#tumultuous LOL

[chloemew]

This ancient drawing of mine and my wife's humanoid Pump and Wood still cracks me up

In about four months time, this image turns ten years old :))))))

#doodles #over ten years of Pood..... #I draw them cute now but I kinda miss when their 'relationship' was a bit more uhhh #tumultuous LOL #they're robots so they can shrug stuff off it was fun

[victimized-martyr]

Do you think Kenny actually likes cartman? I’m not so sure since the reading of his will in s9e4 (https://youtu.be/QGx92r8NLIM)

I feel like nobody likes him but Kyle is the only one who thinks he can possibly get better at all.

I agree on some level with that last statement. Due to Kyle's morals and complicated attachment to Cartman, he would be the only one willing to nurture the potential Cartman has, though I'd say Cartman isn't universally hated as one would assume. I think Kenny and Cartman's friendship deepened off screen since s9. It shows itself strongly in the covid specials and post-covid (not post covid the special, I mean like.. after the actual irl covid and.. ARGH mattrey u make my life so difficult)     

      Kenny was the one to approach Cartman about the fragility of the broship and inspires Cartman to be the one to make sure the gang stays together. That's a level of openness and vulnerability that frankly, I haven't seen him share with Stan or Kyle. Quite the opposite in fact-- When Kenny finally admits he's immortal, Stan and Kyle dismiss him in their own way. Neither have made the move to sympathize with him since, especially at the level Cartman does in the covid episodes. Now, Cartman's "sympathetic" method of coddling Kenny wasn't the best thing to do I'd say, the show was clear  Stan, Kyle and Cartman weren’t handling the broship fallout well, but Cartman definitely proved himself as the “best friend” the show has claimed he’s been in prioritizing Kenny during Covid. We even get a verbal reminder from Cartman and Kyle in Post-Covid that despite it being the literal worst future for everyone, Cartman and Kenny’s friendship thrived. With the opposite lives they lead, it's astounding they remained best friends for forty years.

That level of loyalty is kicking Stan and Kyle in the dirt and laughing rn. Look at Dikinbaus! Cartman and Kenny had a blast “planning the business” (ie living it up as owners and mutually taking advantage of Butters to just pal around) and Cartman once again concedes to Kenny when he lets him work from home. It’s a gag first and foremost, but still, I think it works as part of character analysis lolol. I’m analyzing this a lot from Cartman’s perspective, or at least his actions, but I don’t rlly have much to go by on Kenny’s end and I hope y’all can see why lol. excluding the Mysterion arc and the s22 Halloween episode, he’s a passive character. things rly just are happening to this dude. 

Cartman's attachment to Kenny has grown exponentially since the early seasons ("I hate yew guys/ specially kinny/ ah hate em the most/") whereas we've heard directly from Kenny what he thought of Cartman at the time s9 was written but we don't really know what he thinks of Cartman presently. Now, mattrey have written Kenny's quietness and frequent disappearances as part of the charm of his character--the mysteriousness with a pinch of hidden sadness, maybe a dash of loneliness--and not like, a serious writing pitfall of not knowing what to do with one of your main characters, not giving them the chance to let the audience see their motivations. So the uncertainty surrounding Kenny's true opinions, in this case of his friendship with Cartman, isn't by accident. I'd say it's fair to assume Kenny now views Cartman as a best friend, given how much Cartman has done for him.

I’d also say it’s fair to assume the pity for Cartman hasn’t changed.

#asks #south park #eric cartman #kenny mccormick #kennman #sure this could be seen as kennman why not lol #now Kyle believes cartman can change and maybe kenny can see it too but kenny definitely isn’t proactive enough to put in the effort to #see it thru #Kenny’s friendship with Cartman has grown to become the least tumultuous of the m4 #so Kenny doesn’t need to feel compelled to search for the food in cartman. he already sees in in their friendship #on a writing level it’s just… off to have Cartman and Kenny go thru so much only for Kenny to still have the same opinions of Cartman in s9 #they’ve taken on this weird new role where Cartman takes it upon himself to console kenny in addition to stringing hm along in his schemes #ohh but as much as i’ve said that kyle sees good in cartman and wants to be the one to help see that goodness come to fruition #it’s also try that as of s20 Kyle’s been disillusioned #he told heidi ‘Cartman will never change’ and I think that was a wake up call for himself as much as it was for heidi #when cartman gave up the pangolin all kyle said was ‘i don’t believe it’ #when cartman said he converted kyle refused to give cartman a chance even at the end of the special #s7 kyle would’ve clung to the promise of cartman changing with rosy eyes full of hope #that hope for cartman ain’t dead but dormant rn. the heiman arc rly burnt him out #Cartman get off ur ass and win Kyle back pls he’s so done w/ u rn my guy he will Nope himself out of stories now so he won’t deal w/ u #(kyle’s absence in streaming wars was rly felt) #wait in streaming wars kyle had a ‘he can change 🥺’ moment when he went ‘🥺’ for cartman when talkin abt the surgery #he was on everyone’s case abt the surgery he was on top of managing cartman’s boat building quality #but yeah cartman ended up taking the money for himself and. now we’re fuckin back to square one :)) #although i’d say in streaming wars cartman didn’t withhold the deets on the surgery on purpose. he didn’t know what was going on #when he went to talk to the guys and he was genuine. #A​NAYWAYS FUCK OK STOP TALKING EPSERANZA GOD

[myfemininedivine]

Can you please tell us what ending you planned for Taste? Always wondered if stupid Eva would have come back in the last chapters and what else you planned. It's my favorite story of yours.

I’ll give a very very bad and horrible run down of the last few chaps I had. I deeply apologize for not finishing, but I’m sure you understand. Still, im so sorry to not finish something I started.

The run down for the rest of TASTE would've been this:

Basically, if we focusing on the main couple..... (not gonna explain the smut but just know ofc it woulda been there)

WE LOVE IN SEPTEMBER:

I wanted to focus on all the miscommunication/horrible commitment issues. Most of the focus is on Lexi’s past relationship (guy basically ghosts her, moves out without comment, had commitment issues, extremely similar to Fezco in some ways except he never quite gets attached to Lexi unless she had other ppl after her; was planning on this guy and Fezco meeting in this chapter — Fezco does not know that this guy is the infamous ex).

You get a glimpse into Fezco and Lexi as an actual pairing, not just sex partners. Lot more domestic. curtains are OPEN. Fezco asks about her past relationship and gets the full picture. He sleeps over at her place most nights. He wants her to know that he’s serious about her, so they redo their entire first meeting. Retrace their footsteps under diff context. They go on an actual date, not just some meet up at the same diner I featured them in. She does meet Ash; some faye interaction. We r finally seeing a revealed business fezco voice!!!! lexi is like oh that's fine af actually.

Fezco does meet up with Eva to completely cut the tie. He feels that the only string between them is the fact that she sort of changed his life — I believe that it would’ve been like this reveal: how he got his job? She was the connect!!! And so he feels obligated to be there for her. From what I remember???). Lexi finds this out through Rue.

So, she inevitably doesn't know how to confront him. It doesn't matter tho bc Fezco tells her the moment that they meet!!!!!!

Anyway!

Rue is still plowing through relationship issues. Lexi meets up with Jules and basically sees the effects of heartbreak and gets some bad after taste of it. Jules reveals that it's not that she doesn't love Rue, it's that she doesn't know if they're ready or if they'll ever be ready. She's struggling with trusting the future. This sucks to Lexi. She trusts Fezco, but she also trusted rue and Jules relationship as it was the only stable relationship she had ever been exposed to. If not them, why would it would for her? (and nothing works out for her fr so it's like.)

Core thing is that Lexi is not really sure if she’s capable of trusting someone. All she knows is that she loves him and love is a fleeting, futile thing that doesn't have reason. Without reason, she goes to Fezco's apartment that same night, totally withdrawn and troubled, and he opens the door, doesn't ask question, pulls her into bed with him. This is where he tells her that he sort of really likes her, and she says that sort of really likes him. At first she's content with just that, but then he says something like 'I sort of really more than like you' and all of these thoughts sort of float and die away somewhere between that.

WE BLEED IN OCTOBER:

Halloween party is held to take place as planned by Fezco and Lexi (trying their absolute hardest to rekindle Jules/Rue) annnnddd Fezco does invite Lexi’s ex without realizing !!! It goes batshit crazy!!!!! Rue and Jules do not interact, Fezco's lead to believe that they're rlly done with each other (plot twist tho as Jules and Rue do reconcile and get caught being steamy in another room!!!!! who woulda thought !!!!!).

Lexi sees her ex, gets into a splat where this man is just DYING to get back w her all of a sudden since he seen Lexi and Fezco being full adults in love and shit. The guy does ask if Fezco is her boyfriend, and she hesitates. Fezco overhears this, basically gets this guy out and the energy between him and lexi just BOOM EXPLODE. They go into a separate room, have bit of an argument because he's confused as to why she didn't call him her boyfriend; she says she doesn't know why she hesitated.

Then, he says, "I love you, do you love me?"

She says yes but she admits to not knowing how to fully allow herself to. This literally KILLS him. Fezco says he's not a science experiment for her to prick and play with, and she either wants him or doesn't. They either work or they don't.

Lexi doesn't respond.

Fezco's distraught but calmly decides to take a break with their relationship at the end of this chapter. He isn't angry, he just really wishes they'd met with different intentions/desires.

WE FEAR IN NOVEMBER

you know how the chapter starts with the month? I was thinking of just being like "November." and then having blank space like BITCHHH LFAOOOOO I thought I was so slick for thinking of starting the chap all ominious with the twilight shit (Bellas depressed era!!!!).

ANYWAY. November.

Set the scene. They don’t talk. It’s hard to do that shit when you’re always 1 degree away from the person and planning a very very very small wedding ceremony that's due in 3 weeks. And the worst part? He doesn’t ignore her. He looks her in the eye, pretends as though they never tore away from each other. like !!!! He has literally no animosity for her and she's so riddled with guilt that she doesn't know how to soothe the fact that they aren't together without being selfish, saying she wants him when she, herself, is pretty broken in some way. but she loves him. she knows it but it's hard to accept that 'this' (her) is all she has to offer. She wishes he’d ignore her. He wishes she had more decency to not ignore him.

Wedding ceremony happens. Lexi IS best girl as Fezco IS best man, and they do walk down the aisle together. very much tension!!!! He tells her that she's beautiful!!!!!!! and she tells him that she misses him, to no response from him as the have to go on and walk in front of everyone. a bit gloomy but Fezco does stay looking at Lexi, and they do have a lil dance moment later in the night.

While everyone is cooling at the lil wedding after party, Lexi confesses to Rue that she always wanted something like that, what she has with Jules. And Rue basically hints that Lexi does even if it incarnated differently. Gives her some pep talk. If Jules didn't confront Rue, they wouldn't have gotten back together vice versa on if Rue didn't ask Jules out, they would've never been together. The chances of finding someone is slim and fleeting, that's why you grip onto the ones that root something into you. Fezco (of course) leaves the party.

Lexi does show up at his apartment later that night. He opens the door, doesn't know what to say but Lexi says that she's not all together, being broken and all. Fezco says that he is too, so they're of the same thing. A beat and then she says I love you and you love me. Fezco nods, says every little piece.

This terrifies Lexi and, in conjunction, terrifies Fezco. but what's worse to her is not being with him. And, thank the lucky stars, as he says some shit like “well I guess we gonna be scared together huh?” And she brightens up and says that she's never been so happy to be scared.

WE TASTE IN DECEMBER:

More of an epilogue. A calm after all that stupid shit.

Lexi decides to renew her apartment lease as does Fezco. They upgrade them friendship bracelets!!!!! Ash got himself a girl, on the phone with Fezco as he's getting ready for a lil party.

Reveal that mans has apartment key privileges!! He's letting himself in her apt and calling out her name !!!!

New years party that will be held at Jules's/rue's place (woop woop), Lexi is late as always but it’s ok bc daddy Fezco is there to joke about her needing to wear heels so she can stop running from him!!!!!!!!!!! They go, separate for a bit at the party where she DOES refer to him as her boyfriend, as he does refer to her as his girlfriend; then come back to the couch where they originally met. Lexi sits first, Fezco finds her this time!!! He jokes about whether she’s still in the streets and she says some cheesy shit like yeah, waiting for you (and we scream TOUCHDOWN!!!!). Fezco and Lexi basically simmer in their seats, smiling and kissing and finally fully engulfed, entwined to the soul.

P.S. Guilty pleasures would've morph into a connection between both characters; more interpersonal things rather than materialistic/celebratory items.

Here’s some of the writing that sits all glum! Hope this explanation gives plenty of closure.

#this is a very large sort of shitty detailed post on a tumultuous sex crazed fic lol #it is nice to write a little after note about Fezco and Lexi. extremely nostalgic to me. #I’m not confident that I’ll ever come back to this fic #Sooooo that’s why this is so very long!!!! tried to give some nitty gritty. #I fear I’ll never obsess this hard #yes this fic probably would’ve tipped to 150-200k of prose and conversation yes im annoying like that!! #also I could be remembering wrong/ the details may be off but that’s just bc my actual outline was skinny Minnie and I was delusional!!

[vargaslovinghours]

Coparenting a baby, now with separate bodies!

#💟 #Doodles #Art #Edgar #Todd #Scriabin #Baby Todd AU #More of this - it's the cutes I am so not immune to cutes #Now an After set! I like to imagine both but gosh what a tumultuous time to take care of a baby #It's another one of those Don't Think Too Hard About It scenarios lol it's fine #Honestly it was like 80% that first set that initially inspired me to want to draw something along these lines - #Edgar completely worn out trying so hard to be a good dad but at his wit's end and begging Scriabin to help him and he does ahhh ♥ #That tiny bit of give and take #Holding each other steady 💕 #It's a struggle but they're in it together ♥ #And then some confident and happy Dadgars because my heart ♪ Hehe ♫ #He gets a hands-free carrier and the world is back open to him! He can hold his baby and still cook food! Utter delight haha #House husband ♥ And he brings in the paycheck! He's super mom #Little baby Todd peeking up over his shoulder gets me so bad it's so flipping cute aghfslajffd #His tiny haaaaaand fdslafjklfsdfkdlsaj #Ahem anyway lol #Onto names and words and such! :D #Mouth shapes are still the funnest haha #Scriabin actively trying to teach Todd words and Edgar letting him ♪ As long as he doesn't start teaching him swears or anything lol #And little Todd mirroring and learning ah ♪ #He does retain stuff! He takes a little nap and when he wakes up and goes to play and Scriabin's out then comes back - this ✨ #Scriabin's name is very important to him but also it's cute but encouraging it mmmmmmmm #He'll learn with time ♪ Unless he chooses to call them dad to some degree being a very young child in their care hehe #So many little things they can do separately together ♥

[beachyserasims]

♡ Episode 11 | Recoupling #3 | GENEVA ISLAND

♡ Autumn was in a flirty mood all day and had a little flirt with every guy except for Justin. She and Sean flirted the most as they are still an item. She tries really hard to move forward with him, but his tense mood gets in the way most of the time.

♡ Judi spent the day relaxing and chatting with the other Islanders as she enjoys the atmosphere of being around other party people. Her and Rowan consistently flirt.

♡ Jasmine woke up feeling conflicted again about the love triangle she is in. She immediately asked Justin about marriage, which he was not receptive too. This caused her to look more towards Blakes, who seemed to be in a better mood, and they were able to talk things through a bit more smoothly. He even accepted flirting from her and they had a cute little slow dance cuddle in front of everyone. In the end, she was more confused than ever, and pissed about it. Later, in the evening, she came clean to Blakes about her kiss with Justin, causing a major rift between them, worse than before. At the re-coupling, she chose Justin as she doesn’t feel that the damage that has been done with Blakes is solvable, and because the compatibility between Justin and herself is stronger than it ever was with Blakes.

♡ Rowan woke up very flirty and even flirted with Autumn for a quick second. During the evening, he flirted with Judi.

♡ Sean has been tense everyday since Sophie left the villa. He is not sure if the outcome will be worth the efforts of being on the show. He can’t seem to overcome his fear of failure and is always in a bad mood, even with Autumn trying her hardest. He flirted with Autumn and a bit with Judi throughout the evening.

♡ Blakes woke up flirty and was determined to try and fix things between Jasmine and him. The morning was successful as they talked about moving forward and even enjoyed each other’s company the way they did before all the drama started. In the evening, however, when Jasmine came clean to him about the kiss she shared with Justin, he became upset and couldn’t stand to be around either of them. Unfortunately, at the re-coupling Jasmine chose Justin over him, and she tried to amicably break up with him right afterwards. He refused to be amicable and left the villa furious at both Justin and Jasmine.

♡ Justin woke up and enjoyed the company of all the Islanders. He cooked lunch and everyone helped him. He was consistently around Jasmine, giving her space but also letting  her know that he was there for her whenever she was ready to talk. Before the recoupling, he chatted with Blakes and Jasmine about the situation and let them know that whatever happens next, he was grateful for the experience with both of them. At the re-coupling, Jasmine chose him.

The Start || Episode #1 || Previous || Next

#well blakes sure did make for some good tv lol #as i said before he was involved in 2 love triangles (kind of) #and he was definitely in the most tumultuous so far #sad to see his fine ass go lol #and he was also in the first GF BF relationship #Geneva Island #sims 4 story #ts4 story #sims4 storytelling #Geneva recap #ts4 gameplay #ts4 screenshots #ts4 story time #ts4 screenies #ts4 screencaps #ts4 challenge #simblr

[troublewithvampires]

//me: yeah idk maybe i'd be willing to write teen salvatore with some people on occasion.

me suddenly struck with the idea of how fun it'd be to write this little asshole: ok well,

#❝ ain't no jesus here‚ billy boy ❞ 「 ooc 」 #//i especially think it'd be kinda fun to write sal before he starts using the name salvatore #//but i imagine that might get confusing lol #//i love writing characters with tumultuous identities and senses of self #//but alas.... #//but yeah in the time when he goes by the name seamus #//he's really fucky to me #//doesn't understand himself but he's angry and stabby

[orcelito]

Having lost my cat, my uncle, my great grandmother, my grandma's best friend (& one of the people who helped raise me), AND my dad all within the span of 9 months,

I have little sympathy for people who use deaths as an excuse to be an asshole. I get it, it sucks. Get the fuck over it. Your grief is not an excuse to treat others like shit. What the fuck.

#speculation nation #this isnt anything personal. im just reacting to a post that kind of pissed me off. #to be fair i was never close with my great grandmother so im not particularly broken up about that one #but it's still yet another death in the family within such a short period of time. #my cat is on this list bc he was the first one and it majorly fucked me up. so yeah it deserves to be here. #the others. well. my grandma's best friend makes me sad but at least she was getting up in years #my uncle and dad though. especially my dad. yea those have fucked me up the most. #im never gonna be the same after experiencing all of this in such short succession. #it sucks in a major way. and things are still continuously tumultuous. #but you dont see me lording it over people and using it as an excuse to be an asshole. #maybe i make people uncomfortable with how casually i mention it. but like whatever. it's simply my truth. #that's still just like. me just talking about what ive been up to. that kind of thing. #idk acting like someone needs to be treated with the most tender of touches after experiencing a major death #to the point where you cant even tell them when theyre being a manipulative little asshole? #i dont fucking think so! #yeah okay all grief hits different but ive pulled myself up by the bootstraps and kept my head on straight #even after i experienced death after death after death after death after Fucking Death #whats your excuse? youre Sad? we all fucking are. thats just life. #it's horrible and awful and it sucks that we have to live with this but you CANT let that affect how you treat other people!!!!! #and here i am making my own post venting about it instead of replying to the aita post that sparked this #bc the person the post was about just made me so angry to hear about. #but i am... a reasonable adult who separates themselves from situations before reacting in anger... #and so im making a tumblr post to get the emotions out instead of getting emotional at random strangers lol #anyways i actually had a pretty good day today. but in the way of grief. the smallest things can trigger moods sometimes. #but i am letting the emotions flow... here they are... i have expressed them... and i shall now release them... amen... #negative/ #i guess lol. i sure did rant enough for it.

[pixiefms]

kitty number two is home

#can’t even begin to explain the tumultuous journey this is turning out to be lol #pixietxt

[wewontbesleeping]

it’s so fucking annoying that when you’re having a bad day there’s no fast forward button. like am I genuinely just supposed to sit here for 6 more hours until I can go to bed? just rotting on my phone bc I can’t muster up energy for anything else? fr?

#not that tomorrow will be much better #but like wtf #I have bad eye strain already lol #what do you DO when you’re having an emotionally tumultuous day? #like what. am I supposed to just cry for hours? #there needs to be a chamber I can go into #just to let shit keep moving

[snowflop]

I want to be a hater about the cyl results so I'm making my own post so i can bitch in the tags about it. The tags will get long so the tldr is BOOOO everybody but Alfonse.

#man. MAN!!! after all the hexes and curses I tried to set upon her Bern sure did win huh. #like on the one hand i'm impressed on the other i hate her!! i hate her i hate her and I'm tired of pretending I don't!! #when i was playing 3h i could appreciate her good moments in between being insufferable and i liked her alright. she was fine #but like. we're 5 years out from 3h at this point and i'm just fucking sick of her. i don't understand her lasting popularity. i'm tired #Felix... should have been Sylvain. #i like him fine. he grew on me. but he certainly is not one of my enduring favourites from 3h. he fades into obscurity for me. #that said i don't hate him. i'm happy for his fans. you guys worked hard (clearly) deserved i just #i love 3h!! i do! but like. the accident was 5 years ago it's time to let her go. #and out of all the guys in 3h! if it had to be one of them! him? fr? whatever. #i've just never cared for f!robin. i feel nothing looking at her. less then nothing. #so i guess her winning isn't. bad per say. i guess it's a non issue. #that brings us back to MY MAN!!! ALFONSE!! lets goooooooooo #i'm so happy for him. always really liked Alfonse he's so <3<3 #i know i don't post about him that much but #it's just that me and feh itself have a tumultuous relationship so i don't see him as much as i'd like >_> #he's the one i'm going to pick and i'm not going to bother rolling for the others #also the fact we have to wait til the 31st for the full results is agonizing #i wanna know if Rein survived. he didn't make ton 20 but i have to know how bad it is #if it's horrible the reason is obvious. he got an alt the week before cyl #can't imagine that'll put him at the top of anybodies list for needing at alt (except mine lol) #but still. at this point i'm just hoping for top 50 orz #snow blogging

[meavitamin-notes]

my desired art style is if jc leyendecker worked with inks, was goth, and worked on bloodborne and elden ring why the heckies am i drawing everything BUT that

#text post #with some mechs on the side #as u can see i’m in a tumultuous time rn with my art style LOL #apologies it seems my tumblr has become a diary of sorts since i can scream into the void #oh and add in some cool chiaroscuro too that rendering style is so cool to me

[selkiecoded]

a sumi haircut variation ive been testing out. i wanna say its a bit post-canon, not too far off, maybe a year or so. hasnt quite figured out what to do with herself yet, but shes getting there. only a little ways away from graduation.

#the clock chimes at midnight #selk.art #okay because im going stir crazy in my beautiful mind here. i forgot where everyone in the royal ending went so ive just kinda been doing a #post canon au based entirely arnd sumire and the only person whos really gone is ren. the others are in school and stuff still lol #ANYWAYS she and ren start dating a few weeks before 2/3 and after they restore the world its a very tumultuous start considering ren #immediately gets sent to jail. even after he gets out theyre both grieving akechi + it feels like theyre just going through the motions. #everyones like omg we could tell this was gonna happen! and it makes them uncomfortable for reasons they cant articulate #ren is using sumire to get over akechi + sumire is modeling rens identity + both see akechi in the other and are sad abt it #on top of all that they get into a huge fight when sumire learns rens leaving in like. a month. and she didnt know. #(he genuinely didnt realize she didnt know but gets bitchy in return) #they try to make it work long distance for a month/two but eventually mutually breakup (both a little bitter but agree to remain friends) #overall its a cute relationship with um . very odd undertones. #anyways she still wears her hair straight up or straight down during all that point. HAHAHA remember this is abt hair! #after ren leaves she latches onto ann + ryuji who are still going to school w her. and after the breakup simply bc #ryuji is a Boy and sumire is a Girl and They Enjoy Being Around Each Other they both reflexively think abt getting together #sumire starts to imitate him (bc for some weird reason she keeps wanting to be like boys!) and ryuji is like am i breaking bro code rn.. #nothing ever happens bc neither actually wants to date the other and ann is always hanging around but its an odd time for everyone #she bleaches the tips of her hair for a little bit but its so small when she gets it chopped off its like nothing happened lol #this is probably around third year when ann/ryuji have graduated and the only thief around is futaba. #and. please nobody kill me for this. i think the two have interesting thematic similarities but the ship between them has always felt like #pairing the same-age spares to me. and i havent read anything thats convinced me of its full potential yet. #that to say i think theyre friendly but not super close. so sumire has to learn to just. exist by herself for the first time in years. #like i said this is probably when this actual haircut starts getting used. shes figuring it out! #after she graduates shes the first one to find akechi again and theyre both doing a lot better and become very close. #they move in together! platonically! unless...? but thats not the point! akechi helps her realize shes transmasc at which point she gets a #real short haircut. i cant decide. theres one thats like a curly haired bob almost and one thats shorter + looks kinda windswept #and thats all the haircut hcs i have for her postcanon timeline! spreads hands jazz hands. not all the timeline hcs but my thumbs r tired.

[pinejay]

nothing makes me feel more like absolute shit than waking up from 10+ hrs of extremely deep sleep vivid immersive dream and realizing i was just dreaming abt going back to rhythmic gymnastics training again. fuck my entire life. and ass

#opening my notes app and adding another tally to rg under my dream tallies ugh #i woke up at 11:40 am lol #and immediately had to fix something at work #so i'm only reflecting on this now #can't even describe the tumultuous mixed emotions from this kinda thing but it's not good

[ibyul]

Thinking abt my teenage years .

#and the tumultuous feelings #I came across some drama scene lol and got reminded of boys. like. as a genre #like teenage boys. they r. insane #abt how ppl do things that are unnecessary as if they are oblivious but i rlly wonder is everyone really oblivious #also maybe im just really easy to win over like do i stand a chance against the fitnah of this world man #i rmemeber this kid. A whole grade below me. the new board member for my friend's club. I was helping her w/ club stuff on the computer #(he was also tall and kind. that. was the problem. not to be a sterotypical Girl. but) #and this kid casually just. leaned over me and put his hand on the mouse (on which my hand alr was) #like. how do u do that. casually. unintentionally. #obv i pulled my hand away and avoided him since lmao cuz. who wants to catch feelings for a whole 10th grader when ur in 11th grade right #ig thats why it was a shock to me. i thought boy-crazy mali would just like whoever it is she talked to first. and yet here i am #having talked to at least 3 million guys on 3 million blind dates and yet found none of them attractice #attractive* #is there smth wrong with me lol. maybe i just like the idea of guys. and not guys that i actually might end up with lol #lskdfjalkfd #anyway ig was living my best life these past few months being too focused on not feeling well to think abt boys as a genre #cuz yeah what a waste of my morning today thinking abt all this garbage #💀💀💀 oversharing again oof its been a while since i felt the need to do that man #i swear shaitan waits for Friday to whisper stupid stuff into my brain #like. let me live i just wanna read surah kahf and teach my classes ugh #delete later #uhm also like. ik its a 10 year old story but i hope to god my friend isn't following me aldkjfaskdjfaf #can u blame me tho. i was. like 15 or 16 #it was much easier in middle school there was only like 15 boys in my grade and i disliked them all

[daandori]

got an offer for a masters program i applied to:’)

#the talkies #wish i could be happy but im only anxious #its in glasgow though #just want to see if i hear from the other one #its a september start tho lol so gonna be a tumultuous month

[sysig]

Well

I think I’ll take that as a sign to order a new charger

#Remember how last year I was like ''Hey I don't think I can do any more Requestobers for a while my charger stopped working'' #I decided not to order a new charger then because I ''got it working'' long enough that my laptop didn't shut down #Yeah it did this time lol #It's back up! But it's officially-officially reaching the end of its life #In the middle of a video call too lol yeah it's time #Ughhhh I hate ordering shit online (Tamagotchis being the exception lol) #Hopefully that'll be that and it won't do that again.... Still best not to play with fire #Like I have for the past year lol #Look last October was tumultuous! I was very busy! #(Isn't that all the more reason to order one so it's one less issue?) #Lol