you.” You tried to stay unfazed by his anger. “I mean, I’m not sure if you’d be sensible like that considering you just tried to leave, alone, riding a horse while still having stitches on your side, you know.”
“Leave me alone.” He growled.
“Okay. But if you try to do something like that again I’m not letting you.”
“I don’t need your permission or nothing, girl, you ain’t gonna babysit me, now leave me the hell alone!” Daryl threw away the arrow he had been playing with, angry, and Cole barked excitedly and ran to pick up the arrow as if he thought Daryl was playing with him. You rolled your eyes, maybe those two got along so well because they were idiots sometimes.
“You worried Carol, Daryl, she’s afraid you’ll hurt yourself…”
“I ain’t hurting myself! That bitch should be worrying about her damn daughter and not about me!”
“What the hell did you just call her?!” Now you were angry. “Daryl Dixon you might be my friend but if I ever hear you calling another woman that, I’m gonna smack you in the head so hard it’ll be worse than when Andrea shoot you.”
That seemed to silence Daryl, if only because he was surprised at your outburst. He averted his eyes from you and began fidgeting with the arrow that Cole had brought back, slightly chewed.
“Don’t know why she’d care anyway…” He mumbled.
“Because you’ve been looking for her little girl non-stop, giving her hope...because you’re a good man, Daryl, even though sometimes you’re a prick. So yes, she cares for you and doesn’t want you to hurt yourself.”
“I wasn’t gonna hurt myself,” Daryl grumbled again and you didn’t bother to reply, let him have that. “Carol said we don’t know if we’re gonna find Sophia…she gave up…”
“She didn’t, it’s just…” You let out a sigh and flopped down to sat down on the floor of the tent. “I guess she’s trying to be ready in case the worse might happen or in case we have to leave…”
“She doesn’t think I can find her.”
“It’s not that.” You nudged his foot with yours gently. “If-when we find Sophia, it’ll be thanks to you.”
“Not if I’m here sitting on my ass doing nothing.” He sounded angry again. “I have to go looking for her, none else is gonna do it, not now with the barn and all.”
“Yell all you want but I’m not letting you go, you’re recovering.” Daryl seemed about to snap but you kept talking before he could. “I’ll go, okay? Right now, I’ll go looking for Sophia.”
Daryl seemed to think it for a moment and then he nodded reluctantly. “Are you taking Maggie with you?”
“Well…I’m not sure if she’s angry at me or not…” You hadn’t talked to her again. “Besides, she left with Glenn on a run. I’ll go by myself.”
“You shouldn’t go alone.” Daryl surprised you, you had thought he’d be rushing you to leave.
“Don’t think none is about to join me…” You shrugged, Daryl was right, everyone seemed too busy right now.
“I would.”
“You’re recovering.” You said again, making Daryl roll his eyes.
“You won’t go alone.”
“Okay…what if I try and get some of the others to help me with the search?” Only a couple of people were watching the barn, the others should be free to join the search and you planned to make them feel as guilty as possible if they didn’t volunteer.
“Alright…But if they don’t then I’m going with you.”
“We’ll see about that…” Daryl seemed mostly okay but you could see some blood on his shirt from when he had hurt himself trying to saddle the horse, he still should take it easy. “And no horses this time.”
Daryl said nothing to that, just shrugged and kept fidgeting with the arrow. You reached out to pull up his shirt, wanting to check on his wound, and Daryl flinched away from your hand, wincing as he did so.
“Sorry.” You rushed to apologize, pulling your hand off him. “You’re bleeding.”
“I’m fine.” He grumbled, though she frowned as he looked at the bloodstains as if noticing it for the first time.
“You might have popped a stitch…can I check it?” You reached out again but didn’t touch him until Daryl nodded. You lifted his shirt and carefully removed the soiled bandage to reveal his wound. It had bled a bit but it didn’t look bad. “I don’t know…maybe Hershel should check it…”
“No.”
“Alright, let me clean it a bit then.” You had ‘borrowed’ some disinfectant, gauzes, antibiotics and things like that from Hershel’s cabinet, in case he sent you all away. You felt bad about it, but it’d be worse if you were on the road again and didn’t have medical supplies.
Daryl raised an eyebrow at you when he saw you taking out of your bag some gauze and disinfectant, as if guessing where you had taken it from, but he said nothing. Pouring some disinfectant into the gauze, you cleaned the wound and applied a fresh bandage.
“There you go.” You finished cleaning and rebandaging him. You bit your lip thinking about how the arrow had gone through his side, impaling him. It was a wonder he was not only alive and recovering so fast but also how he had managed to go back to the farm all by himself. You didn’t want to think how close he had been of dying.
“Thanks,” Daryl said without looking at you and you both stayed silent for a while, Daryl back at fidgeting with the arrow and you busying yourself stroking Cole’s fur. Maybe it was time for you to leave, but you kept catching Daryl giving you side glances and you waited for him to speak.
“When you went for Shane…” He finally began, eyes trained on the ground. “I hadn’t seen you that angry since you threatened that doc with an ax.”
“Yeah, well, Shane was spitting a lot of bullshit.” You were still angry at him. “I can’t believe he’d say that about Sophia in front of Carol. I can’t believe he said those stupid things about you, either!” You felt like punching him even though you knew you wouldn’t stand a chance against Shane. “You know it was bullshit, right?” Daryl just shrugged, avoiding your gaze. “Well, it was.”
“Thanks.” He whispered, eyes still down.
“You’re my friend I’m going to stand for you, and Shane was a prick. I’m not letting anyone talk bullshit about you.” You stated, unashamed, you didn’t know when you had become so protective over Daryl but there it was. “You’re a prick sometimes too but I would never smack you, no matter what I said before, I won’t. But I’ll smack Shane if he ever says something like that again.”
His eyes snapped up to look at you at that, seeming surprised, and then his lips curled up into a lopsided, small smile. He should smile more often. He looked down quickly, blushing. “Thanks.”
“That thing he said about you wearing geek ears…was that true?” You wanted to have him talking about something else and you were genuinely curious. “Why?” You asked when he nodded.
“Thought it might mistake the smell to other geeks.”
“That’s so smart…you’re so smart.” You were always amazed at how resourceful and quick at thinking Daryl was.
“Stop.” He grumbled, blushing even more.
“But it’s true!”
“I don’t know if it works or not.”
“Smart anyway.”
Silence fell between you both until Daryl broke it again. “Shane’s lying about Otis, I think he left the man as bait or something like that.”
“Why?” You didn’t doubt Daryl but that sounded too bad even for Shane.
“His story doesn’t add up.” Daryl didn’t elaborate more and you didn’t ask. You knew how observant and smart he was, so if he was suspicious about Shane then probably he had a reason and wasn’t mistaken. The idea was too horrible to think about it, though. “I ain’t saying anything, the Greene’s would kick us out of here if they knew.”
“Hershel might kick us out anyway.” You let out a sigh. “Rick’s talking with him…I’m gonna see if he’s done to ask him to come looking for Sophia with me.”
“Alright.”
“You gotta apologize to Carol, okay?” You reminded him and Daryl shrugged.
“How?” He murmured sheepishly, sounding so childish it was adorable.
“Try saying sorry.” You retorted and Daryl rolled his eyes.
You kneeled up but before you crawled out of the tent you leaned over to kiss Daryl’s cheek, you just felt like it. Daryl looked at you with wide, surprised eyes before frowning.
“What was that for?”
You just shrugged, giving him a small smile before leaving his tent.
Rick found you before you found him, walking towards you with a map on his hand. “It’s time we go back to the search, come with me?”
“I was just looking for you to ask you the same…did you talk with Hershel? Is he kicking us out?”
“We’re not leaving.” Rick didn’t hold your gaze and it wasn’t exactly the answer to what you were asking, but for now, it’d have to be enough, he was already unfolding the map before you could say anything. “So what do you think, should we check this area?”
“Maybe…I could ask Daryl, he’ll know what’s the best plan.”
“Alright, you do that and I go see if someone else’s free to join us.” Rick patted your shoulder and headed away, and you went back to Daryl’s tent.
He was outside, pacing back and forth as he glanced nervously at the RV where you knew Carol was. You couldn’t help your small smile, he was so cute sometimes. “Just go and say sorry,” you said as you placed a hand on his arm. He flinched but relaxed when he saw it was you. “She’s your friend and cares about you, she’ll forgive you if you apologize.”
Daryl shrugged as if trying to show he didn’t care, but you knew better. You unfolded the map and pointed at the area Rick was telling you. “So Rick thinks we could check this area, we’re leaving in about an hour, what you think?”
“Yeah…” Daryl nodded. “We should check this other again too. I’ll go too.”
“Not happening.”
“I’m fine, I can walk so I can search for her.” Daryl rolled his eyes, seeming exasperated again. He was just so damn stubborn.
“Apologize to Carol and then we’ll see.”
You went looking for Rick but couldn’t find him anywhere. He couldn’t have just disappeared in a moment. You noticed Glenn and Maggie on the stairs of the porch, seeming to have made up, at least that was good.
“Have you seen Rick?” You asked when you approached them. “We were supposed to go looking for Sophia.”
“No, sorry.”
You let out a sigh and sat down to wait for him. Time passed and he still wasn’t showing up, and you didn’t know if you should be angry at him or worried. You noticed Daryl and Carol approaching, those two seeming to have made up too and you couldn’t help your smile.
“Weren’t we leaving?” Daryl asked, annoyed.
“Don’t know where Rick is.”
“Fine, we leave without him.” He scoffed.
Before any of you could say anything else, Shane approached you carrying a big bag full of guns which he began passing to everyone, saying how you needed to secure the place and deal with that barn before it was too late, ignoring Maggie and Lori asking him to stop. You wanted the farm to be safe, sure, but doing what Shane intended to do would just cause more trouble and Hershel would never forgive it.
Cole growled, nervous, and you grabbed him by his collar, trying to calm him.
“This is not a good idea.” You grabbed Daryl’s arm with your free hand when he took one of the rifles, you thought he might yank his arm free but he didn’t, turning to look at you. “Hershel will kick us out for sure.”
“What the hell is that?”
You all followed Shane’s gaze to find Hershel and Rick walking towards the barn and you couldn’t believe your eyes but they had a walker with them in some sort of lash, as if they were walking it to the barn…did Hershel collect them there? What was that? You hadn’t thought the man insane, just delusional, but this was too much.
Shane ran to them, yelling at them, you all running behind…and then the storm began. Shane was out of control, yelling and shooting at the walker, and before any of you could do anything he had opened the barn, walkers stumbling out.
“Y/N, don’t let the dog go to them!” Daryl warned you while he aimed the rifle and shoot, along with Shane, Andrea, Rick, T-Dog, even Glenn, murdering the Greene’s family in front of their eyes. It had to be done, you knew it, those weren’t people, they were monsters, but the Greene’s looked so broken you couldn’t look while the monsters dropped dead.
And when you thought things couldn’t get worse, they did. A last, little walker stumbled out of the barn.
Sophia.
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boltsandashes · 5 years
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TWD Ghosts initial thoughts
I. Loved this episode, wow. Pls come talk to me about it.
Quick bullets and overall thoughts below the break.
holy shit that was a solid intro though. super into the way they handled that
daryl touching michonne’s shoulder. i just love him giving casual supportive touches
siddiq BABE
(and i know i relate everything back to daryl but i love that daryl picked up on him leaving, noticed the signs of panic/trauma when most other people didn’t. tiny detail but super IC)
god carol... taking that gun, don’t screw this up babe
“It’s Aaron, he’s a saint.” Oof Aaron did not appreciate that comment. God I’m so torn on Aaron this year. Not like, whether I’m enjoying him or not, because I am enjoying him and Ross is amazing but just... whenever I see bamf Aaron I’m torn between whether to be psyched or heartbroken
Carol should not be there. Seriously who thought bringing Carol there was a good plan?
THE AARON & NEGAN SCENE. Damn. The Eric shout-outs. My goddamn heart.
I love Aaron calling Negan out (I love anyone calling Negan out tbh. I hate when shows redeem/forgive the villain too easy but the way TWD handles it is doing so many great things for their characters, for Negan’s character, and just for the story in general. It’s realistic and heartfelt and just... gonna stop flailing over that now but they’ve been doing good with Negan since s9 started and I’m glad they’re keeping up with it now.)
“Did you just trip me? What are you, twelve?”
“Tell me why the love of my life had to die.”
“One simple fact, one truth kept my people going. If you don’t protect what belongs to you then sooner or later it belongs to someone else. That goes for your land, your wallet, your home, your country. Everything. It is your job as a man to protect it. It’s the story of America. The story of the whole goddamn world. And ain’t nothin’ changing it. Not you, not me, nobody.” “Right. Are you saying that Eric’s death was my fault? Well, if I failed Eric then you failed your wife.”
HOLY SHIt that book cover. Ok. getting the reason for the ep title now, damn.
DARYL BACKSTORY??
“Daryl, I’m not a meth-snorting truck driver like your––” ...Damn. ouch.
Oooh ok so. tbh when Daryl was talking about his dad I felt like truck driver didn’t quite feel right for his established backstory, and i went with it but i honestly really love that that wasn’t real. I mean... i would’ve loved more Daryl backstory but I’m kind of glad ‘cause it felt vaguely off?
Damn wait though... so did that whole thing with the leg trap actually happen?
Kind of disappointed that Eugene was actually secretly waiting for Rosita to fall for him. I thought he was just genuinely being mature and selflessly loving her and I was so proud of him for that. I kind of feel like every time I decide I’m proud of Eugene he ends up disappointing me a little.
(i love how this whole episode’s about them being exhausted considering I’ve been dead on my feet all day.)
omg that dream sequence was... actually really fucking cute. That resurrected my long-daed Caryl feels for a sec ngl
I. Loved. So much in this episode. I love playing with warping reality in general, messing with dream sequences and delusions and wondering what’s real and there was so much good in this episode. The little details like the textbook cover. The two Daryl dream-sequences. And then playing into that to make us doubt whether Carol’s fight in the gym was real.
I loved the Aaron & Negan scenes. In all honesty I’m falling way harder on the “Aaron needs love and hugs and seeing him like this hurts me” side of things than “yay bamf Aaron,” but I love seeing him pull no punches with Negan and I wanna see him work through his pain instead of holding it in and I think he’s figuring out how to do that. The Eric shout-outs... I can’t.
I always feel like I’m forgetting a ton of things I wanna ramble about when I do these so PLEASE message me, send me asks, or reply on here with anything you wanna flail about from the ep ‘cause I loved it and I’d love to chat more.
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bethylmethbrick · 4 years
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MERLE DIXON FanFiction SAVE ME Merle Dixon and Beth Greene - One Shot Complete
SAVE ME: He leans back, rests his elbows on the bar behind him and takes a long pull of the cooling beverage, all while thoroughly scanning the room. His eyes stop moving when they land on her. Merle & Beth
Read it on FF: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/13641958/1/
Read it on AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/25231399
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